My writing inspiration youtube Olivia and Fitz forever in my mind, and Olivia and Fitz I want painful...
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"Harrison, you should have seen her, she had on the cutest pair of shorts I have ever seen." Fitz said walking by Olivia
"You don't think she heard me right?" Fitz asked walking with Harrison knowing he was messing with Olivia on purpose, and saying it loud enough for her to hear.
"Why do you mess with her?" Harrison asked laughing
"Foreplay, now how much do you want to bet that she is going to come after me?"
"No, I did that last time and I lost." Harrison said grumbling
"Don't worry; I really think she won't follow me this time"
"Okay" Harrison said slapping Fitz's hand
"Fitz!" She hollers immediately seeing Harrison and Fitz slap hands walking after them
"You did that on purpose, asshole!" Harrison shouted knowing Fitz played him once again
"You got me." Fitz said laughing knowing Olivia could never resist yelling at him
"What are you talking about shorts for?" Olivia asked when she caught up with them
"Lauren" Fitz said looking at Harrison for back up even though they both knew he was talking about Olivia
He watched her grit her teeth at the sound her name, much to his delight.
"Lauren wore these shorts, and I liked them and I wanted to tell Harrison about how much I liked them."
"You are a pig."
"What!"
"That is your girlfriend you don't talk about her at work, especially sexually."
"Would you like for me to talk about you sexually because I do …often." Fitz said whispering in her ear
She ignores the jolt that spreads across her body as he whispers in her ear, and how she likes that he thinks about her sexually. "No, I want you to do your job."
"I don't have a job" he said mimicking her voice, as Harrison fought the laugh that was coming.
"You are jealous because I have a young hot girlfriend who can give me many offspring's." Fitz said
"I could care less, and for all of our sakes I do not wish you populate this great earth with your children."
"In my dreams you are the mother of my child." Fitz said leaving Olivia Pope simply flabbergasted and at a loss for words.
"Nailed it" Fitz said getting a high five from Harrison before he ran off because he knows Olivia would yell at him for standing there, and entertaining Fitz.
"That was low." She says
"It's the truth." Fitz retorts
Folding her arms she leans against the door "I thought Lauren was the women of your dreams."
"Nope, you know what they say once you go black you never go back" He says leaning against the door himself
She smiles at him softly hearing his declaration
"I'm not worried about you having kids, God knows you cannot populate with Bastard with his low sperm count." Fitz muttered
Olivia snorted to stop herself from laughing out loud at the expense of Jake who was unable to defend himself.
"Are you jealous of Jake?"
"I was very much so."
"And you're not anymore?" She asked softly
"I salute Bastard for finding a jewel like you and never letting you go. I learned to accept that what we had in the past was beautiful but that you have moved on and I need to let the past stay in the past; besides it's not like you would give me a chance and why would you? I have no choice but to move on right? Besides a woman as magnificent as you deserve the best, even though I think you can do better than catfish lips" Fitz said looking at Olivia
"Who do I deserve?" she asked turning her body towards
"You deserve to be happy, you deserve to be cherished and adored, and most of all loved. Bastard loves you and you love him right?"
She says nothing as she stares at him, how she wants to kiss his soft pink lips, looking up at him she watches his quizzical stare, he is unsure of what she is thinking and better yet what she wants to do
"I have to get back to work." She says softly walking back into her room.
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She knocks on her door and sits in the chair, waiting for Abby to look at her.
"Fitz, stopped talking to you so now you want to talk to me again?" Abby asked annoyed that her friend is just know talking to her
"I deserve that"
"No you deserve worse, you haven't said two words to me in the past two weeks, but now all of a sudden you come in my room after threating to fire me last time you spoke to me." Hurt is written all over her face, she never knew how strong Olivia felt for Fitz, that her best friends would yell at her and threaten to fire her over a man she once loved thirteen years ago…it hurts.
"I am so sorry Abby, and I haven't been a good friend to you, and I am sorry for that. I just didn't know how to talk to you, how to apologize for my actions." Olivia says staring at Abby hoping she sees just how sorry she truly is.
"I know I am nosy and in your business, but I never expected you to yell at me like that."
"Abby you are my family and my best friend, and I am sorry…Fitz and I …we have this relationship were I feel the need to protect him and our relationship as asinine as that may sound."
"I forgive you Liv, but I won't be involved in your personal life anymore."
"No, Abby I need you. I need my friend's advice….can I tell you something in confidence, and not be worried about judgment?" Olivia asked looking at her friend
Abby nods her head for Olivia to continue
Feeling conscious, she plays with the button of her jacket not looking at her friend "I have been having dreams about Fitz." She whispers
"What kind of dreams?"
