Chapter Twenty: The way to Redemption

Esme-

Esme paced backwards and forwards in the hallway trying to get passed the news that Tara had been turned into a vampire such a sweet child going through that alone by herself, Esme doubted that Rosalie would be any comfort to the child as the venom spread burning from the inside out, Esme shivered remembering the feeling of the acid substance coursing through her veins how Carlisle tried to block the blood curling screams from erupting past Esme's mouth.

How Esme by the end of it just wished to die but how she wouldn't because those concern fearful golden brown eyes held her in place, it was Carlisle's presence that kept her from going insane from the pain, she knew in that 48 hours of hell that her love for this stranger would encourage her long enough to hold on.

Esme glared frustrated at the clock on the wall why did they insist she stay home just in case Tara came by she should be out there too looking for Tara, Esme wasn't going to sit by while Tara goes through hell and she's not going to watch as her son Emmett does the same she huffed glancing at the clock again she was about to walk out the door.

When it smashed open there stood Alice and Jasper holding an almost unconscious Emmett, "What happened?" Esme grasped trying to make her voice normal to cover up the burst of panic that encased her heart as she rushed forward to examine the damage her son suffered, blood was flowing from his hairline, following the source Esme spotted the gash in the back of Emmett's head.

"We don't know Jasper and I were scouting the local area when we picked up Emmett's scent to find him in a back alley knocked out and bleeding" Alice stated shifting Emmett's weight on her shoulder, Esme flagged them in closing the door behind her as she rushed towards Emmett who was laid down on the sofa.

"There's not many things that could use such force so it was Rosalie" Esme stating holding her hand out as Jasper passed her some ripped up pieces of cloths and warm water to clean up the damage she wasn't an expert like her husband but she knew how to clean wounds, slowly removing the dry and fresh blood away that caked Emmett's hair as he groaned in pain.

"Sorry" Esme whispered continuing her job of cleaning the wound and patching it up he didn't need stitches because he will heal in about 6 hours "I can't believe Rosalie jumped him like that once I get my hands on her I will rip her to shreds" hissed Alice her face screwed up in anger as her fists were curled at her sides.

Emmett opened his eyes sadly looking more miserable then anyone has ever seen him before "It wasn't Rosalie who attacked me it was Tara" he answered, Esme stopped cleaning up frozen so it was true, the news hit Esme hard like a blow to the heart she wanted to pretend it wasn't real but no human could inflict such damage on a vampire, Tara was now trapped as an immortal.

Esme didn't know what to say or how to react she was upset about Tara being an newborn and mad she attacked her son but she couldn't say that aloud what could she say to make Emmett feel any relief or ease at heart nothing really his worse fear happened when Emmett whispered "I deserve a lot more than just getting knocked out I deserve to feel this hell being without her is like dying, she made me so alive and yet I throw it away because of my stupidly".

Before anyone could deny his claims the door was opened as Edward shuffled in first being accompanied by Carlisle carrying someone "Carlisle you shouldn't of brought her here she's going to bring the Quileute clans wrath onto us" Edward sounded furious as Carlisle spoke to him harshly "Shut up Edward we helped Bella out when she needed us Tara is part of this family too she decided she wanted to be a vampire so deal with it or leave".

Esme wasn't surprised by Carlisle's compassion for Tara since he bandaged a lot of the abuse she experienced Carlisle had a real soft spot for Tara especially since everything bad in her life could possibly happen has nor could Esme condemn Edward's natural reaction to protect his family, he was always doing it so he knew the danger but Esme would personally stand up against the wolves even if she hated conflict, Tara was a part of her family.

Edward looked at Carlisle before hanging his head in remorse "I'm sorry Carlisle I spoke out of term" Edward apologized looking at the bundle in Carlisle's arms, "No you spoke freely which I took in to account sorry I raised my voice, you need to give her a chance Edward she's been through more than anyone" Carlisle reasoned.

Esme couldn't see Tara's face but she could tell straight away Tara wasn't human they was not warmth or heartbeat, Esme went to move closer but she saw the bundle flinch involuntary Carlisle looked at his wife something in his eyes told her he greatly was concerned for Tara and he had this sort of hopeless look like he didn't know what to do.

