Quinn's P.O.V
Well I fucked up. I pushed and I pushed and now that she's actually over me, I want her back. In a way I've always wanted her back I just couldn't get over the past. Fuck the past. Living in the past screwed up my present and future. God how could I have been so fucking stupid?! I don't deserve her. She deserves to be with someone who's smart enough to recognize she's a catch. I'm the only idiot who would let her slip through my fingers. As slow as I've been to forgive her, she's already forgiven me for what I've done. She's a better person than I am.
I deserve to be alone. I did this to myself and now there's no fixing it. Santana has tried to call me but I don't answer. I don't understand why she's calling. If she's calling to apologize, she has nothing to apologize for. She did nothing wrong. I'm the only person who messed up. I don't want to talk to her because I'm embarrassed of the way I reacted. I couldn't be like a normal person and just walk away. Of course not, I run away crying like I just caught her cheating on me. I know she wasn't in the wrong but it hurt. God it hurt even more this time than the last. I'm not angry she slept with Ashley though. Just...sad.
I've completely isolated myself for the last few days. Santana came once but I ignored her and she finally left. Yes, that wasn't very adult of me to do but whatever. I need some time to myself to cope with losing her. But she said she still loved me. I know that couldn't have just changed that fast. Or maybe it did. She probably just got over it and said fuck it.
UGH! I hate my life! Damn it. I smash the pillow into my face as I sigh and sit up in bed. There has to be a way to fix this. If I tell Santana I love her she'll come back. She can't be serious with that bitch Ashley. But maybe she needs this, for her own gain. I took the time and dated so why shouldn't she? I sigh to myself and run my fingers over the back of the necklace Santana gave me, all those years ago. I never got rid of it or lost it, no matter how mad I was. This necklace meant so much to me and still does.
I get up and go make Maya and I breakfast. She has a dance class today but with Brittany. It's the first time she's going there so I'm hoping she's excited. I wake her up and she goes to get ready before she comes down to eat breakfast. While she's getting ready I go take a shower and get dressed then go back in the kitchen. Maya is sitting at the table scarfing her food down.
"Hey, Hey, Hey. Slow down, it's not going anywhere." I say and she chews slower and drinks some orange juice.
"What's the hurry? You look like a chipmunk." I say as I grab one over her overly stuffed cheeks and I chuckle when she groans and shakes her head. She finishes chewing before saying
"We have to be on time."
"We will be and why aren't you in your dance clothes?" I say
"They're under my clothes." She says and I nod
"Are you excited?"
"Kinda."
"Kinda?"
"Today could be bad or awesome."
"What does that mean?" I ask curiously and start to eat my own food
"Um nothing I mean...I could be bad or good." She says and I know she's lying. I can always tell when she's lying, the powers of being a mother.
"Why don't I believe you?" I say and she starts eating again to avoid my question
"Amaya?" I say and she hums.
"What aren't you telling me?"
"Nothing mama. Promise." She says and gives me a huge grin to try and prove she's innocent which is only making her more guilty, but I just let it go.
"Okay fine. Are you still going to Rachel's this weekend?"
"Yeah. Brittany and Bella are gonna be there." She says and I nod. Brittany and Rachel have been spending a lot of time together and Rachel said she was seeing someone...hm.
"If you like this class you think you'll want to keep going?" I ask and she shrugs
"I have to see."
We finish eating and she runs off to do something else before we leave. We get in the car and we talk for awhile and then just listen to the radio. She starts to sing along with the radio, like always but I never noticed how good of a singer she actually is until now. As I'm driving I get a phone call and answer it when I get to a red light, putting it on speaker phone and sitting it back down.
"Hello?" I answer
"Where are you?" Britt says
"Hey, B. You're on speaker and I'm almost there. We got caught at every red light today."
"Oh. Hey Maya."
"Hi Brittany." Maya says then goes to look out of the window
"Well...you can take your time."
"Class starts in 10 minutes doesn't it?"
"Yeah but...some stuff went kinda wrong."
"What stuff?" I ask
"Nothing big, don't worry. Can I speak to Maya?"
"Sure."
"Not on speaker?" She says and I glance at Maya. She picks the phone up and Brittany says something to her. I can't make it out but Maya just says okay and hangs up.
"What was that about?" I ask
"Nothing." She says and looks back out the window. What the hell is going on? Maya is being secretive and I don't like it. At all. I keep driving and we get there 15 minutes later. It seems kind of empty though, maybe she doesn't have that many students today? We get out of the car and go into the studio.
"Hey guys." Brittany says when we walk in.
"Hey Britt." I say and Maya waves.
"Are you staying Quinn?" Brittany asks
"Probably not."
"Stay mom. I want you to watch." Maya says and I nod.
"Okay." I say and Brittany smiles
"Good. I'm going to take Maya to the changing room and you can just go in." She says and then points to a door. She walks with Maya to another room and I go in the room. I let the door shut behind me and look around. I see a chair and the end of the room so I walk towards it but then I hear the door open and I look behind me...Fuck.
