Sorry about the long wait on another chapter, but here it is. Enjoy! :)
I thought about it, every single day and every time. I find some doubts in what I should do. But if I'm true to myself and listen to my heart, I would know the answer. Oh, why do I have to be so stubborn? It's been a week since Rachel had asked and I can see the sadness in her eyes every time we meet and I don't have an answer for her. Even though she's trying to hide it for me, I can see it clearly. We are getting closer to when she has to leave and I don't know what's holding me back. Santana and Brittany think I should do it and don't understand why I haven't said yes yet. "Get your head out of your ass!" Santana told me one evening, when I have been moping around. It's a big decision! Why can't they understand that? It's me, leaving the only place I have practically known for an entirely different world. It's not a small town, but a big city. I am leaving my job, my family, friends and for a woman! If it had been a few years ago and people would have told me of these things; I would had laughed and thought them crazy.
"What are you thinking of?" Fran asked. I must have zoned out again. I put down the, now cold, coffee and looked towards her. She sat back down with a batch of cookies and placed them on the coffee table.
"Rachel has asked me to move to New York with her" I told her.
"Seriously?" I nodded. "That's freaking awesome, Quinn!" I was surprised. Not the reaction expected. She turned so she was facing me. "Please, tell me that you said yes to her instantly" She frowned when I didn't answer her. "You said no? Isn't it some kind of a rule among lesbians about uhauling? You know" She bumped her shoulder into mine "moving in on the first date" She smirked and I glared at her.
"No its not.."
"Did you say yes then?" She asked while she bit into a cookie.
"I haven't exactly answered her yet" I said nonchalant and took a sip of my coffee, not remembering it was cold. I winched at the taste and sat it down quickly.
"Are you crazy or just plain stupid?"
"Why are you all like that? Like it's so fucking easy to just leave everything?" Frannie raised an eyebrow at me. "Sorry". I ducked my head and picked at my dress. Fran sighed and spoke again.
"I'm not saying it's easy, Quinn. You're not leaving anything. You'll still have your family and friends, even though we're miles away. I'll still be there for you if you need me, even if it's in the middle of the night. You know that and seriously? Rachel loves you. I can see the way she looks at you. She won't treat you bad and she would definitely make sure that you are good in New York. You should take up the offer, but it's your decision no matter what. Don't feel pressured to say yes or anything" She said and gave me a smile. I immediately leaned over to give a hug.
"Thank you" I said and tried to hide the crack in my voice. She wrapped her arms around me and held my tightly.
"You can talk to me about anything. I'll not always have the right answers, but I'll always be here for you when you need me" She said reassuringly when she leaned back and wiped away the stray tear that had slipped. "I love you little sis"
"I will. I love you too. Even when you're a pain in the ass" I said and sat back on the couch.
"Way to ruin a moment, Quinnie" She mocked and laughed when I tried to hit her with a pillow. "Oh, my little sister is all growing up!" I rolled my eyes.
"Basically, I've been a grown-up for quite some time now"
"Not for me. For me you'll always be that little girl who was scared of the monster in the basement" She grinned.
"Yeah, you had some fun with that" I glared but with a tiny smile on my lips.
"That I did" She chuckled.
"So, when it's my niece coming home?" I asked and sat back with a fresh cup of coffee.
My hand ran up and down her bare thighs as she straddled me in the car. I had picked up Rachel from her rehearsal at the theater and she seemed stressed out, so I decided to unstress her. At the moment her blouse was off and her bra pushed down to reveal her breasts. My hand glided to her ass as she started to grind into me. My mouth found her stiff nipple and I sucked gently on them. Rachel's hands moved from my shoulders to my hair and she almost pushed me into her chest. I moved a hand from her glorious ass and slowly moved it to open her jeans. I zipped down and moved my hand under the waistband of her pants and I let out a moan at the wetness I met. "You feel so good" I said and moved my head to capture her lips as I slipped two fingers past her wet entrance. It surprised Rachel, but then she started to ride my hand quickly. She looked up, leaving her neck for me to ravish and I took the opportunity. I attacked her neck with my lips and teeth and Rachel rode my hand faster.
