A/N: Okay. So. You all probably hate me for not updating in FOREVER. I know, I'm sorry! But hey, I have a good excuse. I went to Brazil! For World Youth Day! And it was the best experience EVER! Praise the Lord! Hallelujah! And if you happen to care about my personal life, well, I kind of fell in love. Which is great because I like this guy a lot. Anyway, this is gonna be a short one. Just to fill things in. Hoho, sorry! See you guys soon! (Though I can't promise consistent updates because I just have so much schoolwork to catch up with)

ALSO, I promised a mature-only collection of the chapters, and I promise you I'll get to that! When though, I don't know. There's just so much stuff for me to do, I'm sorry!

- lostconcoctions (add me on mycandylove!)

Nineteen: Last Two

Two days. It was like a clock ticking in my head. Lysander was leaving in two days. Lysander would be leaving me alone in two days. I was two days away from spending a Christmas break with…him.

It wasn't going to be terrible. I knew that. I think that's what terrified me the most. In fact, it was going to be great. Really great. Too great, actually, which was what I was afraid of. God, no. I couldn't be allowing all these thoughts get into my head but…

How could I help it? Could you?

Clichéd Christmas situations flooded my daydreams, and for some reason, I got butterflies in my stomach entertaining the thoughts. The cold, the snow, the stars, the night, the fireplace, Castiel…

Fuck.

Lysander. Lysander and I. I was with Lysander, spending almost every waking hour with Lysander, and I loved Lysander. Why was I letting these thoughts consume me?

I swallowed down the images crowding my brain, but I couldn't look past the gray eyes that I memorized even when I wasn't thinking. Then everything seemed to wander off. From his squared shoulders, his lanky, undeniably attractive frame, his curled smirk, his red hair, his long legs, his…

I really needed to get more sleep. Yeah, that was it. I glanced at the clock. It was 5:42 AM. God damn it. The sun wasn't out yet, but it might as well be, because I was not getting any more rest for the night. I groaned and threw the blanket over my head, attempting to smother myself into a deep sleep.

The next time I opened my eyes, the sun was out, but the permanent chill in the air was still around me. Outside my window, the snow seemed to have stilled today, but was still coating the trees, so I wondered how much I would have to shovel off the porch today. Then it hit me.

Lysander.

Two days, two days, two days, and I was here in bed wasting seconds, minutes, hours. When I looked at the clock, it was three in the afternoon. Holy crap. I grabbed for my clothes, jeans from yesterday, a scarf from two days ago, and a plain striped pullover to go with my gray boots. Throwing my coat on and struggling with getting my foot into my shoes, I ran out the door and took the car keys, stuffing it into my bag and yelling something to Bridgette that I would be back late, and not even caring whether she was home or not.

I pulled the car in quickly into the parking space, my eyes fixed on the bright purple building that belonged to Leigh. Lysander mentioned that he would be here, and that he would be finished at lunch so we could eat out together. The reminder made me feel terrible for over sleeping just because my thoughts were bothering me. Thoughts about…

Never mind.

The air was colder than I expected, though it was something I was used to by now. I marched briskly up to the structure, trying to generate as much body heat as I could with myself, before timidly opening the door and stepping in.

My body welcomed the heat inside, and I shrugged gratefully. The chimes above my head sounded slightly as I opened and shut the door. Leigh was at the counter, hard at work scribbling down in his record book, looking too busy to even murmur out his usual, "Welcome." I stepped right up in front of him and rested my elbows on the table, tapping my nails to get his attention but to no avail, until I spotted the desk bell.

PingPingPingPingPing—

In an instant, Leigh jumped up like he has just gotten electrocuted, stumbling back and jerking his head from left to right in search for the sound.

"What the—Who the hell?!"

"Over here, smart guy." I snorted, waving my hand in his face. When Leigh looked up, his shoulders relaxed, making him look almost defeated.

"Hello beautiful." He said tiredly. Only when I made eye contact with him did I notice the dark circles under his eyes, and his chapped lips. Also, he was wearing the same outfit as he was yesterday, now that I thought about it. It had the same emerald green ribbon and cream-colored lace, only the buttons were done up wrong and his jacket was nowhere to be found.

