19: Reflections
Everything is going well again! The drama from last week has dispersed. We may have lost Regional's, but we still get to have another year of glee club. We're all ecstatic about it. The mood all week has just been amazing. We've all been celebrating, even though we lost! There's no real need to have glee for the last few weeks of before summer since there's no more competitions for us, so we still hang out but we don't have practise in the choir room, which is kinda sad. But we'll be back next year!
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I walked over to Santana at the lockers.
"Hey lover boy" she said.
"Hey Santana" I said.
"So what's up? You look all serious. Did Berry steal you're pot of gold?" She smirked.
"Um… Santana, I need to tell you something… Lately I've been having these feelings; feelings for you. Feelings I've never had for a girl before… I think I love you" I said.
"What?" She said quickly as her mouth fell into an O shape.
I burst out laughing.
"Sorry I couldn't even finish that! No of course I don't love you that way!" I said while laughing.
"You're a dick!" She spat back as she playfully smacked me.
"Ah it was just a joke. You know Sam's my one and only… But I did wanna say something actually… I do love you, as a friend." I said softly.
A small smile appeared on her face.
"You know, I never thought that we would become friends. I thought you were the school bitch, the HBIC… Don't get me wrong, you are… But you're more than that. You're a genuinely decent person and I'm glad I can call you my friend… and 'girlfriend'" I said, winking.
"I dunno what to say… Thanks Ryan. Thank you too, for being here for me, for offering me a shoulder to cry on about Brittany when you didn't even know me properly. I love you too, as a friend… But make no mistake, you tell anyone I said that and I'll make you pay" she said seriously.
"Of course" I said laughing as I gave her a hug.
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I was sitting in the middle of the auditorium when I heard the doors open. I looked up to see Puck and Sam walking in. A second later I saw Blaine and Sugar following them.
"I see you got my text" I said, smiling. "Come sit down".
"Hey" Sam beamed as he gave me a kiss and sat down next to me.
"So what's up BMA? Is everything ok?" Sugar said, looking worried.
"No this is good, Ryan is smiling, you can always tell when something bad is happening cause Ryan has this look" Blaine said.
"True that" Puck said.
"I have a look? I didn't know that… anyways! No it's nothing bad. But since we have no glee for a while I thought we could just maybe sing a little here? The five of us, singing anything we want; solos we got, or didn't get." I said.
"Sounds like a plan, I'll start" Puck said. "This song is the reason I'm standing here today. Cause if Ryan hadn't heard me singing this, I wouldn't have joined glee and been accepted by you guys".
Sweet Caroline:
Where it began, I can't begin to knowing Hands, touching hands Sweet Caroline Look at the night and it don't seem so lonely One, touching one Sweet Caroline
But then I know it's growing strong
Was in the spring
Then spring became the summer
Who'd have believed you'd come along
Reaching out, touching me, touching you
Good times never seemed so good
I'd be inclined
To believe they never would
Oh no, no
We filled it up with only two
And when I hurt
Hurting runs off my shoulder
How can I hurt when I'm holding you
Reaching out, touching me, touching you
Good times never seemed so good
I'd be inclined
To believe they never would
Oh no, no
"Wow dude that was great! I'll go next!" Sam said. "Well I was gonna sing this as my audition song for glee before we did the group number instead. Now you know who I would have been singing it about".
I'm Yours:
Well, you dawned on me and you bet I felt it I won't hesitate no more, no more Well, open up your mind and see like me So I won't hesitate, no more, no more (Doo da doo doo doo doo do 'n' dooo, da doo . . .) I been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror I won't hesitate no more, no more
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Open up your plans and, damn, you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love, love, love
Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me
All a peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be love, love, love, loved, love, loved
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate
I'm yours
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
So I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a-saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
It cannot wait, I'm sure
We all start to join in. There's no need to complicate
(Well, open up your mind and see like me)
Our time is short
(Open up your plans and damn you're free)
It cannot wait
(Look into your heart and you'll find love)
I'm yours
(Love, love, love)
And no, I won't hesitate
(Listen to the music of the moment, come and dance with me)
No more, no more
(All our one big family)
It cannot wait
(It's your God-forsaken right to be love)
I'm sure
(Love, love, loved)
No need to complicate
(Open up your mind and see like me)
Our time is short
(Open up your plans, and damn, you're free)
This is our fate
(Look into your heart and you'll find love)
I'm yours
(Love, love, love)
No, please don't complicate
(Listen to the music of the moment, come and dance with me)
Our time is short
(All our happy family)
This is our fate
(It's our God-forsaken right to be love)
I'm yours
(Love, love, loved)
No, please don't hesitate
(Listen to the music of the moment, come and dance with me)
No more, no more
(All our peaceful melodies)
It cannot wait
(It's your God-forsaken right to be love)
The sky is yours
(Love, love, loved)
Sam gave me a hug as he sat down. "Guess who it's about." He said smiling.
