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'Cause I'm feeling very generous today, here's another new chapter!

Also, I didn't have any intention to write another M rated scene at first, but that's just how it came out. So I hope you enjoy the extra rated M.

Warnings; sex and COUGHhint*title*hintCOUGH (Turn back now if you know/think that either will offend you!)

Disclaimer: I own nothing, but the plot. All else is SM's...even though part of me wishes it could be mine.

Chapter 19

A few minutes later we were sitting on the floor against the still closed bedroom door basking in the afterglow of our first time together. I was positioned comfortably in his lap with my head against his chest. His arms were wrapped around me keeping me in place. Not that I would move even for the world itself at this point.

"Wow."

"I know."

"I never knew it could be like that."

"Me neither."

"How?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "I honestly have no idea." And, I was being honest.

I mean, I saw it on different vampire TV shows plenty of times, but I never actually thought there was some truth to it.

"Well, whatever it is and however it works, I hope it never goes away."

I nodded my head against his chest. "Agreed."

We sat in comfortable silence for a few minutes before my mind so rudely threw me back into reality. A thought that I had been trying to keep out of my mind for the past few minutes came at me full force and was now front and center in my thoughts. As much as I wanted to stay in comfortable silence for a while longer, I knew that I couldn't.

With a sigh, I managed to sit up and look at him.

"What is it?" he asked, raising an eyebrow.

"I know that we kind of screwed all of this up by having sex first..." I momentarily trailed off. "But I think we should actually talk about things now."

Jacob sighed, but agreed. "Yeah, we really should."

Taking a deep breath, I looked him dead in the eyes. "Alright, first thing's first..." I trailed off, afraid of the response I would receive for what I was about to say. "And, please, Jake, be completely honest with me. Please," I begged him. "Don't lie to make me feel better or anything."

Jacob nodded in understanding. "Okay. I promise I won't lie to you," he assured me.

Swallowing the nervous lump in my throat, I tried to get out what I wanted to say. "You weren't...you had already...you already..."

Jacob looked at me confused and concerned. "Spit it out, Bells."

Looking down at my hands, where I was nervously playing with them in my lap, I forced myself to blurt out what I wanted to say as a question. "You weren't a virgin were you?

I was met by complete silence.

That's what I thought. Tears welled up in my eyes and swallowed the lump into my throat. The tears weren't because I now knew that he'd slept with Haley. The tears were for the fact that I could have easily prevented everything that had happened with me, with him and Haley...it could have all been prevented had I given into his pleas and stayed with Jacob.

Surely, Alice could have gotten to Volterra in time and somehow convinced Edward that I was still alive. I didn't actually have to go myself, but I did. I did because even though I was feeling something more for Jacob at that time, I was still naive enough to have not let Edward go completely. It took me going to Volterra, being held captive, and being turned into a hybrid for me to finally let Edward go.

In the process, I ruined what could have been with Jacob.

But, I knew that as much as the truth pained me, I couldn't let it control me and what would happen from now on. I had to rise above it and move on. All that mattered was that Jacob was here. With me. Right now. Nothing else mattered. Especially not the past. Only the present and future mattered.

"I'm so sorry, Bells," Jacob finally broke the silence, his voice faltering.

I shook my head quickly, and wiped the tears that managed to fall away from my face. "It's fine, Jacob," I told him, not being able to find it in me to look at him as I said it.

"Bella..."

I forced myself to look at him, and gave him a small smile, which was surprisingly genuine. "I swear it's fine," I said with a sigh. "Let's not worry about the past. What happened, happened. There's no way to change it."

I wasn't sure who I was trying to convince. Me? Him? Or both of us? Probably the latter.

"So, let's just let it go," I said, leaning down to hide my face in his neck.

That's when I noticed it. It was still there.

I quickly leaned back again.

"What is it, Bells? What's wrong?" Jacob asked concerned, noticing the look on my face.

"Lean forward," I ordered.

He looked confused, but did I said.

Once he leaned forward, I felt his back to see if the scratches I had left were still there. But, they weren't. Why the hell was the bite mark still there, then?

"Bells?" he questioned.

"The bite mark is still there," I told him. "But, the scratches aren't."

