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Chapter 20

Still sitting in her office Melissa listened as Auggie, CJ, Shep, and occasionally Happy talked on the phone. Auggie had brought one of his detective friends, the guy had went to college with him, it seemed he helped Auggie when it came to things like this. That knowledge didn't surprise her, Auggie walked the line between legal and illegal, a lot. If it helped him stay safe then she was ok with it.

Feeling calmer, but still scared, she didn't really contribute much to the conversation, only when directly asked something. Shep had wanted CJ and Juice to turn on the computers and let him see her while he talked to her. Melissa had flat out refused and they must have known she wouldn't budge because it wasn't mentioned again.

"Shep"

"Yea, honey. What is it?" Shep answered.

"Loken. I want him here, please. Since you all can't be. Call him, surely him and Quinn are almost done." She had to take a deep breath to keep the tears from spilling over. Her brother had been with the Nomads for almost two months now and she missed him.

"Honey, I wish I could call him, but I think they're still working and can't blow their cover. You know he'd come if there was any way he could. I'll see what I can do about getting in touch with him though." Shep told her sounding upset. He knew she always asked for Loken when she was on the edge of breaking down, she'd done it since she was a tiny girl.

"It's ok, I understand. I'm going to go sit outside for a little while." She stood up and walked out the door to the table not bothering to say goodbye. The guys inside didn't follow her, knew she needed a little space. Plus, they could see her from there. Melissa could barely hear what they were saying, not making an effort to try, she emptied her mind and just stared ahead trying to relax.

-xx-

Shep paced, he knew something would happen as soon as they were too far away to get back quick. Happy and the SAMCRO guys sat around the picnic table listening. The El Paso guys and prospects had went to fuel the truck.

"Did she just leave?" He asked CJ

"Yea, she's outside sitting at the table."

"If she's asking for Loken it's gonna be bad. Is it just today or more going on?" Shep knew CJ and Auggie would understand.

CJ lowered his voice just a little, so she couldn't hear, "Before today, we knew an episode was coming hard and fast, she knows too, she's fighting it man. Been sleeping less each night, if any at all. Auggie and Allen have been taking turns running with her, a few days she's even ran twice. She's killing them, I can't imagine how she's keeping it up. What happened today was just more fuel to the fire."

"Fuck, fuck, fuck. Auggie, she talked to you any?"

"Yea, said she could feel it, said the running wasn't helping as much as it usually does. Shep, this time's different. In the past she's pushed her body to exhaustion and it quiets her mind, keeps those memories of what happened locked down tight. Now, her mind is pushing back, hard. When it happens this time, it's gonna be like a dam breaking and crashing down. I hate to say this, I know it's not what you want to hear, but it makes me nervous as hell."

Shep ran his hand through his hair, "What can we do?"

"It's always been you or Loken who talks her through these. She doesn't respond to any of us here during one of them. This time, since no one's here with her, I guess we just expect the worst and hope for the best."

"Well, that's not much of a damn plan." Shep grumbled.

"I agree, it's the truth though. I'm going to give her a shot in just a little bit, not giving her a choice, she should sleep for a good amount of time. Her body needs the rest. It'll be a deep sleep, so no nightmares or night terrors."

"She won't go for that, you know she hates those."

"Like I said, not giving her a choice. I'll walk her over to her dorm when she's ready, let her get situated and then give it to her. I'll come back tonight after I'm done at the hospital, check on her, stay in my old room for a few days. The boys can call if they need me before then."

Shep and the guys talked as a group after Auggie was done. Shep put the El Paso club on lockdown. No one came in or went out alone until he got back. After he hung up, he lit another cigarette and looked at the men sitting around him. Their expressions told him that they had questions needing to be answered.

Bobby was the first to speak up, "What's she trying to fight off?"

"Night terrors, they're fucking bad." Shep told him.

"What the fuck's a night terror?" Bobby wanted to know.

Before Shep could answer Tig started talking, "I saw that shit before, in the service. Can't wake em up, they think it's real, not sleep. Fucked up shit. It's like some Post Traumatic Stress Disorder shit. Right?"

