A/N: okay I know there was a lot of the club scene chapters but I swear that this is the end of that and the start of more BxJ POV and romance. Hope you all enjoyed the chapters so far. Bear in mind this is my first fic let alone anything juicy. So keep your feedback coming and let me know what ya wanna see as well. Ya never know.

Many thanks to my Amazing Beta, Jasper's Darlin' Kathy for all her help and wisdom. Be sure to check her out as well as her colab story With Cullen818 under the penname:

Jasper's naughty girls titled 'You'll Be Mine'.

Alone their work is great but together they are one hell of a team!(darksper story) Another Story I would like to recommend if ya haven't seen it yet that is

'The Dartmouth Diaries' by Clurrabella.

The wonderful line at the end is all her so many thanks hun!

Okay on with the story, hope you enjoy.

Tish

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BPOV

I pushed into the kiss and tried to convey everything I was feeling in the moment. I was rewarded with another low growl that caused another wave of moisture and heat at my core. He slowly broke the kiss before kissing both of my cheeks and pulled back to look me in the eye.

His eyes were heavily hooded from lust as I'm sure mine were as well. His eyes were slowly returning to the lovely shade of topaz that all members of my special family have. Strangely enough I find comfort in them. Jasper's more so. I don't know if it's his ability or if it's him. However with them I am at peace. I'm where I belong.

He smiled down at me with the most breathtakingly beautiful and peaceful smile I have seen bestowed on his handsome face. I never took the time to really look at him. True when I first met the Cullen family I saw them as being god like beings among men. Greek gods no doubt. Jasper had this peace about him that was an undercurrent to his own self loathing and self conscious nature. I may not know all about him but I can't help but see the amazing being he is.

He is strong and not only in the physical aspect. He is kind and loving. A tortured soul perhaps. A beautiful soul non-the-less. I'm drawn to him for some reason I can't explain. I never felt this pull not even with Edward. I would be lying if I said my attraction and pull to him was just an aspect of the soul.

Fully clothed you could tell his body was god-like. Every muscle was defined. He was perfectly balanced. Not as bulky as Emmett or as lean as Edward. Though I guess there is a big difference there. Edward is eternally a teenage boy where Jasper is a man in every sense of the word. I could feel the evidence of this against my thigh. The proximity and thought of what he could do sent a shiver down my spine. He smirked and winked at me and I knew he read my desire. He cupped my cheek and straightened himself out and slightly away from me.

I whimpered involuntarily at the loss of contact, but he only smiled sweetly at me before he broke the comfortable silence.

"Darlin' why don't ya go ahead to the ladies room and freshen up a bit, less ammunition you give Em the better." he chuckled and winked at me. Again my traitorous blush appeared and he ran his thumb over my cheek bone before he kissed me teasingly chaste to what we just shared a moment ago.

I turned on my heels and started to walk away when I was rewarded with a smack to my backside. I kept walking but looked over my shoulder and winked ever so coy at him before he headed toward the rest of the group. I made my way swiftly to the ladies room and after checking for others, finding no one was in there, I locked the door. I made my way over to the sink and splashed cold water into my face and patted it dry with the paper towels before looking at my reflection.

What the hell was I doing?! This Is Jasper Cullen we are talking about. True he is a God, but still... He is my recent Ex's brother and my supposed best friend's former husband...I'm so lost. Not that long ago I was still pinning over Edward and now this? What the hell is wrong with me? Why this, Why now, Why him?!

"Argh!" I cried out in annoyance and desperation all the same

"Why does this have to be so damn confusing?"

I breathed in a few deep breaths to calm myself and look back into the mirror, and into my own eyes. For the first time since Edward left I see them gaining life back into them. This is different right? The chemistry between us had never had a chance before with Edward to develop, but now there is something there even I can't deny.

It's so much stronger than I could ever imagine. Does he even feel this way about me?! Oh, hell. What am I setting myself up for? I closed my eyes and the stress of everything came crashing into me. All I was feeling felt like a ton of brick but at the same time new and lifting. A single tear rolled down my cheek and as I was about to wipe it away there was a knock at the door.

