Hi guys, chap 20 is up! Like I told you, I wouldn't take two months to update this babe, haha. Well, I hope this chap put end at some things, some holes., however after it, we'll jump to another level and I'm already warning that some things will retrocede so I can put things in place correctly as I imagined. I hope you like this chap, maybe not that much long as I intended to, but maybe it's clear enough. Thank you all that have been following and reading this fic. I really appreciate it! and also thanks for the suggestions. No more talking, enjoy it! WELL, I'M RE-UPLOADING THE CHAP 20, I NOTICED THAT IT WAS ERASED SOMEHOW, SO HERE IT IS AGAIN..SORRY ABOUT THAT, I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED! =(
One week have passed since the last mission. Chris is more healed from his injuries. The group is still obtaining more information with the part the retrieved in the last mission. At some point, the tension is already installed among the group. It's been a month since the begging of the mission. The mental tiredness is getting installed. People starting to miss their loved ones, the coexistence is making easy for disagreements, different opinions. The stress consumes.
The night falls. Some agents are outside the house talking. Chris, Leon, Linda and another agent are inside the house at the living room. The agent decides to leave the room and go to his bedroom, leaving the three of them alone.
- It's good to know that you're feeling better. We'll need you in the field tomorrow. Linda said to Chris
- What's gonna be the action? Chris asked her
- We'll enter in a facility. Apparently they're keeping radioactive products to combine with bio-weapons. The lab analyzed a sample of the monster you two faced and discovered that the creature was a combination of different kinds of beings. To be more exact, a type of a frankstein. She explained
- Probably there are more from where it came. Leon said seriously
- We think so too. Maybe there can also be the lab, or maybe a way to the lab… she agreed
- It can be… Chris said
All of sudden, Leon got up from the couch and went to the bedroom. Chris and Linda watched him leave the living room and kept talking.
- Is he always like that? She asked Chris confused
- Yeah, sometimes he is weird… Chris explained rolling his eyes
- Do you mind if I ask you something? She said
- No, I don't mind. He answered
- Is he single? She asked in curious
- What? Leon? Chris replied surprised
- Yes! She confirmed
- I don't think he's available… Chris answered after thinking a little bit
- Hum, alright… she said disappointed
- You two don't seem to get along that much, why? Aren't you partners? She continued
- Look, I don't hate him, but he's not my best friend either. And no, we're not partners, just in this mission. Chris answered in discomfort
- Hum, ok then… I'm sorry to bother you, but I think you two could work on your issues, you're a great double, I noticed that on the field and you two are symmetric and I've never seen like that before, with a friendship you two would've become implacable.
- I appreciate your comment and that's it, whatever we have is our business and I hope you have a good night, I'm going to sleep. Take care! He replied dryly as he got out of the couch and headed to the bedroom
- Good night! She answered a bit awkward
Chris went to the bedroom and remembered that there inside there was Leon; he wished Leon was already sleeping. He moved slowly through the hallway and opened the door. Unfortunately Leon was awakened and looking at his cell phone concentrated. Chris noticed Leon's sad eyes and thought of asking something, but then he stopped himself as he remembered that was Leon Kennedy, not somebody else that he could show concern with. So pretending that he didn't see anything he sat on his own bed. The silence reined.