"Yea, that's about right, different for each person. Melissa's watched the video and remembers some of what happened to her, but there are things that her mind has blocked out, stuff that didn't show up on the video, the important stuff we need to know. On the video they kept their faces covered and voices disguised, the video was grainy too, made it hard to tell what happened in some spots. Auggie and the doctors told us, that whatever it is she's blocked was so traumatic her mind refused to process it."

"Will it get any better?" Jax asked.

"Auggie said in most cases once she remembers everything and her mind gets it all processed, they should stop. It's just waiting, she's always been easy going, soft spoken, makes people feel calm just being near her; waiting on one of these episodes changes her, not in a good way." Shep answered.

"Damn." Jax muttered.

They all stood up, each one of them hoping that she'd be ok but knowing that it would get worse before it got better.

-xx--

Happy put his bag down in the room of the cheap motel they had to stay at for the night, he hated these nasty dumps. At least he didn't have to share it, he wasn't in the fucking mood to deal with any of their questions or talk. There was only one person he wanted to talk to and he didn't plan on waiting much longer.

Thinking about the last few hours made him restless, not liking the feeling, he went and turned the shower on. Maybe the hot water would ease his tightly bunched muscles. He would've liked to been on his bike headed back to El Paso, but every man was needed on this run. Really, they could have used a few more, so no man could be spared. He knew it was killing Shep to stay, she was his sister and no one fucked with a Sons family, but club came first right now.

He'd been surprised when Shep had quietly asked for his advice. Hap knew Shep was trying to be respectful, when it came to decisions about El Paso though, whatever Shep decided was what went. Happy had no say, whether he liked it or not. It's a good thing he thought Shep was a good prez and a decent guy, he'd do what was right.

Hearing a buzz, he stepped out of the shower wrapping a towel around his waist, Happy opened his phone, knowing it was her before looking.

"Hi." Her tired voice eased a little of his restlessness.

"You ok."

"I'm fine, little scared and tired. It was more of a shock than anything, knowing they were there and I had no idea, then leaving my clothes."

"Yea, I bet. Why didn't you tell me you hadn't been sleeping?" He wanted to know, dropping his towel and pulling on a pair of boxers before lying down.

"You couldn't have done anything about it."

"That's not the point, you should have told me anyway. From now on you better."

"Are you bossing me around again?" She huffed.

"Yes. I am, damn it." For some reason that he couldn't explain he felt he had the right to.

"Fine, I'll tell you from now on. Everyone seems to have an order for me to follow. Auggie is forcing me to let him give me a shot to make me sleep. Said I've been outvoted." She grumbled. "Last time I checked it was my body and I had a say so."

Hap listened to her complain, wishing there was something he could do to help. "You should listen to him, do what he says. I agree with him, you need to rest."

"Ugh, not you too Happy." She actually whined.

He couldn't help the grin he had after he heard that, "Afraid so sweetheart."

"Do you know if anyone was able to get ahold of Loken?"

Hap had been pissed for a minute after he heard Melissa asking for another man, until he remembered Loken was her brother. They'd worked a few times together, he was the enforcer for El Paso, he was quiet and deadly, Hap liked him best out of her family. It was strange how he had known and worked with so much of her family and never knew much about her.

"I tried to call Quinn and Loken, both went to voicemail. Must still be working. I'll try again."

"You know them?"

"Yea, I was a Nomad with Quinn for a while before I joined SAMCRO permanently. Loken and me done a few jobs together." He told her, leaving out any specific details.

"I didn't know that." She sounded a little distracted and her thoughts seemed to be scattered. "I told you earlier I'd answer what you asked. Is there anything you want to know about today?"

He'd heard about everything already when Shep had been on the phone with CJ earlier. There wasn't really much more he needed to know about that. Hap liked that she hadn't tried to avoid it with him. "Nah, think I'm fine for now. Unless there's something you want to talk about."

"I'm tired of feeling scared, Hap. It feels like it'll never end."

"We'll get it fixed and then you won't have to feel like that." He'd make sure.

"I hope so. How's the run going?"

"A little rough. Just pain in the ass problems, nothing on your and CJ's end. We should be in Charming in a couple of days."

"At least you'll get to sleep in your own bed for a few nights." She said.

"Rather be in yours." Damn, he hadn't meant to say that out loud.