Looking up at her friend, Abby covers her mouth "Sex dreams about Fitz? Tell me all about it."
"It's this same dream… I stay late at the office while everybody goes home because of this impending storm…the power goes out and I am all alone, until Fitz comes." She smiles thinking about the dream and how Fitz is always there whenever she needs him "He fixes my fan in my office and …he starts unbuttoning my jacket…I make him leave, and he goes into Harrison's room to sleep, and I get scared and I walk into the room and he sees me and I lay in bed with him…and his arms are wrapped around me and I never felt so safe and loved, and I make love to him all night and when I open my eyes it was all just dream."
"Wow" is all Abby can say
"I know"
"Was Fitz good?" Abby asked scooting her chair closer to the desk to hear Olivia's confession
"Yes"
"How good?"
"So good that my screams and moans were louder than the thunder."
"No" Abby said excited
"Yes…his back was filled with scratches I have given him, and I might have moaned in his ear that he is the best I ever had."
"Wow, I am impressed Liv."
"Me too, but hears the crazy thing I left out of the dream."
"What"
"We didn't use protection, and when Fitz and I were making love he whispered in my ear he was going to make a baby with me tonight."
"No!" Abby said jumping out of her seat, getting more excited about this dream
"But here's the thing, Abby…once he said he was going to make a baby with me, I became more turned on and I whispered in his ear 'let's make a baby."
"Liv…." Abby said with her mouth open surprised by Olivia being so open and forthcoming about her dream and everything that had happened.
"I know can you imagine me with a child? I never held a baby before much less seen a baby, but here I am making babies with Fitz, and happily doing it…What do you think that means?" Olivia asked
"It seems to me that you are in love with Fitz and that you want to start a family with him."
"But Abby I am engaged."
"Liv are you really engaged?"
"I have a ring Abby." Olivia exclaimed
"So does a million other girls, but it is what that ring represents that makes it special. And ever since Fitz walked into your life you have grown more and more distant towards Jake, you fought with me over Fitz…not Jake…you defended Fitz when I attacked him- you have dreams about Fitz- you think about having babies with Fitz-not your fiancé."
She listens to what Abby says, but she can't stop the nagging feels that are troubling her "Abby, Fitz has moved on and every time I get close to him; I just go back to thirteen years ago when I fell in love with him…what would happen to me if I fell in love with him again? What would happen if we have a family and he gets scared and leaves again?" Olivia asked Abby the same questions she ask herself everyday
Shaking her head sympathetically at her friend she reaches over the desk and grabs her hand "I don't think it is much of a 'what would happen' because you are already in love with him."
"He has girlfriend Abby…Fitz has moved on, he got tired waiting for me." Olivia said sadly
"He's still here isn't he" Abby said, effectively making Olivia listen and see all the signs that are in front of her.
"What are you going to do with Jake?" Abby asked
"I don't' know." Olivia said rubbing her fingers through her hair "Jake treats me right…he's fine."
"Liv."
"Abby, Fitz is taken and Jake is safe, until something happens…this is how it is going to be."
"What do you expect to happen?" Abby asked
"I don't know"
"Okay Liv." Abby said not wanting to anger Olivia or rush her into talking to Fitz.
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"Jake what are your doing here?" She says seeing Jake walk in the office with Chinese food and beer for the gang
"I come bearing gifts" He says walking into the conference room and to his annoyance seeing Fitz Black with the gang sitting around laughing as if he works here better yet is here often.
"What the hell is he doing here?" Jake asked pointing to Fitz as Olivia follows him into the conference room
"Damn it Bastard, you always know how to ruin a party." Fitz said turning around to stare at him
"Liv, I asked you a question, why is he here?" Jake asked looking back and forth between Olivia and Fitz
Getting up he walks to Jake "I am here because I am paying Olivia by working for her."
"You don't have a job?"
"My job is to fulfill Olivia's every wish." Fitz quipped earning him a howl from Quinn
"What do you mean by that?" Jake snarled moving closer to Fitz
"Well since I do not have the salary as you do, I work for Olivia; fixing up the office."
Laughing Jake hits his head playfully "Of course, Olivia always has a thing for helping the needy."
"Jake" She warns
While everyone stares at Jake, clearing confused as to how he does not know who Fitz is, and how he has made the biggest mistake crossing Fitz.
