************ALL CHARCTER BELONG TO J.K ROWLING**********
Why did it have to be this way? Why couldn't life give him a break? All his life he had to fight the remarks and prejudice on his condition. He couldn't even get a decent job. When he had been feeling like there was no point in life he had been given a chance, Dumbledore had given him a job. There Remus had found people who accepted him and for a moment, he was reunited with his old friend. But the curse had to ruin that one happy moment. And it was ruining another, one that didn't even have a chance to begin.
Remus had told himself countless times that a relationship with someone would only lead into dangerous territory. Over his school years he overcame the loneliness with the company of his friends. But now, they were all gone. And the truth of the world reared its ugly head. Hogwarts the only place that had shielded him from the ugliness of the world was no longer there to keep him secured.
He had been careful with the few lovers that he took, they were always one night stands, he'd never let them go anywhere. While the hunger was satisfied for awhile the emptiness wasn't. And when he met Tonks, for a moment the emptiness subsided. Just her company made him forget the world, and for those moments it was just the two of them. He was captivated by her mere presence, and like a moth to a flame he followed her, Tonks laughter and her joy seemed to fill him inside were he thought he no longer felt.
And then that he had to cross the line, Remus thought bitterly taking another gulp of his whiskey. He had watched as Tonks was being wooed by other men and that had made him take action, though he hadn't meant to. He had gone to her flat and made love to her and now… now he knew that it had been a mistake. For now he had caught a glimpse of a future that could never be.
Remus was sitting in an old bar, having a drink, alone. He normally wouldn't drink but everything seemed to be going down hill and he needed something to make him forget. Yet he found himself thinking about the one person he didn't want to think about.
Tonks would move on, he told himself. She would find someone to love and he would be left alone forced to witness the happiness that could have been theirs. Yet he would mange, how he didn't know.
He had been drinking for some time, he knew he should stop but when ever he put the glass of whisky down he was reminded that when he got home there would be no one to welcome him back. He orders another.
***I'm grateful to all the kind remarks and constructive comments. I'm glad this is turning out ok since English is my second language, I wonder if you all have noticed? LOL Anyway I will be trying to put more of the encounters of Remus and Tonks that I left out in the beginning ( as memories). I'll try to post up soon, hoped you enjoyed!