I smiled at her, and you and Noah are my world. I cannot wait to get us home. 'Bec I think we are going to be here for some time, he needs to get big and strong and we need to get used to being married and parents, I mean we have a son.'

'I know it still amazes me to know we have a little boy. I mean look at all his red hair. Such a cutie'

Me and chloe spent the next 2 hours replying to what seemed like a million messages and phone calls. As well as giving Noah our full attention. I found myself at times just watching his little tummy move up and down.

'Penny for your thoughts'

'oh nothing just love watching his tummy move up and down. Thank You, for letting me share this with you Chloe.'

'I leaned over 'Bec I would want to do this with anybody else'

I smiled at her and she rested her head on mine and we shared a kiss, it was so special.'

Wow what a whirlwind this was. Noah had been progressing really well and we had been told he could leave the hospital but still couldn't fly. They had told us he could go home but had to go for weekly check-ups, which was amazing however it was scary as anything.

I mean he was the most amazing little person ever he had grown so much, he had bright blue eyes, these little dimples and was now at a really healthy weight. My favourite thing over the past few months had to be watching how amazing Chloe has fallen into motherhood, she was so patient with him when he didn't want to feed, when he was screaming she just was never phased and watching her bathe him melted my heart. Today we get take him to our Cornwall home, as we are married it is no longer my place. I couldn't contain my excitement when I walked in with the empty car seat. Chloe was holding him looking out of the window, 'Hey Noah when Mummy B gets here you are going to get to see what the outside is like, it will blow your tiny mind, your bedroom is beautiful, but I think we can get mummy b to allow you to sleep with us for a little while, what do you think?'

I walked up towards her 'I think that sounds like a great idea.' I kissed Chloe on the cheek and kissed Noah on his head, I held his hand in mine. 'hey little guy you ready to come home' The staff at the hospital had been amazing so I arranged a little surprised for them, to say thanks, I had the ward sister call everybody who could to a side ward and there was food and cake and a little gift for them all who had cared for me, Chloe and Noah. We had done some finger painting with his tiny hands on cards and as everybody was eating cake this familiar voice boomed out around the corner. An you could hear a guitar, it could only be Adele. Some of the staff were like OMG their faces were a picture. She performed some songs and then was chatting with everybody she was signing all manner of gowns and items people could get hold of and she must of took about 3 selfies. It was a fantastic 2 hours, it was also really emotional. We picked our boy up, said a huge thanks to Adele and the staff and we left the hospital as a family . We strapped him in the car and then both sat in the front. The car had started up and we both sat there looking out into the car park. We never said anything to each other. I could feel tears falling down my face, what a journey this had been and we were getting to finally take our boy home, it was like everything hit us both. I looked across at Chloe and she wiped tears away I placed my hand in hers and ran my thumb across hers 'babe lets go home. I have waited a long time to say that. Hope the traffic is kind to us.' Chlo leaned across and kissed me, 'I love you more than I can ever show you'

I plugged my ipod in and hit play, the car journey took us around 3hours as there was a little traffic. Chloe and Noah had both been asleep for the most part but my little man was getting hungry and boy did we know about it.

Chloe was fantastic with him when he was like this, me I was more like omg just stop screaming. So being alone with him just us would be interesting. Well pulled up on the drive and I got out to open the front door, Chloe instantly went to get Noah and the car seat out. We got him inside and Chloe took him to the kitchen and prepared his bottle. I brought everything in from the car and popped the kettle on. Within about 5minutes Noah was quiet and snuggled into Chloe drinking his bottle like it was the last one he was ever going to have.

I took a few pictures with out chloe noticing but it was just amazing to have them both here, I never thought this would happen. I was seriously lucky.

'Babe I am just going to put all this stuff away ok' with that I moved everything to where it should be. As I walked back into the living room about 45minutes later Chloe and Noah were fast asleep snuggled on the sofa.

I took a photo and sent it in the whatsapp group. I then went upstairs got changed and spoke with Aubrey on the phone. We randomly had become good friends which even played with our own minds never mind the other girls but whatever it worked. She just asked about Chloe and when she was going to come and visit etc.

I went down stairs and woke Chloe gently. They had slept for 2 hours and I wanted us to get Noah into a routine here so too much sleep would be a problem. It was 5pm already. Chloe looked so beautiful when she was waking up and Noah started to cry. I picked him up and started talking to him and giving him plenty of kisses. I walked over to the window and was telling him stories about the beach.

'babe pass him here il go change his nappy and you can pour me a glass of wine and start making my tea.' With that she walked away with our son smiling away.

