Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's Anatomy. The wonderful Shonda Rhimes does but lately she has disappointed me with the lack of Sara in the episodes! We need more of her amazingness!
Callie couldn't stand it. Not only did she have a daughter still in diapers at home to take care of, she had a sick infant who wasn't strong enough to even leave the hospital until he receives a new heart. Louise had been a saint for the past few weeks. She kept Trinity while Alex and Callie spent s few of their nights at the hospital, just watching over him. Her maternity leave was up and she had to return to work, Richard had given her more time then what she had originally been given to her, due to the circumstances. At least she didn't have the worry of Chief Resident anymore.
"Alex, I can't go back to work, knowing he's up there. I'm going to be seeing patients and worrying about our son. Wanting to make sure he's warm enough and that he's ok. I mean I know I'm a wreck when we're home, but it's going to be worse while I'm there, knowing he's just a few floors away from me but I can't see him." She explained, sitting on their bed, still in her pajamas. Alex dropped his shirt on the floor and walked over to her. He sat down next to her, wrapping his arms tightly around her.
"Cal, you can do this. Matty is in capable hands, now that Addison is here. She hasn't left his side since she got here, minus the few cases she's bee working. And hello his father is neo-natal. I'll be there all day, though I'm not allowed to work with him, he'll be just a few feet away from me. You can do this, Callie. I have faith in you." He explained. She wiped away her tears. She had cried more in the past year than ever before in her life.
"Ok, but you promise you'll page me if anything happens. Anything Alex, do you understand? If I'm in surgery pull me out."
"I promise, now go get dressed, while I go get Trinity up." He said, pressing a kiss on to her cheek. She nodded and he left.
He walked into the room, to find his little girl standing in her crib. She opened her arms to him.
"Dada!" she squealed. Alex smiled and walked over to her, picking her up out of the crib.
"Hey there angel. Can daddy have a kiss?" he asked her. She responded by planting a wet kiss on his cheek.
"That's the best kiss I've ever had." He said, kissing her cheek.
"Let's get you dressed. You're going back with grandma today. Mommy and daddy have to go to work." He explained to her, but she paid no attention to him and grabbed his nose. Alex grabbed her hand and blew raspberries onto it, causing her to giggle.
"Come on silly girl." He said, walking over to her closet. He looked at the numerous clothes and couldn't decide what to dress her in.
"Ok, you choose." He said, looking at Trinity." He held her out and she reached for one of her outfits.
"This works, now we have to change your diaper and find the leggings that go with this and we'll be all set, minus your hair. I'll try, but I'm pretty sure mommy will re-fix it." He said, opening the top drawer of her dresser. He found the brown leggings that went with the pink baby doll dress she had chosen. He placed her on the changing table and changed her.
'There, you look like the princess you are." He said, picking her back up. Trinity giggled and kissed his nose.
"Why thank you. Now what to do with this hair."
"Mama!" she yelled, peering over Alex's shoulder. Trinity struggled to get out of his arms. He set her on the ground and she walked over to her. Callie leaned over and picked her up.
"Good morning sweetie. Did daddy pick this out?" she asked, kissing Trinity's cheek. Trinity returned the kiss.
"She did, I had no part in it" he said, as Callie handed her to him.
"Take her, so I can fix that hair. I regret giving her that." She said, picking up the small brush and ran it through her hair. Trinity's raven curls fell just to her shoulder and Callie refused to get them cut. Her hair grew as fast as Callie's. She pulled it up into pigtails and topped them off with pink bows.
"There." She said, kissing her cheek. Trinity reached up and tried to pull out the ribbons. Callie pushed her hand away.
"No, leave them alone." She scolded. Trinity put her hands down and looked to Alex with her pouty face.
"Don't look at me like that. I'm not going against your mommy." He said, kissing her cheek. Callie glared at him and then rolled her eyes. He was such a coward when it came to the two of them.
"You've got it bad. Just put her shoes on and let's go before I change my mind again." She said, leaving Trinity's room. Alex sighed and pulled Trinity closer to him.
"We need to help mommy feel better. She's worried about your little brother, Matty."
"Matty?" she repeated, tilting her head to the side and staring at Alex, like he was an idiot.
"Oh never mind. Let's get your shoes on. Grandma will be waiting for you." He said, grabbing the pink ballet flats, with a strap. He slipped them on and then put Trinity's jacket on her.
Louise met them in the driveway and snatched her granddaughter from her car seat.
'Hey, there sweetie." She said, kissing her cheek. Callie handed her the diaper bag and kissed Trinity once more.
"How are you holding up?" Louise asked, as she slung the bag over her shoulder.
