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Unfortunately this story in wrapping up, only a few more chapters to go. The last 2 chapter swill be the alternate ends, the first will be SamDean like normal but the last will be the alternate SamCasDean ending.

Chapter 20

Sam gently lowered Dean to the bed, running his fingers through the blonde hair. Dean was still unconscious but at least Sam could feel things from him again. Dean had stopped shaking but his stillness was possibly scarier.

"I need you Dean, please don't leave me." Sam pleaded and then looked up to see Adam in the doorway. He nodded and Adam moved closer, looking down at Dean.

"He'll be okay, won't he?"

"I don't know Adam; I don't know what she did to him." Sam admitted.

"He won't leave you, he loves you." Adam stated and Sam looked up at him, smiling at him softly.

"He loves you too Adam." Sam argued and Adam shrugged.

"But not like he loves you. If I died he'd get over it, if anything happened to you…..I'm just his brother, you're his everything." Adam answered and Sam nodded.
"And that's the way it should be. Cause no way is this turning into a family threesome." Adam added and Sam laughed.

"I agree Adam; you're our brother, nothing more." Sam promised.

"Is….is it over?"

"I think so; Ruby and her followers are dead."

"That means you'll be leaving soon." Adam stated sadly.

"You'll be okay, we'll visit a lot. We can figure out a way to get you back into college if you want, find you a place to live." Sam offered.

"I….I don't know what I want to do anymore." Adam admitted and Sam patted his arm.

"You have your whole life to decide Adam, no rush." Sam promised and then looked down as Dean moaned, his eyelids moving slightly.
"Adam go downstairs for a bit okay? I'm not sure…." Sam trailed off but Adam had seen enough to know why he wanted Adam safely away from Dean. Sam frowned as Dean started to thrash as if fighting to wake up or escape something.
"Dean its okay, you're safe. I'm here." Sam whispered, hoping that Dean could hear him now. Fear filled violet slowly opened and Sam held his breath, praying Dean would see and recognise him.
"Dean?" Sam begged and Dean whimpered, reaching out to him. Sam pulled Dean into his arms, rocking him gently.
"Shh, it's over, you're safe now. She can never hurt you again. I love you so much Dean, so sorry I couldn't stop it." Sam babbled and Dean just clung to him, hiding his face in Sam's shirt. Sam closed his eyes as he felt hot tears soak through the material.
"It's okay Dean, I love you. Say something please." Sam begged but Dean just held on, silently crying.
"Okay, okay….just take your time. It's over Dean, we won. Ruby and her group are dead. Who'd have thought it'd be Adam to kill them? He's okay, so are Bobby and Cas. We just all want you to be alright." Sam assured him. He held Dean as he cried; knowing that he couldn't even begin to understand what Dean had been through. It was obvious he remembered it and was not dealing well with it, then again how could he? It was rape, Dean may have appeared willing but he'd been controlled by that bitch, he hadn't really wanted it. Dean hadn't even had to suffer that in hell before Sam had found him. Sam looked up to find Castiel hovering in the doorway, staring at them, unsure.
"Look Dean, Cas is here." Sam whispered but Dean didn't look up, just clinging to Sam, but he did release one hand, hesitantly reaching behind and Sam nodded at Cas who walked over and gently grasped Dean's hand.

"I am glad you are awake Dean. We have all been worried about you." Castiel stated softly, sitting on the edge of the bed. Dean didn't respond verbally but his hand flexed in Castiel's.

Bobby handed Sam a mug of coffee and Sam gave him a grateful look.

"Asleep again?"

"Yeah. I don't know what else to do Bobby. I know he can hear us, that he isn't under that spell or whatever anymore but…"

"He went through something very traumatic Sam, maybe he just needs time."

"Three weeks Bobby, he doesn't move, doesn't talk…he just stares or cries. I'm losing him." Sam choked and Bobby hugged him.

"Dean won't leave you; he'll come back to you." Bobby whispered, needing to believe it. But Dean had been through so much…..was this the straw that broke the camel's back?

"I think…..maybe I should take him back…maybe back in our rooms he'll feel safe again." Sam admitted and Bobby fought down a wince. He didn't want them to leave, despite everything they were still his boys. Not by blood but by choice and love.

"Give him a bit longer." Bobby said and Sam nodded.

"Another week. You're fine with Adam staying right?"

"Yeah, we've been talking. Kid doesn't want to take up hunting or anything but I could use some help manning the phones and books, he wants to help." Bobby explained and Sam nodded, smiling slightly.

"Thanks Bobby."

Sam had already transported their bags to their rooms, all that was left was to say goodbye for now. He cradled Dean to his chest, Dean unresponsive in his arms even as Sam carried him downstairs. Bobby, Adam and Castiel were waiting to say goodbye, hoping Dean would finally react so the brothers would stay topside a while longer. Sam lay Dean on couch and then hugged Adam tightly, kissing the top of his head, making the younger male roll his eyes but his return hug was just as tight. Adam moved over to Dean while Sam moved on to Bobby, hugging the hunter. Adam knelt beside Dean and reached out to take his hand.

"Sam needs you big brother, we all do. What happened wasn't your fault, we all miss you. Sam's taking you home now. You have to get better so you can come visit, okay? I'm staying here with Bobby to help him with research and the phones." Adam whispered to Dean but his brother just stared right through him.
"I miss you Dean."

Sam hugged Cas and the angel slowly hugged him back. Who would have thought an angel and a demon would one day hug each other, sad to be parting?