"I'd like that too."

Hearing her soft voice say she wanted him in her bed made him rock hard with need. "And just so you know, I caught what you did, sneaky woman. I'll make you pay for it later."

Laughing softly, "I have no idea what you're talking about Happy."

"Like hell you don't sweetheart. You'll make it up to me, all this pain and suffering I'm having to endure is your fucking fault. It may help a little if you told me what you're wearing." Teasing her usually worked to distract her.

"Ha, nice try." She teased back.

"You'll tell me sometime." He told her.

"Oh yes, I will, but tonight ain't that night sweetie. When I do, it will be well worth the wait. I'll make sure of that."

He'd thought she'd made his dick hard before, he was wrong. He couldn't get any harder than he was after what she just promised him and there was an excited tightness in his stomach making his whole body tight with need. He didn't miss that she had called him sweetie either. He felt like a pussy admitting it, but he liked hearing her do it. Jesus Christ she was fucking killing him.

"That's big talk, you sure you can back it up sweetheart?" His cocky voice mocked her.

"Happy, you have no idea the things I can do."

He smirked, he'd had enough of a taste of some of those things she offered, to know he wanted...needed more, "Wanna tell me about some of those things?"

She made a strangled laughing noise, "I'm already exhausted from not sleeping and running too much. Going to bed more frustrated than I already am isn't going to help me out any."

Sitting straight up on the cheap motel bed he was on, it only took seconds for the impact of what she just said to hit him. Holy shit. Did she just say that she was frustrated? It sure sounded like it. He didn't know about anybody else, but in his book, frustrated meant horny. She was horny, and to make it even better the sweet bitch was horny for him. He couldn't help the self satisfied grin that spread across his face.

"Knew you'd miss me, that's what's got you frustrated. Me not being there to fuck you and make sure you're tired enough to sleep." He did his best not to chuckle when he heard her give an offended snorting noise.

"You really are an arrogant ass sometimes…" She wasn't done talking when he interrupted her.

"Sweetheart, you don't have to pretend it ain't true. There's a reason you only let me touch you." He just refused to think too deep on what that reason may be.

"Happy!" She said in a fake offended voice. After that though she softly said. "I never said it wasn't true."

That shut him up, she'd just said she missed him and didn't deny that she missed him fucking her. Damn, he was worse than a high school boy, getting worked up because of a bitch. He'd lost his mind and turned into a pussy. Hearing Melissa move around brought his mind back to focus.

"Good, that's the way it needs to stay." He stated bluntly.

She just hummed in response, "There you go bossing me around again."

Laughing, he shook his head, he had to change the subject before he ended up on his bike heading to El Paso.

"When's the doc coming back?" He asked.

"Any minute, he went to get me some medicine and food."

"Don't argue about the shot, you do need the rest."

Sighing deeply she said, "I won't."

"You did good today, calling me."

"You didn't mind? I didn't want to bother you, it's just when I couldn't get Shep, I automatically called you." She sounded a little uncertain.

"Melissa, I told you to call me anytime you need me. I meant it. No matter what time it is. I still mean it too." He'd never told a woman that, other than his mom.

"Thank you." She told him. "I can hear Auggie in the hall, so I guess I better go."

"Ok, go ahead and tell me now then."

"Goodnight Happy." Her soft voice slid over him.

"Goodnight Sweet Melissa." He told her before hanging up and getting comfortable in the shitty motel bed.

A few minutes later a text came in from her.

Thought u should know, I'm wearing your tshirt tonight. u left it on my bed.

He stared at the message with a grin, the thought of her soft skin and naked tits under his shirt turned him on. His phone buzzed again.

Another night I'll have something better to tell u that I'm wearing. Too many people here tonight. Got to stay decent.

He read the message and understood what she was meaning. He couldn't get the image of her in his shirt out of his mind, he bet she looked sexy as hell in it. Deciding to see how far he could push he sent her a reply.

Take off ur panties. Only wear the shirt tonight.

Hap figured she'd turn that request down with a sassy remark. The phone buzzed. He looked to what it said.

Bossing me again?

