a/n: some of you were probably curious as to why the last chapter was the beginning of the end, well I'm not anywhere near the end of the story so don't worry it is just the end of something else…
I ran over to Jenna and wrapped my arms around her. She leaned into me.
"Where'd you go?" she whispered
"I just had to pee, I'm here now, it's ok" I said as I rocked her gently
"I was so scared" she whispered
"Don't be Jen, if I'm not right here go check the living room, or go wake Kendall or Logan, they're here too" I said
She wrapped her arms around me and buried her face in my chest "What's happening to me James?" she asked and I could feel her tears soak through my shirt
"Jenna, please don't cry"
"I miss Carlos and it's turning me into a scared child" she whispered
"Want me to call him?" I asked
She nodded against my chest "Ok, but I have to go get my phone from the living room" I said
"Don't leave me" she pleaded, looking up into my eyes
"Ok, come with me" I said with a gentle smile
We stood up and she kept her arms securely around my waist.
-Carlos' POV-
I snatched my phone off the table as fast as I could when it started to ring. I almost dropped it a few times, but I answered it.
"Hello"
"Hey Carlos" Jenna said from the other end and it sounded like she was trying to seem happy when she really was crying
"Baby, what's wrong?" I asked
"Nothing, I just miss you" she said
"Tell him" I could hear James say in the background
"What is it that you're not telling me?" I asked
"Oh, I just… dropped my promise ring down the drain and we had to call a plumber to get it out and I sent it off to be cleaned" she said and I didn't believe one word of it
"Alright" I said slowly, I heard James huff in frustration and a door slam on the other end of the call
"Well, I gotta go, I love you, so much"
"I love you too" I said before she hung up
She just lied to me, I know she did. It must be something big if she lied to me like that. She must not want me to worry but now I am because there is something big she's not telling me. Now I'm going to worry! Great! Now I'm all worried and shit.
"Hey buddy" Antonio said as he walked into my room
"Hey" I sighed
"What's wrong?" he asked
"There's obviously something wrong and Jenna… she just lied to me and told me there wasn't anything wrong, when I could tell that there was something she wasn't telling me" I said with sad eyes
"How do you know something's wrong?" Antonio asked
"Because she called me, crying. Then when I asked her what was wrong, James told her to tell me something and she gave me an excuse and he stormed out of the room" I said
"She was crying?" he asked
"Yeah, and I don't know why, now I'm all worried about her!" I shouted
"She'll tell you when she's ready" Antonio said
-Jenna's POV-
I'm sitting on the couch, clinging to James' side. Ally, Erin and Em are here too. I'm starting to go into one of those random calm moments I have sometimes and it feels great. Em suddenly texts me. She asked me why I was clinging to her boyfriend.
"Ok, so I know all of you are wondering why I'm being so clingy" I said to Em, Erin and Ally "Ok, so I have abandonment issues and since Carlos left, they have gotten a lot worse. I am taking medication for it but it isn't working too well so I have to cling to a guy to sort of, like simulate Carlos… I guess. And right now, see how I'm so calm? This is unusual, ask them, I'm a mess" I said
"How much of a mess?" Ally asked
"Oh, well, I'm starting to feel my calmness go away so you should be figuring that out in a few minutes" I said before I started to hyperventilate
"Jen, come here" James said, opening his lap to me
I crawled into his lap and clung to him with my eyes shut tight. Tears started to fall as I clung tightly to James. James stroked my hair.
"Jenna, shhhh, it's ok" he murmured
"He's gone, he left me" I whispered through my tears
"No he didn't Jenna, he's just visiting his parents" James whispered
"He doesn't love me anymore, does he?" I asked
Everyone's heads snapped over in our direction "That's not true!" Em said
"He loves you and you know it! We all know it!" Ally said
"I miss him" I whispered
"We know Jen, we know" James said
"See, she is a mess" Logan said
-James' POV- (a/n: ok, it you haven't guessed, the last chapter was the beginning of the end of Jenna's sanity. Alright? Good!)
