Ehehe... thanks everyone for your review... I wasn't sure about how well chapter 19 was going to be received... reading yaoi manga for a week can certainly... give you ideas about how you want to write about forbidden relationships... (lol.)

ThorongilAnime: thatd be awesome!. im sorta really curious bout yukikaze and i just really really wanna find out more bout him... ill id go look for it myself... im sorta busy right now T_T ehehe

cocojojo: I remember after reading ur comment bout having this fic as frautei... I was all...: NO WAY IS THAT HAPPENING. personally... i don't really like frau and teito as a couple. i always like ayanami and teito together... (no matter how screwed up it may be ever since theyre related but w/e...lol). this is an ayatei fic and always will be. ;)

Well... this is going to be my only chapter release this week... sorry! i got exams next week and i need to study... so the next release will be either released later on in the week, or just late...

My biggest problem with this chapter was connecting frautei breakup to aya finding tei... or something like that lol. hoping for the next chapter aya finally gets tei... no gaurantees.. lol not sure why im not typing out their names but whatever! xD! enjoy!

After the deed had been done, Frau looked down at the boy, disgusted with himself. The sheets had been completely streaked with liquid. Teito was trembling and he could see the sweat on the boy's back. He attempted to try touching Teito, in an attempt to console him but Teito refused to face him. He could hear the boy crying... "Teito... I..."

"Don't touch me!"Frau immediately recoiled and simply stared blankly at his hand. Shocked. He didn't even realize what he had done... "Get out!"

Frau shook his head and spoke softly to Teito. "I'm so sorry Teito..." He immediately left the room having spoken.

Having left the room, Frau tumbled through the hallways, but eventually made his way into the washrooms. He looked up into the mirror to see himself. He attempted to touch the mirror, but stopped. What he saw was an abomination of his former self. "Why did I...?!" He clenched his fists and collapsed against the sink. Abhorring his reflected image in the mirror. "How could I do that to Teito..." What he had done in that moment of ecstasy was already bad enough, but he had committed the unthinkable as Teito's guardian... He wanted to throw up. What he had done was inexcusable! "Teito..."The man lied on the cold stone floor. He stared blankly at the ceiling wishing to be erased from existence... wishing that he could undo what he had done...

There was a loud creak as an expressionless Castor appeared in the doorway. His eyes were remorseless and condemning. An expressionless Frau looked up at the bishop with disheartened blue eyes, and shortly after, looked away. They were surrounded by silence for an instant that seemed to be endless. He knew what Castor was going to say... He no longer had the right to be at Teito's side... to even see the boy.. Eventually, Frau got himself up and left Castor to himself.

Teito looked up after the doors had slammed shut. He looked around the room. There was a set of clothes identical to the ones that he had previously worn in the church set aside for him... But next to them, were the clothes that he had been wearing what felt like eons ago... The Barsburg military uniform... The uniform had Ayanami had given to him when he promised that he'd be his begleiter as long as he would give him information. Teito stared at the two sets of clothing in the moonlight. Teito wasn't going to allow himself to be bound to anyone. He wiped away his tears, put on some clothes and jumped out the window.

Master what are you doing?! Mikhail sounded desperate. He knew what Zehel had done was unforgivable... He could only watch quietly as he watched his master wander throughout the church courtyards to the building where they had kept all the hawkziles.

"I'm sorry Mikhail... I can't... I just can't get him out of my mind. Sorry... "Teito smashed through the doors and sighed. "I... I can't stay here anymore... Not after Frau..." He stopped short and shook his head. "It doesn't matter... I'm leaving..." He swiped a hawkzile and headed out the large broken doors.

Frau took a deep breath in and knocked on the door. The adrenaline had finally left him. "Teito... I'm sorry... Can we talk...?" He felt that he needed the boy's forgiveness... though he knew he didn't deserve it. There was no response. "Teito? Are you still awake?" Desperate now, Frau opened the door. "Teito!" The man kicked down the door and looked inside. Teito was gone. The windows were wide opened and their curtains fluttered in the wind. He immediately looked outside, but he couldn't see any traces of the boy. "TEITO!" Teito was leaving, and he knew it...

"Dammit! What the hell was I thinking?! How could I do that to him?!" He jumped out the window and looked around the Church courtyards. "How could I..." He slumped down against a wall. Guilt was consuming him. Not knowing where Teito would have gone, and knowing that he forced himself onto Teito was unbearable. In hopeless desperation, he looked up at the moon and saw a figure traveling in the night sky. To his dismay, he saw Teito leaving. He was horrified to see the boy go, and to see what he was wearing... "Teito! Where are you going?!" The boy made no reply. He simply remained silent...

Teito looked down one more at the Church... and at Frau. He could make out the tall man's structure in the distance. In the boy's mind, he wanted to forget everything again, but he knew... It could never have been undone. He looked at Frau one last time. The older man was screaming in vain into the wind. Words that perhaps may have been better left unheard and unspoken. and left the church. "I'm sorry Ouka... I guess I let all your efforts to go waste..."

After a few minutes of flying, Teito could see the Church disappear into the distance behind him...

The boy was flying blindly in the dark. His thoughts were muddled and still couldn't believe what had happened. All he wanted to do was forget everything that had happened... He flew aimlessly through the night heading in whatever random direction that his instincts took him. His only thought was to get away from the man who had betrayed him...

The boy was flying blindly in the dark. His thoughts were muddled and still couldn't believe what had happened. All he wanted to do was forget everything that had happened... He flew aimlessly through the night heading in whatever random direction that his instincts took only thought was to get away from the man who had betrayed him...

Several hours later, dawn was approaching and the first rays of morning were upon him. The boy was exhausted and hadn't slept had wink of sleep, but he kept moving forward. His mind was sluggish and his eye lids were slowly drooping. The Hawkzile was also tiring as it slowly began to descent in the sky... It had taken Teito to the First District and he could see the Hohsburg Fortress in the distance as every second took him closer to it... As the boy's eyelids began to flutter in an effort to stay awake, he wondered what he was doing. Why was he heading back to the First District? In his heart, Teito himself wondered why he was heading away from the church. Away from Frau... Frau after all, was family... But so was Ayanami, and by blood..."Ayanami-sama..." Teito felt himself give in to his fatigue as his eyes shut as lost consciousness, just as the Hawkzile began crashing towards the ground.

When the boy came to, he was in the hospital. Physically he didn't feel that anything was broken, but mentally... mentally he felt broken. He was betrayed by the person who he had trusted... He covered his eyes with his shivering hand. "I've been dirtied..." With his newfound solitude, the boy managed to shed a tear, as he wished to forget everything...

"What do you mean?" A cold voice echoed in the room. This immediately sent Teito upright, but his sore backside made him cringe.

"...Where am I?" Teito refused to turn and face him...he couldn't bear to look at Ayanami... not now... and not after what Frau had done...

"What do you mean?" Ayanami repeated himself. Teito shuddered to himself. He didn't want to answer... "Speak Teito Klein... if you do not..." His voice sneered. "I cannot guarantee her safety..."

"Ayanami..." Immediately, he turned to his right and faced Ayanami. The man was standing behind a chair with his sword out... His eyes met with the chair's occupant... "Ouka...!" She sat tensely before him. Ayanami's cold steel was caressing her neck...

"I'm sorry Teito... I... I couldn't stop Verloren..."

I read kapital 91 and... got some good ideas... gonna have to wait til exams are over til i get back to writing... until then... Im also hoping to have more... excitement...? I guess? or more oomph in the next chapter but... study time now T_T

Hope you enjoyed this week's release! :) Please review as I really want your feedback!