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Meantime Overgirl flies back into the loft. Hoping Supergirl is still asleep...

Supergirl is stepping out of the bathroom in her house coat, even though she slept for a bit, it was restful till she saw Overgirl wasn't there. She hears her enter the loft, "where did you take off to?" She asks curiously while looking at her old clothes again to pick out something to wear.

"Uh… I spoke with Oliver. Before you yell at me- I didn't hurt him! I just wanted to talk to him. Find out his reasons for killing me off."

She pauses as she pulls a dress shirt out, midnight blue, button up with collar and cream dress pants. Taking a deep breath, she lets it out slowly, "and?"

"Well the Sorceress tried to come out again. I was able to control her!" She stated excitedly. "I felt the electricity going through my fingers. I didn't let her shoot it at him!"

She drops her house coat and grabs a bra before pulling the shirt on. "So, you didn't like his reason I take it," she starts buttoning it up. "You are getting a handle on her?"

"Uh sort of. I fired the charge into a tree and exploded it."

Kara freezes as she pulls on her underwear, face paling, "you didn't..."

"It was really loud and messy, and some police persons came over to investigate. They thought I was you. I knew if I took off I would be framing you...so I stayed. Oliver was lying trying to cover for me. They could tell we were both lying about who I was, so they called a cop over that knew you!"

Kara plops herself onto the corner of the bed, "great..." she mumbles and looks up at the mention of the cop. "Maggie..." she smiles at the fond memories of her. "She's a good cop, dated Alex for a while... got engaged... but she didn't want kids and Alex did," she pulls her pants on. "Are you okay?" She asks looking up at her.

"Yeah. She thought I was you. She liked my suit. Said it looked tough. But Kara, she covered for me saying I was you. Her ex's crazy sister that likes to dress up as Supergirl. She knows all about you." She continued, making a face concerned. "I'm sorry, I tried not to compromise your position. She was really nice to me though." She bit her lower lip concerned. "I flew away after the other cops left."

She nods, "I know, she knows me, she knows the DEO, everything," she zips up her pants and grabs a pair of socks. "You need to start going out in casual clothes like I do, or you'll be mistaken for me," she sighs and fusses with her hair in the mirror.

She smiled at her. "If it helps I think Oliver stayed back to talk with her." Then nodded. "I will." She assured her.

Kara nods, "yeah, he'll explain, Maggie was the one that introduced us to the alien bar," she grabs her glasses and sighs. "And you and Oliver?" She turns to face her.

"Alex's ex still likes her. She told me to tell Alex hi. Kara I am not wearing glasses! Besides they are not much of a disguise you know."

She takes a seat on the corner of the bed, "they were given to me originally to help my head. When I came to Earth my sensors were too heightened and Dr. Danvers gave me these, lead lined, to help me adjust. Though now I'm just used to them," she motions for her to come over. "You and Oliver... "

She sits next to her.

"Are you two good now or do I need to be concerned that you'll take off again?"

"I'm sorry. I just had to know why he did it. He did sound genuinely sorry he had to do it. I wouldn't call it good...but we got along better when he saw I fought the Sorceress to keep him from harm..." She lays a hand on her arm. "You may get the blame for the tree though."

She rubs at the back of her neck, "please, just next time be open with me and I'll do my best to not get angry, okay? And yes... I'm anticipating it to go in the news," she looks at her before standing up. "I have to see Dr. Livingston, I need my head sorted out before going back to work," she cups her face. "I love you."

She leans in to kiss her. "I am so sorry about the tree."

"Is he only seeing you this morning?"

Kara returns the kiss softly, "he didn't mention you. But I told him you were up in the night and would probably like some sleep. The three of us need new phones," she smirks.

"Yes I need a phone." She agreed. "That was one of the first things we lost."

Kara looks at Overgirl's duffle bag, "are you going to join me or are you going to get some rest?" She turns to her.

"He didn't tell you I was in the session so no. I don't think he is ready for both of us." She pulls out her night shirt and sheds her suit. "Besides, I am fine- don't need sessions." She climbs into bed, looking at her innocently.

Kara walks over to her and runs her fingers down her arm. "We'll go out shopping later to get you a full wardrobe, okay?" She leans down to give her a kiss, "you were affected as well, you'll get a session, and thank you for trying," she caresses her face.

"I love you and don't want to jeopardize what we have in vengeance. I kinda understand, but it did hurt being killed off." And she smirked at her. "And that session? Not if I can help it!" She chuckled softly to her. "You know I hate that stuff." She pulled the covers over her.

"I love you too, but I've gotta jet," she taps her nose playfully.

"Ok I am sorry about that tree. Just let J'onn know it was me. Not you. You- Kara Danvers is on that report."

Supergirl steps away, "I will," and gives one last wave before flying out her window and getting to the DEO in record time. "Wow... it's been too long," she smiles at the familiar surroundings and people.

