Josephs POV.
It's been exactly 11 months since I and Faye broke up and I've been with Jac. Why didn't I do this sooner? Jac has shown me how to live my life they way I want too without worrying about what other people think. Its worked, well nearly, I still suffer from OCD which holds me back. I guess I can never get rid of it. It's who I am, Jac accepts that its part of me no matter what.
I wish I had met Jac sooner, I know she had come across my father a few times but that doesn't change the way I feel about Jac. When I'm with her she makes me feel alive, my soul feels fresh and brand knew, she feels my day with smiles. Just one smile from Jac warms my soul up. Jac doesn't open up to anyone she doesn't trust, she keeps herself to herself. I'm lucky enough to see It when Jac lets her guards down, she completely breaks down. Knowing what her mother put her through breaks my heart, no 12 year old deserves to be abandoned by their mother. To this day the memory of her mother leaving her and being forced into foster care haunts Jac. I don't know the full story but I don't need too. Just by her facial expressions when we talk about it says it all. There is nothing I can do but comfort Jac, hold her in my arms and tell her everything is going to be alright but nothing is ever perfect in life.
Nothing in life is perfect so why do I keep telling myself that life is perfect? I believe that one thing in my life is perfect and thats my relationship with Jac is perfect, the way we understand each other with one look. Love is a unexplainable feeling. Love doesn't come with instructions you just have to follow your heart and hope for the best. I hoped for the best when I fell in love with Faye, I gave her all I had. In return I got nothing, just a bunch of hurtful actions and silence. That's not what love is about.
Nobody will ever understand the connection I have with Jac, everyone at Holby assumes its just a fling. Just something to pass the time. They are wrong. It's not a fling, its a committed relationship. A relationship that is filled with passion, trust, honestly and most importantly Love. Jac and I are the only ones that know the truths of our relationship.
Jac's a broken women wanting to be fixed, I hope I'm the man to fix her. Why shouldn't I be? Its clear that we are truly deeply in love with each other, I hope its clear to Jac that I'm in love with her.
I admit it I'm in love with Jac Naylor.