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Lilly's POV:
I held onto Jev's arm as we walked down the big hallway, with our footsteps bouncing echoes between the pillars of marble outlining the hall. As much as I tried to keep my hands from trembling it did not seem to be working, my body was jumping between nervous excitement and paralyzing fear.
Deciding we wanted the upmost privacy, we agreed on not speaking until we reached his room, in order to ensure that no one would follow us. However once we did reach the room, I found myself practically convulsing out of my skin because the trembling had skyrocketed. My heat beat so loudly in my chest I felt like it was going to burst. Jev looked down the hall, as a precaution, before leading us in through a solid-wooden door.
With his back to me Jev listened for any sounds in the hall, which is good because I was beyond the point of shivering uncontrollably and I needed to get a hold of my self quickly before Jev turned around to find me acting like a mentally insane patient. Oh no, too late. He's looking at me and has a concerned face etched on his face. Lovely.
"Lilly, love, what is it? You are shaking like a leaf." Jev frowns and rushes over to me, immediately running his hands up and down my arms that seem to have broke out in gooseflesh. His touch only made my heart pound harder, and my lip was beginning to tremble. What was wrong with me, I care deeply for Jev. I even went as far as to believe that I am in love with him, but I had yet to express that to him. Maybe that was it, maybe my emotions were going on overdrive because I admitted to myself that I have fallen for Jev but he does not know that.
Flower.
I looked up in shock at Jev, and met his concerned dark eyes that flickered with some foreign emotion I had never seen before. But that voice, I was sure it was Jev's, but it seemed to come from...inside my thoughts. How was that possible? Wait...have I not thought this before? Strange. I could of swore I had the same thought before, many times in fact, and yet while I rack my brain I cannot find one semblance of a situation such as this.
"Tell me what you are thinking, Flower." Jev breathes into my ear and I jump at the unexpected closeness, which is complete rubbish because why on earth would I ever not want to be close to Jev.
"I-I um, I am not sure. So this is your room, it is beautiful." And it was the elegant black and white furnishings must have cost a fortune, and to have a bed made of complete silk made my toes curl at the very thought. But then I began to imagine other things on the bed, in the bed, thoughts involving Jev which caused heat to rise in my cheeks at the very sight of the massive bed. My body began to tremble again.
"Lilly, calm down, I am not seducing you. I just wanted to get you alone and have some privacy, while I tell you how beautiful you look tonight and how luck I am." He chuckles at my wide-eyed reaction, and cups my face in his hands.
"So, you do not want to...you know?" I trail off lamely, feeling as though I am becoming more simple by the minute. Jev laughs at my words, but before I can object to me being serious he kisses my lips tenderly. It is a long lingering kiss that hints of suggestive passion, one that causes my entire face to warm and my heartbeat to soar. I am speechless.
"Flower, there is no one I have ever wanted more than I want you. Right now. But I respect you and do not want to push you into anything you are not ready for, that was not my intention on bringing you here." Jev's words hold a tone of complete seriousness, and then he breaks out into that smirk. "However, if you were to suggest it, lets just say I would not stop you from taking advantage of me." He winks and I can feel my face darken another shade of red.
I look down at the floor, embarrassed, and act like I have recently become fascinated with my shoes and the texture of the flooring. Then I feel breathe on the back of my neck and whimper slightly as Jev coils his arms around my waist from behind, while placing searing kisses on my neck that make my knees go weak.
At that moment, I knew, I had to tell him because there was no other moment I felt more serious than now. I love him, and I wanted him to know it. I wanted to show it to him. To be with him because it was the one thing I had the choice at accepting or refusing, for once I was in control.
"J-Jev," I stuttered out becoming overwhelmed with his kisses to the peak to moaning out loudly, actually his name did come out as kind of like a moan. I feel him smile into the flesh of my throat, kissing tenderly up to my ear and covering me in his heavenly scent of mint and leather.
"Lilly," he said my name like a prayer, as if it were something worth worshiping. Me? I tried to clear the fog forming in my brain and turned around to face him, determined to tell him what I need to say.
"Jev," I say seriously. In reaction, Jev's face hardens with concern and guilt. "What is it, Flower? I am sorry if I was too forward, I jus-" I stopped his rambling with a kiss on the lips, and pulled back to look him in the eyes.
"I love you," I whisper softly, silently hoping that I did not just ruin everything as Jev stares at me with a dumbfounded expression.
Jev's POV:
I stared at Lilly, speechless. There was no going back now, if I told her how I truly feel I will have committed a huge sin, and that is why I hesitate before answering. However, Lilly does not know that and suddenly I see a look of embarrassment and mortification creeping up on her face. She turns her eyes to the ground, refusing to look at me, determined to act like I do not exist as she looks everywhere in the room but in my direction.
"Lilly," I begin with careful softness, caressing her name on my tongue. "No. It is okay, it is no big deal. I just-I...Oh, this conversation is rubbish. Can we just pretend I did not say anything? Just forget the whole this and boom, it is gone." She is rambling and I walk to her in order to hold her. How was it she had gotten so far away?
"Lilly," I try again, but she is determined not to meet my eyes and my stomach drops as I realize her eyes beginning to shine with tears. Tears she is trying so desperately to hold back.
"No, really, it is quite alright. Shall we speak of something else? The...ball is beautiful, it is a lovely event that everyone will be talking about for weeks if not longer." I my feet are flush with hers at this point, but her gaze still flints away.
"Flower. Lilly, look at me." My voice is filled with desperation, which I believe Lilly notices because her beautiful eyes flick to mine for a second before returning to the ground again.
"Please," Lilly whispers to the ground as she plea is coated in shame. "Please, just forget I said anything. It is okay that you do not feel the same, I understand, it was just a foolish thing for me to say."
I touch Lilly's cheek trying to coax her eyes to meet mine because I want to look her in the eyes while I say it, while I tell her how much I love her too. "But that is just the thing, I do," I say seriously.
Her brain seems to absorb my statement and her eyes, sparkling with tears, quickly lock on mine. "P-Pardon?" Lilly's voice chokes with emotion as a tear escapes, rolling down her pale cheek.
I grab her hand and hold it to my heart as I look deeply into her eyes. "I love you Lilly. Flower, I have never loved anyone or anything in my life before right now, and I am telling you that not to scare or trick you but because it is the honest truth. I love you, I love you and it scare the hell out of me." I kiss away each tear from her cheeks, slowly and with care. And then I held her in my arms as if any moment she might disappear, fade away like vapor in the sky and far beyond my reach.
"Jev," Lilly whispers against my chest. "Yes, Flower?" I glance down at Lilly but her face is concealed, buried in the cloth of my shirt. Suddenly, I feel my chest warm considerably and realize with a smile that she is blushing.
"What is it, love?" I say with a smirk but a smile pulls at my lips. Lilly, my beautiful little blushing china-doll. Oh how she would hate for me to call her that, I smile to myself thinking.
"Jev, I want to..." My brow furrows curious at what it is Lilly wants, and determined to give it to her for it is a rare chance that she asks for anything. "What is it that you want? Tell me, and I will do all in my power to get it for you."
"No...it is not something I want, well, it is but I-I..." I feel her face flush even warmer against my chest and I reluctantly pull her away from me so I can look her in the eyes, but she is avoiding my gaze again.
Then, suddenly, she looks at me with upmost seriousness while biting at her lip. "I want you to make love to me, Jev."
Okay, so for the next chapter I need some feedback; obviously it is going to be a sex scene sooo, yeah, but the better question for you guys would be if it should be explicit or not. Thoughts, feelings? Please review!