"Oh, god! Quinn…" She moaned and I could feel my own moisture in my pants. It didn't take long for her to come undone. She moaned out my name and I moved faster into her as I could feel her clenching my fingers. She slumped down on me and I could feel her short breaths hitting my cheek. I grinned as I slipped out of her and placed a kiss on her cheek. I held her as she slowly collected herself. The car was all fogged since it wasn't warm outside anymore and I was thankful for the nighttime, so everybody couldn't see what we had been doing.
"So" I started. "What's the plan for when we get to New York?"Rachel immediately sat back up and looked at me with widened eyes.
"What?"
"I mean, do we find our own place or do you still have your apartment?" Rachel squealed and guess what… It was pretty darn loud.
"Are you serious?"I nodded and grinned at her.
"Yes. You're stuck with me baby" She hugged me very tightly. "If you want me with you in New York, you have to release me or else you'll be bringing a dead body and I really don't think that's legal" I took a deep breath as she released me.
"Sorry" She said sheepishly. "I just... I'm so happy and excited and-and I'm having a difficultly to contain my excitement!" She said and jumped in my lap. I winched and she stopped. "Sorry again"
"It's fine. I'm glad you're happy. I know I have kept you in the dark with this one and believe me I have noticed you've been sad about it" Rachel looked away. I moved to put her bra again and cupped her cheek to make her look at me. "I had to be sure. I wouldn't want to make the wrong decision. It would just make us both miserable. No reason for that" I leaned in and gently kissed her lips.
"I understand that. Sometimes I just want everything and every time it fails. It didn't want this to me a failure too. So I gave you time. I just thought that I hid my feelings about it a bit better, but I've never been good at that. I'm really happy, Quinn" she said and spotted her blouse. She reached out for it and put it back on.
"I love you and I'll love to live with you in the big city" I said and kissed her again.
"I love you too. So much" She grinned and hugged me again. She moved off me and sat next to me in the passenger's seat. "To answer your question" She said and put on her seatbelt as I started the car "I have my own apartment. Kurt has made sure that it was in a fine condition while I've been here. I decided to not give it up, because I didn't know what I wanted at the moment I left"
"Okay" I nodded.
"And there's room enough for the two of us. If that's fine for you" She added quickly "I don't want to put all of this down on you, if you want something different"
"As long as you're with me, it's perfect" I said and laid a hand on her thigh. She grabbed my hand.
"That was cheesy, Miss Fabray" Rachel said and laughed.
"Yeah, but you like it"
"That I do"
"My place?" I asked as we drove away from the theater.
"Fine by me if I can take a shower" I nodded. "Great" Rachel turned up for the music and sang along. She was clearly happy again and I loved it.
"Hey Britt" I yelled as we stepped into the house. There was a faint hello from the living room. Santana wasn't home for a few days as she had meetings out of town.
"Hi Rachel" Brittany said as we came into the living room. She looked away from her movie to give a quick smile, before giving her attention back to the TV.
"Hello Brittany" Rachel answered. "I'll borrow the shower, okay? I feel kind of dirty" She kissed my cheek and walked out the room. I smirked and sat down next to Brittany on the couch.
"So, did you tell her?" She asked and turned to me with an excited smile.
"Yes, I did. She got very happy and excited" I reached forward to grab some of her popcorn. "I'm moving to New York" It felt so weird. Knowing that I'm almost out of this town where I have spend the most of my life in.
"I'm really happy for you, Q. So is Santana"
"Santana is only happy, because she gets her house back and doesn't have to keep her sex life in the bedroom only" I said and laughed.
"Probably" Brittany grinned "No, she's really is happy for you"
"I know" I nodded. Brittany laid her head on my shoulder and sighed contently. Like the puzzle in her life had just been fixed. She has always taken good care of us and over the years, she has grown to a bright, in her own way, woman who knows what she wants. I'm really proud of her. "I'm happy too" I smiled and laid my head on hers.
