A/N: twilight = s.m. ;) ok so my lamb loves me and let me run with this chapter. you should know whats coming so i hope i dont spoil anything but i want you all the understand that i am big into vampires so i have changed so things about "the change" from what stephanie has done. i tried to keep it close to a twilight type change but i wanted it to be more like what people generally read about vampires too. i so hope this doesnt ruin it for you ;) please review. we want to know what you love and what you cant stand.

Chapter Twenty

Time passed quickly after the incident with Tanya. Before we knew it, we had graduated and were preparing for our backpacking trip. I had told my dad a few weeks ago so by now he was accepting of the idea.

We went to Italy. The Cullen's' had a villa there. It was an old Roman style home. They had an atrium at the entrance and a garden in the center. The home was secluded on the side of a mountain. As soon as we were settled, I was like an impatient child bugging Bella to change me.

"EJ, dear, don't you want to see some of the ruins first? Maybe go to some restaurants and taste the cuisine?" she asked.

"I will have eternity to see the sights of Rome," I knew that she was stalling. "But maybe you're right about eating. I won't have that chance again."

She smiled at me, happy that I let her delay. Bella took me to a cozy little family inn. She said that this was one of her favorite places to eat growing up. She ordered for me, duck with red potatoes and green beans and for dessert, she ordered me tiramisu and gelato. By the time I was finished she had talked me into walking around the town so she could show me all of her favorite places.

When we returned to the villa, I was again pestering Bella like crazy to change me right then. She would only smile at me as she pulled me back to our room. It was all the way to the back of the house. The room had originally been designed for the servant quarters. Emmett had suggested that we go there so he would not have to hear Bella and me in the throws of passion the whole summer. I was talking so excitedly about my upcoming change, that I was not paying attention to Bella undoing my belt and fly.

"… so great… Whoa! That's not what I expected," I gasped losing my train of thought as Bella suckled on my member. I felt her shift her head as I grew in her mouth. I tangled my hands in her hair and began to push her face down onto me. She pushed me down to the bed, pushing up my shirt and pulling off my pants. She took her time caressing every part of me, staring at my naked form. She almost looked sad.

"Bella? What is it?"

She just shook her head at me and straddled me. She rode me long and slow. I let her lead me just as always. She turned us over so that I was on top of her. I kissed her eyelids, nose and neck. I whispered in her ear how much I loved her and how I always wanted to be by her side. I kept my thrusting slow as she had.

I told her I was about to cum knowing she hadn't yet and that was when her whole attitude changed. Just as my balls tightened to force my essence into her, she dug her claws into my ass. She began kissing me fiercely. She pulled my tongue into her mouth, surprised my climax took over. She hadn't let me have my tongue in her mouth since that night she left and it sent me to another level of orgasm. Then I realized what she was doing. She had grazed my tongue with her teeth and was sucking my blood. My eyes grew wide and she flipped me over.

"Are you sure you want this?" she inquired, her eyes turning black. "This is your last chance to back out."

I simply nodded at her, swallowing my own blood.

"EJ, this will hurt," she reiterated.

She gave me a soft kiss on my lips and hugged me tight. Again that sad look fell over her now onyx eyes. Then her mouth was on my neck; kissing at first. She seemed hesitant so I turned my face to hers and kissed her, plunging my still bleeding tongue in her mouth. She pulled back and dove to my neck again. I screamed out as she bit down on me. I could feel her draining me of my life and I was on the edge of consciousness.

"Bella!" Jasper yelled. "You should have waited! Let me help you."

I felt Jasper's hands by on my arms and Bella sat on my legs so I couldn't move.

"Could you cover him up? That's a bit more than I wanted to see," was the last thing I heard before I passed out.

When I woke up, I felt like my veins were on fire. I tried to get up but I had been tied down. I called out but no one came. That's when I saw the note on the ceiling. Jasper had written that he took Bella to hunt and the rest of the family was out hunting as well. He said that everyone was aware and would come back soon.

Frantic I kept pulling on my restraints. I felt a growl build in my throat. With my last tug on my wrists, I broke free and the roar came out.

"Impressive," Carlisle said. "Drink this."

"What is it?" I choked out, now sitting up. I was surprised that he appeared in the doorway.

"It's some of the blood from my kill. You will be extremely hungry for the next couple of weeks. We will all be bringing you something so you don't have to go out yet. Please promise me you won't leave this room until you don't feel the pain any more," he pleaded.

I agreed to his request. He had placed some new clothes on the bed before he left. He told me that these would feel better on my new skin and that when I felt better Alice wanted to take me shopping. I laughed at that. The clothes did feel good. I could feel every fiber in them. I went over to the mirror worried that I would look very different. The face staring back at me startled me. My eyes were onyx just like Bella's before she bit me. I looked thinner and a bit more angular through my face. I was pale too, like tissue paper stretched across my bones. My hair was different, like it had been highlighted. I decided I liked it. I touched my cheek. It was rock hard so I gave my self a punch in the abs. Nothing; I didn't feel a thing. Just rock hard. Suddenly I felt flames rise in my stomach and I doubled over.

"EJ! Oh god! I'm so sorry," Bella was wrapping her arms around me.

"Bella, I missed you when I woke" I squeaked. I noticed that my voice had changed a bit. It seemed throatier, deeper maybe.

"What have I done!" she cried!

I tried to console her but I couldn't control my body. I began to shake uncontrollably so she helped me back to the bed. She then gave me her leftovers. Instantly I felt better. Bella noticed and a smile spread across her face. She pushed a wisp of hair off my forehead and traced the line of my jaw. Her eyes were honey colored again and I wondered when mine would be that amazing color.

Alice and Jasper came back later with their offering for me. They both seemed happy that I was doing better. Alice was shaking with glee when I told her that Carlisle said she would be taking me shopping soon. She prattled on and on about different blends of fabric for me to try. I looked at my lovely Bella and rolled my eyes. We all laughed.

Emmett and Rose came later in the evening. Rose was hesitant to speak with me and kept avoiding my gaze. Emmett picked me up and tossed me into the closet door, busting it in half.

"Ha!" he boomed. "Didn't hurt you a bit did it, young'un?"

I straightened up and flew at him with such amazing speed I didn't even know it myself until I had him pinned on the ground pushing on me to get off him. Loving this new strength, I made him struggle for a minute before I started laughing.

"Yeah you just wait till you newness wears off and it's a fair fight," he chuckled and threw his arm around Rose's waist.

Rose finally spoke up, "Edward, you are our brother now but that doesn't mean you get to beat each other up all the time."

"Oh hun, it's alright he wont get far with me you know that"

With that, they were gone. A couple hours later, my insides were on fire again. With perfect timing, Esme and Carlisle knocked on the door. Again, they fed me and Carlisle questioned how I was feeling.

This went on for about a week and 2 days before I was granted access to the rest of the house. Bella would not leave my side. She was constantly holding my hand and it felt great. All of my senses had been heightened. She took me on walks thru the valley at night to show me the tracks of animals I would soon be hunting. She taught me how to listen for them and all of the smells that swirled around me. She was an amazing teacher.

During the day, she would hold me in bed. I still felt like I should be sleeping so she appeased me on this. She refused to make love to me until I had total control. This hurt emotionally a bit but I would not let her see that. I knew that when the time was right I could have all of her like I never have before. It would be the best day of my life. No the best day of my existence. In addition, I also had the comforting feeling that now Bella and I would be together until the end of time.