-The Next Morning-
I woke up alone which is really weird. I am always awake before Jenna! I walked into the living room to find her sitting in the corner. She had her arms wrapped around her legs which were up close to her body. She had her head between her knees and I could see sobs racking her body. I ran up to her and wrapped my arms around her.
"James, help me" she pleaded
"What can I do?" I asked
"James, the medication, it doesn't work oh God, I-I almost tried" she said, shakily pointing to a knife on the floor
"Jenna, oh my God!" I shouted, holding her closer
"It hurts James, it hurts" she said
I called to Logan and Kendall and they walked into the room. Jenna looked at them with sad eyes and they looked to me for an explanation.
"Come help me" I said, waving them over to us
"What's wrong?" Kendall asked
"The medication stopped working and she almost tried to kill herself!" I said
"Jenna!" Logan shouted
"I can't handle it anymore, help me!" she pleaded
"What can we do?" Logan asked
"Hold me" she said, reaching her arms out for them to hold her with me
They walked over and wrapped their arms around her too. "Do you want to call Carlos?" Logan asked
"Yeah" she whimpered
I got up and grabbed my phone.
"James!" she pleaded, reaching out for me
"I'm going to call Carlos" I said
She spun around and buried her face in Kendall's chest. She's way closer to me than the other guys so I completely understood when she called out for me as I got up. I quickly dialed Carlos' number. Jenna started freaking out and hyperventilating and sobbing.
"Hello" Carlos said as he answered
"Carlos, we have a crisis! Jenna is freaking out and the medication stopped working!" I said
"Medication? James, what the fuck are you talking about?" Carlos asked
"Jenna needs to talk to you" I said, handing the phone to her
"Carlos" she sniffled "I need to tell you something"
-Carlos' POV-
"What's up?" I asked
"I have prescription grade abandonment issues and my medication stopped working" she said
"Jenna, why didn't you tell me?"
"I couldn't and- oh God" she started
"Jenna?" I asked
"You left me, you left me, you don't love me do you?" she said
"Jenna, baby, I love you with all my heart!" I said, appalled that she would even think that
"Then why did you leave?" she whimpered
"I had to go visit my family, you know that" I said
"Carlos, I miss you" she said
"I miss you too babe" I said
"I love you" she said
"I love you too babe" I said back
I walked into the living room and muttered curse words under my breath. My girlfriend is having mental breakdowns and there's nothing I can do about it! I can't even help her! My life sucks.
"Carlos, what's wrong?" Antonio asked me
"Jenna is even more screwed up than I thought and she needs me but I'm here" I said
"I'm sorry buddy" he said
"No, sorry doesn't cut it because my girlfriend apparently has abandonment issues and feels abandoned by me and there isn't one fucking thing I can do about it!"
"Ok, language!" he said
"Sorry, but c'mon! This really sucks!" I said, groaning in frustration and running a hand through my hair
"I know buddy, I know" he said
He doesn't know! Nobody really knows! Nobody understands the position I'm in! I miss Jenna and I can't even begin to understand what this is like for her! The guys probably do but I don't, and I should be the first one to understand!
-Antonio's POV- (a/n: didn't see that coming did you?)
As soon as I left Carlos in the living room, I called Kendall.
"Hello" a very stressed out Kendall said from the other end
"Kendall! How about we take Jenna out of your hair?" I asked
"Really? You sure?" he asked
"Yeah, the best thing for her right now would probably be Carlos, right?" I asked
"Yeah you're right"
"Who would she be the most comfortable on a plane with?" I asked
"James" he said quickly and simply
"Ok then, I'll schedule it right away"
"Let me know" he said
"Yup, bye Kendall"
"Bye Antonio" he said before we hung up
I immediately booked a flight out here. I hope two hours is long enough for Jenna to pack. I'm so excited to meet her! Carlos loves that girl so much and even though the first few hours or whatever she'll probably be glued to him, I still can't wait. I pulled my phone out and called Kendall back.
