A/N: I know it's been quite a while since I've updated but life happened and then when I was ready to update my laptop went haywire and I lost everything... This chapter will be short... It's time we saw Kelly's thoughts and feelings on everything! Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own BH 90210!
Kelly still couldn't believe that Brenda was pregnant. Hell she couldn't believe that Brenda was lying in a hospital bed right now. She blamed herself for everything that has happened to Brenda since Dylan and Brenda broke up. She blamed herself for anything and everything even though it was all out of her control.
She looked over at Brandon and saw him looking at her and gave him a strained smile. It hurt her a little to know that he had actually thought the worst of her then again she couldn't blame him. She knew that she had messed up big time when she had indeed slept with Dylan when him and Brenda were together. She also knew that if she was in his shoes that she would have thought the exact same things that he did.
Now all she wanted was to fix this mess that her and Dylan created with the best of intentions. She only agreed to help Dylan out because she loved Brenda and didn't want to see Brenda get hurt. She only agreed to help Dylan out because she loved him as a friend. She could freely admit to herself now that she was in love with Brandon even if she would never tell him.
She just hoped that with time Brenda would get past everything and forgive her and Dylan. She hoped that Brenda would understand why she agreed to help Dylan out. She missed her best friend. She missed talking to Brenda and she wanted that back. She also hoped that Brenda would let her back in her life. She didn't want anything to happen to Brenda or her babies. She wanted them all to be alright.
She let out a sigh and closed her eyes on a wave of pain. She felt as if she has lost her family and she knew that in a way she deserved it but it didn't make it hurt any less. She could only hope and pray that everyone would understand why her and Dylan both said and did what they did. After all her and Dylan both were just trying to make sure that Brenda stayed safe. Neither of them wanted her hurt in any way, shape or form then again neither of them thought about how hurt she would be and they should have known how much pain it would have caused her to know or thought she knew that Dylan and Kelly had been messing around again behind her back.