I'm back! And college is finished and now i'm waiting for results...fun times.

I was actually hoping to post this on the 31st cuz Grimmjow's birthday but then I thought I might as well just get it off my chest and be done with it.

But thank you for your kind words! They really make me smile

Not really sure how I feel about this one actually, but I hope you enjoy reading :) xx

Do you remember, when we fell in love?

We were, young and innocent things...

-Michael Jackson-Remember the Time

"The fuck am I wearing this dumb blindfold fer Neliel? I never pegged ya as the kinky type,"

A sharp punch to his chest caused him to stagger and lose his balance, but he quickly straightened himself.

"Ouch! Fuck what was that for?!" he snapped, rubbing his chest.

"Swearing isn't nice Jow-kun, now just keep quiet and don't let go of my hand we're almost there,"

He scowled unseeingly but complied with the shorter girl's demands.

Not 10 minutes ago he'd been strapped with a blindfold and told to shut up and hold Neliel's hand. For what? He had no idea. All he wanted to do was go to the little basement under Urahara's house and shoot up in peace. Those plans got skewered however when a head full of green hair swamped him after school and demanded that he put the blindfold on.

And who was he to deny her anything?

"STOP!"

He almost stumbled into the tiny figure infront of him and when he reached for the blindfold her dainty hands slapped them away.

"Don't you dare touch that! Have patience Jow-kun!"

He said nothing more, silently fuming under the blindfold until she screamed at him telling him to stop.

"Open your hands,"

He complied, still confused about all that was happening and then he felt something smooth and paper-like. Wasn't money by the feel of it, so it didn't really have much use to him, but because she gave it to him he'd humor her.

"Okay you can take it off now," came Nel's child like voice.

He smirked and ripped the blindfold off with one hand and frowned at the light blue envelope in his hand.

"The fuck is this?"

"Stop swearing for once! And if you opened it you'd know!" she said, basically hopping on both legs.

He opened the envelope and pulled out a simple card. His eyebrows shot up at what it read.

"Well fuck, fergot about my own birthday," he said rubbing the back of his head.

He opened the "Happy 16th" card and out fell a small photo on the ground. He picked it up. It was a picture of a Shelby, his dream car. He had the same picture framed on his bed side table in his bedroom and Neliel knew that, so why was she giving him this?

"Uh, thanks for the card and picture Neliel, but I've already got a picture of this. In my bedroom."

She grinned at him then pointed behind him.

He turned and swore his stomach flew into his throat.

Right there on the curb, said Mustang looking shiny and new with a massive "Happy Birthday Grimmjow" banner hanging off it.

He took a step forwards. Then one back, as if scared to go near the car.

"Am I being punked?"

Nel's tinkering laugh came from behind him and she hung a keyring with a single key and the brand insignia on his pointer finger.

"I can assure you that you're not,"

"You got me a fuckin' mustang for my birthday?"

"Well...Jow-kun always gets Nel nice things for her birthday so she saved up a lot of money and got some help from Aunty Yoruichi and she helped Nel get a good deal on it. The sales guy called it a Shell...something, Nel thinks. But Nel knows Jow-kun likes vintage cars so Nel put everything into getting this car for Jow-kun,"

He was too amazed by the girl in front of him and the car to even remind her that she was regressing and that it wasn't a "shell" but a "Shelby". He swallowed around the lump in his throat and pulled her into a bone crushing hug.

"Neliel, I could kiss you right now. Thank you so much," he said lowly.

"Y-you're welcome Jow-kun"

His first ever gift.

Strangely enough, the feeling it gave him was way better than all the heroin he'd ever had.

"How bout we take this baby out for a lift?"

"Tell me where they are or I'm gonna bash yer skull against the concrete."

Grimmjow tried to be patient.

He really did. But he was on incredibly on edge.

Withdrawing was severe and he'd completely given up on Urahara's "safe" form of treatment. He needed to shoot up. Desperately.

Neliel was slowly making progress but she tended to regress alot, saying that she didn't remember things that she would have remembered the day before and he theorized that it was that damn drug that Kisuke wasn't even trying to stop Luppi from giving her.

He'd also given up on waiting on them to come up with a plan for Luppi. He decided to take matters into his own barely stable hands.

When the faker was giving more of the drug to the sleeping girl tonight, he followed and when the nurse left the room he quickly brought him down and placed a hand firmly over his mouth.

"We're gonna go to the Head's office and when we do you're going to sing like a canary to Urahara. You don't agree with me or what I'm saying or if you show me any resistance. I will kill you. Understood?"

The nurse's eyes widened drastically and he nodded his head with vigor.

"Good. Now fucking step."

The walk was silent and Grimmjow thanked whoever was up there that this side of the hospital tended to be secluded at night, he didn't care for any of the staff or roaming patients to see him dragging a nurse around the place. When they got to Unohana's office he didn't bother to knock, with his leg he kicked the slightly opened door wider and pushed the nurse to the ground, then slammed he door shut.

Kisuke's eyes looked as if they were about to bug out of his head and Ichigo looked as if he wanted to high five his partner and punch him for screwing up their plan at the same time.

"Grimmjow I thought we were-"

"Ya thought wrong. I couldn't be fucked ta wait and added to that I caught him doing it. We're askin' these fuckin' questions right now and we're getting' these fuckin' answers tonight."

"It's been two days son, you should really practice your patience skills," said Urahara, closing the folder he was reading and picking up his fan."Luppi, I think you know why you're here aren't you?"