"It's still there?"

In an instant, still holding me, Jacob stood up.

He set me down on my feet and walked over to the mirror hanging on the wall.

"I'll be damned," he muttered under his breath.

"This isn't good. If the pack were to see that..."

"It probably wouldn't go very well," Jacob finished for me, turning around to face me.

I frowned. "Just when they accepted me for what I was, too."

What the hell is it with me and bad things freaking happening?! One after another, after another.

Wait a second!

"I know what to do!" I exclaimed suddenly, remembering the results of another one of my experiments with Bridget.

"What?" Jacob asked.

Oh, how was I going to break this to him.

"Umm...well..." I trailed off.

"What is it Bella?" he asked, walking up to me.

"Well, you'd have to...you'd have to..."

"Have to what?"

Looking down at the floor, I whispered, "Drink from me."

At first, Jacob was completely silent. But, then he spoke up.

"I'd have to drink from you?"

I nodded and slowly looked up at him. "Another one of my experiments with Bridget showed that for whatever reason my blood has the power to heal wounds."

More silence fell between us.

"Alright."

Shock me for the second time today, why don't you?

"Seriously?"

He nodded his head and shrugged. "Like I said before, Bells," he said as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

I looked at him and waited for him to finish what he was going to say.

"I trust you," he smiled, leaning forward to kiss me.

Oh, what a relief.

I smiled and kissed him back.

A minute or so later, we pulled apart.

"Alright, how are we going to do this?" Jacob asked.

I shrugged honestly having no clue how to answer him. "I don't know."

He thought for a moment, before taking my hand. "Come on," he said, leading me to his bedroom.

Once inside, he closed and locked the door.

Jacob walked over and sat down on his bed, pulling me into his lap, so that I was straddling him.

"Okay, let's do it," he said, taking a deep breath.

I nodded and brought my wrist up to my mouth. "You're absolutely sure?" I asked, double checking. "I don't want to do this if you don't truly want to."

Jacob sighed and leaned forward resting his forward on mine. "I trust you," was all he said.

I smiled and bit down on my wrist, hissing as my teeth cut through my skin.

Once I tasted my blood, I leaned back and brought my wrist up to Jacob's mouth.

We looked at each other and kept our eyes locked as he latched onto my wrist and started drinking.

Surprisingly, as he drank from me he was moaning as my blood hit his taste buds. I had only thought that vampires liked blood. But, his moans were proving me wrong. Maybe it was just my blood for whatever reason. Oh, how great that would be?

Oh god! To actually think that I thought only ten minutes or so ago that drinking his blood was the most sweetest sin there was. I'm pretty sure, I was being proven wrong right now. The feeling of him drinking from me was so mind-blowing, I could barely contain myself.

I watched enthralled as he drank from me, and slowly the bite mark faded away.

Between us, the more he drank, the harder he got.

I was extremely happy to know that I wasn't the only one getting turned on by this.

Without a second thought, I moved myself so that I was resting my weight on the bottom half of my legs, hovering over him. I wasted no time impaling myself on him.

We both moaned at the contact, and my wrist fell from his fell from his mouth.

In an instant, he was kissing me and I could taste my own blood. God, it was so sinfully delicious.

Needing more, I lifted myself almost completely and then dropped back down.

Jacob placed his hands on my hips and helped me in the motions.

Up. Down. Harder. Up. Down. Faster. Up. Down. Faster and Harder.

Moan after moan.

Groan after groan.

There wasn't a single sexual sound that wasn't escaping either one or both of us.

"Oh god!" I moaned, grabbing onto Jacob's shoulders for leverage as he pulled me down onto him and bucked his hips at the same time. "Jake!"

Still needing more, I moved my hands over his and brought them up to my breasts.

Taking the hint, he kneaded my breasts and ran his fingers back and forth over my already hard nipples.

I was panting like a cat in heat as I took over the motions and forcefully moved up and down on his cock, purposely clenching around him each time to hear the sounds coming from his mouth.

After a few minutes of the same motions, I felt the tightening in my stomach. "Jake, I...I'm..."

I didn't even have to finish what I was saying.

He got the memo loud and clear.

