Hey, so... in light of someone threatening to report my story because it is one of the many storys on here with sex in it... I'll be editing out a main part of this chapter. If you wish to read the whole chapter, I'm on Archiveofourown under the same name. I have more stories over there in fact since they're less restrictive.

Matthew stood in the bathroom, desperately splashing cold water on his face, "No no no no…!" He whispered as his cheeks warmed up again and again. His heat was starting early. This wasn't supposed to come for another week! He could already feel a familiar rush of urges kick in and it was making him panic. Quickly he growled, giving up on the water and drying his face. What the hell was he supposed to do?!

Of course he knew what he was supposed to do… He was supposed to push the call button and let the Beta's know… But the problem was he didn't want them to know! If they knew he'd be locked in the heat room while they prepped him. He wasn't ready yet!

He looked up at the clock whining, it was seven in the morning, and someone would be coming to bring him breakfast soon. Oh god… there was a good chance it would be Alfred… What would happen then?! His face paled.

Horribly at that moment he heard the main door open and close. He waited for a sign of who it was… Not Alfred, not Alfred please!

"Mattie? Where'd you go?"

Damnit! Matthew whimpered, feeling slick build and leak, soaking his underwear at the Alpha's voice. Matthew moved to pushed against the door, knowing if Alfred tried to open it he'd succeed, "G-Go away!" He called, unable to keep a desperate tone out of his voice, "I'm going to the bathroom!" please just leave… He'd never been around an Alpha in heat, he was scared.

"Are you okay?!" he could hear shoes hitting the hard floor.

"No! Please don't!" He cried. Don't get close enough to smell it on me… please! He didn't even know how much control Alpha's had, they weren't even allowed in the Haven under regular circumstances.

The pounding feet suddenly stopped signaling Alfred freezing, "M-Mattie… are you…?" Alfred's voice came from the other side of the door and Matthew only sobbed in reply, shaking to his core as fear mingled with the smell of heat.

"Awe shit… I… I need to… I'll get Marie Mattie just hang in there!" The sound of retreating footfalls left as Matthew slid down the door. Alfred was too fast for him to object, and what was the point?! He couldn't avoid this forever.

By the time the door opened again Matthew was panting lightly, it was so hot! He looked up from the bathroom floor, teary eyed, at the Betas who'd come to help him get ready.

Two of the three stripped him down, while the third piled blankets and pillows in the nest. It was a larger nest then what he was used to, the indentation in the floor a lot rounder than the more oval shape the Haven's had been… but seeing the material there he was already formulating exactly how he needed it all to sit. What to twist and fluff, where which piece would go… How big it would have to be to fit two…

As soon as he was stripped he felt a cool wash cloth cleaning him. He jolted, not use to this step! "Sit still darlin'." Marie chided as she continued, "Have to make sure you look presentable…" a brush was at his hair and he whimpered and shook again. He didn't want them touching him, he wanted to nest… he wanted the safety of the blankets around him!

"Why does it matter?! I want to nest~" He whined looking towards it and needing to get his hands on that pillow… it was on the wrong side…

"It matters because you'll be viewed this time… If you had wanted it to be less unpleasant you should have pressed the button when you first felt it coming on." Marie said matter-of-factly.

Matthew paled. He'd forgotten… The first mating wouldn't even just be him and Alfred in that room would it? A new anxiety joined his need to nest as Marie continued her work.

First mating was viewed to assure it happened, but also to be one hundred percent certain the Omega called out for their Alpha. It was considered consent then. One of the few rights an Omega had really. Of course after the mark was left, you were claimed and that was that. It didn't matter if you never called out again, because you belonged to them. Plus, it wasn't likely for an Omega to be able to resist calling… If they were outside, they would have called for any Alpha to stop the pain… Matthew would have.

Finally, when Marie was done, and he had, gratefully, finished preparing his nest, he settled into it, feeling a small amount of relief through the building discomfort. He had no idea why they had brushed his hair because even before that heat room opened again to allow whoever was coming in to enter, he had been rolling in the nest, trying to find a position that would be comfortable.

The procession came in, quietly filing into their positions. Matthew was caught between two extremes. The desperate wanting of his intensifying heat (causing him to pant and bite back moans as Alfred's scent caught his nose, slick dribbling down his thighs) and horrified embarrassment due to all the eyes suddenly on him.

When the door closed he looked up, the dark giving him the ability to see with his wide blown pupils. Alfred stood at the edge of the nest, naked, silent and respectfully waiting to be called. The look on his face was torn between apologetic and terrified, a blush covering it as well. Of course every time he looked towards his father, it was replaced with annoyance.

Alfred looked good… All sun kissed and glowing even in the dark, every inch strong and hard. One part very hard- No Matthew! But he whimpered, it was true, he could see how his scent was affecting the Alpha. Alfred's chest rising and falling, rosy with arousal that reached up to his face, his hands tight in fist, blue ring around his eyes barely visible… and that smell! No wonder Alphas weren't allowed in! It wasn't fair that he was being so swayed by biology.