"That would explain why Livvie is with you" Fitz said and was rewarded with "ooh" from the gang
"Nailed it" Fitz said turning around and fist bumping Harrison
"Fitz" She yells
"That's what she said" Fitz said making everyone in the room laugh
Stepping in between the two men sensing trouble she tries pushing Fitz back, afraid he would get hurt and mess up the progress he has made in therapy
"At least I have slept with her." Jake said
"What makes you think I haven't?" Fitz retorted
Everyone in the office stares shocked that Fitz said that. Smiling at Fitz Jake pushes Olivia and punches him. The two men fight on the floor throwing punch after punch, quickly Fitz tops Jake beating him until Huck comes and pulls him off, while Olivia goes to an unconscious Jake.
"You take care of him after what he said?" Fitz asked hurt as he stares at Olivia- looking at her as if she was a stranger.
She sees the look on his face. Getting up she removes herself from Jake and walks into her office with Fitz right behind her.
Everyone in the office scatters and talks about what transpired not a single person bothered trying to help Jake as he lays unconscious
"What they hell was that about" Olivia asked slamming the door
"I don't know Liv, he made me mad."
"So is that was this was all about; you one upping Jake?"
"What! No, Olivia I didn't like the way he talked to me and I most certainly did not like the way he talked about you, he pushed you."
"I can handle Jake."
"Well I can't handle some dick touching you like that…I should have killed him; I would have killed him."
"And what good would that do?"
"For starters you would be safe, and I wouldn't have to look at that vagina wig."
"Jake has never laid a hand on me"
"Until today, it's funny how you excuse his actions but totally give me the punishment."
"That's not what I am doing…I was concerned about you, Fitz you could have gotten hurt; the progress you have made would be for nothing because you got mad."
Walking up to her he looks at her up and down "What hurts me the most is that the women I love doesn't believe in me the way she use too; what happened to my Olivia, the Olivia who would stand beside me who believed me more than I believed in myself- where in the hell is she?"
"She left!" Olivia yells "She left the minute you had checked out of the relationship, when she was no longer the first on your list but your second…may be now you know what it feels like to always be last on your list!"
Penning her to the wall he looks at her "So that's what this is about you getting even with me?"
"No, this is how I feel; this is how I always feel because you did this to me! I felt that I was the last thing on your mind that you didn't love me and you didn't, you were looking for an escape."
"You left me, you placed the scarf on my head and you disappeared!"
Caressing her cheek he looks at her "I have never put you last on my list you have always been my highest goal- if I were to escape it would be in your arms." He says softly
They stare at one another- both of their eyes are red, both exhausted. He moves away from her giving her space and himself room.
"I can't believe you let him talk to you like that?" Fitz said rethinking about what just transpired fifteen minutes ago
"What difference does it make from the way he talked about me and you?"
"What?" He asked hurt
"You stooped down to his level, talking about me as if I am a piece of trash…a notch on your belt."
"Is that what you think?" Fitz asked hurt that Olivia would think so low of him
"What else am I to think about?"
"I thought you would be proud that I defended you and the people who work for you, but instead you are mad at me! Damn it Olivia I am the one who looks after you, I am the one who is her waiting for you…"
Se cuts him off "And I am not a sick child or a lost dog that needs to be cuddled and sheltered; I don't need anybody taking care of me; I take care of myself!" She said walking up to him
"I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that." He says
"That's exactly how you meant it."
"Olivia, everybody needs to be taken care of at some time, and I know you take care of yourself, and I know you don't need me but I need you! But for you to take that Bastards side?" Fitz stopped talking as he walked over to the window to calm himself before he exploded.
"I didn't take his side! You knocked him unconscious and I wanted to see if he was okay?"
"In my eyes it looked like you were more concerned with him then me?"
"I was because he was unconscious…Fitz what has gotten into you?" Olivia asked
Rubbing his fingers through his hair he can't look at her, his anger won't let him; instead he takes a deep breath and focuses on his next choice of words "Olivia aren't you tired of playing games?"
She looks at him hoping he would meet her, but he doesn't "What do you mean?"
"This game we are playing…it's getting old. I am not getting younger and you are not any less single…"
"Fitz…"
"I want a life with you Olivia, I want you to be my wife, I want you to be the mother of my children, and I want to be the man you always knew I could be. But I can't have that" He says looking at her finally
"What do you want me to say?" She whispers this time it is her looking away from him
"Say something." He pleads.
He waits for her, while she stares at the window not willing and not ready to talk. Looking at her one last time, he walks out of the office. This time there is no smile on his face.
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Love hurts sometimes...Told i was inspired "..." no...okay...Hiding