Author's note: Hello Little white roses. I'm so sorry, I said that I was going to update on Saturday but I didn't have enough time. I was in a Hotel and I didn't have Wi-Fi unless I went down to the Lobby. I promise I will try to update as soon as possible. I would love to read your thoughts. Here is Chapter 19. Enjoy

I don't own The Hunger Games

Chapter 19

Peeta's POV

A routine. That's the basic word that summarizes my life right now. It's been a week and 2 days since me and Katniss "broke up". I wake up, get some coffee and eat some breakfast, when I feel like it, before going to town and helping the construction crew. I started as an assistant, supervising the other workers and being responsible to organize the material. It took me one week to be considered part of the team. I learned all I had to about construction, and I actually enjoy it.

Even thought I try to focus on my new job, Katniss is the first thought on my mind. I wake up thinking about her, I work with her in my mind and I have nightmares about her. I don't know what else to do to get her out of my head.

I had flashbacks almost everyday this past week. Some of them are worse than others. I can easily fight the weak ones just by holding tight to one of my chairs, a cup or even one of the brushes I use to paint. On the other hand, I can make a terrible mess during a strong one. I usually break whatever is in front of me, pieces of glasses, paintings, furniture, anything. Sometimes I just want to go to Katniss's house to kill her. This is how bad my flashbacks can get.

When It's finally time to wake up I get up and go to my bathroom to take a shower. Last night was one of the worst nights since I came back to 12, my nightmares were unforgiving. I dreamed about my family, my brothers, the games and Katniss. She died over and over again in front of my eyes. She was either killed by the rebels or tortured to death by snow.

I finish my shower, get some fresh clothes and go straight to work, not bothering to grab anything to eat. As I walk past Katniss's house I can't help but watch her window, I always hope that she will come out and all this will be over, we would be together again, but of course she doesn't. I'm not even able to see her face through the window, but I know she is watching me. Suddenly as I walk passed the Victors Village main gate a suffocating feeling took over my body. I had to see Katniss. I felt like if I didn't go to her house right now, I would never be able to see her again. I try to ignore the feeling as I keep walking towards town but it only gets worse.

"Morning Peeta, how are you today?" Tom greets me as I'm finally able to get to work.

"Morning Tom, I'm holding on. What is there to do today?" I ask.

"I've got a new position for you. One of the workers is sick and we need someone to take over. What do you think?

"I'm in" I say, why do I feel like I shouldn't be doing this? This feels wrong.

"Okay, follow me." I follow Tom until we reach a building destroyed but the bombs, just like any other building in district 12.

"Even though it looks pretty bad, most of the structure is worth saving. We are just going to rebuild and fix as much as we can." I just nod.

"Let's do it" and this is how my day starts.

Katniss's POV

"Katniss please sit down." My mothers tell me for the hundredth time. But I just can't. Since this morning I dying to talk to Peeta. I don't actually know why but it feels like someone is squeezing my heart, I can't get enough air to breath.

"You are going to end up hurting yourself even more. Take it easy or I will pin you to your bed."

I don't hear my mother's voice. I don't hear anything around me. I don't see anything. I want to talk to Peeta. I need to talk to Peeta right now.

"I'm going to walk around" I say as I start making my way to the front door. My mother grabs my arm and pulls me back to sit on the living room couch.

"No way young lady. You are not going anywhere. I already told you to calm yourself down and take it easy. Katniss, you are still healing."

I hate how my mother is treating me like a little child. She chose the wrong time to finally decide to take care of me. I don't want her help. I don't need her in my life.

"You don't understand. I have to go to town and check on Peeta. I need to see him." I argue, tears willing to escape my eyes. I won't cry in front of her. I'm stronger than this.

"Katniss, you said you had to let him go. Didn't you? So stop chasing after him and let him live his life." I was taken back. My mother was never the kind of person to give me an advise, and specially not a order. This woman standing right in front of me is not the same mother who left me and my sister to starve to death. Who does she think she is to invade my life and tell me what to do?

"You have no idea what you are talking about. I'm going to….." I'm interrupted by someone nocking on my front door. Haymitch lets himself in.

"Morning Sweetheart" he greets me and smiles at my mother. By the look on our faces he must know that something is going on.

"Haymitch could you please try putting some reason inside her head?" my mother asks Haymtich still staring at me.

"What is going on?" he asks. I don't even let my mother start telling her version.

"Haymtich, please I need to go to town. I need to see Peeta. I just have to. Please" I say. I don't like the way my voice sounds desperate but this is just the way I'm feeling right now.

"I thought you were the one who ran away Sweetheart. Why do you need to talk to him now? Aren't you done breaking his heart yet? Haymitch says

His words hurt me deeply. I know that he is right, like most of the time. I've done nothing other than break Peeta's heart since we were reaped. I've caused him so much suffering but he still loves me unconditionally. I can live a hundred life times and not deserve him, like Haymitch once said.

"I just need to make sure he is okay Haymitch." I say, looking down at my hands that are folded on my lap.

Haymitch sits down next to on the couch and take me in his arms. I can't help but flinch a little. Haymitch's embrace is completely unfamiliar to me, he was never the kind of person to show affection.

"I'm not going to lie and tell you that he is okay. He is as broken as you are. But Peeta found a job with Tom. He is trying to move on with his life Katniss, and I don't think it would be good for either of you to see each other right now and then go back to ignoring each other." He whispers. Haymitch is the closest figure I have for a father. I'm so grateful that he is here, he understands what I'm going through.

"I know that Haymitch. It's just that I feel like if I don't talk to him right now I will never talk to him again." I whisper back, tears making the way down my cheeks slowly.

