Okay, I havent really got nuthin to say, so I hope you like it.. i've already got my next big thing thats gnna happen... Enjoy!
Hours I sat in the waiting room. After a while Esme and Carlisle showed up with Alice and they all had tear-streaked faces too. Esme and Carlisle held hands whilst I rested my head on Alice's shoulder and cried. After what seemed like forever a doctor came down the hall and asked if we were the Cullen's and that he couldn't give any information away to someone who wasn't blood relatives.
"I'm his best friend, god dammit, just tell us what happened!" I shouted, frustrated. Alice raised an eyebrow at me, probably because I hadn't had an actual conversation with Edward in over a week.
"Well, okay then, I suppose that's fine, Edward's suffered a few things. He has a mild alcohol poisoning and he took an overdose. We can't tell whether it was intentional or not because he hadn't taken an obscene amount of pills but he was drunk at the time so it affected him more than it would have done if he had just taken the pills. There was also a slight trace of cocaine in his blood stream. Could you explain how any of this might've happened? I assure it's all confidential and we will make no judgement..." The doctor asked.
"Um, well, we had a bad break up and Edward didn't want to end it and thinking about it, neither did I but I had been quite emotionally damaged by him so I wasn't quite ready to date him again. Edward seemed really depressed but yeah about the drugs. We all, as in our group of friends, have a bit every so often," I said, missing out the part that 'every so often' was once a week, "I mean, we aren't addicts by any means but we do it occasionally to relieve stress. Not the best detox but it works for us..."
"Edward has been drinking more, I've noticed. Us lot all like a drink but we don't drink excessively or anything. I know him better than anyone, except Bella of course, but she doesn't live with him so she doesn't really see everything that goes on. His face is constantly tear stained and he never seems completely sober... It's because he loves Bella, even if he hasn't admitted it yet," Alice said.
"Okay that helps, a lot. You're free to see him now but he hasn't quite gained consciousness yet. When he does, and you've had a bit of time with him, please press the nurse's button above his bed and we'll come and ask how he's feeling," The doctor said. He offered an apologetic smile and gave us his room number, once he made sure we knew where we were going, he left.
I opened the door to Edward's room and it was deathly quiet, except for the beeping of the machines attached to him. I'd never seen Edward look so bad. His face was pale and weirdly, his hair seemed extra flat. Esme and Carlisle followed me in and Esme gasped and started crying. She and Carlisle took the only chairs in the room and Alice sat on the polished floor. She was very quiet and that's saying something for Alice, it proves she was upset. I know Jasper is her comfort blanket and she wanted him here but Carlisle said it was strictly family for now.
I sat on Edward's bed, by his waist and took his hand again. I leant down and kissed his cheek softly. The few tears I had left dripped down my cheeks and I was sure I looked like a tramp, eyeliner and mascara was probably stained on my face and my pupil's were probably dilated from all the crying.
An hour passed before Edward came to.
"Bella?" he asked, fluttering his eyelids and tightening his grip on my hand.
"Edward?" I asked, fresh tears starting to pour. His eyelids opened fully and I crushed my lips to his, not caring who was in the room. I forced my tongue into his mouth and remembered how much I'd missed his kiss and his touch. After a while I stood up and my anger and upset took over, I slapped him across the face and shouted, "What the fucking hell were you thinking?! Do you have any idea how crap I've been feeling! I went to your house to see if we should just talk about it and start again but you were barely breathing on the floor!" Esme pulled Alice and Carlisle out the room saying we needed a moment to ourselves and Edward opened his mouth and said, "Okay, what the fuck Bella?!"
"Do you know something, Edward?" I asked, sitting down next to him and gripping his hand, "I actually thought you were gonna die... You looked so lifeless. And hitting you was my way of taking my anger out on you."
"Do you really wanna start again?" he asked, smiling.
"Yes I do. I also have something to tell you and I did say it when I was waiting for the ambulance to get you but you were unconscious so you didn't hear it."
"What?" Edward asked. Before I could answer the doctor came in with Esme, Carlisle and Alice and he took his pen out his pocket and held it by his clipboard.
"How are you feeling?" he asked.
"I have a headache and a bit of drowsiness but that's not affecting me too much."
"So can you tell us what happened, it will help us a lot if we know."
"Okay, well something happened at school with Bella so I left school at the period before lunch. I got some alcohol on the way back and got pissed, trying to forget everything that had happened. I was gonna go have a nap in my room so I decided to take some pain killers before so I wouldn't get a hangover when I woke up but I think because I was drunk I didn't really know how many I was taking," Edward explained, "I passed out soon after that. When Bella arrived, I could hear her asking for me but I couldn't respond. I heard her come in the room but I finally went into unconsciousness then." I was glad Edward hadn't heard everything I had said, mainly the 'I love you' part.
