A/N: HERE YOU GO PPL. I KNOW THAT I'VE BEEN DRAGGING THE STORY. SO, ID
LIKE TO THANK JT FOR TELLING ME CUZ I WOULDN'T HAVE NOTICED IT. HOPE YOU
GUYS LIKE THIS ONE.
Everyone was waiting anxiously in the other room. It had been almost two hours. Asha was still in there. No one dared try to see what was going on. Everyone was worried for their own reasons.
Some of them namely Logan, were afraid that Max had already killed Asha and they didn't know it.
Asha suddenly appeared into the living room, her eyes full of tears. She looked so sad that it scared all of them. She said nothing, just walked over to Logan, picked her baby up and rocked him while she cried silently. Logan was begging her for answers like the rest of them.
"What happened?" OC asked first. They all wanted to know.
Asha continued to rock her son in her arms. It was like she didn't hear them. None of them seemed so important right now. She kept thinking of Max and what she went through. "We talked." Asha answered in the tiniest whisper. "She's sleeping now." She added, looking up at them with sad eyes.
"Just talked?" Logan seemed suspicious. "Why are you crying?" He asked. Asha shrugged her shoulder and stroked the baby's wavy blonde hair. Their son had inherited her hair color.
"Because I understand. I finally understand." She whispered. She just looked at them and then went back to rocking her baby who seemed content in her arms.
"Understand what?" Alec persisted. He assumed that Asha was either losing her mind or Max told her something terrible.
"The baby needs me." She said ignoring his question. "The baby needs its mother." She added and everyone heard her. She then retreated to the baby's room and closed it behind her.
They wondered what the hell she meant. She was acting strange. They wanted to know what happened. What they talked about in there.
They sat there for a few hours, more agitated and curious than before. Max suddenly appeared in the doorway.
"I need to talk to Alec." She whispered that only these with enhanced hearing could hear her.
Alec looked startled and scared but hopeful at the same time. At least she was willing to talk. He followed her to the other room. Max sat the down on the chair. Alec stood against the wall, anticipating what she would say. Her back was turned to him. She was facing the wall and it reminded him of the time when they argued two years ago and she told him to go away. Max sighed and turned to face him. He missed her so much that he wanted to reach and hold her. Just hold her.
"I need to go back to Manticore." She said sadly but with determination.
"What? No." He argued. "You're not going back there, Max. We almost died trying to get you out. Hell will have to freeze over first before I let you go back there." He said firmly.
"Then it will freeze over." She rebutted. "Alec, listen to me. I need to go back there. I have to." She said softly.
"Why? Why do you have to go back there?" He begged. "You don't seem to like it at all. What the hell is so important that you have to go back?" He looked so hurt. He had done all this for her. He had risked his life, the lives of their friends and her siblings just to get her back. All because he loved her.
"I need to know." She replied.
Being cryptic wasn't helping. "Know what?"
"I need to know if Brin made it out, if Renfro survived and took him. I need to know where he is." She said looking straight at him. What the hell was she talking about? She wasn't making any sense. And who the hell was he?
"I thought about it. At first, I didn't want to tell you because if he died then it wouldn't have mattered. But then I owe you. I owe you truth. I owe you that in the least." She explained. "Sit down." She said and Alec did so. She was sitting right in front of him, her hands clasped together.
"Before I got captured back in Manticore, I was pregnant." Max started to tear up. She didn't want to cry just yet. She had to finish her story. "With your baby."
Alec felt like someone had cut off his lungs and he couldn't breathe. Pregnant? Max was pregnant with his child.
"I had the baby in Manticore. I saw him once. Once, Alec, and he was taken away from me. I never saw him again." She sobbed quietly and Alec pulled her into a tight hug. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't protect him. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. He was your baby too. I was going to tell you as soon as I got back from visiting Jace. But I never got to go back." She sobbed on his shirt.
He pulled away from Max. This was hurting him too but he wasn't about to let her suffer more for it. "Don't you dare blame yourself. It wasn't your fault. Manticore took him away from you. From us." He said firmly through his tears. That's what shed been doing since she had their baby and although Alec wasn't, he knew it. Max would always blame herself. She would blame herself for failing him, and their son.
"We'll go back and find out. But baby, please don't blame yourself. You didn't know." He begged her stroking her hair. Max nodded through her tears.
"I'm sorry." She said as she rested her head on his chest. Alec kept reminding her it wasn't her fault. It never was. They were victims, both of them. But like Max, Alec couldn't help feel the same and blame himself for their suffering. He was after all the one that planned the attack on Manticore. If only he had known better.
