Disclaimer:

I don't own The Big Bang Theory.

A/N:

First of all, thank you so much for sticking with the story. I know it take me some time to post, but I wrote before, I didn't want to rush this story so much, and I want to build Sheldon and Amy's relationship through friendship and mutual trust. They both have a lot of issues and insecurities, and I want them to face them and accept it about each other.

Also, it takes me some time to post because I have non-fanfics commitments as well.

I think Amy and Sheldon will have a serious talk soon and they will learn more about each other, and we will learn about Amy's insecurities. And also, Amy will finally go back to her own apartment.

I changed the way Amy dresses to my own style, which is still relatively conservative, and still not showing so much of her body. There is a reason for that, and I will write about it.

I hope you will enjoy it.

Chapter 20:

The weeks past and it was nearing the middle of April. Amy was feeling better with each passing day. she still had some pains from her surgery, but she knew it was normal, and she always tried to calm herself.

She had some checkups from time to time, to see that everything was okay and because she had the need to pee from time to time. she had some minor urinary tract infection, that she took antibiotics for, but other than that, everything was going well, and when she visited professor Moore, he said that everything is looking okay, and that he doesn't see anything he needs to worry about.

Amy was starting to feel much better, and she thought she may go back to her own apartment soon. Once again, she found herself terrified at the thought, but she knew she had to do so. She was about to go back to work and she wanted to start and drive again, so she decided she will do it very soon.

One evening Penny asked Amy if it was okay for them to come and visit her, and Amy decided to go out and join them for dinner for a change. She asked Penny if she could pick her up, and she said she will come and pick her up.

Penny arrived after twenty minutes, and Amy opened the door for her.

"Hey, how are you?" Amy greeted Penny.

"I'm good, how are you?" Penny said and gave Amy a hug and a kiss.

"I'm much better, thanks. I just need to go and change, why don't you come and help me pick something." Amy said, and she and Penny went to Amy's room.

"Most of my nice stuff are back in my apartment." Amy sighed, as she stood in front of her closet. Most of her cloths here were her old sweaters and skirts and button shirts, that she didn't tend to wear that much anymore.

"Wow, you wore a lot of sweaters." Penny said.

"Yeah, but I don't wear those things anymore. I stopped wearing those clothes about a year after I graduated from college." She said.

Penny nodded and Amy took another look at her closet. She eventually found a pair of jeans and a black basic shirt. She went to change her clothes and put some makeup on. Then she returned to her room, put on her Converse and grabbed her jacket, and then they were on their way to Los Robles.

When they arrived to 2311 Los Robles, the memory of the not working elevator came rushing back to Amy, and she sighed heavily. She forgot all about it, but then again, she decided it would be a good exercise.

"are you okay? I forgot about the stairs…" Penny asked Amy.

"yeah. I'll be fine. I'll just take it slow." Amy said, and they went up the stairs.

It wasn't unusually hard for Amy, but she did want to sit down and drink water.

They arrived at 4A and Amy was greeted by Leonard who was in the living room, setting the coffee table for dinner.

"Hey Amy. How are you?" Leonard asked her.

"I'm good, thank you. How are you?" She replied.

"I'm good. Come, sit. You look like you need it." Leonard said.

Amy nodded and set in the middle of the couch. Amy looked around at the apartment and noticed the decorations around. There were some action figures around, books and various collectables items. She didn't really notice it the first time she was here, but she thought it was unique.

Seeing how the apartment was decorated, made her think how Sheldon's room looked like. Last time, Leonard gave her his room, and she remembered that he had some action figures, but she didn't remember it clearly. She wasn't feeling so well at the time.

As she wondered about Sheldon's room, she heard him coming down the hall, calling Leonard's name.

"Leonard, do you remember nothing with avocado on Amy's order?" Sheldon asked, as he came down the hall.

"Yes Sheldon. for the tenth time, I remember." Leonard sighed.

"Sorry about that Amy." Leonard turned to Amy, as to not sound rude or that he didn't care.

"Amy? What are you talking about?" Sheldon asked Leonard with confusion, before he turned around to see that Amy was sitting next to his spot.

"Oh. Hey Amy." Sheldon said shyly.

"Hey. How are you?" she asked.

"I'm fine. how are you? Do you want something to drink?" he asked quickly.