The nurse hadn't moved from the spot Grimmjow had shoved him to on the floor and he refused to look up at his interrogator the whole time.

"No I don't. This-this barbarian just tackled me after I was on a walk and dragged me here."

"What did he catch you doing, if you don't mind me asking,"

"I just told you, I was walking-"

"Bull. Shit. You were doping Neliel up with that shit ya got in yer pocket." growled Grimmjow.

"I was doing no such thing!" screeched the faker.

Grimmjow scoffed and dug his hand into the nurses coat pocket and pulled out an unmarked bottle of clear looking liquid along with an already used syringe. He placed them in the doctor's hands and then proceeded to subdue the nurse who was trying to make a run for the door.

Kisuke looked at the nurse expectantly.

"I-I-"

"You will talk Luppi." said the blonde in a very serious tone of voice.

"He-he said if I didn't do it he'd kill me, I didn't have a choice," said the nurse with tears shining in his eyes.

"Who?" asked Ichigo, the first word he'd spoken since the nurse was shoved into the room.

"N-Nnoitra-sama. He was going to kill me. He said I was the only one, and I was the one that took care of the girl when she was in-when she was taken but she didn't know me by face so he said I was the safest choice to go," sobbed the nurse. "I didn't mean to do it I swear! "

Grimmjow saw red.

Just as he was about to snap the faker's neck Kisuke intervened, pushing him away.

"Ichigo, cuff him and call Kenpachi and Kuchiki. We now have an accessory to the case. Grimmjow, go get some air."

Ichigo nodded and started voicing the Miranda rights to the nurse and Grimmjow stormed out of the room, not sparing either one of them a glance.

He ended up outside Neliel's room, and he watched her sleep. She was on her back, hair and arms sprawled all over the bed and her chest rose steadily. It made him calm. It reassured him that she was here, she was safe and she wasn't being hurt again. He'd die before she was hurt again.

"You did a good job controlling yourself in there," came his foster father's voice from behind him.

"I would have killed him. I swear I was going to kill him,"

"And you walked out. I must say though, for a minute there I thought we were about to lose our number one lead in this whole entire case."

"D'you know what's funny. We know who the cause of all this bullshit is and we have to play it safe and follow rules and go around in the circles that he weaves because of all the fucking power and control that he has. Pisses me off."

"Things are winding down. Now that we have a proper sample of the drug I'll send it off to the lab hopefully they can work on a way to counteract it now that they've got the pure thing. However, I am worried."

Grimmjow's eyes furrowed.

"Worried about what exactly?"

"Worried about what will happen to her if we cut her off from this drug. We don't know the effects and they could be severe, especially in her condition."

His eyes flashed almost instantly to the small bump underneath the sheets.

"She will be fine right?" he asked uncertainly.

"We can only hope for the best Grimmjow. Now, chin up and get some rest. Ichigo has the arrest under control and Byakuya and Kenpachi have been to collect Luppi. I expect you to go home and sleep. Please."

"Yea. Sure. Whatever."

He didn't sleep though. He sat on his couch fiddling with the bottle Gin had given him from ages ago.

He ached for it so much. Just one. Just one and that would be it for the night. He poured a good amount onto a piece of tissue and threw the bottle over his cupboard. There was no way in his right mind that he'd reach it in an intoxicated state, hopefully he'd forget about it but he doubted it.

Everything would be fine.

It was just gonna be one shoot up after all, what damage could it cause?

A lot of damage.

As soon as he stepped into the police station in the morning, the first thing he noticed was a frown on Gin's face. The man waved him over and he shrugged, walking over to the quickly retreating figure.

"Was'the matter Cap?" he asked, stepping into stride with the silver haired main.

"Why do you choose the worst times to make your mistakes Grimm-kun?" asked the Captain heading for the elevator and frantically pushing the button.

"What fuck up? I have no idea what you're talking about,"

"You seem to forget what division I'm the head of. I can see it in your eyes that you're blitzed out of your mind"

"Mmmm, maybe,"

"I need you to get the fuck out of here right now," The elevator doors opened and he quickly pushed Grimmjow in.

"Why the hell should I?" growled the lieutenant in confusion.

"Because-"

"All present captains and lieutenants are to report to the health department for the monthly drug testing, I repeat, all present captains and lieutenants are to report to the health department for the monthly drug testing. That is all."

"Fuck."

"You've got that right, now I'll cover for you and as soon as you're in the garage, you leave. Call in sick or something but you know what happens if they catch you now."

Grmmjow nodded, suddenly feeling very paranoid. He had to get out. Get out as soon as possible before another Captain or even worse his Captain or Kurosaki sees him, because that would leave him no choice but to go...and get his ass fired and kicked off the force.

The doors opened and Grimmjow stepped out right into Soi-Fon's chest. Captain of Karakura's very own special ops team.

"Grimmjow, Ichimaru-keibu I wasn't expecting to see the two of you out here, you do know that e have the drug tests now?"

"Yes, I am aware Fon-keibu. However, Grimm-kun here isn't feeling much like himself at the moment so I figured that he could miss this time and get some house rest." said Gin, patting the bluenet's shoulder.

"Grimmjow, all you do is piss in a cup and hand it back to the technician. I do not believe in officers of rank missing these tests and seeing as Ichimaru-keibu isn't your real captain I suggest you turn and head back to the elevator."

Shit.