"Bella sweetheart, its Amara open up, I swear I'm alone. Please?"

I trudged my way over to the door knowing if she really wanted in she could break it down. As soon as she opened it she saw the tear I failed to wipe and rushed in closing and locking the door back behind her. She turned slowly and opened her arms to me she held me there for a min before speaking.

"Sweetheart, if there is one thing I know from all my years is sometimes you have to just go with what you feel. Love is a dangerously wicked thing. So easy to fall and even easier to break. The saying 'better to love and loss than never love at all' could never be truer today as it was when created. Follow your heart hun. Don't over think it. I know you're hurt and confused. Just go with it. Even with the chance of being hurt its worth that risk"

"I don't know if I can survive that kind of break again, Amara. I'm not strong enough."

"Now you listen here. I have only met a soul such as yours once. You are courageous, Loving, Humble and pure. There is a strength in you that is so rarely seen. Don't judge yourself and give up before you even have a chance. If you live for eternity or a few decades, an outlook like that would only lead to one existing. Life is too short or in an immortal's case too long to live like that. Follow your heart. Giving in isn't giving up. You deserve this chance. C'mon now let's clear up this face of yours and fix your make up so you can get out to the hot lil' Cowboy you have waiting for you." She winked at me fixed my makeup and before opening the door she turned to me.

"Everything is gonna work out just fine. You wait and see… Oh, by the way, you should call dear ol' dad and tell him you're staying with me for the weekend and to call you cell."

I quickly made the call to him and being tired enough didn't ask too many questions thank God. We left the ladies room and made our way to their table. The booth was U shaped and there were only two spots available for me to sit. Amara sat first. She was next to Rosalie, Emmett was in the middle of the booth with Jasper on his right. The only available spot was next to Jasper. Even with all that happened it was a bit awkward in front of the other two. I sat next to him sighing. He leaned over and whispered into my ear.

"Darlin, You alright. I know what you're feeling but I don't know why? I didn't make you feel uncomfortable did I hun?"

I turned to look at him and once again I was lost in his Gaze so much of his own emotions showed in his eyes. I was lost in it all. He looked at me with such love that I knew I would easily get lost in him. I knew from that single look that I would at least let things go. Amara said I just got to go with the flow. That's exactly what I'm going to do. I saw Jasper smirk when he obviously felt my resolve and content.

"I'm gonna be just fine, Jazz."

"Gonna be?"

"Yeah truth be told things weren't great for me when you guys left, but I'm starting to see clearer skies ahead."

He smiled and nodded his head before wrapping his arm around my shoulder and kissing my temple. I saw Rose give me a strange look as he did this. Emmett was of course the first to respond

"Bells that was some dance you gave Jazz out there." He said with a mischievous smile on his face I knew were this was going and decided to cut him off at the quick by throwing it right back at him.

"Yes it was Em. Just thinking about it gets me hot all over again." I winked at jasper and crossed my legs while looking seriously At Em. "In fact, I was hoping for a encore what do you think Jazz? Care for another dance?" He gently placed a hand on my thigh and the feeling of it sent fire thru my veins. God, what he does to me with the simplest of touches. Amara took my silence to speak up.

"I don't know if it could have gotten any hotter girl. I doubt Rose and Em could top that"

Rose of course was in tune with her game.

"Ya know I think you're right Amara; that was hot as hell. I don't know where this new Bella is coming from but damn it I love her." She gave me a sweet smile that was completely out of her character but it nice to finally be close to Rose.

"Hey! You know damn well we can top that weak display babe."

She patted her shoulder.

"Whatever you say,Grizz"

"You know what let's show em' how it's done Rosie!" he growled lightly in her ear.

"Fine one more dance than we should get going soon."

Jasper picked me up and placed me into his lap my legs crossing over my seat in the booth. He brushed my hair away from my neck. He started trailing kisses from my shoulder to the nape of my neck and I moaned softly before I felt his breath on my neck next to my ear and shivered.