"When are you moving?" She asked after some time.
"I don't know yet. Rachel told me that Shue is back in about two months or more. I really don't know what that man is doing. He should have been back months ago, but you know him" Britt nodded knowingly." Either way, we still need to talk about all the details and what we were going to do. There's a lot of stuff to work out"
"Two months isn't so far away"
"It's definitely not. That's why we need to talk. I don't want to go blind into this thing, if you know what I mean" I moved and sat back up to look at her properly.
"I get it. You've always been some kind of a control freak"
"Hey!" I slapped her gently and she chuckled.
"Just don't over think things. Quinn. Let loose a little" She said and stood up. She grabbed the empty bowl and gave me a smile, before walking towards the kitchen. I frowned but understood her words. I tend to do those things.
"What are you talking about?" Rachel asked as she came into the room. I jumped a bit as I haven't expected her. "Sorry" I looked at her and smiled. She was wearing one of my shirts and a loose pair of sweatpants. Her hair was a bit curled from the shower and resting on her shoulder. She looked beautiful and I told her so. "Thank you" She blushed. I pulled her down into my lap and nuzzled into her neck. I smelled my shampoo on her and it was intoxicating.
"We were talking about New York and plans" I mumbled as I softly kissed her neck.
"Hmm? What about it?" She whispered and leaned into me. I kissed her again and then looked up and into her beautiful eyes.
"What are we going to do? I mean, we have the apartment part down, but what about everything else? I need a job and then there's the moving and stuff" Rachel nodded in understanding and sat down next to me.
"I've thought about it and if you want to, I got enough money to provide for the both of us until you got a job. Which I believe wouldn't be a problem for you" Rachel said and smiled. I shook my head and her smile fell a bit.
"I couldn't ask for you to do that, Rach" I said refusing her offer.
"But I want to"
"I could stay here until I get a job, so you won't have extra expenses on my behalf until I can give money to the apartment, bills and so on" I added and looked at her. She looked taken aback.
"What? No, baby… I want you with me when I go back" she pouted and looked really adorable.
"I don't want to be a financial burden" I started. Rachel cut me off quickly.
"You won't be. I'm sure about this, Quinn. I want you with me from the moment I step foot into that apartment. Let me do this for you, honey" She leaned in and gave me a sweet kiss on my lips.
"As long as you're sure about it-"
"I am" She kissed me again but more forcefully. "Another thing I'm pretty sure about is that I'm very hungry" I laughed as her stomach gave a agreeing growl. She blushed and looked blaming down on her stomach.
"Well, then we better get some food then" I said and got up. I reached out for her hand and we walked towards the kitchen.
"Where did Brittany go?" She asked as I opened the fridge. I shrugged.
"I don't know. She's probably somewhere in the house. So, what do you want to eat?" I asked looked into the fridge and began naming some of the things we got.
A few days later I walked down the hall, with a determined walk towards Figgins office. I had to book a meeting with him this morning even though we all know that he has nothing on his schedule. He just wants to seem like he's important. I decided with Rachel to write my resignation and put it in, so it was out of the way. We had found a few schools in New York, who seemed interesting and I was now writing applications. It was a weird feeling walking down the hall, the exact hall where I have spent most of my life so far, but it also felt like I was beginning on a new chapter in my life and it felt good. I came to a stop at Figgins door and stepped inside. I smiled at the secretary as she barely looked up at me, but just motioned for me to go inside. Always the same. I chuckled for myself as I knocked on the door. A faint come in sounded and I opened the door.
"Good morning, Quinn. Please sit down" Figgins said and motioned for the chair.
"Good morning" I replied as I sat down with my bag in my lap.
"What can I do for you?" He asked as he folded his hand in front of him and looked at me expectantly. I opened my bag and pulled out a piece of paper.
"I'm putting in my resignation" I put down the paper in front of him. His eyebrows rose as he quickly scanned it.
