Hunger in Me/ Hunger for You.
Magrat 70
Rating; M femslash don't like, don't read.
Author's note; I had written an non linear piece to go with this but my new Beta suggested it would make a better epilogue and to be honest I agree, we are still in bizarre crossover that kinda went to a different place.
AN 2 for those watching the World Cup Luis Suarez is one fucked individual, to bite on the pitch for the third time, fucker should be in this story :-)
Thank you to my new beta Traineker
The song is Ghosts by Japan.
Devour
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"Can I c...come with you," JJ softly asked. Emily looked downright scary, with a sword on her hip, a sword on her back, as well as a gun strapped to her shoulder and to JJ's trained eye it looked like she had pistols or knives strapped to her ankles, dressed in black combats and a black T-shirt. The other thing JJ couldn't hide was her desire, Emily had no right to stand there looking so cool and sexy while the shit hit the fan.
Emily nodded her head if she was going to be honest with she might as well introduce her to her best friend.
JJ pulled herself up on her crutches, when Frankie with his natural chivalry showing she shook her."Thanks Frankie, I've got this."
He let a big puff of air out when they left the room, even without the wolf in him, he could feel much more than he could ever describe, the tension in the room was palpable.
Emily waited for JJ to come with her. She felt shy, not sure how to greet the woman that she loved, that she craved. She knew the blonde's pulse was racing and her adrenaline was pumping, Emily couldn't decide if it was because JJ was mad at her or wanted her. She tentatively put one hand on JJ's waist before pulling her into a gentle kiss.
"You were going after the unsub by yourself, weren't you?"
"I promise that you will understand soon and I hope that Jane and Frankie can help," the vampire said, without relinquishing the grip she had on her lover.
"How can they help..."
"JJ, please my mother has said nothing to me other than my best friend's girlfriend has been shot, I need to show my support."
"Do you know who she is?"
"No, I know she was interested in someone, but all she would say that she was out of her league," Emily explained, pleased she got JJ to move on, but her profiler hat was telling her that to get JJ off the subject something bad was going on and she had her media liaison face on.
"She is the Chief Medical Examiner for Massachusetts and they air lifted her here, they were ambushed at a crime scene..."
"That's not possible..."
A deep raspy voice cut in. "I love your faith in me Em, but when Hoyt is involved anything is possible, the bastard blind sighted me.."
"Hoyt, The Surgeon?" Jane nodded mutely, trying not to ball up her hands when JJ's eyes strayed towards them. "Detective Jane Rizzoli, I spoke to you just before... he hurt you... we were going to Boston, before he was caught... is he out." JJ's first thought was that if a known serial killer was going after women again in Boston especially if his target was the partner of the lead detective that had found him the first time, that the BAU should be informed.
"No, one of his damn apprentices. He has found a new way to torment me by hurting Maura."
"How is she?" The vampire asked, she could hear the heartbeats of two humans, one weaker and slower than JJ's
"She is lucky, if she hasn't turned when I heard the shot and called her name it would have gone through her heart and not her shoulder," the tall, gruff detective commented fighting back the tears. "I don't know what I would have done... I understand now, Em about the things you did, I listened to you, but you can never get it unless it is the woman you love who is dead...I thought she was dead... there were so many people around... I couldn't hear the beat of her heart. Frankie had to tell me, I am the detective, I lost my head, I could only think that I had tried not to let her go...we should have stayed in bed. I...I had already changed at one scene... Em, I'm losing control of it, everything I've been taught..."
JJ behaved instinctively, she had over the years, seen many victim's loved ones breakdown, she could see the detective was holding on by a thread. "Jane, put the fault where it belongs the person who shot her. Remember she's still alive, because of you, if you hadn't been alert, she would be dead. I would be dead if it wasn't for Emily, I'm sure Dr. Isles won't mind some shoulder trouble for a while, like a bum knee is better than the alternative."
JJ's light gentle tone pushed the wolf at bay for a while, Jane then remembered about the conversation she had had with the ambassador, "You're the agent that was tortured... damn sorry it reminds me of when people do the same thing to me about Hoyt, I'm sorry and now I'm going to be rude again, I remember talking to you, I don't remember your name."
"JJ,"
Jane gave a small smile. "You know about now Maura would be giving us a lecture on why my brain couldn't recall that difficult piece of information. JJ, when she wakes up you can both have the unusual pleasure of talking to googlemouth, perfect recall of the weirdest fact. I once asked her if she would tell me if she was a cyborg, she is a bit socially awkward, a total genius and adorable."
JJ and Emily both start to laugh. "It's okay Jane you can keep her, we already have one exactly the same at the office," Emily quipped. "Go back to her... I have important things I need to discuss with Jennifer."