Before he could reply. Another message came in. Only this one was a picture. Holy shit it was picture of her in his shirt, he could see her thighs and just enough between them to know she'd taken the panties off, that piece of lacy material was laying right beside her on the bed. He'd thought she'd have turned him down. Now, knowing she was completely naked underneath his shirt, soft skin, naked tits, tight pussy; he was gonna either have to take a cold shower or fucking jerk off. He typed in his reply.

Show me more!

Greedy man! She answered

Yes I am!

Haha, I noticed.

U got a problem with that. He grinned.

No sir.

So, show me more!

Can't, time for shot. Next time!

Teasing bitch!

LOL! Goodnight greedy man.

Goodnight.

Happy turned the light off as he leaned back, thinking about Melissa. He was too tired to get up and take a cold shower. Guess he'd have to see if could take the edge off another way. She really was trying to kill him. In that moment he decided he needed to get her to Charming. He told himself it was for her own safety, his body had other reasons.

-xx-

Melissa sat on the bed waiting for Auggie to get everything ready. He sat on the edge of her bed. They'd known each other their whole lives, he was a club kid too. He loved the SOA but he'd known from when he was little that being a doctor was what he wanted to do. When he had finished medical school he came back to El Paso to work, he'd always been the club doctor too. She could tell Auggie things her family didn't need to know, Auggie was the only one she'd let in the hospital room when they had to do the sexual assault exams. He told her the truth even if she didn't like to hear it.

"That's new." He pointed at the SAMCRO tshirt with a raised brow and grin.

"I know CJ and them have already told you, so just go ahead and say it."

"They've kept me up to date I guess you could say. I know how hard it's been for you, if this man is able to make you feel comfortable then you should do whatever you want. You've always been a good judge of character, I was just surprised it was a Son. I guess sometimes things just happen for a reason. Maybe that's exactly what you need in your life, a Son, somebody to keep you in line." He laughed.

"Auggie, he bosses me around and acts like he's never been told no. He doesn't let me distract him so that I can avoid something. It's frustrating. And, he makes me follow what he says to do." She told him.

"That's funny." He was actually laughing.

Melissa couldn't believe Auggie thought it was so funny, she didn't, "Why is that so funny?"

"Melissa, you need someone who won't allow you to do that to them. You've had it easy because your family has always done whatever you've wanted for the most part. It's time someone didn't let you have your way. I think I'll like this guy."

"Well, you never were that smart." She teased.

"I heard he even yelled at you out in the bar while he practically dragged you out of the room. And, you didn't seem to mind."

"I may have had that one coming. I told him I'd behave as much as he did. He didn't seem to care for that arrangement so much."

"What man would? You know how most men in the club are. You can't change them if they don't see anything wrong in how they act or if they don't want to change. Try to remember that before you get in too deep." He warned her.

"I will. Do you really have to give me that shot? Can't I try to sleep tonight and if I don't you can do it tomorrow night." She pleaded. "You know it takes me days to get over those shots."

Auggie had been ready for her to argue, "Nope. It's going to be tonight. But, I could change my mind, if you played for us." He said and watched her face get pale.

"No. You know I won't. I can't. Not anymore. Just give me the shot."

"Melissa, your hands are healed now. There was no permanent or long lasting damage. I wish you'd just try."

"Just give me the shot, let's get it over with. How long will I be out for?"

"If you relax it should put you out until about tomorrow at lunch."

"Fine. Will you stay until CJ gets in here?" She asked him.

Auggie nodded while he gave her the shot. Smiling at him, Melissa got comfortable, but couldn't seem to make her mind relax. There was no way that she was going to tell Auggie that though, instead she just closed her eyes so he wouldn't notice she wasn't getting sleepy.

-xx-

Stepping out of the shadows of the office, trying to stay out of sight, leaving the second package was more risky than the first one since the club was on lockdown. But, this package was the one that showed they were on the way to get her. Only she knew the exact meaning of what was inside. After that it was time to grab her.

It had taken extra time because she hadn't worked in her office for a couple of days after the guys had left. Creagan was getting impatient, he wanted her now. They were ready, just waiting for her to get to the right spot.

Pulling out a cell phone and sending a text that the package was waiting. Creagan replied almost instantly that everyone better be ready when it was time.