"Water, please, and I'm good. Getting better with each day." she said, and grabbed a pillow to put in her lap. It was a habit by now, but she also needed it after three flights of stairs.

Sheldon went to grab her a bottle of water from the refrigerator, and then came to sit next to her.

"thank you." She said as Sheldon handed her the water.

"are you sure you're okay?" Sheldon asked her when he saw the pillow in her lap.

"Yes. I just need to calm a bit after those stairs." She said with a smile.

"we should have come to you." Sheldon said, with frustration.

Amy put her hand on Sheldon's to ease his mind. "No. It's okay. I really needed to come outside. It's driving me crazy to be in my mom's house for so long. And the stairs is a good exercise for me." She said with a chuckle.

"Okay, but if there is anything wrong, tell me immediately." Sheldon said, as he grabbed her hand back, and Amy nodded her agreement.

"so, what are we eating tonight?" Amy asked.

"we thought about ordering from Subway. Is that okay with you?" Leonard asked.

"Yeah. Of course." Amy said.

"No avocado, Leonard" Sheldon said once more, and Amy lowered her eyes at that. she couldn't believe he remembered it, and reminded Leonard that fact so many times, according to what she just heard.

Leonard just nodded.

The rest of the group arrived about ten minutes after Penny and Amy arrived. They all settled in their sits and the food arrived after about thirty minutes.

The evening was very nice. They all talked and laughed, and Amy was happy to be with her friends, and not in her mother's house, for a change.

Amy suddenly remembered the night that Raj went out with Stuart, to try and maybe find a woman.

"So Raj, how was the other night with Stuart? Any luck?" she asked him. Sheldon looked at her for a moment, confused at her question. He thought that something is happening between them.

"No. women can be mean." Raj answered.

"Yeah, they can be. I'm sorry to hear that. if I had a friend I could introduce you to, I would. Maybe when I'll go back to work I'll run into a nice woman." Amy said, and at the same time put her hand on Sheldon's. she saw from the corner of her eye the look he gave her when he heard her question, and she wanted to ease his mind.

No one noticed that, and Raj asked her back.

"What about you?" and Amy chocked a bit from her water, and Sheldon patted her back, and looked at Leonard and Penny in question, trying to understand if they said something to their friends, and they shook their heads in the negative.

"I… I… I'm okay. I don't know yet." She said. Not wanting to give anything away.

"What do you mean?" Raj pressed.

"Well… with my condition… I want to focus on my recovery…" she said, trying to avoid the subject. At that moment, she wanted to take Sheldon aside and tell him everything.

"Do you have any advice? They are not helping so much…" Raj gestured to his friends.

Amy was glad that he changed the subject, and thought for a moment.

"Well, I don't have so much experience, but from what I do have, respect her, treat her like an equal and don't force your beliefs, but also don't pretend that you agree with her just to please her. you don't have to agree on everything, but there is always a way how to say things." Amy said.

"But those are relationship advice. I still don't know how to approach a woman." Raj whined.

"Well, that's the best I can give you. I met three of my ex-boyfriends through somewhat friends, and my last ex, I met through a dating website, and I actually started the conversation, so yeah…" she said, and took a bite from her sandwich.

Sheldon heard that, and felt dizzy. She has way more experience in this than me. Why on earth would she want to be with me? He thought to himself. the next question that came from Raj, startled him, and he had to know the answer to that. although, he than remembered what she said to him back in Texas, but he still needed to know for sure.

"it seems like you have quite the experience. Have you ever been in love with any of your past relationships?" why on earth Raj was asking all these questions? She is not for him! Sheldon started to get annoyed.

"It's not that much of an experience. Only my last relationship was really serious. It lasted six months. The rest were like two months. And as to your question, no. I don't think I've ever been in love. I think at the time I loved the idea more than the person. Don't get me wrong, I had feelings for the guys I've dated, but it was never love." She said, and Raj nodded.

Sheldon kept eating for a few moments, and then left for his room.

It was all too much for him. what if that's what happening to her now? What if she just like the idea more than she likes me? Sheldon thought to himself, and started to breath quickly. A small knock on his door startled him.

"Yes?"

Amy saw the look on Sheldon when he left for his room, and she decided to go after him, not caring if their friends will talk. she needed to talk to him for a long time now.

She knocked on his door, and a small "yes?" came from it.

"Sheldon, it's Amy. Can I come in?" she asked him.