"Thanks," I chuckled lazily, "Though I can't say the same about you."

"Funny girl, too, huh?" Leigh winked at me with his cute doe-eyed look. He leaned over the counter, our faces extremely close. If he moved as much as two inches we would have our noses touching. "He's by the dressing rooms. You're welcome."

I flashed him a big smile before pushing off and trotting to the back, avoiding aisles and aisles of countless blouses, shorts, skirts, dresses, lingerie, swimsuits and even accessories, almost all done by Leigh alone, and all handmade. Soon, my smile was more than just a smile. My eyes lit up when I saw his silver hair, tousled around like he hadn't gotten the chance to look at himself in the mirror. He had his back to me, but I already knew the hard-at-work stare. My eyes already knew the outline of his broad, defined shoulders, but I could barely contain myself when it came to looking. Plus, the rolled up sleeves and his vest made his frame all the more imposing.

He was folding meticulously, everything he did, he did with perfection. I saw that when he folded each piece of…underwear? I blinked, an involuntary smirk crawling to my lips when I spotted the lacy lingerie pieces. When I tiptoed closer, making sure to keep silent, my eyes landed on his ears, which were redder than ever. I could only imagine his cheeks. I bit my lip and crawled to the tiny space behind him and another table before placing both my hands over his eyes. Lysander froze, like he didn't know what to do, so I dragged my fingers down to his neck, his collarbones, and down to his chest before he cleared his throat warily.

"M-Ma'am," he stammered. Ma'am? "I—erm, whoever you are, I just need to state that I…I'm in a relationship and will not, under any circumstances, enter into—"

I couldn't contain myself, almost bursting with laughter, but instead I recoiled quickly and grabbed his arm, turning him over and facing him to me. I was right about Lysander's cheeks being red, though I couldn't tell if it was because he was assigned to fold up the panties or if it was my hands.

"This is your girlfriend speaking." I chuckled, meeting his brightly colored eyes and stepping forward, making Lysander drop the lacy baby pink thong he was folding. He swallowed and tried to put on a poker face.

"I knew that." He said, reaching for me and bringing me closer. He leaned down, and took my face in his hands, kissing me like it was his second nature, and I wouldn't deny that it wasn't mine. I wrapped my arms around him, urging him closer. Lysander inhaled, and pulled back for a few seconds, but recaptured my lips when he had caught his breath. His hand squeezed my hip, then traveled to my thigh, bringing it up until his fingers were at the back of my knee and I was almost completely wrapped around him. I drank in his cinnamon scent, and his own that stuck to his skin, or the way he felt against me. It was all the details about him that I could never get enough of.

"God, I love kissing you…." He moaned, speckling kisses down my chin and around my jaw line. "It'll be the only thing I'll be thinking about while I'm gone."

"How you love kissing?" I chuckled, my eyes already dropping and giving into Lysander's touches.

"How I love kissing you." He corrected softly. "And how I'll want to keep kissing you, for as long as I could."

"Forever?" I asked.

"For as long as you'll have me, Skylar." He said, pressing his mouth against mine again. I tangled my fingers in his hair, and tugged him closer, drawing out a sigh from his throat. He locked his arms around my ribs, and soon, he was the dominant one, stepping forward until the small of my back hit the table behind me. He held me close, before his tongue found its way between my lips and lapped against mine.

"Lys," I groaned, tension and energy radiating off my body. I wanted him, to give him anything he wanted, anything at all. But my mind won over a battle against my body, and I set it in my head to control myself. On top of that, we were in his brother's clothes store.

"I can't stop thinking about you."

"I don't want you to stop thinking about me." I replied.

"You're gorgeous, did you know that? You're perfect." He smiled against my collarbone, his warm breath spreading through me like a tidal wave.

"I've heard it a couple times from this particular guy." I smiled, running my fingers through his silver hair. "I don't believe him."

"What guy?" Lysander asked innocently, his emerald and gold eyes meeting mine.

"This guy I've been going out with who's leaving in two days." I replied, smiling, sad and happy at the same time. "My best friend. My boyfriend."

"Well, I heard this guy's hopelessly in love with you, so you have nothing to worry about. She should believe him." Lysander assured me with a warm smile.