Haymitch kisses my head and stands up. He looks at me and smiles before wiping my cheeks with the back of his hand.

"Where are you going?" I ask

"I'm going to town and I will talk to Peeta for. Don't worry I won't tell him that you are desperate to see him."

I know that Haymitch is trying to tease me but I can't bring myself to react. I'm just so worried. So as Haymitch leaves through my front door I lean back on the couch and wait.

Peeta's POV

I've been working for hour now. It's making how I can get Katniss out my head while I'm so concentrated on my task. I'm feeling a little dizzy since I haven't eaten anything since yesterday, but I don't care. I will just keep working until I have no energy left.

"Peeta, could you give us a kind here?" One of my mates asks me. I've made so many new friends. The people here don't seem to know me as "Peeta, the Hunger Games Victor" or "The boy who helped the Mockingjay", but they know me as me. The baker's son. The boy who spent his entire life dreaming about the girl who stole his heart with her beautiful voice. Before I start thinking about her again I go back to work.

" What do you need?" I ask

"We need to get some stuff up there, but this coward here is afraid of heights." They all laugh out loud and I try to force one of my own.

"I will do it" I say. One of them leads me trough what was supposed to be the door of the building. We run up the stairs, or whatever is left of it. I can't help but think that this building could collapse on us at any moment.

"You okay there? Please don't tell me you are scared!"

"Yes I'm fine. No, of course I'm not scared. Let's do this" I say. My muscles hurt from carrying heavy material and my head is spinning.

As we reach the third floor I follow him through some doors until we reach a gigantic hole in the middle of a large room.

"We are supposed to measure it and work on fixing it." He says. I just nod. We spend the next 30 minutes at least to measure the hole.

As we work I can't help but look down, we are about 22 feet high, I can clearly see the ground from here.

"I will be right back, I need to get more materials. Can you be here by yourself for a couple minutes?" he teases. I simply nod.

I finish measuring the other side of the hole before I decide that I need a break. I go to get some water but as I stand up my vision becomes blurry and I feel extremely dizzy. I need to get to the stairs. I can barely see when I'm going, my head is spinning and I feel like throwing up.

Suddenly I feel my feet leaving the ground and for a second I think I may be flying. I feel my body hitting something hard and everything goes black.

Haymitch's POV

As I leave Katniss's house I walk straight to town. I'm not sure what goes on inside that girl's head. The only thing I know is that she loves Peeta and she is killing both of them because of her decision. I need a drink, that's' all I'm sure of. I try my best not to think about everything the capitol took from me, but it's kind of hard when I'm almost completely sober.

It usually takes me around 15 minutes walking but today I can't walk fast enough. As I get close I see a crowd of people around of the building, what whatever is left of it. I see some doctors running around and the construction crew. Wait, the construction crew. I run as fast as my old legs will allow me.

"What happened?" I ask every person who passes by, but they all look as clueless as I am. I see Tom leaving the building, I really don't like his expression.

"Tom. Tom, what happened?" I say as I try to get passed the other people.

"Haymitch, thanks God you are here!" he yells as I get closer. My heart skips a beat and my breath is fast and uneven. This can't be happening, not right now.

"Where is Peeta?" I ask. His face falls and I know that something bad happened to my son. I mean the boy.

"I'm so sorry Haymitch, I swear we didn't know…" I don't let him finish. I run through what was once a pair of door, searching for the boy. Breath Haymitch, he is okay. Peeta is okay, he has to be. I run until I find the doctors, they are working on something. There is a person on the floor, lying on a pool of blood. Peeta.

"Peeta" I yell as I try to get past the doctor. I need to get to him, I need to make sure he is alive.

"Excuse me Sir. You are not allowed to be here. Please step outside." I let a nurse pull me by the arm until I'm back outside.

I'm in shock. I can't move, I can't hear anything. My vision is a blur and the only thing I see is Peeta's lifeless body lying down on the ground, surrounded by his own blood.

"Here, drink up. " Tom says as he approaches me with a cup of water.

"They are going to bring him to the district's new hospital. Haymitch, I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry. He was working with one of the member on the third floor and we heard when he fell"

I just shake my head. Suddenly I remember, Katniss. I need to go tell the girl.

"I have to go tell Katniss. She needs to be by his side right now." I say, trying to control my breathing. If someone happens to this boy I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know what Katniss would do.

"Okay go ahead. I'm going to the Hospital. Please hurry Haymitch."

I don't think, I just stand up and run towards the Victors Village. I don't feel my body and I barely breath.

Katniss's POV

I stare at the fire for what feels like hours. The suffocating feeling is only getting worse by the second. If my mother wouldn't check on me every 30 seconds I would run to town and check on peeta myself.

Suddenly I out of breath Haymitch comes running through the door. He runs to the couch where I'm and take me in his arms. At that moment I know that something is up. He hugs me tight for a couple seconds and pulls away. I look straight into Haymitch's worried eyes. My hands are shaking, my heart is beating faster than ever and tears are making my vision blurry.

"Please Haymitch, just say it." I whisper, trying to control the sobs that are willing to escape my lips

" Sweetheart please sit down…." Haymitch says.

"NO, I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE, JUST PLEASEEE TELL ME" I yell, loud sobs leaving my lips. Haymitch takes my shaking body in his arms and whispers in my ear.

"It's Peeta. I'm sorry Katniss but he is…..Peeta is..." And that's when my entire world falls. "Peeta is in the hospital, he fell from the third floor of a building. Sweetheart we need to run to the Hospital right now.

Here we are. Another chapter down. Next chapter will be as soon as possible. Please review and see you next time.