The two old friends gave an awkward one armed hug, Jane whispered in Emily's ear, "She doesn't know does she? Neither does Maura; hard times ahead, my friend." The vampire and the wolf exchanged a brief nod.
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JJ had allowed herself to be carried up the stairs by Emily to her room, before being placed on a bed. She still was shocked by the strength of her lover, she doubted even Morgan could throw her around with such ease, the doubts about what she was going to ask were gone. She knew her life would change forever. "I need it back...the memory I asked you remove, I want it back."
"I can't, I'm sorry baby, once it's gone, it's gone." The vampire, admitted sadly, she watched helplessly as tears rolled down JJ's face. "There is something I can try, it won't be the same though, I can let you have mine."
"Okay, I think...please at least I will know."
"It will be confusing for you... you won't be getting only my memories but my feelings too. I am not like you...oh what the hell," she slipped on some music, it was atmospheric and discordant, not something JJ was familiar with.
Emily sat opposite JJ on the bed, "Look into my eyes, relax your body,"
JJ is transported back to Emily's condo, it was weird at first to watch herself losing control, the kiss and then slapping herself in the face, the emotions reached her next, amusement, lust and something else she can't yet understand.
She felt it then as she picked herself up and flew upstairs, the need to take, the need for everything, the hunger that burnt deep in her soul to take a lover and taste her blood, it wasn't out of control and was mingled with love.
When the room is quiet, the daylight almost gone
It seems there's something I should know
Well, I ought to leave but the rain, it never stops
And I've no particular place to go
She feels fear as her canines start to lengthen; the fear is from both sides. The glory of undressing, licking, touching and tasting. The controlling of the power to destroy or kill. The disbelief when she turned her head to allow the bite, the transportation to bliss on both sides, the taste of the iron rich blood mixed with her sex is addictive and she pulled back listening to herself screaming Emily's name.
Just when I think I'm winning
When I've broken every door
The ghosts of my life
Blow wilder than before
The blow that comes to your ancient heart when you ask to have your memories removed is shattering. There is anger but a bereavement, a hatred of yourself, before putting the gun in your mouth and then the shock of Suzette's Taser.
Just when I thought I could not be stopped
When my chance came to be king
The ghosts of my life
Blew wilder than the wind
JJ is lost in the memories flooding through her, she is now Emily. Your mind is another place; you're riding a horse through a wild forest. You see a woman walking through the woods. At first the other part of your brain judged it to be Jane Rizzoli, on closer inspection she is smaller, with none of the cop's angular build. Instead she is curved, the epitome of the feminine, their only common feature is wild curly hair, dark penetrating eyes and beauty.
She asked if you are trying to remove them from your land. You explain that there is sickness in the castle. You start to cough blood drops from your lips, you knew that consumption was going to take you.
She pulled you from your horse and took your face in her hands, she told you were too beautiful to leave this earth. Her bite is pure pleasure that you have never felt in your life, you feel yourself fading, your heart beat slows, she removed her mouth from your neck before opening a vein at her wrist and you feed for the first time.
Well, I'm feeling nervous, now I find myself alone
The simple life's no longer there
Once I was so sure, now the doubt inside my mind
Comes and goes but leads nowhere
Your mind has flashes of the woman dancing by firelight, making love for what seems an eternity. You are back on horseback, a wild pace through the night. You arrived to see her head on a post and her body on a pyre, everything is burning, her, the castle and your hatred. You kill and kill, priests, monks and nuns. Finally you find him and you torture him until he begs you to kill him, you give him the smile of death, before making him in your image. It should have stopped there but your hunger for vengeance is not sated. He was the instrument of her demise but others took the decision.
Just when I think I'm winning
When I've broken every door
The ghosts of my life
Blow wilder than before
You are on your knees, your head bowed, you offer your life as you are told you have to stop this madness. You see the ambassador walking toward you, telling you that it is too easy, you need to learn. You will be her ward, she will teach you control, bring you back to what you were before Mahala died. She whispered in your ear, you can call me mother.
Just when I thought I could not be stopped
When my chance came to be king
The ghosts of my life
Blew wilder than the wind
Another forest this time you are running with Jane and Frankie, you watch as they turn into huge wolves, you laugh as you run after them. You are sparring with Jane, finally you can both use your full power, you punch, kick flip, one another and finally break. You both enjoyed it neither seriously trying to overpower the other. You are too alike to be lovers but you are friends.
The final memory of beautiful blue eyes and you confessing your love in a hospital room and between these three very different women you are whole again.
JJ is back in the bedroom, Emily has fallen back against the pillows tears streamed down her and all JJ can feel is compassion for everything she had been through, she gathered the vampire in her arms and held her. "I won't leave you, I still love you."
TBC