Dr. Livingston sees Kara come in. "Good to see you remembered your appointment this time young lady." He smiled at her indicating she should lie in the bed. He holds a light cover. "Do you want to be covered?" He asked.

Kara takes her seat, "a lot has happened since we last spoke," she lies down. She looks over, "no I'm fine."

He hands her a bottle of water and puts the cover aside.

"Yes, over a year. I will be recording this session. I will add what needs to be added, but you will be doing all the talking." He informed her.

Taking the bottle, she toys with the lid a bit. "So... what do you want to talk about?"

"Why don't you simply recount what happened, how it happened and how you are coping with it?" He suggested. "The more personal it gets the better to really get the crux of the problems Kara."

She remembers the last time she was forced to remember therapy- it was after being held by Lillian, and then getting stabbed didn't help. Kara thinks about it.

"I was shot down with Kryptonie darts... woke up in chains being shocked out of revenge," she shudders. "I was put into a fight and... killed an alien."

"How did you feel about that?"

"Awful... he was a cyborg and injected kryptonite into his veins thinking it would be an enhancement. Broke my hand when I first punched him... I used my heat vision on his eye... I was forced to kill... I hated it!" She says angrily. "I took a life and I'm the only one who is bothered by it!"

"I understand. But you have to understand it was your life or his. Would you have traded your life for this gladiator stranger?"

Kara frowns, still angry about it, "no."

"Okay then. It's kill or be killed in that world. You must make peace with that Kara. What else do you have to tell me?"

She looks at him, "people rely on me to set a good example. I set a standard, with each enemy I have fought to never kill and this one time... I did. What're they going to think of me? Will they still trust me and the decisions I make?" Kara asks, running her hands through her hair, "I didn't even try to talk him down... what does that say about me?"

"You were in a strange environment and I don't think the rules apply."

Rubbing her face she lies onto her back again, really not looking forward to the next memory. "I tried to escape... after that fight but they brought Kara Queen out... chained her to a pole and threatened to whip her. I thought if I stopped they wouldn't... but they shoved me down," tears well up in her eyes. "Stripped me of my uniform... and I listened as they whipped her before they chained me," tears begin rolling down her cheeks. "I was then chained and whipped... I didn't realize till the first one that kryptonite was in the whip," her bottom lip quivers. "Ten... ripping my skin open... it hurt so much and I," she closes her eyes and feels the tears start flowing freely, her body shaking. "I had my mind replacing clashes of thunder with the sound of the whip... it still haunts me," she covers her face.

He hands her the Kleenex box. "I am sorry you went through this. But you are strong, and you fought through this."

Pressing her lips together tightly, "being put into the slave clothes... tossed into our cell with red sun emitter collars... listening to the screams... the begging... the fights... the crying all going on around me and comforting Kara." She blows her nose gently, "I didn't think I was going to get home... it all sat and sagged into my mind that I wasn't getting out of there. I wasn't going to see Alex again or Mon-El and that hurt... I gave Kara Queen mouth to mouth when I found a chunk of kryptonite in her skin and she'd stopped breathing." She sniffles and wipes at her eyes.

"You found comfort in each other. It is good that you at least had each other. You went through alot Kara, you both did. But you are strong Kara, you can get through this because of the inner strength you have."

"After each thing... I would push it to the back of my mind to focus on the next. If I dwelled then... I would become overwhelmed with my emotions," she takes the bottle and drinks half of it in one go. Wiping her mouth with the back of her hand, "I kissed Kara Queen to help calm her. And when we finally escaped, well she had to carry me out as I got a whip around my neck and a chunk of kryptonite was in my neck. After that I noticed my attraction to her and she made love to me," she blows her nose again. "I reciprocated and later we snuck onto a ship... got into an escape pod and wound up on the planet we were found on."

"You are a survivor. You both are. I could tell you how to handle this, but the fact is you already know how. This is just one more obstacle in the life of Supergirl. It was your decision to lead the heroe's life, and because you crossed the lowlife scum you did- she had a vendetta against you. This is the price for leading the life you do. Recrimination. I am not saying it's right, but unfortunately it is considered common place with thugs and organized crime like her."

He looked at her with kind eyes. "Do you understand what I am saying?" He continued. "I wish there was an easy way to stop this recrimination, but there really isn't. You know the saying- a hero's work is never done? This applies."

She nods, sniffling, "I never thought any of this would happen... I didn't realize how much I'd be doing and dealing with," she rubs at her face. "Ever since I took the job... so much in my personal life and how I viewed things has changed and because of those thugs... I feel like," she bites her bottom lip. Trying to think of the best way to say it, "they've pushed me in directions that isn't me. The things I had to do as a hero but out there I was just Kara... and," she swallows, "trying to do the right thing... it felt impossible!" She hangs her head.

