A/N: Look I'm still alive. I know…I know I could make excuses, but lets just settle on RL sucks…I do have an announcement though…I'm entering my first contest! So if you don't have me on author alert I would greatly appreciate it if you could add me and then check it out when I get it finished. It's called A Dangerous Affair…so…I'll keep you guys updated on that front. Now the chapter…The song for this one is Whitney Houston's I have nothing. Please enjoy…

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I didn't get to say much more before the nurse came in, doctor in tow. I stood back holding onto little Charlie while they made sure everything was as it was supposed to be. I couldn't tear my eyes from her as the doctor went through his routine. Finally after about ten minutes he stepped back and wrote on his clipboard. "Well…Ms. Swan. All appears well. You'll be a little drowsy for a while due to the pain medication, but we'll work on adjusting your dose soon." He then set the paperwork at in the holder at the end of the bed and smiled at us both before turning away. "If you need anything, just hit the call button and Bobbie Jo will be right in."

"Thank you." Bella managed to choke out.

"Bobbie, why don't you get Ms. Swan some ice chips." The doctor asked the nurse before he turned back to Bella. "It will help with your voice. You'll eventually be able to drink water but we'll play it safe until your throat is healed a little more. Thank you Bobbie." He said to the nurse as she sat the cup of ice chips down next to the bed. Bella reached for them and put a few into her mouth. "Better?"

"Yes. Thank you." Her voice sounding much clearer and more like herself this time. The doctor looked in my direction one more time before he left the room. It was quiet for a while. I just watched her as she looked the way that the doctor had left then took a deep breath and looked back at me and gave me a tentative smile.

"See Charlie, I told you she was beautiful," I whispered to my son.

"Oh Edward…"

"Why don't I introduce you…" I said as I moved closer, "Charlie…meet your momma."

Her voice was barely above a whisper when she spoke again. "He's beautiful."

"So are you," I said nearly as quietly.

"Oh Edward…"

"You have no idea how good it is to see your eyes open." I reached out and stroked her cheek gently before Charlie started fussing. I bounced him lightly but he wouldn't settle. "I think he wants to meet his momma."

"Can I hold him?" She sounded as though I might tell her no, as if I ever could.

"Of course love," I said as I placed him in the cradle that she had created with her arms. I wasn't that surprised when his little face smoothed of its wrinkles and his whimpering ceased as Bella held him in her arms. Charlie had been waiting days to be in her arms. "See I told you," I said my throat tight with emotion. Bella looked up from the bundle in her arms and smiled, honestly smiled, even with her face paler than usual and her cheeks slightly sunk the picture of mother and son finally together was nearly too much to bear. I turned around, partly to get a hold of my emotions but mostly to pull the chair up to the side of the bed. I could still feel the tears burning my eyes as I sat.

"Edward?" Bella asked worried.

I reached up and stroked her cheek lightly as I spoke. "I thought…I thought I was going to lose you Bella. I've never been so scared in my entire life. I don't know what I would have done…"

"You won't have to find out."

"I have nothing if I don't have you Bella. I love you, so much." I broke off.

"I love you too Edward."

When I spoke again it was so quietly I thought she might just miss it, "I'm sorry."

She looked back up at me with a raised eyebrow, "What do you have to be sorry about?"

I cleared my throat before I began knowing that I needed to get it all out at once. "We fought before you left…and then…I didn't even say goodbye. I acted like a child and locked myself in the studio. I didn't even have my phone, Emmett had to come and get me…" The tears fell again. "I was angry with you, and you were…you were suffering and I was mad." I took a deep breath, "When they told me that they didn't know if you'd pull through…Bella, my whole world collapsed. All I could think was that it wasn't supposed to be like this, that we didn't have enough time. All I could think about was not seeing you in the morning, with your hair all messy and your voice thick with sleep, or not walking around the house and randomly finding a book you've laid down and forgotten, or how I never said I love you before you left for that photo shoot. How our last words to each other could have been in anger, how you never would have known…"

"Edward," She interrupted and I looked up to see tears streaming down her face again. "Edward. It's not your fault, or my fault, it was someone else entirely…but I'll tell you one thing. The last thoughts I had before I blacked out weren't of myself, or the other driver, they were of you and little Charlie. I told myself I had to pull through for you. Yes we left angry…but I knew that you arguing with me because you cared, because you loved both of us. I was being stubborn…"

"No. the doctor said that if you had been in the passenger seat it would have been worse. I just wish Bella…I wish that I could have been…"

"No Edward, don't wish that…don't even think that."

"How can I not Bella…"

"Things happen Edward. Things we don't have any control over, but we pick ourselves up and we move on. I'm going to get better. I'm going to heal. Charlie is fine. He's healthy and wonderful, and you're here by my side."

"Always." I vowed.

"Always," she whispered back to me. I leaned in and kissed Charlie's forehead before reaching up and kissing Bella's. She put her free hand on my cheek to stop my retreat. "Always Edward," she said again before she tugged me down to kiss her lips. I had thought I would never feel this again, and I poured all of my pent up emotion and fears into this kiss. I kept one hand on Charlie to make sure that I wasn't smothering him, but the rest of my concentration was on the feeling of home. We didn't separate until nurse Gonzalez came in and chuckled at what was making Bella's heart monitor beat faster. I didn't notice because it was finally beating the rhythm that I knew like my own, strong and consistent.

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