Santana's P.O.V
"Why do you make it so hard for me to talk to you?" I ask and she sighs and looks up at the ceiling.
"Ugh...Santana I don't want to do this right now." She says with a sigh
"Well too fucking bad." I say and start to walk towards her. She quickly walks past me to the door I just came through and tries to open it.
"Doors are locked Quinn."
"Santana let me out." She says and I turn and look at her
"I don't have the key. You can try to call B but she won't answer." She turns around and leans back against the door
"So you're the reason Maya has been acting so suspiciously. You had my daughter lie to me?"
"It was for a good cause and she was all for it. Now can we talk?" I ask and she sighs
"What choice do I have?"
"That's the spirit. Now why were you so upset about walking in on me?"
"It wasn't because of you being with...her. It just brought back memories of that day." She says as I walk closer to her. She watches me but doesn't say anything.
"Well I'm sorry it brought back those painful memories for you. It brought back memories for me too."
"Yeah well I'm sure mine was worse."
"I wouldn't be to sure about that." I say and she rolls her eyes.
"Are we done talking now?"
"No."
"Don't you have a girlfriend to get to?" She says and I laugh
"You can go off subject all you want but I'm going to get what I want from you."
"You sound like a rapist."
"It wouldn't be rape because you'd want it." I say and she crosses her arms
"You keep it in your pants or I'll cut it off."
"Are you really suggesting I'd rape you?" I ask and she sighs
"Of course I don't think you'd rape me." I shake my head and keep walking towards her, I'm halfway across the room now.
"I think it's time you cut the bullshit and let me know how you're really feeling." I say as I continue my stroll towards her
"I don't know what you're talking about." She says and I shake my head
"Stop with the denial Q. I'm not stupid."
"You have a girlfriend." Now I'm about a foot away from her and looking in her eyes, I can tell she's fighting herself. I know she wants me but for some reason she thinks she still needs to push me away.
"You remember when I proposed to you?" I ask
"That wasn't a proposal. You said -"
"Your pussy is awesome, marry me. What did you expect? I was 20 and in the middle of fucking you." I say with a shrug
"It wasn't a proposal."
"It was, just not the one you deserved. I'm not about to proposed to you or anything so you don't have to worry, but that was the first time I ever really thought about marrying you. Growing old with you and having kids. I fucked it up later but hey, I'm human. I had doubt and I was afraid we were just too young. " I say and she nods
"I already told you I still love you and how sorry I am. There's nothing you could ever do or have ever done to change the fact that I love you. I want you and I know you want me so cut the bullshit and tell me you love me." I say and move as close to her as I can without touching her. I feel her breath softly hitting my face and watch as her eyes flicker from my eyes to my lips. I put both of my arms on the door behind her, trapping her there in her spot.
"Tell me. You love me." I whisper and she stares into my eyes. She swallows hard and I notice her face turning red. She's nervous.
"Tell me." I say and move closer to her, pressing our bodies together.
"I love you." She whispers and kisses me. She wraps her arms around my neck and sucks my lip. I wrap my good arm around her waist and pull her close but she pulls away
"You have a girlfriend."
"Why do you keep saying that? I am single. She wanted to fuck me, that doesn't mean I'm dating her." I say and she kisses me deeply, pulling me impossibly close to her.
She feels so good, like...home. The kiss becomes more passionate and and rough with teeth and tongues everywhere. Her hands are all over my body and mine are all over hers, causing her to moan in mouth. I lift her leg with my right arm and grind into her. She moans louder and I slide my hand under her shirt and squeeze her breast.
"Mmm Santana stop." Stop? What?
"Why?"
"We can't."
"What? Are you on your period or something?" I ask and she chuckles a little
"No. We're in Britt's studio. We can't have sex."
"Can we go to my car?" I ask and she takes a minute to think about it
"No. I want to be in a bed."
"Let's go to your place." She nods and I put her leg down.
"I can't leave. Maya asked me to stay and watch her dance."
"Q, there are no lessons today. That was just apart of the set up." I say and she slowly nods then says
"Can you...nevermind."
"What?"
"I was going to ask if you can have sex but...you had sex with her so." She says with a shrug
"We didn't have sex."
"Because I came in." She says and rolls her eyes
"Well honestly, yeah. We didn't because you came in. She's hot and you're the one that told me to move on. Am I making this worse?" I ask and she shakes her head and moves her arms back to her side
"Brittany drove you here?"
"Yeah."
"Let's go then." She says and takes my hand
"How are we going to get out?" She asks and I pull her to the to the other side of the room and walk out the door
I text Britt to let her know that everything went okay then we get in Quinns car and she starts to drive. I try to tease her and keep her in the mood until we get to her place but I think about it and I don't want to get into another car accident. We get to her house and she pulls me into the house and pushes me against the door, kissing me hard and pulling her shirt off. She kisses down to my jaw and to my neck.
