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Chapter 20 Don't Kiss and Tell

Guilt over Mr. Weasley's deadly injury was constantly clawing at Kat. It was Christmas, and before they visited him, Kat had to talk to Sirius. He was the only adult she trusted right now.

"Sorry," Sirius muttered. Kat was outside the door. "I just hate that everyone can go but me."

"Don't be," Professor Lupin said softly. "We can't risk you using Polyjuice, Sirius. I just don't want to risk losing you."

Kat almost turned away. Poor Sirius. She would never want to be stuck alone at the Dursleys' during Christmas time while all her friends could do whatever they wanted. And at least she knew that the summers would come to an end. Sirius didn't know what he was going to be able to get out.

"I know." Sirius sighed sadly. "But I don't know what to do with myself anymore, Moony."

"Maybe I'll give you a present to hold you over," Remus said. Something about his tone was off. Maybe he felt awkward around Sirius after all that happened over the past two years. He did spend twelve years thinking Sirius was the traitor.

Kat thought nothing of opening the door. She thought they'd both feel better if she was there. Boy was she wrong…

Professor Lupin was kissing Sirius, and they were sinking into his bed when Kat gasped. She ran away before they could say anything.

Of course Professor Lupin sat next to her on the train ride to St. Mungo's. Kat's face turned red, and she sunk into her seat as Professor Lupin tried to initiate conversation without anyone around them catching on. With a few stutters, he gave up, and Kat turned to Fred and George, even though they smelled like dung bombs.

As the day went on, and Kat thought more and more about what she saw, she was actually rather mad. Sirius was the one person she trusted to tell her everything. Today, she found out that he was hiding a huge part of his life from her. She expected this from Professor Lupin, but not him.

So at dinner, she sat next to Ginny instead. The irony was not lost on her. Ginny had a crush on her since they met but had yet to tell her. Kat soured further.

"Who put coal in your stocking?" Ron asked with his mouth full.

"I have to go write a love letter to Malfoy," Kat lied. Sirius started choking as usual, but it wasn't funny this time. He didn't even follow her to talk about what she saw.

"Did you talk to her, Remus?" Sirius asked urgently that night.

"No," Remus admitted. "I didn't have any time alone with her. But you had the perfect opportunity during dinner!"

With those looks she was giving him? Sirius would rather have the same conversation with his mother. The disapproval and hatred would be expected, but since it was his mother and not his goddaughter, he wouldn't care. He had no idea what her… opinions were in such matters.

"She kept glaring at me at dinner." Sirius closed his eyes. At least he remembered to lock his door this time… "What if-what if she thinks it's wrong? You know, us."

"I highly doubt it." Please. Remus was the one who wanted to keep things about them hidden. At least, that's what Sirius told himself. They both grew up in the sixties! The Black family was conservative, to say the least. People didn't talk about those things back then. "She's probably mad that we didn't tell her."

"You know those Muggles were horrible." They had found out this summer. Since then, Kat never brought them up. "What if they raised her to think it was wrong?"

"Then she would most certainly think otherwise," Remus said dryly.

Sirius wasn't so sure. Kat refused to sit with him at Christmas dinner, and she always sat across from him. For all he knew, she hated him now and thought he was disgusting.

"I don't know…" Being in this house was too depressing. In his mind, his relationship with his goddaughter was already ruined.

Remus rolled his eyes and gently pushed him into his bed. For once, he wasn't in the mood. "Talk to her in the morning, Padfoot. Then, you'll feel like an idiot, and everything will go back to normal."

"Thanks…"

Kat couldn't sleep. No surprises there. Usually Hermione prattling on about all her new books put her out cold, but she was too busy stewing about Sirius. Why didn't he tell her?

"I saw Remus kissing Sirius," Kat announced while Hermione was talking about some boring goblin war. Ginny stopped pretending to be asleep. "On his bed."

"Ew!" Ginny yell whispered. Kat rolled her eyes and wondered if it wouldn't sound so fake if she didn't know about her friend's own secrets. "He's like your dad, and you saw him about to do it!"

Oh. Kat hadn't thought about that. Thanks Gin, she thought to herself. She shuddered at the thought of Sirius doing anything sexual. "Urgh! Thanks for the mental image! I'll cherish it forever!"

"Is that why you've been pouting all day?" Hermione asked knowingly.

"I don't pout," Kat grumbled before pouting and hitting Hermione with a pillow. "He should have told me! He's the one who's supposed to be on our side! He always complains about us having important things hidden from us!"

Ever the tough, no nonsense mother of the group, Hermione put her hands on her hips and went into full on lecture mode. "Since when is his sex life comparable to Voldemort?"

Kat almost gagged at the mention of Sirius's sex life. Stupid Ginny. "Since-since… Shut up, Hermione!"

Hermione rolled her eyes. "You don't have much time with him, Kat. We'll be leaving for school soon. Don't waste it over a misunderstanding! What if he thinks you're prejudice?"

"I am not!" Kat said hotly, trying not to look at Ginny. "I tell any guy that looks at your arse that we're together."

"What?" Hermione yelled. "Why?!"

"Because…" Because it was funny, and Fred dared her to. Somehow, Kat knew Hermione wouldn't like that answer. "Because I don't like boys objectifying you."