"That was quick" he said as he answered
"The flight is in two hours" I said
"Ok, when you pick her up, since she doesn't know you, drive Carlos' car and wear one of his hoodies"
"Why?" I asked
"Because it will be familiar to her and I don't think you want a car ride full of her flipping out" Kendall explained
"That makes sense, ok, get her packed!" I said before we hung up
-Three hours later-
Ring, ring ring
"Hello"
"We just landed" James said from the other end of the phone
"Ok, I'll be there in ten minutes" I said before we hung up
I walked into the living room, Carlos' hoodie on my arm.
"Carlos, can I borrow your car?" I asked
"Sure, whatever" he said, throwing his keys to me
"Thanks" I said before I ran out the door
I drove to the airport and threw Carlos' hoodie on. I walked into the waiting area and sat down on one of the couches. I wasn't there for very long.
"Antonio!" I heard James call
"Hey!" I said as they walked over
"Jenna, this is Carlos' brother Antonio" James said
We shook hands but Jenna was glued to James' side. "Ready to go?" I asked
"Go with him Jenna, he's going to take you to Carlos" James said to Jenna
"Ok, bye James" she said
James left for his flight back and I held my hand out for Jenna. She nervously took it and I led her to Carlos' car.
"Why do you have Carlos' car?" she asked
"Because I thought it would make you more comfortable, seeing as you don't know me" I said
"Good idea" she said
"You seem really calm, no offense, but I was expecting you to be a crying mess" I said
"Well Antonio, sometimes I have these random calm moments where I am normal but they don't usually last long" she said
"What do I do when it ends?" I asked
"You smell like Carlos, so I will probably move next to you, just put your arm around me okay?" she said
"No problem" I said and smiled at her
She smiled back "So, how much older are you than Carlos?" she asked
"Five years" I said "Do you have any brothers?" I asked
"I had three, but my brother Ryan died in a car crash recently" she said, staring out the window
"Oh, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have asked" I said, regretting that I asked
"No, it's fine, really" she said, shooting me a smile
"How old are your brothers?" I asked
"Bret is thirty-four, Carey is thirty-two, and Ryan was twenty-four" she said
"No younger brothers?" I asked
"Nope, I was the last one" she said with a big smile
We talked the whole ride and she didn't break down once. Carlos is lucky to have her, she's a nice girl. He was right about those blue eyes, holy shit they're amazing! We are pulling into the driveway. Carlos doesn't know about her coming out here so I am going to surprise him.
"Ok Jenna, Carlos doesn't know you came so we are going to surprise him" I said
"Ok" she said, getting really excited
We walked up to the door and I opened it "Hey Carlos, I ran into an old friend of yours and they wanted to stop bye to say hi" I said
"Who?" he asked, looking at me
I stepped aside and let Jenna come in. Carlos jumped over the back of the couch and ran up to her. She met him halfway and he brought her into a tight hug. She buried her face into his neck. I watched in awe. Carlos mouthed a thank you to me a couple of times before looking Jenna in the eyes. He brought her into a passionate kiss. What a cute couple! They were having a nice moment when Jenna broke down. She attached herself to him, wrapping her arms tightly around him.
"Jen, it's ok" Carlos whispered
"Don't leave me" she pleaded in a whisper
"Never, I'll never leave you" he whispered back
"You promise?" she asked like a broken child
"I promise" he said, seeing her like this must have been killing him because I saw a single tear escape
"I love you" she said into his chest
"I love you too" Carlos replied before kissing the top of her head
"This is really cute but could you break it up please?" dad asked, walking into the room
Jenna crouched behind Carlos, she seemed to be hiding from my dad. I gave Carlos a look of confusion.