"Your resignation? Are you leaving us?" I almost rolled my eyes. No, I'm just giving you this for fun… I refrained from being snarky and instead gave him an apologetic smile.
"Yes I am. By the end of November as the paper says"
"How come?" He asked and looked at it again. He scratched his head as he kept reading.
"I'm moving to New York and are at the moment looking for a job there"
"Ah, yes. With Miss Berry, I presume" I nodded. Not that he had any right to know, but gossip run fast, so why deny it. "Well, we're sad to see you leave, but I guess nothing could keep you here, hmm?"
"No, sir" I smiled "I'm also sad to leave. I've been here for a long time, first as a student and now as a teacher. I think it's time to renew and try new things. Giving myself some challenges"
"Yes, you were quite a handful" He muttered and shook his head. I ducked my head and smiled shyly. "I understand, both the students and fellow teachers are going to miss you greatly. I guess you want a recommendation?" He asked.
"That would be great, sir" For the first time ever, he was actually nice. It was a bit weird.
"I'll hand it to you soon" I nodded and stood up.
"Thank you. I've got to go. I have some preparation before the students arrives" Figgins nodded and then kept doing whatever he was doing before I came, which probably meant nothing. As I walked out from his office, I bumped into Sue. Oh… I've forgot about her.
"Blondie! Just the human being I was looking for" She put her arm around my shoulders as she began walking with me. Not giving me a chance to escape or flee her strong grasp.
"I've got some things-" I started and tried to break free.
"What is all this gibberish about you leaving?" She interrupted. Does she still have cameras around the school? I shook my head, of course she has.
"I am. I just handed in my resignation" Sue stopped in her track and turned to face me. She had an emotionless face on, while she stood tall. It was like she tried to intimidate me, but she could never to that. I looked up at her, with a raised eyebrow, daring her to say something. She observed me for a moment and then nodded.
"Finally you're leaving this ridiculous place they call school, but you promised to help with the Cheerios. I need your almost non amateur limb body" I rolled my eyes.
"I'll be here until the end of November. That's two months away, but Coach… You don't need me. You're a 13th times Champion. If you can't do it, then no one can" I said stroking her ego a bit.
"You're right. Sue Sylvester is the epitome of power. I don't care if you're riding the unicorn, just be at the field at four" She ended the conversation and walked away, shouting at the students to move out of her way. I shook my head and chuckled. Some things never changes. I turned and walked towards my class.
I was standing looking at what kind of bread we needed when I heard my name being called. I turned and saw Finn coming down the aisle. I haven't seen him since he came drunk that night and I was a bit afraid that he would cause another scene.
"Hi Finn" I said gently and he gave one of his lopsided smiles. "It's been a while".
"Yeah, it has. I needed to clear my head. Puck and me took some time off and went on a fishing trip" He looked down "Quinn, I'm sorry about that night. I shouldn't have been there"
"Its fine, Finn. I don't hold anything against you" I said and put the basket down.
"So, how are you doing?" He asked and leaned against the shelves.
"I'm doing great actually" I noticed the quick flash of hurt that passed his eyes, before he tried to look indifferent about my statement. "I quit my job" The surprise apparently hit him hard.
"You what? How come?"
"I'm moving to New York" There was a small pause where he just looked at me.
"Really?" He asked in a small and sad voice.
"Yes. I'm moving in with Rachel"
"You're sure moving fast, huh?" He huffed and crossed his arms. "Are you also telling me that you love her?" I looked away and smiled.
"I do" He scoffed. "Finn, I know that I hurt you deeply and if I could, I would take it all back and do it a lot different"
"But you would still have left me"
"I would. I know that you don't believe me, but I am really sorry about it all" He looked down and sighed heavily.
"I know. It still hurts like hell"
"That's also some of the reasons for why I'm leaving. I want a fresh start and New York offers that. You also need an opportunity to move on without Rachel and I walking around town" I said and gently squeezed his arm. He smiled at me and nodded in understanding.