I didn't see the point of starting food as Noah needed a bath and then was going to bed so figured should wait until then. 'Becs baby, there is no point changing him just to change him again after the bath.'

'Ok beautiful we can sort that out. I will come up with your wine and why don't you and Noah have a bath together and then after I will make tea once he has gone to bed.'

'Yeah that sounds great baby' Inside I was having a panic attack ever since Noah had been born me and Beca had not been physical with each other it was like it just got forgotten about because in the grand scheme of things it hadn't been important and now I was stressing out because I had this huge scar and I was so body conscious that the thought of her seeing me naked stressed me out no end, I knew Beca wasn't like that and that she loved me but I was stressing out.

I heard Bec start running the bath and as I walked in with Noah she was lightning candles. 'Babe you didn't have to do that.'

'Can you just grab him I just need to speak with Aubrey a minute.'

With that I had hold of Noah who was looking up at me with the most beautiful eyes, just as bright blue as Chlo's. I could hear her on the phone chatting away, so I stood near the door, I didn't want to listen in but I wanted to make sure everything was ok.

I looked down at and placed my finger to my mouth and indicated for him to keep quiet, I mean like he even understood what I was doing.

'Bree what do I do, me and Beca haven been intimate with each other since before Noah was born, my body is hardly looking the same anymore, I have scare and I just I don't know I am stressed out about sharing a bath with my baby boy while talking to my wife. I mean what if I get undressed and Beca looks at my scar and it makes her not want to come near me.'

Oh my god my heart broke as if my beautiful amazing wife was stressing out about being naked in front of me. Right Mitchell operation let my wife know how utter beautiful she is and how sexy I find her. I carried Noah back into the bathroom and started to undress him. I began to get unchanged too.

'chloe just relax ok, Beca adores you, just talk to her ok, this is natural. Now go put your phone down.'

Right Chloe lets go. As I walked into the bathroom there was Beca nothing on accept her white underwear she just looked stunning.

'hey thought I was the one having the bath.'

' You are I figured that Noah may like some one to one skin contact with me.'

'Yeah yeah you are probably right'

I placed Noah in his little Moses basket which I had brought up with me and I turned to Chloe.

'I over heard some of your conversation with the oracle that is Aubrey, come here for a moment please,'

Chloe looked at me like a rabbit in headlights. She walked over to me and stood right before me 'Beca I' I placed my hands in hers 'its ok, just be quiet a minute.' I rested my head on hers 'I adore every little piece of you and I would not want you any other way. To me you are perfect. When you have finished in the bath with noah shout me and we can put him to bed together and then I was wondering if we could just put some music on and snuggle in our room?'

'Becs I think that would be lovely'

I gave her a kiss on the top of her head and left the bathroom. I sat on the sofa and hit up google.

I typed 'How to rekindle closeness when you have a baby'

I read a few articles and then Chloe gave me a shout.

She was wrapped in a towel and she had Noah wrapped in his little dinosaur towel, she placed him on the bed and I lay next to him as she put moisturiser on him and then put him pjs and nappy on.

'becs would you give him his night time milk while I get changed? Please and soon as he has had that he should go to sleep.'

'I am on it, come here little dude!'

I kissed Clo on the top of her shoulder as we left the room.

On feeding Noah I took him back upstairs and shouted Chlo, we placed him in his cot and lay on our bed. ' Becs he is staying here tonight right?'

I smirked 'of course he is, where else would we want him for a start.'

She smiled at me. 'So You going to tell me what is going on and why you don't want me to touch you or see you naked?' I had my hands playing in her hair. 'I just don't feel attractive at all, I always feel tired, an chubby and oh I just hate it.'

'would you let me try something with you but you have to trust me?'

'erm I don't know becs, I mean I trust you without hesitation but what is it?'

I walked over to my drawer and pulled out an eye mask.

I came back to the bed and I placed it over my eyes. 'right I cant see you right? So if you were to be naked the only way I would know is to feel you right?

'Becs you are made don't be so daft'

I placed my hands on her what I think where shoulders and leant forward I could feel her breath so close to me, 'Kiss me chlo.' With that I felt her lips on mine, our kisses started off gentle and light but soon enough moved up a noch. I began to allow my hands to roam across Chloe's body and the noises she was giving out as feeback were such a turn on, it had been so long since I had heard those noises. Before long Chloe picked up my hand and placed it on her waistband. 'Bec I want you to feel me'

'ok chlo this is your call you just tell me what you want, and guide my hands ok?'promise and I winked

Before long our heated make out session turned into the most intimate love making session, I always knew chloe was amazing and so beautiful but not taking that blindfold off had me able to feel her in a new way and she had me wanting more

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