Esme stepped up into the role of caring mother "Pass her here Carlisle I will take her upstairs to the guest room" she whispered softly taking hold of Tara's even as a vampire she looked fragile but Esme knew Tara was the strongest one here at the moment thought how she wrapped her arms securely around herself that was hard to believe.

"Let me up I want to talk to Tara" pleaded Emmett as he struggled to get off the sofa as Alice, Jasper and Carlisle held him down, "She needs to be alone at this time Emmett, you don't want to push her further away" Jasper hissed as he forced a defeated looking Emmett back down on the sofa, Esme took Tara upstairs she hadn't said a word or looked at someone since she came in.

Esme laid her carefully on the bed before walking towards the door she turned saying "Tara if you need to talk I'm always hear to listen we all care for you" she didn't get a response all Tara did was curl herself tighter into a ball.

Natalie-

Natalie had drifted back into the whatever minor pathetic existence she called this as she glanced around her new setting it was in a newly furbished looking lounge room it looked like the type people who were wealthy and with good taste could accomplish, Nat drifted towards the cream sofa floating just above the sofa to appear as laying just like a human what she would of given to feel the material of the sofa.

Suddenly Natalie noticed the beautiful woman pacing back and forth Natalie knew the woman couldn't see her but she still carefully and cautiously drifted over towards her staring her directly in the face in normal life Natalie would of even avoided looking at this woman instead she would have been pointing out her own imperfections in her mind, she laughed bitterly if she had known how quickly her life would be snuffed out she would of lived.

Natalie picked up on the human's feelings worry, concern, uncertainty, fear and massive amounts of irritation if Natalie could she would scratch that pretty face to ribbons because of how pathetic she was for feelings those emotions least she was alive Nat thought resentful. Yes being a ghost made Nat able to understand human's emotions she only saw someone's life history and that was that evil leeches something she cared to not watch.

Yes Natalie when she first saw her Nat got some unnatural feeling and knowledge she had to help her but it was drowned by disgust and bitterness but how can helped such a monster why would she fix that when she could destroy the thing slowly seeding the self-hatred which wasn't very hard since that thing was already a wreck a time-bomb worth watching as it exploded, Natalie grinned happily enjoying that image.

But then it was interrupted by the image of her helping the creature escape her demise Natalie felt anger and confusion coursed through her why did she interfered why was she concerned about her, Tara gah! Why was she associating a name with that thing, Natalie was so immersed in her own thoughts that when the door opened with a thud she jumped.

Great a door freaked out a ghost that was comical really sad Natalie thought as she hovered away for the woman as the room was flooded with emotions making Natalie feel a bit over whelmed especially from the big browned injured male, Natalie suddenly realized where she was she had been drawn to the Cullen's house where Dr. Cullen and his family lived.

Natalie watched them not believing that these people even though inhumanly graceful with features of sculptured angels were beasts monsters that could kill humans especially Carlisle the doctor saved lives and that always complimented Natalie which had her rendered speechless and blushing like a fool glancing at her shoes even now Natalie remembered her crush on the doctor.

The boy though his emotions were destructible Natalie wanted to leave but his pain was moving her emotionally what caused such agony she tried to remember his name what was it, she wasn't very adapted in school's social side because everything was studying and planning for the future how lost she had became she was so wrapped up that she didn't acknowledge that time and experiences where passing her by.

"We don't know Jasper and I were scouting the local area when we picked up Emmett's scent to find him in a back alley knocked out and bleeding" the black pixie haired girl stated so it was true they were vampires but good ones not like Tara who deserved everything she was feeling so was it Tara who hurt him she listened into the conversation learning their names Alice, Jasper, Emmett and their mother Esme.

"I deserve a lot more than just getting knocked out I deserve to feel this hell being without her is like dying, she made me so alive and yet I throw it away because of my stupidly" mourned Emmett painfully his body wrecked in pain and guilt his heart was breaking he love's Tara that stumped Natalie even knowing what she did he stilled loved her, Emmett's emotion was like glass piercing Natalie's subconscious remembering the memories of Tara feelings for Emmett.

