Written for the Sink that Ship challenge - prompt: Thunder

Thunder

WolfStarBucks

The thunder woke Remus first. The loud banging from outside with flashes of light that illuminated the dorm-room.

Silence followed, broken only be a sharp intake of breath. A sniff. The sound of sheets rustling.

Remus knew Sirius was awake.

He reached for the arm that was wrapped loosely around his waist, slipping out from his boyfriend's grasp, but the movement woke James who tried to pull him back into the bed.

"Thunder," Remus whispered. James stopped immediately, concerned eyes turned to Sirius' bed where the curtains were shut. It wasn't like Sirius to shut the curtains, but he had been making a habit of it for the last couple of months. Ever since James and Remus had started dating.

Remus slipped out of the bed and James followed. They quickly headed over to Sirius' bed and pulled back the curtains.

Sirius was sitting up in the bed, his knees drawn against his chest and his arms wrapped around his legs, clutching tightly at the sheets. His eyes widened at the sight of his two friends but he didn't say a word choosing to watch them both carefully.

"Why didn't you wake us?" James asked, taking a seat on the bed.

Sirius shrugged his shoulders slightly. "It wouldn't be right," he answered. "I can hardly ask you to sleep in my bed. I can't ask Remus now either."

"Why not?" Remus asked, frowning slightly. "You've always asked before. What's changed?"

"You're dating now," Sirius snapped.

James glanced at Remus. "Neither of us would have minded," James replied carefully, trying to sidestep the mood that Sirius was in.

"Things are different now. You have each other. I need to learn to look after myself. I can handle a bit of thunder."

The next rumble came as soon as Sirius uttered his words. He froze, his eyes clenching shut and his fingers digging further into the sheets and Remus and James both knew he wasn't okay.

"Just because we're together, it doesn't mean we'll forget about you. We'll always have time for you," James assured him.

Sirius' gaze dropped to where James and Remus' hands were touching and Remus noted with surprise that there was longing in his expression.

Without asking James' opinion—because he knew James would do anything to make Sirius happy—Remus crawled into the bed next to Sirius. He pulled Sirius down with him, wrapping his arms around him and holding him tightly. James followed, cuddling up against Sirius' back.

"Is it because you want to be in a relationship or is it because you have feelings for one of us?"

Sirius was silent for a long time and Remus thought he wasn't going to answer. But finally there was a sigh and Sirius cuddled into him tighter.

"Is there an answer that'll ruin this friendship?"

"Nothing you could say would ruin anything," James assured him.

"Both of you. Not one of you, but both," Sirius admitted, his voice full of guilt. "I'm sorry, I've tried to stop these feelings… then when you both got together, I tried dating others, but I can't stop thinking about either of you. It hurts to see you together because—"

"Because you want to be with us?" Remus finished.

Sirius nodded. "I'm sorry," he whispered.

Remus sat up, trying to get a look at James' face. His boyfriend was staring at Sirius as though Sirius was the centre of his universe and Remus /knew/ what James was thinking. James would never say it for risk of hurting Remus. James would never act on it for the same reason. That's why it had to be Remus.

"We want to be with you too," Remus murmured softly. "I know I want to, and I can see it in James' eyes. I don't want you to hurt, Sirius. You know what makes things better?"

"What?" Sirius asked.

"A kiss," James finished with a grin. "So.. how about it?"

Sirius turned to look at James for a long moment before James leaned in, his lips brushing softly against Sirius' own. A second later, they pulled away, both glancing at Remus to make sure Remus was okay with what had happened.

"My turn," Remus said softly, moving closer to Sirius, eager to kiss him. "And then it's James' turn again. That was amazing to watch."

Sirius didn't hear the next crash of thunder.

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Thanks to Lizzy for betaing.