Within five minutes of them being there, Matthew was twisting and turning, half sobbing half panting as he fought back the sounds. He'd tried rutting against his hand, the nest, anything that normally would have helped, but with Alfred there it wasn't good enough!

With his desperate display his face was bright red in the low lights. It was terrifying. All these people here when every other heat had been solitary, Arthur wearing a mask designed to stem the smell of heat, the staff, and even a small Omega who stuck so close to Arthur, they all lined the wall. They were all cast in shadows and towering over him from his position lying in the nest, exposed and tormented by his basic instincts.

"P-pl- mmnnnn!" He choked out, he was starting to lose all inhibition. The slick was soaking his sheets making them stick to him, a sheen of sweat over his face and neck plastering his hair there, his lower body was aching to be touched. The smell of Alphas in the room, especially one dealing with his own answering arousal, wasn't helping any of it much. Finally, his brain arguing that dragging it out was only making it worse, he looked up at the Alpha, taking in Alfred's strained features, his lip obviously being chewed. Matthew cringed deeply before he closed his eyes and quietly moaned, "Alfred~"

He didn't open his eyes as he felt the nest jostle, but he couldn't hold back the gasping and mewls as the smell of Alfred surrounded him fully. There were rough hands on him suddenly feeling his hips and stomach for the first time, stroking them. He started breathing heavier with panic, flashes of Arthur's rough hands touching him like that only months ago bringing tears to his eyes… He looked up to make sure it was Alfred, only feeling a small relief that it was. He didn't want this, he didn't want it at all! But his body needed it, called for it, and there was nothing he could do anymore… He closed his eyes again and braced himself for the raw hunger to set into Alfred. He was prepared for hard hands and fast rough motions, the teeth sinking in and the quick rutting…

But that's when soft arms wrapped around him, Matthew clinging on instinct and a little out of fear, but the Alpha's embrace was gentle. Through it, he could feel the tense shaking of holding back. That's when it clicked, Alfred was new at this too. And yet, he took a moment of hesitation to nuzzle his nose next to Matthew's ear, speaking softly, "I promise I won't hurt you Mattie…" His voice shook with restraint and need, "I'm so sorry… Don't be afraid okay?" Matthew barely gave a nod, tears falling down his cheeks.

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The pair both loosened their grasp as they came down. Alfred let go of his bite, lapping the tender area gently, but was still buried inside. They'd be stuck for the next while. Matthew cringed away closing his eyes tight as a harsh light of the door opening hit his face. He heard the footsteps of the people watching leave and when he reopened his eyes, he and Alfred were alone. A successful claim.

Matthew panted as he felt soft kisses on his neck and face. He was still in the afterglow which was the only reason he wasn't objecting to the affection, but his mind was creeping back. A level of upset ran through him, he'd just… and the begging…! He could feel tears prick at his eyes as his breathing ran uneven.

"Shhh shhh Mattie… It's okay. It's okay, okay? I'm sorry… I'm sorry I'd get off but uh…" He spoke, still slightly out of breath, Matthew looked up at Alfred's worried face and he felt guilty. Behind the Alpha's worry was a level of hurt and guilt.

"I'm okay…" Matthew murmured as Alfred wiped a tear off his face, "I'll be fine." Matthew said as his voice shook.

Alfred frowned deeper and moved to hold him again, "What can I do Mattie… what do you want me to do?"

If Alfred had asked that fifteen minutes ago, he'd tell Alfred to get out of his heat room, to leave him alone and let him suffer through this, but now…

Maybe it was the mark, or his heat, but Matthew clung back burying his face against Alfred's neck crying softly, "Just don't leave…" Matthew asked in a tiny voice, the sting of abandonment piercing him.

Alfred's hold tightened and he nodded, Matthew felt that comforting scent wash over him, "I won't go anywhere, I'm always going to be beside you." He didn't know why… but Matthew believed that in the moment.

Alfred didn't leave. He stayed the entire week, excessive amounts of food being brought for the two of them three times a day. Matthew found he was hungry. Heats alone tended to make him feel almost too sick with want to eat, but when there was someone to temporarily turn off the burning periodically, eating became much more appealing.

After that first nerve wracking mating, Matthew discovered he preferred Alfred behind him. Not only did it hit his slicking gland easier, making everything spin, it was easier the lay down comfortably while the knot was still in place. He'd take spooning over being crushed.

That's not to say he'd suddenly become enamoured… he hadn't. In between needy points and when they were unlocked, Matthew would curl up alone on one side of his nest, leaving Alfred on the other. Each time he caught the sad look on Alfred's face he felt a twinge, but Matthew couldn't. He couldn't just… give into it. Even if it was what his body called for, even if he wanted nothing more than to be close to the person who marked him… it felt too intimate and that scared him.

