So I should be going back to updating regularly which is about once every 2 weeks. I know that seems long of a wait but that's all I'm able to do. I know its been a while since I last updated but I will try my hardest to keep going, I had midterms, but I'm done now. I will also be updating again tomorrow or Monday because I owe it to you guys! Thank you for supporting my story!
Let the party being!
The sunlight beamed through the windows and past the light blue curtains of the hospital room landing on Clare's face. She felt the heat and moved her head away from the light snuggling deeper into her pillow, but her pillow was hard and moving up and down. She opened her eyes slightly and saw that her pillow was clad in black. She looked up to see that it wasn't a pillow her head lied upon, but a sleeping Eli. His right arm was securely wrapped around her waist and his left hand held her broken one.
She smiled at the scene, but began to cry.
She hurt him, hurt him so bad. His left eye had a slight purplish hue to it, probably from Jake. And his lip had a fresh scar.
Clare sniffled and her body shook.
Eli opened his eyes from the sudden feeling and sound erupting from the fragile girl next to him. He felt his heart break looking at the sight. Why is she crying?
"Clare, whats wrong?"
"Everything.." she didn't move and just kept looking at the white wall next to her hospital bed. She was weeping for many reasons: she weeps for all the damage she's done to herself, she weeps for the harm she's done to Eli, and she weeps for the people who are worried about her right now.
She couldn't help herself, what was a girl to do? Anyone in her position would feel the same ways she does. She feels useless, alone, and frightened. She let Jake hurt her and hurt the people she loves; and she wants him to suffer as much as she has.
Clare suddenly shot up out of Eli's hold and instantly regretted it. Pain raced through her body and made her scream out in agony.
"Oh gosh!" more tears poured down her face as she bit back a sob, she didn't know how bad it was until that moment. She felt so broken, every piece of her was falling out of place and she hated that she couldn't stop it. She felt to strong warm arms pull her gently down onto the bed, she did not fight these arms, but welcomed them as they pulled her into Eli's lap.
"Clare! Why would you do that?" Eli wasn't mad at her, but was upset because of how broken she is.
"Because I couldn't do anything, I didn't do anything! I'm useless, alone, and deserved what happened to me. I don't deserve to be happy." she said hopelessly, what happened to the bright, optimistic, cheerful Clare he fell in love with?
"Clare, look at me." she kept her head hung low and refused to look at him, she didn't deserve to look at something as beautiful as him. Eli sighed and used his hands to cup the side of her face so she was looking him straight in the eyes.
"Why would you think of yourself that way?" he asked wiping away her fallen tears.
"How could I not? I created this huge mess and dragged everyone down with me. Everyone I care about got hurt because of me and I feel so guilty." more tears glittered in her blue eyes but she didn't let them fall.
"You have nothing to feel guilty for. You didn't know what to do, and that's okay. And no one got hurt because of you, so stop think such terrible things about yourself. I won't allow it." Eli spoke sincerely and pushed a curl behind her ear so he could see her beautiful face. She sighed and leaned into his warm hand, closed her eyes and yawned.
"Someone's still tired. It's only 6:30am, we should go back to sleep, unless you want to go down to the cafeteria and get some breakfast. I've heard from Adam that they have the best runny eggs ever!" She smiled at his sarcasm and shook her head.
"I just want to sleep, I don't think I should be moving for a while." he moved her off his lap gingerly and they both lied back down into the same position as before.
Clare looked up at Eli as he was looking down at her.
"Eli..."
"Yeah?"
She leaned up and placed a gentle kiss on his lips, it wasn't meant to be passionate, but simple. When she pulled away she noticed a pink hue crossing his cheeks.
"What was that for?"
"For being here for me through everything. I don't know what I would do without you." he didn't say anything because the smile on his face said enough. She smiled back and lied back down, using his chest as her pillow once again. He ran his fingers through her hair helping her fall back asleep and soon enough he fell back asleep too.
Few hours later
Adam walked down the hospital hallway looking for room 308. The last time he was here he was getting a bullet removed from his arm and was losing blood. He cringed at the feeling and continued down the hallway. He finally found the room and looked through the small glass that was on the door to make sure she was in there. He wasn't shocked to find that Eli was in there already keeping her company, but what puzzled him was that Eli wore that same outfit yesterday. He held the bear he gotten Clare in his right hand and knocked on the door.
Knock knock
"Come in!" yelled Clare.
"What up buttercup, how you feeling?" Adam asked taking a seat on a hard chair next to the bed and handed her the cute little stuffed bear, that says, 'I hope you feel beary better'.
"Awe! Its so cute Adam, thank you!" she ruffled Adams hair and gave her new teddy bear a home on her bed.
"No problem, anything for my favorite ginger. How long until you're able to leave?"