"Totally about Blaine" I said, winking.
"Well in that case, I'd better go next" Blaine said. "I'm gonna go for one of the songs I've wanted to do this year. I was thinking about it for my audition song actually".
It's Not Unusual:
It's not unusual to be loved by anyone It's not unusual to go out at any time You'll find it happens all the time It's not unusual to be mad with anyone
It's not unusual to have fun with anyone
But when I see you hanging about with anyone
It's not unusual to see me cry; I wanna die
But when I see you out and about, it's such a crime
If you should ever want to be loved by anyone
It's not unusual it happens every day, no matter what you say
Love will never do what you want it to
Why can't this crazy love be mine?
It's not unusual to be sad with anyone
But if I ever find that you've changed at anytime
It's not unusual to find out I'm in love with you
"That was so cool, my turn!" Sugar shouted excitedly. "So I wanna sing a really cool song from the UK that Ryan got me into! It's about you guys, since I know I can always turn to you when I need help."
I Turn to You:
When the world is darker than I can understand I turn to you When my insides are wracked with anxiety I turn to you I turn to you Where would I be? What would I do? I turn to you I turn to you I turn to you I turn to you
When nothing turned out the way I planned
When the sky turns grey and theres no end in sight
When I cant sleep through the lonely night
Like a flower leaning towards the sun
I turn to you
cause youre the only one
Who can turn me around
When Im upside down
I turn to you
You have the touch that will quiet me
You lift my spirit. You melt the ice
When I need inspiration, when I need advice
Like a flower leaning towards the sun
I turn to you
cause youre the only one
Who can turn me around
When Im upside down
I turn to you
Like a flower leaning towards the sun
I turn to you
cause youre the only one
Who can turn me around
When Im upside down
I turn to you
If youd never helped me through
I hope someday if youve lost your way
You turn to me like I turn to you
Like a flower leaning towards the sun
I turn to you
cause youre the only one
Who can turn me around
When Im upside down
I turn to you
When fear tells me to turn around
Who can turn me around
I turn to you
I turn to you
When fear tells me to turn around
Who can turn me around
I turn to you
I turn to you
Like a flower leaning towards the sun
I turn to you
cause youre the only one
Who can turn me around
When Im upside down
I turn to you
"Awh I'm glad you can turn to us, love you BMA." I said. "I'm gonna sing the song I was originally gonna audition for glee yet. It's a great song so why not let it get its moment to shine, seeing as I choked the first time".
Set Fire to the Rain:
I let it fall, my heart My hands, they're strong But there's a side to you But I set fire to the rain When I lay with you 'Cause there's a side to you But I set fire to the rain I set fire to the rain Sometimes I wake up by the door I set fire to the rain I set fire to the rain Oh no
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet
That I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true
And the games you play
You would always win, always win
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing is better
That I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true
And the games you play
You would always win, always win
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
And I threw us into the flames
Where it felt something die
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
And I threw us into the flames
Where it felt something die
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, oh, oh
Let it burn
Oh oh oh
Let it burn
Oh oh oh
Let it burn
Oh oh oh
Everyone clapped as I sat back down.
"So… It's been quite a year" I said. "School was never this exciting back home".
"Cause we weren't there" Sugar and Puck said in unison.
"Well that's true" I said, smiling.
"Honestly… I'm so glad I met all you guys. I've never felt so at home, felt like I had a family outside of my own. It's an amazing feeling." I said.
"I've never felt so included and loved" Sugar said.
"I had friends back at Dalton but we were never as close as we've become in such a short space of time. You guys are my second family".
"Seconded" Puck said.
"Third-ed" Sam said.
"I can't believe you're my boyfriend. What did I do to deserve you?" I said as I smiled at Sam.