"Jen, it's just my dad" he said to her
"Is he gonna do what my dad did?" she asked
"No! Jenna, he would never do that!" Carlos said to her, cupping her face in his hands
"What'd he do?" my dad asked
"He kidnapped and starved me for eleven days and beat me every day" Jenna whispered
"Jenna, I would never do that" dad said sympathetically
"Good" she smiled, her break down ending
"Nice to see you again Jenna" my mom said from the kitchen
"Hi" Jenna said back, waving to her
"Jenna, I thought you sent your ring off to be cleaned" Carlos said, smirking as he held her and and inspected the ring on her finger
"Oh, I lied" she said with a nervous laugh "I didn't want to tell you about the abandonment thing" she said, embarrassed
"Don't worry babe, it's ok" Carlos said, wrapping his arms around her
-Carlos' POV-
I missed holding this girl in my arms. This is where she belongs, right here with me. She and I have been joined at the hip ever since she got here. Right now she sits, facing me, in my lap with her arms around me on the couch. Her head is in my neck. It's moments like these that I have missed the most. Everyone went to bed and Jenna and I decided to stay up a little longer. We moved positions to laying down. I have my back against the back of the couch and she is laying in front of me, facing the TV. I wrapped my arm around her and she snuggled into my back. I smiled contently and turned my attention to the movie on TV.
It didn't take Jenna very long to fall asleep, I wasn't far behind.
I woke up to Jenna snuggling closer into my chest. She was facing me now. I kissed the top of her head and settled back down. I closed my eyes and fell back to sleep. I was reawakened by a flash. I woke up to Antonio taking pictures of me and Jenna.
"You guys are so cute!" he laughed
"Antonio, I'm going to fucking murder you!" I whisper-yelled
"Language little brother, language" he said with a smirk
Jenna shifted in my grasp "Hey" she said as she woke up
"Hey babe, how'd you sleep?" I asked as Antonio walked away, laughing to himself
"Better than I have since you left" she said quietly
"Please, don't ever again even start to think that I would ever leave you" I pleaded
"I don't try to" she whispered, sniffling
"Jenna please don't cry" I pleaded, lifting her chin so she would look at me. I wiped her tears away "Why would I leave you? I could never do that. It wouldn't only hurt you, it would hurt me too" I said
"Why do you even love me? Why me? I'm so fucked up, why me? There are all those celebrities out there that would love to be with you, and you picked an emotionally unstable, broken little brunette like me. I don't deserve you and you shouldn't have to put up with me." she said, a new round of tears forming in her eyes
"No, Jenna, listen to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I wouldn't trade you for anyone else in the world. Don't ever think that you don't deserve me. The truth is that I don't deserve you. You are so nice and beautiful and the absolute best person I have ever met. I love you so much, please Jenna, never think those things" I said, looking her in the eyes
"But Carlos-" she started
I cut her off "Please" I pleaded
She nodded "Ok" she whispered
I pulled her in for a sweet kiss. When we broke apart, she looked longingly into my eyes. She brought me in for another kiss, this one was more… urgent. It didn't take long for my hands to find their way to her hips and pull her on top of me.
"Hey! Big brother in the room!" Antonio called, shielding his eyes
"If you don't like it, don't look" I said back and brought Jenna in for another kiss
"Get a room" he muttered
"Ok" I said, grabbing Jenna's hand and running over to the stairs
"NO!" Antonio shrieked, blocking our path
"You told us to" Jenna teased
"I didn't think you guys were there in your relationship" he said, frantic
"We are a little past there" I said
"Dad would kill you if he knew" he said
"Last time he thought we did, he exploded at Jenna so… let's just keep this between us" I said
"Does that mean you're gonna do it anyway?" Antonio asked nervously
"Yup" Jenna said as we shoved past him
Ahhhh, first reuniting after reuniting. This is nice.
a/n: well, there you have it. Together again, isn't love grand? Review please!
Jenna