- When do you think we'll find her? It's been 1 year and two months since she's gone… Leon broke the silence sadly. Chris looked at Leon and turned down the face and answered:
- I don't know… maybe she's… he was interrupted
- She's alive, I know that! Leon said reluctantly
- You can't know that… you were even there. We didn't find her body, you that! Chris replied
- Exactly! No trace of her body doesn't mean she's dead and I don't think a shark ate her that quick and not leaving a piece behind… maybe Wesker did something to her… Leon said angry
- If she were alive she would've contacted us somehow… she's not this silent person. Chris said
- What kind of partner are you? Given up in your partner of years, not just a partner, she was your friend, your confident, she was the woman you said you loved… and you just give up on looking for her. I bet if she was in your place, she would've never, ever, give up on you like that. She would've fight and look for you until she found anything… what kind of partner are you? What kind of person are you that's giving up on everything… Leon said bitterly and incredulously
- Pff… you're no one to judge me! You have no right to speak to me like that! You don't know how much I suffer because of this, because of all this shit, all this fight all over these years, you don't know what I'm going through inside, you don't know my pain since I lost her! Chris protested
- Hahaha, suffer? I don't know how much you suffer? I don't know what pain is? I can't believe that! You're not the only one who Lost her! I lost her too, my children lost her too, they lost their mom, you don't know what pain is to be awaken every single night to calm down your kids because they miss their mother, because they don't see their mother, because they don't have any news from her, you don't know how much suffering is to lie to your own kids to keep their hope alive for the return of their mother. You don't know what is to have a cold bed every damn night, you don't know how much painful is when you come back home and its empty and cold, and sad, bitterly sad. You don't know how much painful is to try to keep the memory of your daughter alive about her mother that she barely knew, you don't know how much suffering is to hear your own daughter forgetting her mother and not giving a fuck if she's there or not and you know why? Just because she doesn't know her! The last time she saw her she was a baby! And what about your son? The one who is always putting you into record, always testing you, always daring you about his mother and her absence, and who is always fighting with his sister because she doesn't miss her like he does because she just can't understand because she doesn't remember… you don't know how much painful is to live like that all this time, every single day and in the next morning to put a smile on the face and live like nothing happened and then again, when it's dark and you return home is always the same war… and the worst of all? All this because of You! She gave up on Us because of You! To Save You… and now you say I don't have the right to tell you this shit? You're the one to blame! I wasn't there, but if she did it is because you failed! All this muscles and training at the Air force, STARS, or whatever shit, and now just simply keeps living in doubt and want to give up on everything because you're tired, the legendary Chris Redfield if they knew!… The broken legend… you don't know anything about my pain either… Leon let out the most of his tempest thoughts
Chris hold himself not to attack Leon somehow, however, inside of himself, Leon's statements knocked him down, they seemed right, they were just a concretization of what he blamed himself and which consumed him fierily. He just couldn't argue back, somewhere deep inside him he agreed with Leon, however, the "lost" he referred to wasn't exact about that night in particular…
- Yeah, you're right, I don't know how is to be in this place of yours, I'm sorry if I neglected your part of the role… about this we share the same pain, of course yours is aggravated with the part that you and her have kids and… yeah… I don't know how that is… but in the other hand, I don't sleep thru the nights either remembering what happened, being haunted by the flashes and yet in the next day to be the legendary Chris Redfield…just like you said "broken"… I am broken for a long time… I'm broken since I lost… and you're right… it was all my fault! Chris replied and leaned down his face feeling retaliated by the memories
The silence reined once again. Both men were digesting every single word said previously. For the first time the hot headed Redfield and the impudent Kennedy weren't arguing as hell as they used to. Both understood the other's side and points of view, both were starting to finally solving things between them, both were going straight. Now it was the time to finally speak what wasn't spoken before.
- "Lost"… you didn't lose her… she made a choice by herself, even though she was always there for you, you never lost her! Leon said calmly but precisely
- I lost! I bet to lose; I didn't try to keep her by my side, so she went away… it was all my fault! And then you came and you were smarter and what she wanted and needed you gave to her… Chris admitted sadly
- She never forgot you, you're special to her... I never tried to compete. I just wanted a piece of her heart… Leon said
- But then instead, she gave it all to you! I never forgot how her eyes brightened when she thought or talked about you, how anxiety she got when she knew you were being around and I will never forget those words she said to me, I will never forget what she said that night, I will never forget those daring eyes… Chris spoke getting vague. Leon just listened and he knew what Chris referred to. A few seconds of silence.
- I miss her so badly… Leon spoke very sad looking at the window
- Me too! Chris shared the same feeling and face
- Are we done? Leon asked friendly
- Yeah, we're done! Pieces on the board, things cleared, no more fights! Chris replied friendly and firmly
- All grown up! Partners or friends? Leon spoke and gave his hand
- All grown up! Both! Chris replied and both shook their hands
- Why we fought? We share the same shit! Leon joked
- I don't know, maybe we are too seemed… Chris said
- Nhaa… do not compare me to you! Leon played
- I can't, and that's not what I meant to… I meant that we are too seemed, I mean, you now are acting just like Jill did to me. She was the one who pulled my ear when I did something wrong. She was the one who told me the trues! Of course, she was more delicate and beautiful to look at… Chris explained
- Pff… bullshit! But I know she has this side of conciliator… she was definitely good at it… Leon said
- Yeah, she did! Chris agreed
- Well, no more drama and let's sleep, tomorrow is a long day! Leon said as he lied down in his bed
- Yeah, it will! Chris agreed
After it, the house was completely silently. When the sun rose, all of them were heading to their next and last destination… China.
Well, that's it for now. Like a said, hope you liked it and as the usual, feel free to review or give any suggestion, I really take it in consideration, any doubts or opinions of what may be missing or not or how to, just let me know! Hope I don't take that long again to update even though things are kind of ready, I'm still placing them in order. Thanks and Kennedy Out! =]