Mating was one thing, that was forced onto him, to both of them really, but he wasn't about to let himself get all cuddly and affectionate with Alfred when he had his head. What would the point be? Even if Matthew could find a way to work around the heartache he still felt, what would happen when Alfred decided Omegas were fun? Matthew was his first Omega experience, and he seemed to be enjoying it so far, what about when he got another couple?

When he did… what happened when the heats lined up? Did he pick his favourite? It stung even thinking of getting close to someone and having that happen. So he wouldn't. It was that simple. He was doing what he was supposed to, and he knew Alfred wouldn't force it… Not yet anyway.

It was the last day before Alfred asked for anything actually, "Mattie?" Alfred's voice said quietly. The Alpha had been startlingly quiet this whole ordeal so far, so Matthew didn't mind rolling over with a questioning hum. He was completely taken off guard to see tears in Alfred's eyes.

Matthew was too stunned to speak, but Alfred did instead, "I… I know you don't want to because ya know… everything, but… could I just hold you? Just a little please?" He looked so unbelievably sad, Matthew couldn't do anything but nod.

Warm arms wrapped around him, holding him close and he felt the Alpha shuddering, his breathing uneven, "Alfred… are… are you crying?" He asked, eyes open in shock and complete confusion.

"N-No…" He stuttered sniffling, "Alphas don't cr-cry…" He hiccupped and held closer.

Matthew wasn't exactly sure what to do with an upset Alpha… but he slowly wrapped his arms around Alfred, rubbing his back gently and awkwardly, "I'm sorry," Alfred whispered, "I'm supposed to be here for you… I just… I'm sorry I just needed…"

Matthew frowned as Alfred trailed off, "Needed…?"

Alfred's voice was small and Matthew hadn't thought that was possible, "I needed to feel like you didn't hate me… Even if you do. I'd understand it, I'm trying to be here for you and respect you and I know it won't be enough. Kiku told me… He told me all the stuff that happens to Omegas and all the things he saw and I know you've gone through a lot because of my dad and- please just, don't hate me…"

Matthew was caught between guilt and trying to process all that, "I uh…I don't hate you…" He muttered, "I just don't… I can't…" Matthew very much did not feel like playing share your feelings right now… but he was locked in a room with an Alpha who was apparently having a mental break because an Omega might hate him… It was beyond Matthew's comprehension, but anything to stop the awkward feeling… "I can't get attached." Matthew finally said red faced.

Alfred nodded against him, "It had to be hard losing him…" Alfred said, and Matthew was about to interject that that wasn't really completely what he meant, but Alfred kept speaking and it caught his attention.

"You know… I had someone I loved too." Matthew didn't say a thing, he had no clue what to say… "He's a beta… I was gonna ask him to marry me." Matthew nodded, cringing a little as his reason for distance was validated. At least he knew before he'd let himself get swept up in some stupid hormonal romance.

He was about to say he understood when suddenly Alfred held him closer, his voice panicking as he scrambled to explain more, though Matthew showed no upset and asked for no explanation, "I mean! It's not gonna happen now! I don't- I'm… I'm not like that… I couldn't be…" He said trailing off.

Matthew furrowed his brow, "You could… Alphas marry and have Omegas all the time don't they?"

"Yeah… but not me. I just think, ya know, one person right? It wouldn't be fair to him if I kept sneaking off once every three months to make babies we have to raise, or to you if I left you here all the time on your own." Alfred cringed, "Like I said… I don't wanna be my father."

At first Matthew tried to push off the statement with an internal thought of not minding being left alone, but a sick feeling settled in his stomach for thinking it. He rethought the words and felt his heart both swell and break. Alfred had picked him and left someone who he loved? It was out of duty… but still, he bit his lip and looked down, tears gathering in his eyes. He had been so cold so far… Alfred trying to keep him happy, all while hurting and thinking Matthew hated him, "I… I'm sorry." He whispered shakily.

He smelled the comforting warmth around him from the Alpha a second later, Alfred's voice sounding startled, "Hey hey no! Mattie… This isn't your fault! Not like you had much of a choice right?"

Matthew peaked up, tears still in his eyes. He had had no choices… He didn't choose to be born like this, or to be put in a Haven, or to be bought, fall in love, have his heart broken or end up breaking someone else's heart in the process… he moved to press his forehead to Alfred's chest, crying a little more for both of them.

He never thought he would cry for an Alpha… but he'd also gone without considering anything they had to give up or go through. He'd lumped them all in a group like Arthur or worse. He reasoned that this was all because his heat had his emotions on edge… But then the damn Alpha had to speak again!

"Look… I know this sounds cheesy, and it probably won't count for much under the circumstances, but…" He felt Alfred nuzzle against his hair, "I'm happy I have you Mattie. I'm not happy you're pretty much only here because you have no options… but, well… I guess I'm glad I could try and make it more bearable for someone…" Matthew sniffled and nodded. It was about as sweet as someone in his position could expect.

He spent the rest of his heat curled in Alfred's arms, letting him know, at the very least, that Matthew didn't hate him…