"You should tell this guy that his girlfriend's hopelessly in love with him too."

"So I guess neither of them should be worried." Lysander relaxed his shoulders.

"Yes. Neither of us." I smiled from ear-to-ear.

The stars were out by the time Lysander was finally let off by Leigh, who was too exhausted to even stop his little brother from walking out the door. We last left him sound asleep on top of his own paper work. The hours seemed to blur by, but the paranoia that had set in my stomach was slowly disappearing. Why was I so scared? What was shaking me up so bad about Lysander leaving? Was I insecure about Castiel? Or was I insecure about myself?

Lysander held my gloved hand in his, making fun of how I had grabbed a mismatched pair of yellow and green, while I retorted something about my subconscious thinking about his eyes. We walked down the streets of Wesgrove, laughing like this was a normal day, a normal night. Like he wasn't going to be gone soon. We talked about the past few days, reminiscing about the little things like our tests, how we all had a laugh when Castiel scored a point higher than Rosa, our faces when the bell had rang to announce school was out and it was the winter break.

I remember racing out the door and being the first one from the whole school to set a foot outside of Sweet Amoris, the freezing winter air slapping my cheeks hard as I beamed at the outdoors like a child, then I remember being knocked off balance completely, and tumbling around with someone until I finally hit the gravel with a thump. Of course, in Castiel's version it was him that was out first, while I was the chick that tripped him over. Obviously, we all know which one of us was telling the truth.

The days skipped by in my head, our snowball fights, and how Rosa and Lysander both had an advantage because of their hair color, forcing Castiel and I to just focus on bombarding each other instead. We did everything we could in the snow, sledding, ice skating on frozen lakes, attempting to build fires with mere twigs out on the Ainsworth yard… Then there was Lysander, who I spent so much time with. When I would text him about how cold it was, he would sneak out of his house with a bunch of quilts and crawl in next to me until I fell asleep. He took me out to dinner, bought me chocolates, sweaters, and my favorite flowers, Carnations, the way boyfriends in movies did. He would sing his songs to me when I would hum out a tune, read me his never-ending book of poems, and slow dance with me under the moonlight. And we never fought, or ever wanted to spend a moment away from each other because this was love. I knew it was. I wouldn't have it any other way.

A/N: Yup, that was obviously a filler chapter. And I'm SO sorry again for taking forever to update this. I hope I haven't lost all you guys! I promise something really interesting in the next one. See you then! Leave your reviews in the box below! Mwah, love you guys

REVIEWS:

1. IfYouLovedMe- oh God, I hope you haven't forgotten me... hohoho it's been a while huh? But here I am, time to answer your review! Gah, I will post the smut, I promise you that! If you're still around to read it of course.. Gosh, okay well if you're still interested, I promise to get to the Christmas part real soon! I'll be doing that too, posting the smut in a different fic as not to jeopordize this one's rating! But ahem, yes-er, blowjob -yes wow woooh did that really happen? THen again, Lysander is just a boy...and who could turn down his first girlfriend? ;) But yes, Castiel and Skye and alone and Christmas and God, I CANNOT WAIT. I am SO SO SO SORRY for taking forever to update! I really do feel bad, but I've been insanely busy!

2. And You Wonder Why I Do This- ahem-blowjob-ahem-Lysander hohoho I'm sorry I haven't updated this! I really hope some of you guys have stuck around! Tell me when your fic is up, and I'll be on it and reviewing like I promised!

3. owldistraction- woohoo a long review! and aw favorite author ;) gosh thank you! And yes, Castiel is sexy. It's just a fact of life in My Candy Love, I guess. I mean come on...wow. But I totally agree. I don't find Boris or Dajan sexy... Even Mr. Faraize is a step up (because he totally reminds me of John Lennon). But thank you! Thank you thank you thank you for that whoole thing you just said! I'm really glad you like how I'm writing, you have no idea how much that means to me! I've been going through a huge writer's block though and on top of that, I've been so busy and out of the country, and wow, I just feel guilty. Okay now chapter 19: ahahahaha well I hope it surprised you in a good way too! Skye and I thank you by the way. Don't worry, I'm not mad about anything! True... she probably should've asked. But well, everyone makes little mistakes I guess! I'm sorry too for confusing you! It's like I want to incorporate both of the guys in her life, and since they're always around her...well, scenes are bound to happen!