"Girls aren't allowed in my bedroom." He answered. Amy was confused, but she tried again.

"Sheldon it's important, do you want everyone to hear it?" she said.

After a few moments, he said she could come in.

She entered his room. It was a very nice room, with a lot of superheroes and science fiction stuff.

Sheldon was sitting on his bed, breathing quickly. Amy took notice of that, and went to sit next to him, and patted his back in soothing motions.

"Hey. Are you okay?" she asked him.

"I just needed a moment." he said quietly.

"Sheldon, I think we need to talk… about… us…" she said quietly.

"what is there to talk about?" he asked her, confused.

"Sheldon… we can't ignore what is happening anymore. At least I can't." she said, and then took a deep breath and let it out noisily.

"Sheldon… for a while now… I… I'm feeling things…" she faltered, and Sheldon looked at her with question.

"For you…" her voice above a whisper.

Sheldon looked at her. he wasn't impressed, not after what he heard.

"how do you know it's not the idea of me?" he asked, and that question felt like he just punched her in her surgery, and tears started to fall from her eyes.

"because I know! because I didn't ask for it, I didn't even want to have those feelings. I just wanted to get through this whole chaos, but you were there the whole time, and it just grew with each day. I can't explain it or analyze it like an equation. I just know. I didn't even like you back in Texas." She said with feeling, and tears just came falling down.

Sheldon wasn't good with his own emotions, let alone others, but he could see that something about Amy was true, that it wasn't the idea of a relationship, but it was actually him.

"How are you so sure about this?" he asked her softly, taking her hand.

"Because the other times I dated we met for that purpose, for dating. But here… we met, we didn't even like each other at first, and then you helped me even though you didn't have to, and then we became friends, but with each day, I could feel that there was more than just friendship here, something that I know I want to explore with you." Amy said quietly.

Sheldon just nodded and looked into Amy's eyes, and he could actually see all her emotions there. He didn't think of his next move. He put his hand on her cheek and wiped her tears away.

Amy closed her eyes at Sheldon's touch. She than felt him leaning in, and pressing his lips to her forehead, like he did after she came out of her surgery. He broke the kiss and Amy opened her eyes, and they were inches away from each other. They looked deep into each other eyes, and they both leaned in and closed their eyes at the same time.

Their lips touched lightly for a moment, but then they pressed it together, and the sensation was unbelievable. Sheldon couldn't believe he would like kissing so much, but right now he couldn't think of anything else. he also knew that it was only because it was Amy. She made all the difference in his life in the past four – four and a half, months.

They moved their lips against each other, and then their hands reached up. Sheldon held Amy's hips lightly, as to not cause her pain where she had her surgery, and Amy's arms went to Sheldon's neck.

She couldn't believe what was happening. She didn't think this will happen tonight, but she didn't have any objection.

After a few moments, they broke the kiss and looked at each other deep in the eyes, still holding each other.

"that was interesting" Sheldon said. He didn't want to sound over enthusiastic. Amy chuckled at that.

"I bet it was." she said with a smile.

"Amy, I still have some things I want to say and ask." Sheldon said quietly.

"Okay. go ahead." She said.

"Now?" he asked her with surprise.

"Yes. We finally got to this point, so yeah, why not?" she said, as she broke the hug.

Sheldon pondered and nodded.

"You said you've never been in love before, but you had a boyfriend for six months. How is that possible?" he asked her.

"well… he said it to me first, after two or three weeks that we actually dated. At least, that's how it felt. I did say it back, not immediately, but I did say it out of pressure, even though he said I don't have to say it back right away. I said it, but at the same time I always thought that I shouldn't continue with that relationship. It wasn't a good time for me. I regret every day that I didn't break it when at the beginning, when I felt it wasn't right for me, but I learned from that, not to do it again. It's not fair to either side." Amy said with sincerity.

"And what do you mean that you liked the idea of a relationship?" he asked her.

"I started dating late in life, and the idea of a relationship always fascinated me, so I guess that's how I ended up in those relationships. I tried to prolong them, even though I knew there wasn't a real future, because I was afraid to be alone or that I will never have a real relationship." She said with embarrassment.

The next question, Sheldon asked very quietly, that Amy had to lean in to hear it.

"Did you ever… slept… with…" he couldn't even finish his question. He had to know, especially now that they are about to start their own relationship.