"I get that" I picked up the basket.
"Well, I better get moving"
"Oh yeah. That's fine; by the way, you still got stuff at my house. I packed it all and put it in the garage"
"Okay, I'll come by and pick it up. I'll give you a call, okay?" He nodded. "Great" He opened his mouth like he wanted to say something, but clamped it shut again as he shot a glare over my shoulder. I took a look behind me and spotted Rachel standing a little down the aisle, talking animatedly on her phone. I heard Finn shuffle and turned back to watch him. He scratched his neck.
"I-I better get going. Puck is waiting. We're a having a gaming night"
"That sounds like fun. Have a good night and say hi to Puck for me" He nodded and walked away. He glanced back towards me but quickly looked away with a blush when he saw that I saw him. I shook my head and turned back to Rachel. She came walking towards me with a smile on her face.
"Was that Finn? What did he want? He didn't say anything, did he?"
"Relax, Rach" I chuckled as she ducked her head sheepishly. "He just wanted to say hi. I told him about New York and he wasn't particular happy about it, but I knew that. I just told him that we both need a new start and he agreed" Rachel nodded in understanding.
"That's great"
"It is. Who were you talking to?" I asked curiously.
"Just my dad. Now, let's get the rest of the stuff we need" she said and moved down the aisle. I frowned and felt like something was off. I watched her for a moment as she walked away from me. I shook my head and followed her.
"Are you up for a movie night? You're spending the night again, right?" Rachel turned to put some cheetos and some pretzels in our basket.
"Of course I am and a movie sounds nice. I just want to relax with you tonight. The rehearsals are taking all my energy since the opening night is close and there's glee club" She sounded tired and I felt a bit sorry for her. I wrapped my arms around her to give her a hug. I kissed the top of her hair and heard her sigh contently.
"Yeah, you have a lot. Don't get stressed out, remember to takes some breaks now and then" I stepped back and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek.
"I won't. I'm used to being under pressure. I'm just glad that it's over soon" She smiled tiredly.
"I get that. Popcorn?" She nodded "I'm looking forward to see you on that scene. I wouldn't miss it for the world"
"Good" She grinned and grabbed my hand to hold. She looked down in the basket and her eyes widened for a moment, "How are we going to eat all of that?" There was a lot of sugary and very unhealthy stuff. I shrugged.
"What we don't eat, Santana probably would, and she eats everything. I think there's some kind of normal and healthy food somewhere under all of that. So, if you want a carrot or something, I could fix that for you" I said and chuckled. Rachel shook her head and smiled. "Do we have it all?" I walked towards the cashier.
"All and more" Rachel murmured as she walked with me. I just smiled as I put the stuff on the board.
"What kind of movie do you want to see?" I asked as we came home.
"I don't know. What do you want to see?" I opened my mouth to answer when she put up her hand for me to stop.
"Don't answer, let me guess. Harry Potter?" I grinned and nodded. "Well, that's fine by me. Which one?"
"I think we're reached number four"
"Okay, you'll find the snacks and I'll go put on the movie" She said and left the kitchen. I found the snacks and popped some popcorn and soon joined her in the living room.
"Are you okay with watching it?" I asked as I put down the snacks. She was sitting on the couch waiting for me to join her.
"Of course I am. It's a great movie" I smiled and sat down next to her. She started the movie as I put my feet under me and leaned against her.
"What are we watching?" Santana asked as she slumped down in the armchair. "Ugh, Harry Potter again. What are we? Nerds?" She reached to grab a handful of cheetos.
"She loves Harry Potter. She's just trying to be cool" I fake whispered to Rachel. Santana turned to glare at me, before she looked back at the screen. Rachel giggled quietly.
"Where's Brittany?" Rachel asked.
"Dance class" Santana said and grabbed another handful of cheetos "Now, shut up and watch the movie" I shook my head. Rachel just smiled and reached for the popcorn for us to share. I snuggled into her as the movie began.