Chapter 20
Rachel rested her head against Finn's shoulder as they waited for Mr. Schuester to enter the choir room. She was now thirty weeks pregnant and the pregnancy was taking a toll on her. She was exhausted and her back was killing her.
"Hey guys!" Mr. Schuester greeted cheerfully as he entered the room. "We need to work on songs for nationals. It will be here before we know it. I'm thinking a solo, duet, and group number. We really need to work hard on this. I want you guys to win since for many of you, it's your last year."
"Mr. Schuester, I think Rachel should have the solo and she and Finn should have the duet. They have the most chemistry and passion and let's face it; Rachel is the voice that is going to win." Kurt said as he smiled at Rachel and Finn. Everyone else nodded in agreement.
"That's very kind of you guys, but I'm not sure the judges are going to want to vote for a pregnant girl. And someone else should have the chance at a solo." Rachel said.
"Rachel, we won't will unless you have the solo. And the judges can's judge you on whether you're pregnant or not."
"Do any of you guys have a specific theme you want to do or an artist?" Mr. Schuester asked.
"I think maybe we should do something about not giving up, sticking together and fighting, or love." Quinn suggested.
"I think that's a great idea, Quinn. Tonight I want you guys to do some research. Find a song for Rachel to sing, for Finn and Rachel to sing, and for all of you to sing falling into that theme." Mr. Schuester said. "For Rachel I'm thinking a Celine Dion or Whitney Huston. Something to really show off her vocals."
Rachel smiled and felt Finn squeeze her hand. He pressed a kiss to her cheek, before standing. "Mr. Schue, I have a song I'd like to sing."
"Go ahead, Finn." Mr. Schuester said as he moved to a chair, while Finn took the front of the room.
"This song is obviously for my amazing girlfriend. Rachel, listen to the lyrics because I mean every word." Finn said, before the music began.
Don't go changing, to try and please me Don't go trying some new fashion I don't want clever conversation I need to know that you will always be I said I love you and that's forever
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore
I would not leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take 'till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.
And this I promise from my heart
I couldn't love you any better
I love you just the way you are
Rachel had tears in her eyes by the time the song came to end. She stood and made her way in front of Finn.
He saw the tears begin to stream down her cheeks and became nervous. "What's wrong?"
"No, I'm happy. They're happy tears. That was so sweet." Rachel reached up to press her lips to his and he wrapped his arms around her. She giggled when the kiss ended. "Plus pregnancy hormones."
"They make you cry over the stupidest things." Quinn laughed.
"Oh yeah." Rachel nodded in agreement with another giggle.
"I miss that laugh." Finn said as he pulled her close and kissed her head.
"You're getting there, Rachel." Mr. Schuester said with a nod. "How have you been doing?"
Rachel took in a deep breath and glanced at her feet-which were becoming hard to see with her stomach. "It's been seven months and I'm still not over it."
"Rach, this doesn't just take a week to get over. What you went through was horrible and terrifying and it takes a while to get over that." Sam said.
Rachel nodded sadly and fell back against Finn's body.
"You're making progress though, Rachel." Mr. Schuester pointed out. "And you know were always here if you need to talk."
"Thanks. You guys have all been amazing through this." Rachel said with a small smile.
"I'm going to end early today. Make sure you do some research!" Mr. Schuester said with a grin.
The group said goodbye, before departing. Finn and Rachel walked to Finn's truck together. Finn had to help Rachel get into the car, because her stomach was now huge at thirty weeks. Finn got into the car after her and looked her way. "Rach, why didn't you tell me what happened until we started going out again last year?"
"I was scared. I was already so lucky that I was going out with the school quarterback, I didn't want to push my luck. I was afraid you would run when you found out I was damaged and had a son."
"Rachel, I never would have. And I feel horrible for being such a jerk to you. I mean it didn't make sense to me then why you had gotten so upset about Santana."
"Were you suspicious?" Rachel asked. "I mean did you ever think I was cheating or something? I always told you I had to be home at certain times and I barely ever let you in my house."
"I thought it was a little weird, but knew you wouldn't do anything to me."
"But I did." Rachel said her voice cracking. "I went and cheated on you after you told me about Santana."
"I'm not mad about that now that I know why you did it. You were so upset and I didn't understand at the time. And you were trying to prove that you could be…promiscuous. But Rachel, I want you to understand that you don't have to do anything you feel uncomfortable with."
"Would you have run if I told you the truth, honestly?"
"Rachel, did I run when you did tell me?" Finn asked rhetorically. "I wouldn't have run and I never am going to run. I love you, Liam, and this baby. I am sticking with you forever and through everything. I'm never leaving you."
"But I'm a horrible girlfriend. I…I can't even h-have…s-sex with you." Rachel spit out as tears finally spilled out from her eyes.
"Rach…" Finn began, taking her trembling hand in his. "You are amazing girlfriend. Sex isn't the only thing that matters in a relationship. I will wait for you no matter how long it takes because I love you. And what you went through is horrible."
"Wh-what if I'm never ready?"
"Then we'll deal with that. I told you, I'm not leaving. Yes, I want to have sex with you, but not just because I want sex. I want it with you because I love you, but I will wait even if that means forever."
"I love you." She whispered through her tears.
"I love you too." He replied passionately as he leaned in to kiss her lips.
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