Times of love only marred by a little pain but this earth shattering love that Tara felt and the hurt of being away from him cause Tara, Nat gulped she can't believe that creature could feel anything but she remembered the cliff as she persuaded Tara to end her life the feeling of the relief that the girl felt as she plummeted to her death.

Natalie felt sick she was no better than the beast inside of them as everyone has been discussing that Natalie had been informed that vampires struggled when their were first turned and the continual struggle they have Natalie turned jumping as she just noticed that Carlisle was standing next to her she could feel his emotions to many to clearly label twisting together like a thorn bush.

Natalie looked around seeing the real damage she had caused and she started to hate herself the pain she caused was a ripple effect that had touched everyone that loved Tara this family, Tara's family were hurting she shook her head that was the last thing she ever wanted to do to Carlisle's family he was the only one at work who supported his work mates he taught Natalie a lot she couldn't bring herself to say it but she knew it.

Maybe she was wrong about Tara, Natalie wanted someone anything to deny this statement she still felt the anger and bitterness towards her but now she was wondering if it was misplaced, Tara wasn't a creature all her life she might of wanted it but Natalie knew it really was out of the control of Tara she was lured into with promises and taken advantage of.

Natalie so mixed hating questioning her decisions picked up a vase and tossed it across the room smashing it into a wall, Nat stood there hovering face masked in shock she had just picked up an item and tossed it she felt the glass in her palm, she didn't noticed the bewildered looks of the Cullen's until Edward rushed straight through her she felt shocked and violated spinning throwing a few choice curses at the bronze haired boy who was investigating the mess.

Natalie though wanted to try it again but all she got was her hand going straight through the object she groaned in annoyance and frustration wondering why it only worked once, "I want to go talk to Tara" Emmett muttered looking at the broken vase with a dead look in his eyes, "No Emmett she wouldn't want you to see her that way she is going through hell" Carlisle said as if he knew from personal experience.

Natalie shook her head depressed she didn't help the situation either and seeing how the Cullen's feel towards Tara made Natalie feel a million times worse a random memory from Natalie's past life flickered into her mind it was a few years ago it was Natalie's first day in year seven her day hadn't been a great start she had an argument with her mum before she left in the morning.

Thought Natalie didn't know the true pain her mum was experiencing until she came home that evening where her mum had locked herself in her bedroom Natalie worried for her mum kicked the door down walking in as her mother sat on the bed intoxicated with pictures of her wedding day surrounding her, Natalie remembered how angry she was at her mum at that time but it evaporated seeing how sad she was, Natalie knew her mother struggled since their father walked out but she always seemed so strong never showing any weakness.

"It's was our anniversary today" her mum sobbed taking a swig of scotch from a bottle there were several scattered around as her mother's body shook violently as the tears fell harder, Nat stood there awkwardly Nat dealt with her problems by forcing herself to grow up and work herself to death either on chores at home or her tremendous study load she even asked for extra credit just to bury herself away from her family troubles.

Nat took away the bottles cleaning up and packed away the photo's trying to ignore the feeling of hurt as she saw the happy wedding photo's what happened to them days she never really knew, "My baby girl so young yet has grown up so quick it's all my fault I took your childhood away" her mum said guilty, "We all have to grow up sooner or later" Nat answered.

Her mum laughed in bitterness "Natalie promise me never to let bitterness rule your life be forgiving all the time don't hold grudges it wounds everyone including yourself, don't make mistakes you can't fix" Natalie just nodded her words off tucking her mother into bed but she noticed that her mother's words had always haunted her.

Natalie looked down at her hands in revelation she had let her hatred and bitterness control her, she had basically help destroy the foundation of a relationship that was real between two people and opening wounds inside the Cullen's family, Natalie looked at Emmett slowly taking in each Cullen's face before picturing her mother's face and last Gabriel who looked at her his eyes showing shame and pity for his sister.

Natalie shook her head she could fix all her mistakes try to learn not to hate but accept Tara she can help her get over taking Nat's life by helping her move on and forgiving her, Natalie never wanted to be the bitter person her mother was she didn't want to make any more mistakes also she needed to try and move onto the next place by mending the bridges in this family.

Natalie left the Cullen family in the lounge room drifting through the wall looking for Tara trying to think of sentences or words in her mind to right the wrongs she had inflicted.

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