Chapter 20

I have crowned myself Queen of Stupidity.

I'm just so damn stupid!

How could I have ever believed the words that came out of Tristan Janlen Dugrey's mouth? He was just a pathetic horn-dog that only cared about adding a new notch to his king-size bed post.

Ugh!

I'm not the Queen of Stupidity for actually believing him…no, there's more.

Yesterday, I made a fool of myself.

I took a drive to his house to "talk", I was just going to go and analyze the reasoning behind why he had almost ripped my head off the day before.

Okay, so maybe I was being a bit annoying…but what girl who likes a guy isn't annoying towards that guy? Especially when said girl was supposedly oblivious…

Whatever.

So I had decided yesterday to tell him my epiphany…

Yes an epiphany.

I had a sudden realization…

I liked…no, I loved him.

And I actually wanted to tell him; face-to-face.

What was I thinking?

Whatever it was, I wasn't going to be thinking it again.

Ever.

How can I possibly not be thinking about it?!

He's burning a hole through me!

I wish this stupid English class would end already so that I can continue with forgetting about him. Besides who needs English anyway? I can speak, read and write the language perfectly.

Stupid English!

Briiiiiiiiing

The bell! Yes!

I was able to quickly get out of the classroom and away from him, but that was wasted energy because just as quickly as I got out of there, he was able to follow me to my locker…

Stupid idiot.

"Mary."

I ignore him.

He sighed, "Mary."

Keep ignoring him, I tell myself, because maybe, if I keep ignoring him long enough he'll get the picture and go away.

"Rory, I'm not leaving until we talk."

Well my genius plan backfired!

"What Tristan?" I said as I shut my locker and faced him.

"We need to talk about what happened yesterday."

I played dumb, "What happened yesterday?"

"Rory, you came to my house and saw a girl--"

"What do you want from me, Tristan? I gave you props; I told you she didn't look sleazy or slutty."

"It's not what it looked like," he tried to explain.

"Really?"

"Yeah…she was my--"

"Sister," I finished for him, "No, wait. You don't have a sister."

"Rory," he said running a hand through his hair; frustrated.

"Wait, wait…your cousin; she was your cousin who was just dropping by to see how you were doing since she hasn't seen you in like forever," I gave a whack at it.

"Exactly!"

"You have got to be kidding me!" I yelled in disbelief.

"Rory I'm dead serious; her name is Kate and she is my cousin."

"If you say so," I say before turning around to walk away.

"God damn it! Why won't you just fuckin listen to me?!" he yells as he grabs my arm. His outburst has now attracted a crowd.

"Because I don't want to talk to you!" I yelled back at him, not caring that we had an audience.

"Aw, the lover's first quarrel," Duncan grins.

"I'm glad we're not missing this. This is history in the making," Bowman added laughing like a hyena.

Both, Tristan and I, turn to the hooligans and scream, "Shut up!"

"Are we done here?" I impatiently asked him turning to him.

"No! We need to talk," he tells me a bit desperately. "Rory I want to be with your and you want to be with me. Why can't you just admit it?"

"I did admit it when I came to your house and saw you with that girl!" I said with my voice above the normal tone.

Gasps could literally be heard throughout the crowd.

"How many times do I have to tell you? She's my cousin!"

"Yeah right," I heard a girl say in the crowd behind me.

Turning to her I smiled and said, "Thank you," my arms dramatically flaring in the air.

"Why don't you believe me?" he asked me once I turned to face him.

"Because I don't want to!" I blurted out.

Word vomit sucks.

"What? Why?" he asked confused and hurt; the anger was out of his voice.

Mind as well get it all out in the open.

"Because I love you too much."

Once again, gasps were heard.

"You're one of those things that are too good to be true," I continued, ignoring everyone, but him, "I didn't want to fall so hard that in the end I'd eventually get hurt."

"I'm here waiting for you, Ror," he smiled.

"Well you can leave because I won't be arriving," I said before leaving the scene and the school.

Hopefully this won't be added to my list of regrets.

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