Another Saturday, another chapter! This chapter is based after the events in 6x04 "Strange Case". That was the episode when Killian killed Jekyll to save Belle. This chapter is how Killian feels afterwards and how he copes with it. This chapter is also a bit shorter than the rest of the chapters, sorry about that.

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Calm

Killian stepped off the Jolly Roger after making sure Belle was fine. He smiled when he saw Emma walking over to him. "Hello, love." He took her hand into his.

"Are you okay?" Emma asked. She looked over his face, searching for any sort of wound. "Did he hurt you?"

"I'm alright, Swan. I promise."

She let out a small sigh of relief and smiled softly. "Good. So… what exactly happened?"
He felt a surge of panic go through him. He hadn't intended on killing Jekyll, but he had to protect Belle and her baby.

Emma noticed the tension in him. "What is it?"

He shook his head. "Nothing. I'm fine." He put his arms around Emma's waist and pulled her against him. He breathed in her scent. He didn't want to burden Emma with his troubles, but he needed reassurance. So, he decided to just spend as much time as he could with his love. The way she loved him and believed in him would reassure him. He just hoped it was enough.

Emma put her hands on Killian's chest and gently pulled back. "Something is bothering you. You can tell me."

He set his forehead on hers. "I know, and when something starts troubling me, I will tell you."

Emma smiled. "Good."

Killian had been acting strange the past couple days. He refused to leave Emma's side for anything. They made dinner side by side. They washed dishes side by side. Emma was really starting to worry.

Emma kicked her shoes off and pulled her jacket off, hanging it up. "I'm ready for dinner and then a movie."

Killian smiled and took Emma's hand, having already taken his shoes and jacket off. "Let's make dinner, shall we?"

Emma nodded and began to walked away, but Killian followed her, holding onto her hand tightly. She tried to pull her hand away, but Killian wouldn't let her.

She looked at him. "Are you okay?"

"Of course, love. Why?"

"Well, I need to grab a pot for the spaghetti, but you won't let go of my hand."

Killian's face reddened a little bit. "Sorry." He let go of her hand and took a small step closer to her.

Emma narrowed her eyes and folded her arms.

"What?" Killian asked.

"You know what, Killian. What is going on? You've been acting weird for days. Talk to me."

"Nothing is wrong. I haven't got a clue what you're talking about."

"Really?" Emma took a step back. Killian took a step forward. "That. That is what I mean. You keep doing that."

"Doing what?"

"Every time I move, you follow me. It's like you think I'm a baby who just learned how to crawl." She sighed. "Tell me what's going on."

Killian cast his eyes down. He stepped forward and pulled Emma to his chest, head resting in the croak of her neck. Emma played with the hair on the nape of his neck, letting him know that she was here and wasn't ever leaving.

Finally, Killian pulled away. He took a step back and said, "I killed him."

Emma didn't quite know what he was talking about. "Who?"

"Jekyll."

Emma remembered the day she got a call from Killian to hurry to the docks - it had almost given her a heart attack. When she had gotten there, David had covered Hyde's and Jekyll's lifeless bodies. She hadn't even had time to ask Killian about it.

"You did that to protect Belle and her baby. You did nothing wrong."

"I should have found another way, Emma!" Killian suddenly shouted.

Emma jumped slightly at Killian's sudden outburst. She reached her hand out to rest on Killian's arm. "There wasn't any other way."

"There is always another way," Killian said. "You know that. Heroes always find another way."

Emma immediately put her hands on Killian's cheeks. "You are a hero, Killian. Don't ever think otherwise."

He didn't meet her eyes. "If I was a hero, I would have found another way. I didn't. It just proves that a villain can't get their happy ending."

Emma's heart clenched. "Killian, I'm your happy ending, remember? You told me that, and I am right here. I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me."

Killian leaned forward and rested his forehead on Emma's. "You are my happy ending, Emma. I don't know what I would do without you."
Emma smiled. "You're mine, too."

"But-" Killian pulled away "-I can't let my darkness take you away."

"What are you talking about, Killian?" Emma felt a lump form in her throat.

Killian stepped forward and kissed his love. When he pulled away, he said, "I love you, Emma, so much."

Emma smiled. "I love you, too."

Killian nodded and turned. He walked towards the door and starting tugging his shoes on.

A panicked Emma followed him. "Where are you going?"

"I need some time to think, Emma."

Emma's heart dropped. Some time to think? Some time to think about what? Was he leaving? Was he going to come back?

Emma let those horrible thoughts fill her head. Her eyes immediately filled with tears. She wrapped her arms around herself and tried to find her voice. When she did, it was hoarse. "Are you coming back?"

Killian's head snapped up in her direction. His heart broke at the state Emma was in. He stood up and walked over to her, pulling her into a hug.

Emma's arms went around his middle and she buried her face in his shoulder. She refused to let herself break down.

"I will always come back, Emma. I just need some time to think. Not about us. I already know that I want us to never leave each other's sides. I just need time to think about my actions."

Emma pulled away and looked straight into her True Love's eyes. "You have nothing to think about. You did nothing wrong. You did the right thing and saved Belle. Anyone would have done the same thing. I would have done the same thing."

Killian squeezed his eyes closed. "I've tried so hard, Emma-" he opened his eyes and stared into Emma's "-I've tried so hard to become the man who is worthy of your love and trust, but I threw it away when I killed Jekyll."

"No, Killian. You did no such thing." Emma put her hands on Killian's cheeks. "You saved everyone. No one had figured out how to stop Hyde, but you did. And by doing so, you stopped another villain: Jekyll. You shouldn't be angry with yourself - you should be proud."

Killian shook his head in disbelief. "You are amazing."

Emma smiled. "So are you. Now, what do you say we eat some dinner?"

I hope you enjoyed that chapter!