a/n So inside Edwards head may sound a bit different then he normally acts but for this story he wears the mask of a Victorian guy but under that mask he's a sociopathic monster so bear with the cussing that is not his typical behavior.

Edwards POV

How dare that bitch up and get herself killed. I worked so hard to mould her to what I needed and what does she do, she gets herself knocked off the first time I have left her in nearly 50 years. She never could do anything right so I would I suppose she couldn't manage to live without me.

If I find out that Alice told my daughter about Bella and me then I am going to destroy her. I will start by killing her pathetic child mate than killing her after she lives with the fact that her inability to keep her mouth shut got her mate killed.

Renesmee has been such a disappointment. I know I should be happy just to have a daughter, I know that is something that Rosalie and Esme would give their lives for but I can't be totally happy. I love her, in fact I love her more than I love anyone else but I wish she was different. Maybe it's Jacobs influence I don't like. I hoped for a demure daughter who would act like a proper young lady. Instead I get her. She is overly opinionated, runs around like a feral beast, has sex out of wed lock on a regular basis, and has no problem talking back to me. She even has a tattoo for Christ's sake. A few years ago she came home as proud has a peacock and showed her mother and me her arm. She got the pack tattoo. Jacob came in with her smiling like an idiot so excited that she wanted to be part of his pack. I wanted to rip of her arm and peal the tattoo off her but Bella helped calm me down. She let me fuck her every which way until I got all my rage out. That was one thing Bella was always good for, a good fuck.

Our daughter is so unlike us is so many ways. I protected Bella's chastity and made her wait until we were married. I had hoped some of my good manners and upbringing would have worn off on her but it didn't. She inherited some of that slut that was in her mom. Bella was always trying to get me to have sex with her before we were married. She would practically dry hump me like some bitch in heat. Once Renesmee got to an age that she thought she was old enough she became sexually active with that mutt. They tried not to think about it in front of me but the night after their first time if I couldn't see the images flashing from their minds I could smell it on them. I could smell their shame. She reeked of him and she has ever since. I don't know how she stands it. I still can't breathe around him but she seems to love it.

Jake even lets her drink from him. I thought I had raised her better than that. We only drink from animals, which I guess he is partially an animal but she allows her blood lust to get the better of her and she drinks from him. I have read it in him, he actually kind of likes it. Makes him feel like he can take care of her or something. It disgusts me.

I am slightly envious of them though. She has her mate and he has his imprint. What have I been left with that past 50 years? I have been left with my singer who is the imperfect mate. I tried so hard to train her and to make her what I needed but she was just so flawed. Maybe if when I meet my true mate if I hadn't been drinking human blood I would have been able to change her. Instead I rushed it and the moment her blood flooded my mouth I couldn't stop. When I finished I was just holding a corpse. No one in the family knows it but I was married to her. I took her to a priest and we got married that night. She didn't know what I was but I didn't want to turn her until we were married. So I married her and what should have been our wedding night I tried and she died. She was everything Bella wasn't. She was subservient, she understood her place, she understood when to speak and when to be quiet, and she knew how to take care of a man. I wouldn't have had to train her at all. She just would have been.

Bella had been getting better though. The less I let her drink the more feminine she became. She got some of her humanity back. She was more dainty and depended on me more. I liked what she was becoming. If I could have kept at it a few more years she may have finally become the perfect wife for me. I guess I will never find out. The bitch up and got herself killed. She should never have been driving alone. She knows better. If she and Renesmee wanted to go shopping she should have waited until I got home and have me drive them. She knew better than to go out without a male escort. I only allow her to the grocery store without me. It's not proper for a wife to be out in the world without her husband to protect her.

There's a knock on the door and I whip around and ripe the door open. Alice is standing there a bit afraid. "What do you want?" I snarl at her.

"I need you to sign these papers. I need to move some of Bella's things over to Renesmee." I grab her arm and pull her into the room. "What things?" I ask her. I never allowed Bella to have her own money. It wasn't appropriate she should get everything she needed from her husband.

Alice looks around the room for a way out in case I over react I hear her thinking. "Esme and Carlisle had some property in her name and some expensive jewelry pieces. I just want to make sure everything gets moved over to her." I rip the papers out of her hands and sign them where the post it says to and throw it back without looking at it.

"How could you let this happen Alice?" I growl at her.

Alice does something unexpected she looks me in the eyes. "You did this!" She yells at me. I bring my hand back to slap her but she grabs it before I can make contact. "I am not Bella! You do not get to hit me." She snarls at me. I take a step back. "How is this my fault?"

"You left her a blood thirsty mess. I couldn't see her future clearly because of how you left her. She was like werewolf, a slave to her emotions." She sends me image after image of her putting Bella back together after that last night.

"STOP IT!" I scream at her. She doesn't stop and keeps sending images of Bella's body to me. "Since you left her like that I couldn't see her future anymore you left a black hole where Bella's future should have been. If you hadn't been starving her for the past 37 years or so she would have healed faster."

I don't want to hear anymore I try to push her back but she keeps sending me images of Bella healing. Then one image stands out. It's Bella curled up in a blanket in bed. Only it's not our bed and that isn't one of our blankets. "Where was she healing?" I yell.

Alice takes a step back. "In Jasper's room sometimes. She was scared of you and the smell of you made her cower in fear. I couldn't put her back together in here. I had to move her."

I want to lash out at her but I know if I do she will not keep quiet about it like Bella has all these years. "Was he fucking my wife?"

"NO!" Alice screams out at me. "He never touched her. She just needed somewhere safe to heal and the scent of you made it impossible. Every time we came in this room the memoires of that night washed over her and she couldn't take it."

"What happened that day?" I have to know who killed her.

"I didn't see their faces clearly. Since you left a black hole in my visions I only got clips of it. When Renesmee left the car Bella waited. She must have smelled the vampires and got out of the car to investigate. When they saw her they started talking then they found out she was your wife. They did unspeakable things to her and then killed her." Alice sends me flashes of a rape and Bella being torn to pieces. I snarl at the images but Alice keeps sending them to me. "She was too weak to even use her shield to protect herself. You did this Edward."

I don't want to hear anymore. I push passed Alice and look out our window. I see Renesmee, Jacob, and the rest of their pack leaving. "Where are they going?" I ask Alice.

"Back to Forks. Renesmee wants to go home. She told Jacob yes, they are going to get married." Alice stops for a moment and I see the images of a small private wedding with just the pack. "Because of you she doesn't invite us. She doesn't want to betray her mom's last wishes of telling them what you did to her."

I turn around and look at her. "If I ever find out that you had something to do with this I will kill your mate Alice. I will rip turn him then rip him to shreds and send you charred pieces of his dismembered body for decades until I finally kill him and put him out of his misery. And once you have gone fully insane from the loss of him I will kill you too."

Alice starts to step back. I can hear she is scared. Her mind keeps jumping to Jasper. "Jasper isn't here to protect you anymore Alice."

"He will come if I need him." She says trying to sound confident but I can hear it in her mind that she's not so sure about at anymore.

"I leave tomorrow. I am going to start following the trail of the vampires that killed my wife. I will check in when necessary. Don't forget Alice if you tell any of our family what I will do your mate." She shakes her head and with a flash she is out of my room.

Stupid Bella, you couldn't do anything right. Why did you have to get yourself killed after how hard I worked on making you perfect? Once I find her killers and hand them over to my daughter I guess I can try and find another woman to fill my mate's shoes. I can mould her like I tried too with Bella only she will be better than Bella ever was.