" Mmm Quinn?" I moan out and she hums in response
"Did you sleep with that guy?" I ask as I take my shirt off.
"Santana, that's not really something to talk about right now." I kick my shoes off and she starts to unbutton my jeans
"So...did you?" I say and she stops
"Really Santana? Do you want to have sex or talk about who I've had sex with?"
"So you did have sex with him." I say and she scoffs
"Forget it." She turns around and goes toward her room but I hurry to catch up with her and grab her arm
"Okay, Okay. I'm sorry for asking." I say when she turns around to look at me. She grabs my hand and pulls me to her room. She takes her pants and shoes off and I take off my pants and sit on her bed.
"I missed you." I say and she smiles and straddles me
"I know. I missed you too." She softly caresses my cheek and then kisses me gently. She licks my lip and I part them allowing her access in to my mouth. She slides her tongue in my mouth and guides my dick to her entrance. I grab her ass and she lifts up some to slide me inside her. She pushes it all the way in as she wraps her legs around my waist then runs her hands through my hair and slowly starts to roll her hips. I move my hips in sync with hers and suck her neck
"Mmm." She moans and I gently knead and squeeze her left breast. She grabs my neck and arches her back. I lean forward and suck her right nipple into my mouth
"Ohh Santana." She moans and moves her hips faster. I suck and bite her nipple then kiss up to her collar bone
"Fuck, you're so tight and wet Q." I moan as she circles her hips and bounces slightly
"God I missed you." She pants out
"You're so big. I missed you stretching my pussy."
"Oh fuck." I moan at her words and thrust up into her
"Oh yes! Fuck Santana." She moans and bounces more. I lean back some to give her more room and she leans back and grips my knees then rides harder
"Fuck yes. Don't stop." I moan as I try to keep pace with her hips. I watch her bounce up and down on my cock how wet my dick is from her juices
"You love my cock don't you?" I say and reach my hand down to rub her clit. Her chest is heaving and she's breathing hard
"Yes, I love it so much baby." She says breathlessly. She rides faster and I pinch her clit slightly, making her moan loudly
"Fuck. Say my name baby." I brace myself on the bed and thrust up into her hard
"Oh! Santana! Yes Santana!"
"Faster baby." I say and she bounces and rolls her hips faster then I feel her walls squeezing me tight
"Fuck Quinn!"
"I'm gonna cum." She moans and I rub her clit faster.
"Cum all over my dick baby." I say and she moans louder and digs her nails in my knees.
Her walks clench around me and I feel a gush of wetness run out of her and spill on to me. She screams my name while she cums and that pushes me over the edge, sending me into orgasmic bliss while I cum deep inside her. I fall back on the bed breathless and she sits up, causing us both to moan and then she lifts up. My limp member slips out of her and she lays on top of me.
"So good...that was so fucking good." I say while trying to catch my breath. She nods against my neck and I rub her back.
"Does this mean we're together?" I ask
"No. Maybe after a date." She says
"All you want is one date?" I ask and she nods
"Fine. A date and that means we can be together?"
"And I think we need to talk, clear the air. Then we can see if we can be together, unless you don't want to."
"Shut up because a deaf blind mute could tell I want to be with you." I say and she chuckles
"I love you." She says and I feel my heart melt. I haven't heard those words in so long and god it feels so fucking good. I love her so much
"I love you too baby." I say.
"Now get up."
"Why?" She asks
"Because I want to lay under the cover, not on top." I say and she sighs and rolls off of me. I get under the cover and she gets in on the other side of me. I grab her and pull her close to me then she puts her leg over mine, laying her head on my shoulder and wraps her arm around my stomach.
"That doesn't hurt does it?" She asks
"What?"
"My hand on your stomach, with your stitches."
"No." I yawn an close my eyes while she gently rubs her thumb over my hip
"Tired?" She asks
"Yeah."
"I did all the work." She says and I chuckle
"I contributed."
"A little. So all that was a set up and there was never really a class?" She asks
"Yep. Britt pushed her classes back today or canceled them, so we could do this. You're extremely hard to fucking talk to." I say and she shrugs
"Is something going on between Britt and Rachel?"
"Yep. They're fucking or dating."
"I thought so." She says as I play with her hair
"So you didn't have feelings for Ashley?" She says her name like she's angry and I can't help but chuckle. Her jealousy is cute...sometimes.
"No. I can't have feelings for someone when I'm in love with someone else." I say and I feel her smile against my shoulder
"Now no more talking. Sleep time." I say and she chuckles
"Guess you can only go once now huh?" She says teasingly
"You wish. When these stitches come out, you'll be begging me to stop."
"Go to sleep." She says and I slap her ass
"Hey!" I laugh and she looks up and glares at me. I grab her chin and kiss her and she smiles and lays back on my shoulder then I rub her back gently as I fall asleep.
A/N: If you liked it, you liked it and if you didn't you didn't. It's one chapter after this and I'm done so... I was going to extend this but I don't see why I should, anyway, later.