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Chapter 20: Monsters Reawakening

Roy led his team through the tunnels to where he thought he remembered the main chamber was, truth of the matter was, Roy really had no clue, considering he'd been blind and transported into the place in the first place.

Roy was debating between going left or straight, when two sets of frantic heels clodded on the stone ground and intersected with them, they were grabbed by Havoc and Falman. They had wide scared eyes and a panicked look about them.

"What are you two doing down here?" Roy demanded, and they looked at him the older one was the first to speak.

"You've got to get us out! There's a monster! It'll kill us!" he said and Roy frowned.

"Where is this monster?" he asked and the man pointed down the hall they'd just ran down he nodded at Falman and Havoc. They pushed the two males forward against much protest, but they managed to make their way back to the main chamber.

Roy looked around, he'd never actually seen it before, it was pretty badly wrecked, Fullmetal sure knew how to decorate. Then Roy spotted a black figure laying on the ground, in a pool of blood.

His heart stopped and he rushed over to the figure, it was Envy alright, he was laying on his side one arm straight out the other next to his chest covered in blood. His bloodied hair was covering most of his face, Roy gently turned him over, and brushed his hair from his face and gasped.

"What the...?" he breathed and Riza came over, she too saw the three circles on his forehead connected by red lines, forming an upside down triangle.

"Roy, what does it mean?" she asked and Roy shook his head, then slowly moved his arms under the prone boy, lifting him up.

"I don't know," he said and then walked back up to the surface with the intention of admitting him to the hospital.

The hospital trip was longer than Roy expected, he was happy to hear that none of the blood belonged to Envy, but he was worried as to where it had come from. And then the doctor had told Roy about the things that Envy had not, the things that were on and in Envy's genitalia. According to the doctor it had caused some tears, because of how long they'd been there, but he would be fine. Luckily it was Dr. Shepperd who checked him out and made no comment about the extra marks on his body. Though Roy did ask if there was one on his thigh the doctor said no, Roy let out a breath he didn't know he was holding.

Then Roy took him back to the office, mainly because he'd forgotten to tell Ed, and because he still needed to work and he wanted the teen close by when he woke up, he was laid on the couch and Roy went out to talk to Ed closing the door behind himself.

Envy came to with an unattractive grunt, he rubbed his forehead, it hurt a lot and so did his back and chest, it hurt practically every where. Dammit, he hated pain, he growled for the sake of letting his temper rear it's ugly head, and he opened his eyes, grateful it was dark where ever he was.

He sat up and held his head, dammit, why did it hurt so much, and where was he? He looked around, it looked familiar, why was it...? Oh it was Roy's office. Roy. Roy Mustang. The man he loved.

He scrunched his face, Love? Is that what that feeling was, that burning sensation, that big swell in his chest? Yes it must be, he loved Roy with all of his being, but why? That man had decimated him.

He rubbed his head again, it was throbbing now, aching badly. Something had to be seriously wrong with him, he couldn't love Mustang, that was just ridiculous. He took a deep breath and tried to clear it of thought, and while doing so heard voices from out side of the door. He stood and moved closer to it and heard people talking about him.

"...still should have said something, now we don't know where the fault lies," Envy recognized that baritone immediately and a small smile came to his lips before it turned into a scowl. That idiot.

"The two we have in custody said it was a woman, but there were no remains at the site," another voice, a female's. Riza.

"You said he was covered in blood Roy, and well...it is possible..." this voice also familiar, male...Fullmetal. Ed. "Envy was a psycho killer at one point..." the blond said and Envy wanted to smirk, but the urge left him quickly.

"No, I don't want to think that..." Roy said and sighed, "But you're right it is possible, there is evidence it was him. I'll just deal with it. Perhaps when he wakes up he can tell us what happened, whatever the problem was." he said and then Envy opened the door to see Roy standing right next to it, everyone turned and stared in shock as Envy glared at the man.

"The problem was Roy Mustang, that there were Philosopher's Stones within easy access of any foolish alchemist that wished to see where the almost god's domain had been, you fucking dumbass." he snarled then marched over to Roy and poked him in the chest, "You know just as well as I do that the most curious people alive are alchemists, you really think that a few walls and laws will stop them from going down there?"

"Well what did you want me to do?" Roy asked a little shell shocked, his lover was no longer demure, but didn't seem bent on killing him which was a good thing, but he also had the most terrifying red eyes it made him want to look away, but he didn't. The red eyes rolled.

"I don't know, I'm not the alchemist! You could have destroyed them, Marcoh knows how!" he recalled that memory and grit his teeth as the pain attached to the memory assaulted him. "Hell you could use them as a way to get to be Fuhrer, if you have a cure for every ailment known to mankind you'd be a world hero! Bah!" he threw his hands up, then sighed and put a hand over his face.

"Why did I have to fall in love with an idiot?" he muttered, and only Roy caught it, a huge smile broke him from his weariness, Envy must have spotted the arms rising around him because he looked back up at him with a feral glare.

"I'm still mad at you dumbass, so don't even think about it." he said bluntly, and Roy blinked before giving a bark of laughter and waved his hand in slight embarrassment.

"Okay, okay, so I was dumb. But what about you, you were keeping things from me," Roy said pointing a finger at the boy who blinked.

"I'm sure there are a lot of things you don't know, dumbass, what was I keeping from you?" he said, the insults just so comfortable on his tongue, though he got poked in the butt by guilt for saying them. Roy rolled his eyes at the insult before crossing his arms.

"That there were a few added things to your anatomy," Roy said outright, an he watched as the young face looked on in confusion and then understanding and finally humiliation and shame.

"I...uh...that's...that's not really relevant to the conversation," he mumbled his face going pink, and Roy sighed that was true, but he still wanted to know why.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he asked and Envy's red eyes flickered at him before looking down and frowning.