4. spazway2- ahahaha don't worry, I can't believe I just made her do that too! Lys is acting weird...and Cas is acting extra close to Skye so...be patient because I'm working on the next chapter!

5. Ilys47- gah I hope I didn't disappoint (or have a lot of people disapprove) with the last chapter! But yes, and I can't wait for Christmas when it's all just...Castiel

6. luvu11- girl, trust me, the whole room heated up when I was just writing that chapter! ahahahaha

7. RainbowUnicorns938 - awwwww thank you! I hope the last chapter didn't bother you, but since you're saying you love this story, I'll take that as a sign that I didn't! Thank you! I hope you enjoy the next ones to come too! And I'm sorry for not updating this in a really, really long time!

8. Kyoichi Amaya- YES. SKYE JUST DID THAT. I know, I can't believe I gave in and made her do that too. Don't worry! No hate! I love Lysander too, which is why I'm in such a conflict for what to do at Christmas!

9. momoni920- wooohooo it's fate that you stumbled upon my story! thank you thank you thank you for the compliments, and I hope I don't disappoint in the future! I will be showing a lot more of her past, especially this Christmas, and it'll come right after the next chapter, I promise!

10. AliceXxX- Oh God I hope you didn't get a heart attack! I know, I had visions of being evil and making one walk in on the other but... no, I can't do that to the boys :( Or to Skye, because I'm oddly attached to my own character.

11. Givala- You're right...Because of your review now I wonder how big Lysander is. Though I assume he's more than enough for Skye, because she didn't seem to be complaining! Oh God, I'm blushing. Yes, I can be kind of racy/kinky/like that sometimes...which is awkward because I just got into a relationship and I hope he doesn't find out I actually have this side of me! Cas/Skye lemony parts will come soon! Especially because it's almost finally CHRISTMAS! ALMOST! WOOOHOOO! I've been having an insane writer's block though, so I'm sorry if it takes a while. I hope you're still around to read it though.

12. SparkFirebug - Oh God, I can't wait to get Cas and Skye moments in... But I don't know if I have the heart to end it with Lys! He's just...oh, poor guy. Or poor Cas because he's so obviously into her.

13. Exquisite Sunset- Wow, this whole review just made me tear and it's 1:20 AM, this is not the time to be crying! Thank you! Thank you so much, and I'm sorry for the late update! The mature chapter will come...really, it will.

14. SeaCatt- Oh man, now I'm inspired to make a playlist! Though yes, it would be a very bipolar one, and I wouldn't be able to decide if it would be for Cas and Lys... That would mean making two playlists. Hahaha! Wow, oh gosh you are psychic. But hey, Skye's not a bitch, you never know what path she might take! then again...Castiel is pretty irrestible.

15. Joesette- that was NOT crap. Thank you, because that was really good :) Keep on writing, seriously!

16. MorgAnaStar- You read my mind! I'm actually planning on doing that (which means there will be multiple smutty ones hehe don't kill me) Oh wow, strip poker...actually not a bad idea! I think I'll take that into account and definitely credit you for that! Yes, I'd love to check it out!

17. spazway2- oh god here you are again! I'M SORRY! I was in Brazil for World Youth Day! HEre it is!

18. TheInsaneChick- It's okay! Even I can't make up my mind sometimes! Hahahaha!

19. Lazy Hero- Oh wow, I'm flattered that I got you to see him that way! I think everyone's got that kind of side, you know what I mean? ;) Don't worry, I won't forget you and everyone that's been faithfully reading this! I'm just sorry I haven't been able to update this is in a while... I've been so busy with school and World Youth Day, and on top of that, I've been seeing this guy which is really great but totally distracting! And yay, your welcome! Just spreading the Nirvana love, because seriously, it's been a while since people appreciate them! I'm glad you like it!

20. Dark Angel and Dark Star- oh shoot I hope you're okay!

21. Naya0 - I'm sorry! I'm so sorry :( They just ARE god like, I don't know what to do! Hahahaha! I hope I've tortured them both enough! Cas and Skye moments coming in the chapter after the next, I promise!

- lostconcoctions