Amy understood where he was going with this. "Yes." She said quietly. Sheldon just nodded. She clearly was way more experience than what he was.

"with all of them?" he asked quietly.

"No. I tried with a guy I dated for two months, but it didn't work out. so, it sums up to just the guy I dated for six months, and a guy I dated before him, for two months. I had one sexual experience with a guy that we barley dated, but it wasn't intercourse." She said with embarrassment. She felt cheap, even though she knew that wasn't so much, or that she shouldn't feel that way. that was a part she always hated, but she knew it was necessary for medical reasons, and for a healthy relationship. She didn't want to lie to Sheldon or hide things from, especially after everything they've been through.

Sheldon was taken back by all this information. He didn't know what to think, but he knew he had to come clean as well.

"I never… not even dated. Or kissed, well that I liked it." he whispered.

"what do you mean?" she asked.

"I never had a girlfriend. The only time I was kissed, was by Leonard's mother, and she kissed me while she was drunk." Sheldon said, and then added, "I'm not sure how to do this." He said quietly.

Amy was shocked a bit. She remembered that she swore to herself at the time, not to date someone who wasn't a bit experienced, but it all went out of the window. She couldn't care less if Sheldon was inexperienced. She knew that she wanted to be with him because of him, because he was such a good man, and because she can't imagine throwing away something that can be amazing, because of such a stupid thing.

She took his hand and held it tightly, and he looked at her.

"I don't care." She said to him with confidence.

"You don't?" he asked her, surprised that she didn't care about it.

"No, I don't. maybe it would have bother me another point in my life, but right now, all I know is that you are a good man, and that I want to get to know you better than anyone else." she said with emotion.

"does it bother you what you learned about me?" she asked with hesitation.

"It is a lot to prosses, but I don't think so. and you said earlier that you did had some feelings to each one of those guys. And it was in a relationship and not a one-time thing." Sheldon said.

Amy just nodded.

"I hope you won't think less of me…" Amy whispered.

Sheldon pondered about that. he always used to think of himself as unique person, above human emotions, but all that changed the moment of Amy's septic shock, and maybe even before.

"I won't lie to you. Another time, I probably would, because I used to see the concept of love and relationship as unnecessary, but that changed." He said

"Really? When?" she asked him. a bit skeptical.

"The second day of your hospitalization." He said with confidence.

Amy looked at him, shocked. That day… that awful, awful day.

"That day?" she asked him shocked.

"Yes. That is when I realized that you are important to me." He said softly.

Tears started to run down Amy's eyes as she remembered that day, and she leaned into Sheldon, who held her tight, and tried to calm her down.

After a few moments, she looked up at him again, and she saw that he was remembering that day as well, and that it pained him. she broke the embrace just a bit, and put her hand on his cheek and caressed him. she felt that his cheek was moist, from tears he shed, she assumed.

"Thank you for being there the whole time." she said to him, with all the feelings she could muster.

Sheldon just nodded. He looked at her for a moment and then leaned in and pressed his lips to hers again. As they felt each other lips, they closed their eyes and melted to it. it felt like it was the most natural thing in the world, and the rightest thing in the world.

They were both overwhelmed with emotions. At that moment, Amy knew that she never felt that way before. True, she kissed other men before, and it was always nice, but none of them ever was with so much emotions and with such pure intentions. She knew it was it. This is how it supposed to feel.

Sheldon was so overwhelmed with everything that was happening. He knew how much Amy meant to him, and he started to prepare himself for the change that was about to occur, but that wasn't enough preparation. It was so much more than what he thought it would be. It felt like he was waiting just for her, and that he was finally where he belonged. He didn't believe in those things, but at the same time he couldn't deny his feelings any longer. He knew right there and then, while they were kissing, that he won't let her go. Ever.

At that moment, they were both thankful that the universe brought them together and that they went through that crazy journey together.

A/N:

I really hope you liked this chapter, and I would love to read your thoughts.

So, the Shamy is happening. They still need to talk about stuff, and that was just the tip of the iceberg. I want Sheldon to know everything about Amy, and to Amy know everything about Sheldon, and I will explore it with each chapter, along with Amy's recovery.

Next chapter I think I will let Sheldon know more about Amy's dating history. Once again, I based Amy's story on my own story - medically, part of her childhood, her insecurities and dating, so a lot of Amy's feelings here, are also my own feelings.