"Because you didn't need to know." he said and Roy frowned and was about to say something else when Envy's attention was directed elsewhere.

"Kitty I want to play," Nicholas tugged on Envy's hand, and Envy stared down at him for a moment before shaking his head.

"No, not right now Nicholas." he said a little strained and the little boy frowned, the older boy had never denied him before.

"Kitty..." he started but Envy shook his head and glanced up at Ed who was watching him looking a bit confused, then he saw Envy raise his eyebrows and he nodded then came over and grabbed Nicholas' hand.

"Come on kiddo, Envy isn't feeling very good today okay?" he said and made to take the boy away but the child in his arm reached forward and attached herself to the teen, Ed sighed.

"Trisha you're not a koala come on," Ed said but the little girl had inherited his stubbornness and wouldn't let go, Envy groaned then gave up the struggle and took the little girl into his arms. She snuggled against his chest and gave a small sigh of contentment.

Envy looked down at her with a look on his face that said something along the lines of 'What, does me being partially insane make me more cuddly?' Ed shook his head and Nicholas pouted.

"Kitty!" he said and Envy rolled his eyes then went down to his eye level, looking at the little boy with his bottom lip pulled out.

"What?" he asked and Nicholas crossed his arms in an image so reminiscent of his father Envy had to stifle a laugh, as did many of the others in the office.

"I want to play," he said in a demanding voice and Envy's eyebrows went up as he tried not to smile.

"And I want to play too, but I'm busy right now, can't you wait till tomorrow at least?" he said and Nicholas pouted more.

"Nu-uh, tomorrow is Kitty's birthday! We're gonna do what he wants!" he said and Envy blinked, was tomorrow really his birthday? Wow.

"Nicholas, I have to do something right now, but I will want to play tomorrow okay?" he asked and Nicholas looked him in the eye and then nodded before he frowned.

"Kitty your eyes are all red," he said and Envy blinked, red like he'd been crying? He didn't recall crying recently, but then again, he was having trouble remembering yesterday, that's why it was taking him so long to remember people, and especially his changed relation to them. Roy was probably the hardest to totally grasp, he loved Roy, but he hated him, so much. He sighed and closed his eyes for a moment before opening them and looking at Ed.

"My eyes are red?" he asked, and Ed nodded a little wearily, and Envy hoped it was because of the kids, because he didn't trust himself with them. Then Riza came over and showed him a compact mirror he looked in and saw his eyes were indeed red instead of the deep black they'd usually been he also had the marks on his forehead, he brushed a finger against them with a frown.

"Why?" he asked and no one had an answer, he sighed and the little girl in his arms looked up at him.

"Pretty Kitty," she said and Envy smiled at her giving her a small squeeze, Ed smiled, a little relieved, his daughter sure was something else.

"Okay...so now that you know you're going to get all of the Philosopher's Stones and use them for good, what do we do with the ones in me?" Envy asked and he expected more of a reaction other than a few cringes.

"Well we could always use them I guess," Ed said rubbing the back of his head in thought, Envy made a face at the suggestion.

"I really wouldn't have cared about that you know...if I wasn't human now," he said and Ed nodded then his eyes lite with a memory.

"So Envy you still jealous of us? What do you think of being a human?" he grinned and Envy gave him a flat look, totally unamused.

"It sucks," he said bluntly and Ed chuckled before shaking his head. Then Roy sighed and crossed his arms.

"At the moment that's really not the biggest problem, we need to find out who it was, well whether or not they're still alive," he gave Envy a look who spotted it from the corner of his eye and he froze.

"Uuuh...I really can't remember," he said and Roy sighed again, that was a lot of help, "Sorry," he said and even though he was sorry, he didn't sound like it. He frowned at himself and groaned, his head hurt so much right now. He was trying to be two different people but not being them at the same time, he couldn't remember which one he was.

There was only one real thing set in stone, and that was: He loved Roy Mustang. That was true, but he was also terrified of the man, and he was angry at him and didn't want to look at him, but he wanted to take him all in, he wanted to actually look at the hands that had cause him all of that pain, but had also caused him the most pleasure he'd ever experienced. He loved Roy, but he also wanted him dead, or his hands chopped off, but also not. He also didn't know whether he should keep the little girl in his arms, he wasn't good with children but he was, they were annoying but so sweet too.

Envy put a hand to his face and made a small sound of discomfort while the others talked of what they were going to do, the general drift was Hakuro was going down for both accounts and then they'd worry about getting Envy back to normal.

"Kitty?" Trisha asked worriedly and the adults turned to see Envy, still crouching on the floor with Trisha and Nicholas, only shaking badly and clutching his head with his free hand.

"Envy?" Roy was next to him in a second a hand on his shoulder, "Are you okay?" he asked gently and the boy shook his head.

"No," he said and Ed came over and took Trisha from his arms while looking worried, "My head hurts." Envy said trying not to sound too whinny but, he never had liked pain.

"You should lay down," Ed said and Roy helped him up, then led him back into the office and to the couch, he was gently pushed to sit on it.

"It feels like I'm trying to be two people at once," Envy murmured and was pulled against a chest, he relaxed immediately knowing it was Roy.

"It doesn't matter who you end up being, I still love you," the man said in his hair, and Envy's face scrunched up.

"Even if I'm the one who murdered your best friend?" he asked and Roy drew back, hands on his shoulders.

"Even then," he said and Envy looked surprised, Roy leaned forward and kissed him on the forehead.

"Get some rest," he said and Envy nodded, and watched as the man exited the room and closed the door behind him, Envy sighed then flopped on the couch willing the headache away. He hoped everything would work out.