Thank you so much for your reviews. I'm extremely proud that I got this done on time. It's a few hours early but I just realized I have something planned later so here it is. I know it's not much, but I'm trying to figure out what I want to do with the Shaw's. But let's get started. Hope you enjoy.
Letty's POV
"I…I can't tell you what to do. But I can be your sister and tell you that I'm here for you and support your decision. Whatever that may be. But Natty I am going to give you a small piece of advice…you don't have to go. You could stay here with him. Build the life Dom and I never got to. Soak it all in. Dom and I struggle with the decisions that lead us here. We look back and wish we could've done things differently. This is your chance to do something we never could. Live a long and comfortable life. Get married, settle down, have kids. Live freely. Make a life that you don't have to spend every minute of it looking over your shoulder."
I'm desperate to have her stay. This life may be all that I know and love but it's also everything I hate. For what it's done to those I love. I can't tell her what to do but I can make sure she's aware of all her options. I don't want her to make a decision she'll regret later.
"That's not really our style." I turn around to see Adrien standing in the doorway arms folded across his chest. I press my mouth into a thin straight line. Nat looks at Adrien expressionless.
Sensing the tension I excuse myself.
"I'll give you guys some privacy and I'll talk to you in the morning, night." As I slip passed Natalia I give her hand a quick squeeze letting her know I'm here for her, before walking into the darkness.
Adrien's POV
"So you gonna tell me what that was all about? Or do you want me to guess?" Nat looks like shes made of stone her face not giving off any hints of what she may be thinking.
"What do you want Natalia? Tell me and I'll give it to you. You want to do this job for your family? Great, we'll do it. You want to stay and make a life? I'm in. But you can't keep pushing me out. Tell me what you want and it's done. But you need to talk to me."
"What do you want from me Adrien? Huh? What if I told you I couldn't map out the next five years of our lives? Shit I can't map out the next 5 hours of our lives. What if I said I didn't want kids or to settle down or if I didn't want to marry you and live in a house with the white picket fence? Huh?" she sits down exasperated on the hood of her car. "What then?" This girl was losing her mind if she thinks that's what all this is about.
I walk up to her to sit next to her on the car taking the wrench from her hand that she had started toying with.
"First of all, our house doesn't have a white picket fence." she chuckles but shakes her head, that's a good sign. "And second, I knew what I was getting into the moment I met you, and I didn't run then and I'm not running now. We've been through a lot already, so I thought that it never needed to be said but I would stand by any decision you chose, because I love you and I choose you. I choose you above it all. If that means it's just you and me in our home, doing what we love every day and surrounded by these people until were old and gray that's enough. If we have to spend the next twenty years running with just the clothes on our backs, as long as you're by my side that'll all be enough. You are so much more than enough it scares me sometimes."
I can see her breath hitch in her throat and eyes become misty.
"And you're okay if we never have kids?" as much as I would love having them I love her more. So if she decides she doesn't want them then I'm okay with that.
"Yes."
"You shouldn't be. You should choose someone whose going to give you those things. You deserve the house with the white picket fence and the kids and an adoring wife that's going to greet you with dinner when you come home from work. You shouldn't give up on those things for me. I want you to be happy. I want nothing but the best for you and I'm woman enough to admit that that's not me."
"You're what makes me happy. The rest is just sprinkles on a sundae. As far as I'm concerned I'm not losing anything. Every day you give me the world just by being her with me. I honestly couldn't ask for anything more than that."
"I can't guarantee our safety." She says so low I barely catch it.
I take her hand in mine "Neither can I. I've gotten us into some deep shit. But I promise one day I will. I'll be able to keep you safe, just trust me."
"With my life." she says bringing the back of my hand to her lips.
"Good. Now that we've gotten everything out in the open and you've talked to Dom and Letty, is there anything else that's bothering you? Anything at all?"
She let out a jagged breathe but it seemed to be one of release "Nope."
"Are you sure cause for as long as I've known you I don't think you've ever been so emotional than I've seen you in the past couple of months."
"It was 14 years of bottled emotions coming to the surface. Things I thought I had dealt with or that I just didn't think bothered me as much as they did. But yea, I'm sure and thank god, I felt like a mental patient. I thought I was losing it." That made me laugh thinking about the hell she's put me through worrying about her.
"Well come on crazy, let's get you back to bed." I stand and pull her up with me guiding her through the garage.
I feel her start to pull back grabbing my arm by the crook off my elbow bringing my body closer to hers. "Sorry. And thank you." she says almost shyly.
I'm stunned and decide to have a little fun to brighten the mood "What? Come again, was that an apology?"
She rolls her eyes at me as I laugh a little. She rubs her free hand over her face "I just know I haven't made it easy on anyone since my life turned into one big soap opera."
"Its fine babe. It's done with, but if you could… can I just hear that one more time."
She jumps up and wraps an arm around my neck putting me in a choke hold making me laugh even harder. "You're such a jackass."
I stand up straight causing her feet to lift off the ground settling her into a piggy back position "But you love me." I manage to squeeze out.
She finally lets up and reaches forward from behind me and kisses my cheek. "God knows I do, and only he knows why?"
"You know why?" I tell her rubbing her soft thighs that are wrapped around waist.
"Really?" she says against my neck her wet lips barely grazing the skin. The cool air sending my skin crawling with goosebumps.
"Do I need to remind you?" I practically growl.
"You might have to." and I make a dash for our room her giggling and holding on tightly pressed against my body.
She may not know it yet and probably wouldn't believe me if I said it out loud, but one day…
I'm going to marry this woman.
So I hope you liked it. Thank you so much for reading don't forget to leave me a review and tell me what you thought. As always I'm open to suggestions. Next chapter we get back to Dotty and see what's going on with them and maybe even a little update of the Shaw drama.
Once again much love-FF8
