"Did he hurt you?" Was all James replied as he looked down at me from the doorway.
"No... not physically" I said trying to wipe my face.
James nodded. "You wanna talk about it" he asked.
I looked at James, I had been so nasty to him. I tried to defend Kendalls honor so much that I had lost a good friend like James through it.
"No im good... thank you James" I replied trying to stop my tears.
James held his hand out to help me up.
"How come you can still be nice to me?" I said taking his hand getting up. "I haven't spoken to you in two weeks" I sniffed.
James exhaled and gave me a small smile. "Because I can see the bigger picture Sheri" he said as we left Kendalls room.
I didn't know what that meant and I didn't have the energy to ask. I just nodded my head.
I stood awkwardly in the hallway. James entered the bathroom briefly and came out with some tissue, he handed it to me.
"Thank you" I said taking it and drying my eyes.
"Logan said something about a movie a second ago, when I came in... do you mind if I tag along? I think maybe a third party will help you not to... say anything silly" James said.
Shock smacked over my face. "Did you over hear Kendall and I?" I whispered.
"It doesn't make any difference if I did or I didn't Sheri" he replied.
Why was he talking in riddles. "Kay" I replied, more agreeing to him tagging along to the cinema than to the cryptic sentences he was coming out with.
So now I had to look happy on the out side for Logan so he wouldn't think anything was wrong, Carlos was ignoring me and now James was being overly nice trying to keep my emotions together.
I just wanted today to be over! I wanted to hide in the bathroom and cry my eyes out over Kendall. I spun my phone in my hand wondering to text him. But the glares I received from Carlos scared me enough to not contact him yet.
"You're very quiet Sheri" Logan said as he drove James and I to the movie theatre.
"Just tired I think" I replied.
"Maybe your catching what Logan had?" James added from the back seat.
Logan glanced at James in his rear view mirror. "I'm doing okay now" Logan said.
I rolled my eyes, Logan's illness would be fine one minute then hurt the next. He had missed out on some fun things over the weekends because of it. He never moaned though, he always just got on with it. Making sure I never missed out on anything while he stayed at home. It did worry me though, it scared me as to what was wrong with him.
I began to feel very bitter the more I thought about how Kendall had just upped and left like that.
If he loved me as much as he said, he would of heard me out. He would of wanted a reason to keep me. He didn't give us a chance.
I looked over to Logan as he drove. Beautiful, reliable Logan who thought the world of me, he wanted to marry me someday and here I was fucking all that up. I listened as he sang along to the radio. He made me smile so bad.
I had been so stupid to of almost messed it up.
"I was thinking Sheri, when I go to the airport I would prefer to say goodbye to you at the house. I can just imagine the state your going to be in when I go" he said.
I looked at Logan and burst in to tears.
"Sheri... baby c'mon, it's only a week" he soothed exchanging "here we go again" looks with James in his mirror.
"Is this why your so quiet, you don't want me to go?" He asked softly.
I shrugged. It wasn't the full reason but it was a huge one now. I didn't want to be alone without him. I needed him. I wanted to get us back on track.
Logan gave my hand a squeeze which made more tears roll down my face.
Even at the cinema as we waited around for the doors to open to our screen I clung on to Logan. He wore a leather jacket and some jeans, the smell from the leather was lovely mixed in with Logan's safe scent of home and security. He kissed the top of my head.
I cuddled in to his chest as we stood in the busy cinema, I looked at James, who gave me a smile. He was holding two colas, a huge bag of popcorn, candy floss and a bag of haribos.
I think he was worried that Logan would need his arms free to try and stop me from being an emotional wreck like in the car. My tears had stopped but my brain and heart were in turmoil.
Even here at the cinema I was thinking of Kendall. The story he told me about his first seizure and how Mackenzie reacted.
I bit back on tears and turned my head burying myself completely in to Logan.
Again I felt him kiss the top of my head. I looked up and gave him a smile. As I rested once again in his chest, I banged my head on something hard in his inside pocket of his leather jacket.
I let out a little laugh and rubbed my head.
"Ow" I smiled looking back up at Logan.
"What's up with you?" He smiled back.
"I head butted your chest" I laughed patting him down to find the offending object. "What is that?" I asked feeling the hard square shape in his inside breast pocket.
"I'm not sure.. er... gum?" He said with an awkward smile. "I heard this movie is amazing" Logan added.
His distraction technique bothered me. "What is it?" I asked again putting my hand inside his jacket. I said it in a jokey way, but my tone made it clear I wanted to see what he was trying to hide.
Logan tried to stop my hand from pulling whatever it was out but I was already in and grasped it in my hand.
"Sheri just leave it!" He snapped with a deranged smile on his face, which I gathered was for James's benefit.
I yanked whatever it was out of the pocket, in my power struggle with Logan it fell to the floor.
The three of us stared at the cell phone that now lay in two pieces on the ground.
Logan looked at me, his eyes wide.
I picked the cell up and clipped the battery back on that had fallen off in the impact.
I turned It around in my hand trying to figure out why Logan had this.
"This isn't your phone?" I asked now lifting his jacket up to see the distinct bulge in his jean pocket of the cell phone Logan did own.
"Did you steal this from someone?" I asked completely confused.
Logan didn't say a word. The crowd around us filtered in to the cinema screen that was now ready. Only Logan, James and I remained. All three of us looking at this crappy looking flip phone that I couldn't figure out why Logan had kept it in his pocket.
"Sheri..." Logan said holding his hand out to stop me, as he saw me turn it on.
I smacked his hand away and saw Logan raise both of his hands on to his head as the phone loaded itself up. Images in my mind flashed back to Kendall who had done exactly the same thing with his hands when he decided he didn't want me anymore.
The tears started rolling as I realised this wasn't going to end well. James placed his armfulls of confectionary on a nearby table. I think he realised that our night out had ended.