"What do ya say darlin' wanna give them one more show for the road?" he nuzzled my ear and kissed my neck once more before I answered.

"Let's go then."

I jumped up off his lap and started towards the dance floor. He was still in shock at the booth. He quickly regained himself and started to follow. Amara found someone to dance with herself. Em and Rose were all ready grinding by the time I reached the floor. As soon as I stepped in spot near them Closer by Neyo started playing. I started swaying to the beat, calling Jasper over with my index finger.

He came up and twirled me around pressing his chest into my back. He started swaying with me. His hand went up to my hair and gathered it into a makeshift pony tail and he began to trail open kisses along my shoulders and neck while his other hand trailed down my sides. Slightly grazing over my breasts his hand finally rested on my hip. He let go of my hair and repeated his previous actions with his free hand. He gripped my hips roughly gathering my dress in his hands as he shoved me into himself. I started rolling my body against him and arched my back a bit resting my head against his chest. He lowered his head and started kissing my shoulder and collarbone. I felt him grasp my hips again before releasing slightly trailing his hands lower onto my thighs as we dipped in unison.

Without warning he spun me around facing him and I placed one arm around his neck and the other on his chest. He placed one leg between mine and pulled me against him roughly once more. That's when I felt him and all his glory pressing into my lower stomach as he gave me the most delicious friction with his leg. I couldn't help the moan that came out of my mouth.

"Jesus, Bella." He moaned in return and started to kiss my neck, to my jaw tracing his way up to my lips while we grinded against each other. His hands exploring my back started to lower till he caressed my ass and pushed me against him at the same time his mouth came to mine. Not waiting for entrance he went right to passionately tasting and caressing me with his tongue.

I slowly trailed the hand on his chest down to his jeans and traced along the waist band with my finger before grasping it and pulling him closer to me. His hands lowered from my ass to my upper thigh and continued the descent. Soon his hands found my bare thighs. He slowly worked his way down before cupping his hand behind one of my knees and hitching it over his hip and he rolled himself into me and I could feel his entire length against my overheated core. He growled lowly into my mouth and repeated his action once more before lowering my leg and placing his hands on my hips. He slowly released my mouth from his and I groaned at the loss. He chuckled lightly and rested his forehead against mine.

I slowly opened my eyes to find his still closed. He looked Beautifully at peace and had such a simple and lovely smile on his face he opened his eyes and placed a gently kiss on the tip of my nose and a sensual yet chaste kiss on my lips before he wrapped his arms around me holding my body to his as if I would run at any moment. His breathing was ragged as was mine. Never before had I felt so much. Surprisingly though it didn't change anything and I was relaxed about it all. Once he breathing was calmed he pulled slightly away from me. I felt his hand relax and he splayed out his fingers giving him a fuller grasp at my hips. I started to sway again against him in a more sensual manner and I felt his evident arousal and it only spurred on my desire for him. He tensed and I felt him lean in and kissed me right below my ear before he whispered.

"Come back to our house tonight Darlin' ?"

"What about Amara?"

"She is welcome too. I'm not a man to beg but I'm not against it right now, please come? I swear I'll behave, but we just got you back in our lives and I'm not ready to let you go just yet."

"Neither am I, Jazzy. Who said you had to behave anyway, where's the fun in that?" I finished with a pout.

He leaned in and took my bottom lip in his mouth while pushing me tighter against him. He growled low and the vibrations sent a wave of heat to my core. I moaned at the sheer ecstasy of it. He licked lightly over where he had locked onto my lip before passionately kissing me. I could never get enough of his spicy and sweet taste. I was falling fast and falling hard. I knew I was setting myself up for potential heartache, but couldn't find it in me to care. When he pulled away I saw his eyes hooded with Lust and desire and something else I couldn't quite put my finger on...

"You're playing with fire there Darlin'!"

"Then burn me, Jasper!"