"I'm ok, I guess. He's all I think about and seeing him helpless like that is killing me. I can't do anything to help him. I've not even held him. I can touch him and talk to him, but I have no clue what he feels like to be in my arms. I'm so afraid to lose him." She explained, as she fidgeted with the zipper on Trinity's jacket.
"Just keep hoping, Callie. I'll keep praying ok? You call me with any updates."
"I will. Thank you Louise."
"How many times do I have to tell you to call me mom?"
"I'm sorry. Bye, mom." She said, getting back in the car. She waved at them and Louise raised Trinity's arm and waved at them as they pulled out of the driveway.
Callie sat in complete silence as they drove the distance to Seattle Grace. Alex gently reached over the console and took her head. He gently squeezed it as she looked over at him and gave him a weak smile. As the hospital came into view Callie's heart began to rapidly start beating.
"Alex, stop, I can't do this. I can't, please don't make me. I'll go tomorrow, not today, please." She begged. Alex pulled to the side and turned to her.
"Baby, you can do this. You can do anything."
"I don't know. How can I when he's up there?"
"You see him when you can. I promise I'll page you with any news."
"Ok, just go and get there while I'm saying yes." She said. Alex pulled back into the street and drove the few blocks to the hospital. He pulled into the lot and parked. Callie took a deep breath and sat in the car for a few moments. She was startled when Alex pulled her door open and extended his arm to her. She took it and he lead her into the hospital.
"I need to see him first. Just let me see him." She said, as they stepped on to the elevator. Alex nodded and pressed the 6th floor. Alex wrapped his arm around her and she held onto the front of his shirt as they rode in silence.
Addison greeted them as they stepped off the elevator. She flashed them a smile and pulled Callie into a hug.
"How are you? I know today must be a train wreck for you."
"You have no idea. Can we see him before I start my shift?"
"Of course. Come on." She said, leading them into the NICU. Callie walked over to Matty and smiled at the tiny form. She handed her purse and coat to Addison and then ran her hand down the top of his head. Leaning in, she pressed a kiss onto his head and then ran her finger across his cheek. He had gained a little more weight but he was still so tiny.
"Hey there, little guy. Mommy's here." She whispered. Matty moved his arms close to his chest, so that his tiny fists were touching Callie's hand.
"He knows you. I told you just keep talking to him. He can hear every word." Addison explained, placing her hand on Callie's shoulder.
"I can do this." She muttered to herself. She kissed him once more.
"Mommy has to go now, but I promise I'll see you when I can ok? Be good, and try not to give Aunt Addie and these nurses a hard time." She whispered to Matty. Addison giggled a bit and hugged Callie once more.
"He's going to be ok." She whispered.
"I know. Thank you Addison, for just being here."
"It's my job as your best friend. I'll always be here when you need me."
"I'll remember that. I have to go before I decided to stay in here."
"Ok, go on get out of here."
"Bye, I love you Matty. You too Alex. Meet me for lunch?" she asked, as she kissed his cheek.
"As always. Love you." He said, kissing her lips and she walked out, glancing back before the door closed completely.
Callie stood in the OR, placing a rod and pins into a 5-year-old's femur. She had fallen off a swing and nearly shattered it. She was placing the last screw when her pager went off from across the room. Callie's eyes widened and she looked up as a scrub nurse picked it up.
"Dr. Torres, it's a 911 from the NICU." She said.
"Page another ortho to finish this, I have to go. Page them now!" she said, placing her tools on a tray and leaving the OR. She quickly pulled her scrub cover and gloves off, running through the halls. She took the stairs two by two as she made her way to the NICU. Her heart fell when she saw, Erica, Alex and Addison standing outside the room, talking.
"What's happened? Is he ok?" she asked, practically yelling. Alex rushed over to her and hugged her tightly.
"Calm down, it's ok."
"Alex, what's going on? Why did you page me 911?" she asked. Alex pulled her back and kissed her deeply.
"They've got a heart! Matty is getting his heart!" Alex said, pulling back. Callie blinked a few times before the words sank in.
"He's getting a heart? He's going be ok?" she asked. Erica and Addison came over, both smiling widely at them.
"Yes, they've got a heart. A drunk driver hit a mother and her 3-month-old daughter. The mother died instantly and the little girl is brain dead. The father wants her organs donated and she's a perfect math for Matty. They are harvesting her organ now. I need your consent to take him into surgery." Erica explained.
"Yes! Take him, save our baby!" Callie exclaimed, wrapping her arms around Alex's neck. Addison hugged them both.
"I told you he would be ok." She said, softly. Callie pulled away and smiled and then looked at Alex.
"Our son is going be ok." She said, smiling at him.
"Our son is going to be ok." He repeated, kissing her.