"Thank you, have you been drinking a lot?" the doctor asked.
"After me and Bella broke up I started drinking a lot, I guess it was my way of coping."
"Okay, thanks that has helped. We were worried you had attempted an overdose and that would have meant a whole other treatment," The doctor said and left the room.
"Edward, are you sure you're okay?" Esme asked, taking the hand I wasn't holding.
"Yeah, I just feel like crap," Edward frowned.
"Okay, how did I not notice you drinking?" Esme asked.
"Don't, even if you had known, you wouldn't have been able to stop me." Esme sighed in defeat and leaned back in her seat.
"You lot will probably want some family time, I'll come back in a bit. I'm just gonna go outside for a bit," I said. I hadn't left Edward's side and I felt his family needed to have some time with him. I grabbed my bag and made my way down the halls and out into the fresh air. I took a cigarette out my bag and lit it, taking a drag. I slid down the wall until I was sitting on the floor and closed my eyes, I had been here for hours and it was gradually getting dark now. I wanted to sleep.
"Bella?" I turned and saw Esme. I was going to try and hide my cigarette but my reaction was to slow and she wasn't stupid.
"Oh, um, sorry..." I said, offering a watery smile. She shrugged and grabbed the cigarette, taking a long drag and placing it back in my hand. I stared at her and she laughed, taking her jacket off and sitting on it.
"When things become too much for me to cope with, I have to have one. It calms me down, don't tell anyone though, even Carlisle doesn't know," she smiled at me, "I just wanted to say thank you for finding Edward when you did. Who knows what would've happened if you didn't go when you did. It really doesn't bare thinking about."
"It's fine really," I said, trying not to take all the glory considering that if I hadn't been such a bitch to him and refused to talk to him apart from saying 'go away', we might not all be in this situation.
"Nonsense Bella," Esme dismissed my attempt to take myself away from the limelight, "The visiting hours are over in half an hour and even though Carlisle works here, they won't bend the rules and let us stay there." I sighed, butted my cigarette and stood up, helping Esme up after. We walked to Edward's room and entered, seeing him asleep and Alice asleep on the floor, her head pushed against the wall.
"Where's Carlisle?" I asked.
"Oh, he got called into work. Lucky he was here already," Esme said, sitting down. I nodded and sat next to her.
Edward woke up and smiled slightly at us, "The Doctor said I should be able to leave tomorrow. But I've been told to stay at home for a week or so."
"Okay, I'll go and ring you school," Esme said, leaving the room. Edward patted the space next to him and I carefully sat down, trying not to touch any tubes. He pulled me down into his arms and I inhaled his scent.
"You okay?" I whispered.
"Been better, I've probably looked better too."
"You couldn't look like crap if you tried Edward. I'm the one with mascara covering my cheeks," I said. He muttered under his breath and I turned his face to mine, "Edward, I'm in love with you." I was glad to have it out in the open.
His mouth formed an 'O' face and he said, "I love you too. I would never have gone through all this crap if I didn't, it should be obvious." I smiled and kissed him.
"Know would be the time for amazing sex cuz were so happy and everything, but I don't think that's an option. Mainly because your sister is in the room," I sighed unhappily.
"And also because Alice can here you," Alice interrupted, "You guys admitted it! Wait a sec..." Alice took her phone put, ignoring the 'NO PHONE'S' sign and dialled a number.
"ROSALIE! You owe me fifty bucks!" she said and hung up.
"I'd rather you didn't bet on my love life," Edward complained.
"Whatever." A doctor came into the room and looked over Edward's files. "Right although you can leave tomorrow, there are limits. You aren't completely better but with your Dad being who he is, we know he'll take care of you. For example, you must stay in bed for another three days at least and you can't do any physical activities," he said looking at me.
"Damn," I muttered under my breath, causing Edward to chuckle.
"Finally, we advise you not to drink for a while and also we have some pills that you need to take. Once the doctor left Alice jumped around, "Okay, what the hell Alice?"
"I just realised! It's a month to graduation!" she grinned.
"Yay," me and Edward said glumly.
"You aren't excited?" she asked.
"Yeah but we don't show it like you do. I f someone mentions it, we'd go 'I can't wait to be out of school'. We would not start jumping around like complete dickhead's."
"Go fuck yourselves," Alice said and stormed out the room.
Okay. So how was it? Reviews please. My next update will probably be the weekend. Cuz I've got a shitload of work to do and I'm goin out tomorrow night. So yeah.
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