But he hadn't.
Everyone was waiting anxiously in the other room. It had been almost two hours. Asha was still in there. No one dared try to see what was going on. Everyone was worried for their own reasons.
Some of them namely Logan, were afraid that Max had already killed Asha and they didn't know it.
Asha suddenly appeared into the living room, her eyes full of tears. She looked so sad that it scared all of them. She said nothing, just walked over to Logan, picked her baby up and rocked him while she cried silently. Logan was begging her for answers like the rest of them.
"What happened?" OC asked first. They all wanted to know.
Asha continued to rock her son in her arms. It was like she didn't hear them. None of them seemed so important right now. She kept thinking of Max and what she went through. "We talked." Asha answered in the tiniest whisper. "She's sleeping now." She added, looking up at them with sad eyes.
"Just talked?" Logan seemed suspicious. "Why are you crying?" He asked. Asha shrugged her shoulder and stroked the baby's wavy blonde hair. Their son had inherited her hair color.
"Because I understand. I finally understand." She whispered. She just looked at them and then went back to rocking her baby who seemed content in her arms.
"Understand what?" Alec persisted. He assumed that Asha was either losing her mind or Max told her something terrible.
"The baby needs me." She said ignoring his question. "The baby needs its mother." She added and everyone heard her. She then retreated to the baby's room and closed it behind her.
They wondered what the hell she meant. She was acting strange. They wanted to know what happened. What they talked about in there.
They sat there for a few hours, more agitated and curious than before. Max suddenly appeared in the doorway.
"I need to talk to Alec." She whispered that only these with enhanced hearing could hear her.
Alec looked startled and scared but hopeful at the same time. At least she was willing to talk. He followed her to the other room. Max sat the down on the chair. Alec stood against the wall, anticipating what she would say. Her back was turned to him. She was facing the wall and it reminded him of the time when they argued two years ago and she told him to go away. Max sighed and turned to face him. He missed her so much that he wanted to reach and hold her. Just hold her.
"I need to go back to Manticore." She said sadly but with determination.
"What? No." He argued. "You're not going back there, Max. We almost died trying to get you out. Hell will have to freeze over first before I let you go back there." He said firmly.
"Then it will freeze over." She rebutted. "Alec, listen to me. I need to go back there. I have to." She said softly.
"Why? Why do you have to go back there?" He begged. "You don't seem to like it at all. What the hell is so important that you have to go back?" He looked so hurt. He had done all this for her. He had risked his life, the lives of their friends and her siblings just to get her back. All because he loved her.
"I need to know." She replied.
Being cryptic wasn't helping. "Know what?"
"I need to know if Brin made it out, if Renfro survived and took him. I need to know where he is." She said looking straight at him. What the hell was she talking about? She wasn't making any sense. And who the hell was he?
"I thought about it. At first, I didn't want to tell you because if he died then it wouldn't have mattered. But then I owe you. I owe you truth. I owe you that in the least." She explained. "Sit down." She said and Alec did so. She was sitting right in front of him, her hands clasped together.
"Before I got captured back in Manticore, I was pregnant." Max started to tear up. She didn't want to cry just yet. She had to finish her story. "With your baby."
Alec felt like someone had cut off his lungs and he couldn't breathe. Pregnant? Max was pregnant with his child.
"I had the baby in Manticore. I saw him once. Once, Alec, and he was taken away from me. I never saw him again." She sobbed quietly and Alec pulled her into a tight hug. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't protect him. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. He was your baby too. I was going to tell you as soon as I got back from visiting Jace. But I never got to go back." She sobbed on his shirt.
He pulled away from Max. This was hurting him too but he wasn't about to let her suffer more for it. "Don't you dare blame yourself. It wasn't your fault. Manticore took him away from you. From us." He said firmly through his tears. That's what shed been doing since she had their baby and although Alec wasn't, he knew it. Max would always blame herself. She would blame herself for failing him, and their son.
"We'll go back and find out. But baby, please don't blame yourself. You didn't know." He begged her stroking her hair. Max nodded through her tears.
"I'm sorry." She said as she rested her head on his chest. Alec kept reminding her it wasn't her fault. It never was. They were victims, both of them. But like Max, Alec couldn't help feel the same and blame himself for their suffering. He was after all the one that planned the attack on Manticore. If only he had known better.
But he hadn't.