"The doctor said he wanted to run a few more tests to make sure I don't have any head damage and to check to see if anything else was broken because I was too swollen when I first go here for them to know for sure. So I guess later today, maybe tomorrow." Clare Explained.
" That's cool. So...Eli, what time did you get here? Did you wake up and throw on what you had on yesterday so that you got here faster?" Adam joked but Eli stayed quiet.
The door opened and Clare's nurse walked in.
"Hello, Ms. Edwards. How are you feeling this morning? Any pain?" the nurse asked.
"When I first woke up this morning everything hurt when I moved quickly, but when I fell back asleep and woke up again I felt much better." Clare explained to the nurse who wrote everything down on a clip board.
"That's an improvement, I'll be back around noon to bring you to your other tests." The nursed smiled and was about to leave the room but stopped before stepping through the door.
"Oh, what's your name?" she asked looking at Eli.
"I'm Eli?" Eli was confused to why the nurse was asking for his name.
"Well Clare you're very lucky to have a guy like Eli, it was very sweet of you to stay here all night for her like that." with that the nurse left the room and the room fell silent.
"Well, that explains why you're wearing the same clothes from yesterday, bro." Adam snickered and Eli threw the closest object near him, which was a plastic fork.
Adam ducked the fork and Eli rolled his eyes.
"Hey! No violence in here!" Clare laughed.
"Sorry, Clare." Adam and Eli said in unison which caused them all to break out into a fit of laughter.
"I should get going, but I'll be back later. I gotta go shower and change." Eli said getting up and leaned over the bed to place a kiss on Clare's forehead.
As Eli passed Adam he pinched his nose, "Yeah, go take twelve showers, you reek!"
"Ha-Ha, your soooo funny Adam." Eli said sarcastically and left the room.
"Sooo, what's going on with you and Dr. doom? You guys feeling the love again?" Clare's face turned red at his comment and stayed quiet.
"You think I don't notice it, or anyone else? I had Shane and Clary chewing my ear off yesterday about how much you guys love each other still and do nothing about it. Whats holding you back?" this made Clare think back to last night when she gave Eli that simple kiss, but knew it was much more than a 'Thank you for being there for me', it was a, 'I want to be with you and I know you want to be with me too' kiss. It was meant for Eli to start thinking about where they are heading after everything blows over because she knows he's been thinking about the other night when they were in her bed together.
"I don't know because he didn't want to talk about what happened the day Jake walked in on us and-"
"What did Jake walk in on exactly, but if its about you and Eli doing some crazy ass shit, I rather not hear about it." Adam and Clare both cringed at the thought.
"No, nothing like that. We were in my room working on our English essay and after a while we fell asleep and I woke up and we almost kissed..."
"Seriously! Then why aren't you two dating again? He even stayed here last night Clare, the child is clearly still in love with you!"
"I don't know." Clare answered honestly. She tried to talk to Eli about this but he wanted to focus on her health only.
"But last night I kissed him." she didn't realize she said it until she saw the look on Adam's face.
"Really? Why?" Adam asked excitidly.
"Well, he's been here for me the whole time and fought Jake when I couldn't. He's amazing and I let him go, why did I do that?" its the one question that she keeps asking herself but doesn't seem to have the answer for.
"Clare, you can't keep blaming yourself for breaking up with Eli. In a way it was a good thing. Eli would have never found out he was Bipolar and would still be a mess." Adam tried to make her understand that it wasn't her fault, but she still felt that it was. She couldn't help it. If they never broke up she wouldn't be in a hospital and Eli would have never dated Julia's killer.
" I know Adam, but-"
"But nothing, Clare. You're a great person and everyone makes mistakes, and mistakes are what make us human. So don't beat yourself up so much." Adam gave her a smile and she returned it, he can always make her feel better.
"Thanks, Adam."
"No problem. Did you talk to the police yet, and give a report?"
"Yeah, they left right before you came, they're gonna follow up on a few things and see if they're able to arrest Jake." Clare Explained.
"That's good. Are you going to court?"
"I'm going to have to seeing that he's only seventeen and has a right to a lawyer."
"Well, that sucks. They should just let him rot in jail for what he did to you."
"I guess, but the only proof I have of abuse from Jake is these bruises and Eli, and that might not be enough evidence to convict him." it scared Clare that Jake was still out there and could walk into the hospital at any time and hurt her again.
"Is there anyone else who can help you?"
"Yeah, the only other person who had a relationship with Jake, Imogen." Clare hated that she needed help from a killer.
Hope you guys enjoy this chapter I made it a bit longer so I can get this story moving along. I looked at the date I published this and I published this at the end of summer of 2011, awkward. So I might just do a few more chapters probably about 10 more. I would love to get some reviews! And tell me your opinion on the new Degrassi promos! I'm dying right now from lack of EClare! Oh and who do you want for class president, Clare or Drew? I'm going to make a poll on my page, so go vote!
~MadameDegrassi354