AN: To anyone who was confused in the last chapter. Lorelai was cutting a loaf of bread, it wasn't pre-sliced. So the knife is sharp, it's not just a butter knife. Thanks for all the reviews.

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Chapter 20: Emotions

Lorelai was just about to bring the knife to her arm when she heard a knock at the door. Part of her was relived that she had an excuse not to do it, even though most of her wanted to do it. 'I know it would hurt, but I deserve it,' she thought as she made her way to the door.

Lorelai expected it to be Luke or Rory. Instead it was Chris.

"What are you doing here?" Lorelai asked.

"I just wanted to see you and be sure you were alright," Chris said.

"What about Gigi?" Lorelai asked.

"She's with my mom," Chris said walking into the house.

"What did you tell your mom?" Lorelai asked afraid that he had given something away. If he had given something away her parents might find out.

"Don't worry I told her I had some business stuff to take care of, she has no idea what's going on," Chris assured her.

"So what do you want?" Lorelai asked, 'He wouldn't just show up for no good reason,' she thought not sure if she should be angry or relived that he was here.

"I do care about you Lor I just wanted to be sure that you were alright, I don't want anything to happen to you," Chris said in a soft soothing tone.

Lorelai started to panic, "Are you coming on to me?" she asked wanting to be sure there was no miscommunication between the two.

Chris looked shocked for a moment before responding. "No, I really do care about you, I know you're with Luke but I'm worried about you," he said.

Lorelai sighed feeling stupid that she had even thought that. "I just wanted to be sure," she said.

"Don't worry about it," Chris said. They spent the next couple minutes in silence.

"Have you made an appointment with a therapist?" Chris asked wanting to be sure she was getting help.

"Yeah, I went today and I'm going again next week," Lorelai said.

"Did you do anything else today?" Chris asked.

Lorelai suddenly felt guilty as she thought about the day. She realized that she had thought about hurting perhaps even killing herself. She didn't want to tell Chris what had happened. She knew she should tell someone but that someone should be Luke.

"Nothing, nothing at all," Lorelai said.

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Jess had spent the day working and writing his book. He was in the middle of it when his phone rang. "Hello," he said.

"Hey Jess," Rory said a little afraid of talking to him.

"What's up?" Jess asked kind of glad for an excuse to stop working.

"I need to talk to you about something," Rory said.

"What is it?" Jess asked a little bit alarmed, she sounded deadly serious.

"I lied to you yesterday," Rory said guilt obvious in her voice.

"What do you mean?" Jess asked wondering what she meant.

"When I said I didn't know the guy that was bothering me, I know him" Rory said trying to keep her voice stable.

"Who is it?" Jess asked getting mad immediately.

Rory mistook that anger as anger towards her. "I'm sorry Jess, I didn't mean to lie to you, I was just afraid," Rory said as she started to cry.

"Rory I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at him," Jess reassured her.

"I'm sorry," Rory said.

"What's his name?" Jess asked trying and failing to keep his anger in check.

"Logan Huntzberger," Rory said trying to stay strong.

"What's he done to you?" Jess asked immediately thinking the worst.

"He's made some comments to me, and he grabbed my wrist once," Rory said. Even though Rory had been afraid to say anything she had to admit it did feel better to say something.

"I'm going to kill him," Jess said.

"Jess don't, then you'll be in prison and that's the last place I need you to be. I need you to be here for me," Rory said pleading with him.

"Fine, just promise me you'll stay away from him," Jess said.

"Alright I promise," Rory said.

"I'll see you tomorrow," Jess said.

"Same here, I love you," Rory said.

"Love you too," Jess said hanging up the phone.

"How'd the talk go?" Paris asked once she realized that the conversation was over.

"It went well, he was mad but I think he'll be fine," Rory said.

"As long as you're sure," Paris said getting back to studying.

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Luke had worked for a couple of hours during the dinner rush then he headed home to Lorelai. He was surprised to see Chris's Volvo in the driveway when he got there. He walked into the house to find Chris and Lorelai talking in the living room.

"Hey Chris, when did you get here?" Luke asked trying to be nice.

"A little while ago," Chris said sensing the awkwardness of the situation.

"Well that's good," Luke said.

"Well, I should be going," Chris said as he started to leave.

"Chris you don't have to," Lorelai started.

"Lor talk to him," Chris whispered to her. It hurt Chris to let her go. He had thought about swooping in and trying to win her back. But he realized that she really loved Luke and that he had lost. It hurt but deep, down, inside of him Chris knew it was doing the right thing.

"I'll see you later," Chris said as he left.

"I'm sorry he was here," Lorelai said after Chris left.

"Lorelai don't worry about it, he just wanted to be sure you were fine, right?" Luke asked looking into her deep, blue eyes.

"Yeah, he just came over, I was really glad he did," Lorelai admitted.

"What do you mean?" Luke asked.

Lorelai took a deep breath, she knew this was going to hurt Luke but she had to say it before she hurt herself.

"Today before Chris came over and after you left I was going to…I considered…I was about to cut myself," Lorelai said ashamed that she had even thought it.

"What…why…how," Luke said shocked that she would think such a thing.

"I didn't actually do it but I thought about it, everything was just so stressful and I'm really hurting right now," Lorelai explained.

"Just promise me you'll never think that again and if you do please call me," Luke said his heart breaking. He knew things would be bad for a while but he never imagined they would be this bad.

"I promise I won't do it and if I think it I'll call you, so you don't hate me?" Lorelai asked as she started to cry.

"I don't hate you, let it all out, it's alright," Luke said holding on to Lorelai like his life depended on it. That is how they sat for the next two hours.

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During his entire life whenever Logan wanted something he always got it. First it was toys and games, then cars and girls. No girl had ever refused him before until Rory Gilmore.

Even girls with boyfriends had slept with him because he was rich and handsome. Then Rory Gilmore came along and actually denied him what he wanted. He was mad, his father had always told him when he wanted something he should take it and that's what he was doing now.

When he first told his dad about Rory Gilmore his dad seemed interested and said he remembered that the Gilmore's had a daughter, Lorelai, so she must be her daughter. That sealed the deal for Logan, not only beautiful; she was a Gilmore heiress he had to have her.

I didn't matter what way he got her all that mattered was that she became his. Logan would make sure of that no matter what.

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