"I could say the same back to you… But I won't… Cause I know its faith" Sam said. "Faith brought us together; all of us together. These friendships… This second family… Glee… It was meant to be. God knew what he was doing when he made us" Sam said.
"Written in the Stars" Blaine said.
"That's deep" Sugar said.
"Isn't that a song from the UK? You showed it to me didn't you?" Puck asked me.
"Yeah it is actually… And I think now would be the perfect time to sing it" I said.
Written In the Stars:
Ryan:
Oh written in the stars
A million miles away
A message to the mane
No
Ryan/Blaine: Puck:
Seasons come and go
But I will never change
And I'm on my way
Let's go
Yeah
You're listening now
They say they ain't heard nothing like this in a while
That's why they play my song on so many different dials
'Cause I got more fuckin' hits than a disciplined child
When they see me everybody brrap's, brraps
Man I'm like a young gun fully black Barrack
I cried tear drops over the massive attack
I only make hits like I work with a racket and bat
Sugar:
Look at my jacket and hat
So damn berserk
So down to earth
I'm bringing gravity back
Adopted by the major I want my family back
People work hard just to get all their salary taxed
Look I'm just a writer from the ghetto like Malory Blackman
Where the hells all the sanity at, damn
I used to be the kid that no one cared about
That's why you have to keep screaming 'til they hear you out
Ryan/Sam:
Oh written in the stars
A million miles away
A message to the mane
No
Seasons come and go
But I will never change
And I'm on my way
Sugar:
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Puck:
Yeah, I needed a change
When we ate we never took cause we needed a change
I needed a break
For a sec' I even gave up believing and praying
I even done illegal stuff and was leaded astray
They say the money is the root to the evilest ways
But have you ever been so hungry that it keeps you awake
Mate, now my hunger would leave them amazed
Blaine:
Great, it feels like a long time coming, fam' Ryan/Sam:
Since the day I thought of that cunning plan
One day I had a dream I tried to chase it
But I wasn't going nowhere, running man!
I knew that maybe someday I would understand
Trying to change a tenner to a hundred grand
Everyone's a kid that no-one cares about
You just have to keep screaming 'til they hear you out
Oh written in the stars
A million miles away
A message to the mane
No
Seasons come and go
But I will never change
And I'm on my way
Sugar: All:
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh written in the stars
A million miles away
A message to the mane
No
Seasons come and go
But I will never change
And I'm on my way
"It's been a great year… I know there's been ups and downs but fuck it. It's been fun. But let's forget the past now… On to the future; the summer… Camping anyone?" Puck said.
"What about my hair? It'll get ruined in the wilderness? And I don't want a Sasquatch to get us?" Sugar said, looking scared.
"There's no such thing as a Sasquatch Sugar" I said, laughing.
"It's camping, it's about getting in touch with nature and forgetting about your hair and showers and stuff" Sam said.
"And remember that if Puck is organising this, there's gonna be some special drinks involved… That'll make you forget quick" Blaine said.
"True" Ok, I'm in!" She said excitedly.
We spent the next hour planning out the summer before going home.
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So we've basically planned out our entire summer and wow, its jam packed. I can't wait! There's so much to do!
We're doing the camping trip in the woods.
Puck has made it our mission to get into a movie without paying.
Sam is visiting some family in Tennessee and I might be going too!
I'm visiting some distant family in Boston and the guys might be able to go too!
We're gonna practise loads for glee. I want to get more solos next year.
Santana and Brittany will probably hang out with us a lot too and the rest of the glee guys.
There'll be a few birthdays to celebrate, including mine!
Sugar and I wanna try and meet Lady GaGa when she comes here on tour.
I wanna take Sam out for lots of dates.
Aside from that, we're just gonna all see each other as much as we can. This summer is gonna be great.
After that, glee club is back and the craziness will begin again!
I can't wait.
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A/N: So that's it! We're done… Season 1 anyway! I'll be back for season 2! I'm trying to decide whether or not to make a new continuation story for season2/3, etc so there would be less chapters in each story. or to just continue on with season 2 in the next chapters. Which would be easier?
Anyways, I think I'm gonna take a little break while I'm trying to sort some things for season 2. I have the main storylines and ideas, but I have to break them up into chapters soon.
I'll be back soon! Whatever way I choose to format season 2, I'll keep people posted on here!
Also, I've gotten a few reviews, so thanks! To the people who have reviewed, let me know anything else you like in the story, couples, storylines, etc.