SCORPION - Words - One shot
One shot post episode 4x02.
Walter's POV.
It was four in the morning, and I just came back from an exhausting mission, but I couldn't sleep. The most beautiful woman on earth was curled up next to me, sleeping peacefully after we made up in a pretty exhausting way too, but I really couldn't find sleep.
I have to say I was pretty amazed at how fast I caught up with Paige on a physical level, we really seemed to be on the same page and if it wasn't surprising that I never experienced something this great before considering I had never really been committed to a relationship, Paige also seemed very pleased by how I fulfilled her needs. I guess I secretly dreamt about it for so long that I was a lot more prepared than I thought for this.
So this could feel like a perfect end of the day for me, my team and I saved the world and I have a hot night with my girlfriend, but yet something was still bothering me.
Just before we got caught up in pretty intense making out, Paige and I had obviously things to talk about. Both of us had been a little upset by some things Collins got into our heads, and even if we pretended to shake it off by saying that he just manipulated us, I knew that this little voice inside our head saying that he might be true about some things was still there. Then after we both tried to reassure ourselves by texting each other's mixture, and we obviously saw that it wasn't what we expected, it was still here. But at this point Paige asked me to kiss her and well, I really wanted to do that so I obeyed and yes, the chemistry was still here and this thing let to another…
The problem is, I'm afraid that whenever we have concerns about our relationship but are afraid to bring it up, we will act on it on a physical level instead of talking about it, and then it would still be here deep down. I mean, I love being intimate with Paige, and I'm anxious about honest talks, but it just feels wrong to postpone talking about our insecurities to never, and I just hoped that we wouldn't solve any problems or probable fights coming our way by shutting it down and having sex, this couldn't work on the long term.
As much as I loved being in bed with Paige by my side, I figured I should use all that time awake to do something useful instead of having rumbling thoughts so I got up, making sure the cover was staying on Paige so she wouldn't be cold.
Paige's POV.
I don't know what woke me up, but here I was, suddenly not sleeping anymore. My eyes were still shut, but I didn't need that to know it wasn't morning yet, I still felt too tired. I passed my hand on the empty space in bed next to me. So that was what woke me, the lack of the warm body of my boyfriend nearby. I finally decided to open my eyes and I needed to blink once or twice to get used to the darkness, but a pale halo of light helped me get my senses back quicker. Walter's computer, of course.
« Walter? Did you get any sleep? »
My voice wall sleepy and barely hearable but it managed to make Walter jump anyway.
« Oh hey. I didn't realized you were awake. »
« I wasn't until a few seconds ago. What are you doing? »
« Uh nothing I… I just couldn't sleep so… well you know I had to find a way to distract myself. »
I didn't know how he could physically still be awake after what we had been through for the last day but well it was Walter after all.
« Come back to bed with me, try to rest a little. Even geniuses brains work slower when you don't get enough sleep. »
Walter sighed and shut down his computer, leaving me in complete darkness again, but it wasn't long until I felt him climbing into bed and lying next to me. I turned towards him to rest my head in the crook of his neck and pass my arm around his waist as he was himself adjusting to hold him and I was ready to go back to my heavenly peaceful sleep but I knew something was up with him. He was just so tensed and didn't see anything but I just knew his eyes were wide open.
« Walter is there something wrong? »
« Uh no… it's okay I… I'm just thinking. »
« About what? »
« Nothing really, you're gonna think it's silly. »
My vision was accommodating to the darkness so I was able to put my hand on his cheek.
« I promise I won't. Come on, just tell me. »
Walter removed my hand from his face but only to hold it in his and took a deep breath.
« Okay, it's just that… earlier we didn't really talk about some things you know. I know you weren't that confident about Collins being wrong, and I wasn't too, and I just feel like there was more to discuss than what we did. And I'm just afraid that if we chose to ignore this kind of things every time by um… getting busy doing something else, it will just add up inside us until it reaches a point where we don't talk at all anymore. »
God, I didn't realize he could feel this way. In fact I didn't realize he was now so aware of all the unsaid in a conversation. He was right about earlier, there were some things that Collins said that bothered me. But after the night we spent, it all vanished.
« I get it Walter, I really do. And I'm so sorry if I made you feel like I was evasive. I just thought that the way our talk ended spoke for itself you know… To me it meant that no matter our differences I feel good with you and I don't want you to change a thing about who you are, because I love you, and we do work great together. Maybe I should have phrased it out loud, I'll try to think about it in the future, because even though actions can replace words you… »
Walter cut me by kissing me hard and after the surprised passed, I just enjoyed the feeling of his lips over mine. After what seemed too short, he parted slightly from me.
« I get it. Words are sometimes not enough for me to tell you how much I love you. »
And after making my heart melt a little, Walter closed his eyes, holding me close and we finally both went back to sleep.
Sorry for the late post, I still have a lot of work…
I wanted to say a little something here to those who follow my AU story Gravity. I really didn't think I would have so little time for myself this year so I'm not sure when I will be able to update this story again. I have ideas but they will have to wait. I'm still very grateful to whoever still follows it and I'll try not to let down completely that story.