In the next moment, one of his hands was rubbing my clit while the other one wrapped around the back of my neck and pulled me down until our lips met in a forceful kiss. I could swear that I was suddenly in heaven. We kissed until I was right on the edge.

I quickly pulled away and brought my wrist back up to Jacob's mouth.

He swallowed and looked at me.

I nodded.

Without hesitation, his mouth was once again on my wrist, his hands holding me to him.

Yeah, as if I'd pull away.

The moment I felt my blood leaving me, I leaned down and bit into the side of his neck that I hadn't bitten into the last time.

As before, it was the most sweetest sin.

It was perfect.

~CCC~

Afterwards, we were both basking in the afterglow of our second time. I was still sitting in his lap, with my head on his chest, as well as him still inside of me. Due to my inability to procreate now, it wasn't really that big of a deal for him to pull out. Which, admittedly, I was actually kind of relieved and happy about.

"That was even better the second time," Jacob said, breaking the silence between us.

"Agreed," I smiled, reluctantly, getting off of him, and rolling over so that I could rest of back against his chest. "Oh shit!" I exclaimed.

"What?" Jacob asked, turning his head to look at me.

I was full of laughter at this point.

"What's so funny?"

Between fits of laughter, I managed to answer, "We...broke...the...bed!"

"We what?" he asked, looking down.

Sure enough we were on the mattress, which was now on the floor.

Soon, Jacob joined me in my fits of laughter.

"I was not aware of that," he laughed.

I shook my head as my laughter died down to giggles. "You need a bigger, more sturdy bed," I said, leaning my head against his shoulder, looking up at him.

He rolled his eyes. "Yeah, 'cause this room would fit a bigger bed," he said sarcastically.

"Oh, right." I looked around the room. "How will you explain your broken bed, then?"

He shrugged. "Hopefully, it'll never come to that."

"Knowing your luck, it probably will," I teased.

"Haha!"

"You know it's true."

In the next moment, I was regretting my words.

"No, stop, Jake!" I exclaimed trying to get away from him.

"Say sorry," he laughed, tickling me without any end in sight.

"No, I won't apologize!" I told him, refusing to surrender.

"Then, no I won't stop tickling you."

"Ah!" I screamed, squirming some more.

Even with my acquired vampire strength, I couldn't seem to get out of his grip. But, of course, being my stubborn self, I refused to surrender, so I decided to cheat. I would not say sorry. However, I would say something even better. 'Cause I had no idea if I'd ever get the chance to say what I wanted to say again.

Suddenly, the mood changed from playful to serious.

Jacob noticing the mood change, stopped tickling me.

In our new position, he towered over me.

He looked down at me, and I looked up at him. We were locked in another intense gaze.

"What is it, Bells?" he asked.

I really have no idea why, but I was crying now, and I felt the need to confess everything I was feeling right then and there. And, that's exactly what I did.

"I love you Jake. I've always loved you. I'm in love with you. And, regardless, of you being imprinted to Haley nothing will ever change that. I know that I can't give you kids and it sucks that that's why we can't be together, but I'm in love with you. I always will be," I told him pouring my heart and soul into my confession.

"I love you, too, Bella. You already know that. You've always known it. I'm in love with you, too. And, as much as I would love to have kids and continue the wolf heritage, I'd rather have all that with you."

"But, you can't," I cried, tears pouring down my face.

Jacob gave me a sad smile. "I know," he said quietly. "But, that's fine."

"What?" I asked, shocked by his words.

"As long as I have you, I'll be happy," he told me.

The tears quickly turned from sad tears to happy tears. "Oh, Jacob," I smiled through the tears.

I leaned up and pressed my lips gently to his before laying back down.

Jacob just looked at me intently and whispered, "Bells."

There was an instant, noticeable change in the atmosphere of the room.

But, at the moment, Jacob and I were only focused on each other.

So, there you have it, Chapter 19! Thoughts? Review, please?

Yes, I did write that as well! And, I assure you, there's a reason for it. It's not just there to be there. Any guesses?!

Next chapter; Jacob and Bella learn something about Jake's imprint on Haley and their connection. And, also...someone from Bella's past returns. Yikes! Who could it possibly be? And, what exactly does the person want?