"I had to be sneaky, I became someone I'm not and I never want to have to sink to that level again!" She sits up. "Just barely getting by on that planet, working as an officer of the peace to try and get home seemed to be out of reach the longer I was there." She looks at her hands, "then I heard Alex's heart beat... it felt so surreal... after over a year I still recognised it... and when I saw her all of the doubts I'd been harbouring for months lifted!" She looks up at him.

"Yes, you both wanted to come home bad enough that you connected on the planet with a star gate. Now did I hear right it was destroyed so you three and the agents will never be found?" He pulled up his notes on his tablet. "Yes, I have here Overgirl destroyed it according to Alex. Do you have anything else you would like to add Kara Danvers?"

Kara looks down, "the drama with Kara and Oliver... when she attacked them. I know she had every right to get angry about being labeled as dead. But... when she was attacking them, as the Sorceress... I felt that if she was angered that much by it. I felt like it meant she still cared for Oliver... that what we'd built up together meant very little. I felt very little to her when she was showing so much anger that I got angry at her and the Sorceress... deep down I was really sad and felt lesser," she looks at the cuffs to her shirt absentmindedly.

"Do you still feel less around her? I know she loves you very much. She told me this before your ill -fated trip. It is my guess she always had loved you. She told me she was taken by your kindness on the island, and what you did for her enduring surgery- so she could have a heart and lungs. That meant alot to her and I was never able to tell you. Now that you are together I can."

She shifts in her seat a little, "she took off this morning to ask Oliver about his side of the story. She managed to keep the Sorceress in check... I had told her to stay away from them to avoid any problems. She blew up a tree!" She swings her legs over and rubs her face before looking up at him. "I love her, but I still do in a sense... I am not afraid of the Sorceress anymore, now that I've had a chat with her. But I do fear what will happen if I were to not give to her in return. I know she loves me but her going behind my back even though it turned out okay and spiking enough rage with the Sorceress... I still feel it yeah."

She looks down. "I had wondered if she still felt for him... for me I was happy he found someone else and she didn't wind up crushing him. I didn't expect her reaction. In over a year there was no hiccup with the Sorceress and bam! We get home and I'm back to chasing her," she rubs at her eyes. "I thought we'd gotten past it and for me that was a step back... I don't want to go back to having to keep bringing her back in because her emotions are fight or flight!"

"Do you see yourself leaving her Kara?"

Kara rubs the back of her neck, "she needs to come back to me," she whispers. "I won't leave her... but she can't stay focused on her ex and his family life that is growing. I need her here," she looks up at him. "I need her for us and yes it sucks she has no ID... but what matters to me is us. Our relationship and moving forward, taking our steps of integrating back into society here."

"As I said she loves you and I am sure she will be by your side."

Kara nods and rubs the back of her neck, "any other advice?"

"You both just need to be there for each other. That is my best advice." He looks at her. "Are you having nightmares from your ordeal? Are you sleeping okay?"

Kara squeezes her neck a little, "nightmares... yeah... most nights I was sleeping fine and then recently the nightmares started up again. It's mostly the whipping and the feeling of never seeing my family again... losig everyone," she closes her eyes as she faces the floor. She sniffles, "when a feeling hits that you're not going to be rescued."

"Would you like a sleeping pill prescription?"

She shakes her head, head in her hand, "no... if something happens I'll be useless to everyone. Until my twin has control over her emotions, it has to be me."

"You two need phones, I can't reach her."

Nodding slowly, "I know, I'll be getting us each a phone when I'm done here," she looks up at him.

"You know you don't have to be Supergirl for a while. Why don't you take time off? J'onn is still masquerading as you and the people don't know you have been gone all this time.

Kara stands up while rubbing at her face, "how long do you think I'll be able to not jump at everything I hear?" She asks him seriously.

"You have gone through much trauma. It will be awhile. That was not a request. I am not declaring you fit for duty for now."

Her jaw drops, "what? I've been acting as law enforcement on that other planet for months!"

"That doesn't mean you were fit Kara."

"What do you think is going to happen while I'm out there?" She asks folding her arms across her chest. "I've been dealing with it all while not on Earth."

"I don't know but you yourself mentioned you jump at every sound." He turns off his tablet. "I will inform the Director. You are on leave for now." He pauses, "Since I cannot call your twin, perhaps you can send her in?" He looks at his appointment book. "I can see her at four o clock today. Tell her I am expecting her."

"I don't jump at every sound! Lightning is the only thing that caught me off guard in the past," she clenches her fists at her sides but takes a deep breath. "I finally get home and want to return to my regular life and you won't let me normalize," she comments frustrated.

"Don't be mad. I will re- evaluate in a week. In the meantime, get some rest. You can go now Kara."

She bites her bottom lip in frustration and walks out of the office, her blood boiling.

Sorry a lot has been going on, primarily the holidays and family time and... you get it lol. I hope you enjoyed this and things will continue!

-SLITH/LVEZ