"If you ever need anything, call and I'll come." Sam promised and Castiel nodded.

"I know. If you need me you will call me." The angel stated and Sam smiled as he nodded.

"I'm glad we met Cas, take care of yourself and try to stay out of too much trouble." Sam warned before going back to lift Dean again. Castiel briefly placed a hand to Dean's forehead, sending him a silent farewell and then the brothers were gone.

Sam froze as Dean's hand moved in his for the first time in months. He watched, hoping Dean was finally coming out of his self imposed catatonia.

"Dean? I'm here, its okay. Please come back." Sam pleaded desperately. It was almost amusing, the way all of hell had sent their wishes for Dean's recovery; they wanted him there to soften Sam's temper. Sam kissed Dean's lips and for the first time since just before their confrontation with Ruby Dean responded. Sam bit back a sob as his hands moved to frame Dean's face and he smiled when he pulled back to find green eyes focused on him.
"Hey, welcome back." Sam whispered, waiting for a response.

The first thing Dean felt were Sam's lips on his, kissing him softly even as he heard Sam trying not to cry. He didn't have to open his eyes to know where they were, he could feel the familiar power of their rooms in Hell. But how had they gotten there and why? He slowly opened his eyes as Sam's hands framed his face and then hopeful hazel met his gaze and Sam was welcoming him back. Dean stayed quiet and Sam's eyes began to fill with fear, something that should never happen.

"Sam." He croaked out, his throat dry and sore and then Sam was pulling him into a hug. Dean wrapped his arms around Sam in return, feeling his brother's tears on his neck. He felt sluggish and confused, what was going on?

"Thought I'd lost you. It's been six months down here Dean." Sam whispered.

"I….I don't." Dean coughed and Sam gave him a glass of water.
"Sam? What happened?" Dean asked and then watched Sam go white.
"Sam! The others are they okay?" Dean demanded and Sam took a deep breath.

"They're fine. Adam's still living with Bobby and Cas went home but still pops in on them every few days." Sam hurried to assure him and Dean relaxed, trying to figure out what he was missing. Dean frowned and then he remembered, going after Ruby, Bobby screaming….Dean shuddered in horror as he remembered what the bitch had down to him. He'd crawled to her and Ruby like a dog! And then he remembered the worst part yet and was flooded with self loathing, how could Sam stand to be near him? Looking back on it he could see Sam in his memories, see the way Sam had just collapses with vacant eyes as Dean betrayed him. He'd nearly killed Sammy!

"How…..how can you touch me. You must hate me." Dean muttered and then Sam's arms were locked around him and Sam was kissing his face before claiming his lips almost desperately.

"It wasn't your fault Dean. I was so scared for you and yeas, it hurt but I knew you didn't want what was happening. When she…..I couldn't watch her do that to you, I knew how much it had to be hurting you inside. I love you Dean, so much. What she did, I waned to rip her apart but I couldn't do anything. I've never felt so helpless, even when we were human." Sam admitted and Dean frowned.

"You were talking to me, telling me it wasn't my fault but I didn't hear you. It's weird, I can remember you being there now but it's like there was a sheet of glass between us, even now you're voice then sounds distorted." Dean admitted.

"But you can hear me now." Sam whispered and Dean nodded, leaning into his touch.

"Hear and see. I remember feeling like she was my whole world but I know it wasn't real. This is real." Dean promised and Sam relaxed.
"What freed me?"

"Adam shot her and then Ruby with the Colt. You just, you screamed and collapsed, you were shaking so badly. Adam got me free of the altar and I held you and the bond just snapped back. I could feel how scared you were and how bad you felt. You were out for several hours then."

"Bobby's, I remember being at Bobby's?" He asked and Sam nodded.

"Yeah you woke up but you wouldn't speak, just clung to me and cried. You reacted to Cas though when he came in. But after that…you would wake up but you wouldn't react to anything, you just stared blankly, sometimes you cried. We tried for a month but nothing so I brought you here. The demons were even sending their best wishes." Sam told him and then laughed at the look on Dean's face.
"Apparently my temper's been a bit….nasty with you out of it. Bet you never thought a demon would want you well. It's been five months down here Dean. I've been keeping the others updated through Alice. Now that you're awake we should go see them, let them know you're okay."

"Tomorrow? Not yet, I….."

"It's okay Dean, I understand. Come on, bet you're starving." Sam said to lighten the mood and Dean nodded.

Dean smiled as Adam practically flew into his arms, hugging his littlest brother tightly.

"It's okay Adam, I'm okay." He promised as he felt Adam shake with sobs.

"I was so scared." Adam admitted and Dean smiled at him.

"You saved me kiddo; you killed her and freed me. I am so proud of you, you must have been terrified but you still did it." Dean praised and Adam smiled at him before stepping back, letting Bobby in.

"I'm glad you're back Dean. Sam was a real pain in the ass without you." Bobby teased and Sam rolled his eyes. Castiel stepped forward and Dean grinned when the angel hugged him awkwardly.

"I am glad you have recovered, I did not like seeing you like that." Castiel admitted softly and Dean smiled at him.

"Thank you. You're not in trouble are you?"

"Surprisingly it appears not. With Ruby's demise it seems all has been forgiven." Castiel admitted and Dean smiled.

"Good, I didn't like you being in trouble for us." Dean told him and Castiel smiled at him.
"So Bobby, got any of you're famous chilli or steaks?"

TBC…