Hermione didn't believe her for one second. "Tell Sirius or I'm telling him about you kissing two different boys during the Yule Ball."

"I didn't want to kiss either of them!" But Kat knew that Hermione wouldn't tell Sirius that little detail, which would lead to her having to talk to him either way. Her friends were such bitches.

The next morning, Kat had the decency to knock this time. "Padfoot?" She almost ran when she heard Professor Lupin swear. Great. "Uh… Is this a bad time?"

"No!" Sirius yelled. There was a thud that sounded suspiciously like him falling out of bed. "Let me…" He lowered his voice and yell whispered, which defeated the purpose because Kat could hear him. "Go in the closet, Remus!"

"I'll come back… later." Or never. What were they? Rabbits? Gay rabbits?

"Hey, Kitty Kat!" Sirius found Kat hiding from Mrs. Weasley, who was complaining that she was too skinny for her Weasley jumper this year. "I, er, thought I'd find you here."

She was hiding in a bathroom that had yet to be deemed useable and was pouting in the bathtub while leafing through a comic book. Sirius wondered what color the water would come out if she actually tried to take a bath. Her fuzzy slippers were resting on the rusty fountain.

Kat frowned. "I was afraid that Remus was going to be naked."

Sirius blushed to the roots of his hair at the memory of this morning. He couldn't deny her words either. "Well… Listen, Kat, I know you might not… agree, but…"

Kat tossed her comic book into a probably poisonous puddle. "Why didn't you tell me?" There was a hint of whining in her voice. "I tell you about all my relationships."

"You mean the fake ones you use to torture me?" Sirius asked lightly.

"Yes."

Sirius forced himself to laugh and crouched beside her. "I don't know, Kitty Kat. It's not something Remus and I like to display."

Kat scowled and spun around, resting her chin on the edge of the bathtub to look at her poor comic book. "I'm not asking for a show."

Sirius grimaced at the thought, remembering a time when Lily was drunk and called them "cute puppies." "I was afraid that you would, you know, hate me."

Kat finally turned around to face him, and he was relieved to see that he was only met with confusion. "Why? It's not like I want to snog Remus."

"Because…" Sirius smiled when she looked at him blankly. She had to have some inkling but was refusing to acknowledge it. "Say Kat, did you know Remus was a man? And so am I?"

Kat groaned dramatically at his joke. "Well now I'm offended that you were offended that you thought I was offend—"

"Kat!"

She narrowed his eyes as he waited for an explanation. Of course Remus had to be right. "I thought you were the only one who's completely honest with me. And you hid something this big from me! I tell you about all the boys that I have in my room."

"All the factious boys," Sirius said dryly. He wondered if she had ever even fancied a boy. He couldn't picture it. Even she seemed to think the thought of her having a boyfriend was ridiculous. "I love you like you're my own kid, Kitty Kat. I guess I was just afraid of you hating me."

"I couldn't hate you, Sirius," Kat mumbled. "… Well, maybe I would a little, if I caught you snogging with like, Buckbeak or something, instead of Remus. Or Kreacher."

"I'd hate myself if I kissed Kreacher." No amount of alcohol could make him want to go anywhere near that sorry sack of dung. "So… we're fine?"

Kat finally stood up and climbed out of the tub. She held out her hand, which was covered with dust from her time in it. "I guess. Even though I'm sure Remus made you talk to me."

And I'm sure Hermione made you talk to me. Sirius grinned and took her hand, grunting like he was a stiff old man as he pulled her up. He wanted to smile and hug her, have one of those rare moments with her, but he couldn't, not without one final admission. "I've never told anyone."

Kat tilted her head to the side. It even sounded stupid for him to say. He was thirty six years old for Merlin's sake. "Not even Dad?"

Sirius shook his head. "He figured it out. Only he, your mum, and Wormtail really know… knew. I don't like to talk about it. I always said it was Remus who didn't, even to myself, but…"

Kat gave him that look of pity that Lily had after James explained things to him. He didn't want her pity. He wanted… He didn't know what he wanted. He shouldn't have said anything. "If someone doesn't want to be your friend because of it, they don't deserve you in the first place, Sirius. And anyone who doesn't like it answers to me."

Sirius laughed breathlessly and ruffled her hair. "Thanks, kiddo."

"No I mean it! I've been itching to beat someone up!"

Sirius raised his eyebrows. "Sorry, Kat. But your services aren't needed at this time."

"If you say so." Before he could say anything else, Kat pulled him into a tight hug that made breathing difficult. "Don't worry, Padfoot. I'll dump all twenty seven of my boyfriends if they don't like that I have two dads."

"Thanks…" Sirius patted her back. She still wouldn't let go. "Kat?"

"One more minute. I thought I lost you to the other secret keeping adults. I thought you were becoming Mrs. Weasley."

Sirius wanted to sigh, but the hug was too tight. "Unlike you, I don't kiss and tell. Or make up kisses to tell."

Kat finally pulled away and grinned. "I never told you about my first kiss."

Huh? She merely laughed and started to walk away. Surely she was lying to freak him out like she always did. Kat hadn't had her first kiss yet. She was too young. Right?

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