JT suddenly is gripping my shirt. "Help me first. I don't want to be here." I push him off of me. "What are you talking about?" JT doesn't break eye contact. "Look, I'm dead."

Instead of dreaming of Maya for once, I dream of JT.

Not like that, I'm still into Maya. Definitely into Maya… But after everything, I remembered that I need to cross others over. It's especially important with Eli urging me to get rid of Maya. I can't believe I forgot about JT though, he was so desperate and wild looking. He begged to be saved, and to move on to somewhere new.

My dream was about his life, at least I think it was. He was at some party, comparing two girls to food or something like that. Once he decided he liked oatmeal better, he decided to tell the girl. On the way, he was stabbed, it was pretty upsetting to see it all happen. Oatmeal found him like that. I'm pretty sure the other one went on to be an actress, I guess she forgot about him too which comforts me because he was probably forgettable in general.

It was just a random act of violence.

There wasn't much motive behind it, just a drunk punk from a rival school. What an idiot, he would really kill some prankster to be locked away his whole life. Who throws away their life over something so stupid?

I am starting to wonder how Maya died. She is such a pretty and talented girl, what could have taken her last breath away?

I don't even notice Eli standing right in my face because I'm in such deep thought. He has a suspicious look, more suspicious than usual. "Hello Cam… What are you thinking about?"
I shrug

"Death, for a short answer." Eli steps back a little bit "Who's death?" he asks. I don't want to remind him of Maya so I tell him the dream I had of JT.

"Hmmm. You saw him die, Cam?"

I am not quite sure if that's what it was, but I have a feeling it is so I take a chance and nod.

"It makes things more real, doesn't it?"

I nod again. "I've been so selfish recently -"

Stop being so selfish

"I forgot about JT… After he begged me to help him. What kind of asshole does that?" I don't expect Eli to console me or anything, I don't want him to either. Eli looks like he's about to say something, but I open my mouth again.

"You know, you're right. I'm keeping Maya here when she could be free. I'm just trying to be some creepy romantic hero by keeping her here." Eli starts to get a weird expression on his face.
"I should be with a girl who is alive, Maya probably has someone waiting for her, wherever people go. But what am I doing?! I'm spending my time dreaming."

Eli relaxes his stance a bit, but he doesn't talk.

"I need to find JT. Then I need to find Maya, is there anyone else?"

Eli finally answers "You will be done after Maya." I'm confused. "What about the others?" I ask. "There is someone else to help them." Eli replies.

Someone else.

"Who? Someone is alive?" Eli frowns, but doesn't answer. "Not everyone is dead, yes at Degrassi they are. Every student."

I nod again.

I'm a student.

So I'm dead.

I remember it now, I was with the Manitoba Wolves for three months at the time. I had never felt that much stress in my life, my friends were dead. All of them. My new team was filled with airheaded assholes, I was obviously the best on the team but I was treated like I was some inexperienced kid.

I was blamed for the Ice Hounds dying. Nobody said it to my face, but I've heard whispers. People looked at me differently once everyone figured out I wasn't sick that night.

I was so alone.

How was I that stupid?

I had so much going for me.

I wasn't guilty of killing my friends, if I were with them it wouldn't have made a difference. I would just be another body in the wreck.

Suddenly, a light appears.

Eli rushes towards the light. "No, no, no! Are you serious? It took him THAT long? Please, let him take the other two with him, they can go together. JT will be the cutest third wheel ever." Eli looks back at me "You don't have much time, find JT."

How will I find him? What about Maya?

"We're here."

JT and Maya walk towards Eli. Eli nods towards me, I look down because I don't want them to see that I'm crying.

"I was alone too." Maya says. I don't know what to say, it was a mistake for me.

"My sister, she was abusing pills. They made her so angry. One day I finally had enough at told my mom, she attacked us. I don't understand how she had so much strength. She was a soccer player, but she was injured. She hit me in the head too many times. I died of traumatic brain injury. My mom, was paralyzed."

I nod and grab her hand.

Eli chimes in,"You guys have to go."

Maya quickly hugs Eli. "Thank you, Elijah. I hope you get back your wings."

Wings. So Eli's an angel, what a cliché.

I nod towards him and then turn to JT. "Well, what are we waiting for? My team's up there. And Eli needs his wings." I say mockingly.

That was the last thing anyone said.

We walked towards the light, which was welcoming rather than blinding like I thought it would be.

For once, I felt peace.

A/N: I finally finished a fanfiction! Sorry it was so rushed, I have been so busy that I thought I'd never get to finish. I hope you all enjoyed it, and if not please let me know what I should work on as a writer. Thank you for reading.