"Is this your phone?" I whispered through my tears to Logan.
Logan nodded, his own eyes giving away emotion that I never wanted to see from the one person that I thought would never hurt me.
I already knew then what it was I was going to find on this phone, but knowing it didn't make seeing it any easier.
'Cass'
'Cass'
'Cass'
'Cass' said the call and text history, the list was endless. It just went on and on.
I felt sick, my hands trembled.
"Cassandra?" I said through broken sobs.
"I'm so sorry" Logan said. His tears now falling silently down his face.
I sat down on a chair next to where James had placed all the drinks and food. Logan sat opposite me.
"You've been seeing her behind my back? How long for?" I cried, not really wanting an answer.
The world seemed to be running in slow motion, I heard him say "a few months".
The ache in my heart I now had was so painful, even the worst hits I had taken from my father didn't hurt any where near as much as this.
My brain kicked in to action as I tried to work out how this had happened right under my nose. I was with Logan all the time, we worked together, lived together. How had this gone on for months?
"You don't really go running do you?" I asked.
I saw Logan swallow hard. He shook his head.
I wiped my eyes only to clear the way for fresh tears. "What about all the times you stayed at home because you were ill?"
Logan bit his lip as his red eyes showed he was sorry for hurting me. "Cass came round" he answered.
I buried my head in my hands and cried. "In our bed?!" I howled out.
"Im sorry Sheri" Logan replied.
My mind took me back to all the times Logan was in the toilet claiming he was unwell. "Were you ever sick?" I accused
"No" Logan said in a sad whisper.
I looked over to James who was witnessing this heartbreaking situation. He was now sat on a bench against a wall with his head bowed down looking at his hands.
"What were you doing all those times you were in the toilet?" I asked confused.
"Texting... Sheri im so sorry" he said again as he watched me fall to pieces in front of him.
"Do you not love me any more" I sobbed. I noticed the girl at the candy stall look at me sympathetically as she too watched on at mine and Logan's public relationship breakdown.
"I do, I honestly do. Sheri you don't understand how hard its been for me." Logan said trying to reason.
"What do you mean?" I sniffed.
"Well I was boxed in. I loved you, I still do, your my best fucking friend. But I couldn't just leave you behind with your dad. I couldn't do that baby... I took you with me to save you. To get you a fresh start. Us a fresh start. When you got the job and we got the house I realised that you didn't need to rely on me as much. It felt like a fresh of breath air for me Sheri" he explained through his tears.
"I saw cass at star bucks the other week. How long has she been in California?" I asked not being able to process what he was saying at all.
"She flew in not long after we got here" he said softly.
"That's why you didn't want to sleep with me?" I sobbed out.
"No...no not at all. Sheri you don't understand. I wanted us to work, I intended for us to work. But I realised I just wanted you safe. I have achieved that now" he said.
I slapped Logan hard around the face. "But it's perfectly fine for me to suck your cock?" I cried.
"That was all you Sheri." He said hurtfully.
"Is cass still here... in LA?" I asked in bits.
"Yeah..." Logan said with a nod.
I looked over to James again, we just stared at each other for a few seconds as he watched on from the side lines.
"Is she traveling home with you... Is that the reason you wanted to say bye at the house?" I asked as hot tears spilled from my eyes.
"Something like that yeah... I'm so sorry Sheri" he said.
"Something like that... Logan what else have you lied about?" I said in a trembling state of shock.
Logan looked at his hands, then back up to me.
"Just tell me Logan... I deserve the truth don't you think?!" I whispered.
"Logan!?" I tried again.
He looked up to me. "We weren't going to Texas. We were going on holiday to florida" he revealed.
My mouth made some opening and closing movements but nothing wanted to come out.
"But you were going to take me away after?! What about your gran, she is so sick!" I reminded him.
Logan shook his head.
"It's all a lie? Everything? Your gran isn't ill?" I asked.
"I haven't spoken to my family for so long. They no nothing about cass and I. As far as I'm aware my gran is perfectly healthy." He clarified. "I just wanted to get you safe, I was so mind set on doing that, that I forgot what it was like to not worry about anything, then when we came here and things turned out so good, I realised that there were more things I could think about than how to keep you in one piece." He said trying to take my hand.
I shrugged him away. "You promised you would never hurt me" I sobbed.
"I'm so sorry" he said now resting his head in his hands.
"Are you leaving me? ... to be with her, was that your plan?" I asked.
"Cass understands the situation we are in... you are in. She has been supportive of everything for us Sheri" he said then received another slap around the face from me, and another one until I was just going mental hitting Logan on the head, I still had his phone in one hand and managed to hit him hard with that. He just took it. Accepted that he deserved it.
James eventually came over and pulled me away. He squished his arms around me to stop me from hitting Logan.
"She understands the fucking situation!?" I screamed at him. " you fucker.. your a bastard Logan Henderson!" I yelled at him.
"Im sorry" was all he replied.
I struggled against James to Get free but he wasn't letting go. "ARE YOU LEAVING ME FOR HER!" I screamed at him.
"Yes" he replied, his own tears uncontrollable.
For the second time that day my legs buckled beneath me. James stopped me from falling to the ground. As I looked around in a daze I saw people standing and staring at the scene Logan and I had created.
"I want to go" I whispered through my tears to James.
"Okay, c'mon" he said wrapping his arm around me to steady my wobbly legs. I must of looked drunk. James took Logan's cell phone from my hand with a struggle and handed it back to him as we walked away.
"Deep breaths Sheri... Deep breaths" James said trying to help me gain some composure as we stepped out on to the busy streets of Los Angeles.
James guided me in to a taxi, once inside I cried my heart out, this time on James's shoulder.
author note: story will be updated tomorrow