More meat coming your way! I'm going to be unfolding Antar alot in the coming chapters...they hopefully will be coming out sooner than later. I should have a new chapter up by tomorrow night as well. Please don't forget to tell me what you think! -smile-
-ANW
Chapter 20
Isabel knew exactly where she was going, she could just feel it. She was pretty sure her façade had fooled everyone into thinking there was nothing she was hiding, and would not be following her. She wanted to be careful though. She looked through the window on the door to the quad, and scanned the area cautiously. Not seeing anyone around, she slipped through the door and headed out. Picking up her pace, she rounded the corner to the building and headed off of school property-on a course straight to Roswell Central Park.
When she woke up, in Max's arms and surrounded in black goo, it was like waking up out of a dream and into another. She remembered feeling very disoriented and Max helping her to focus and get them out of the dream that she had apparently created. When she woke up on the floor of the eraser room, she could remember parts of the dream she had before Max found her. More specifically she could remember someone. Someone from her past that she didn't ever dream about till then. Someone she had loved very deeply…someone who wanted her to rule in her brother's place. Someone she could feel at that very moment. Most of the dream was hazy except for her time spent with this person from her past. Someone she felt deeply connected to…her friend…her lover…Kivar…
She could remember the time she was going to break it off with him. Early in the morning she had slipped into a rich green dress, edged with silver threading; the threading looping around her arms in a large criss-crossing pattern. She stepped barefoot into a pair of silver slippers, with very quiet bottoms. Making her way out of the palace with stealth, she headed for Carene Pond. Antar's two suns had not yet risen, but were just beginning to tinge the dark lavender sky with pink. As she stepped between two Poppus Trees, the golden waters came into view. It was still so early in the morning that the water reflected the dark lavender sky, and made a very tranquil scene. Suddenly there he was, Sitting on a rock near the waters edge. He looked over at her, and her breath caught in her throat.
"Megaris…thank you for meeting me here" he said as he stood to meet her.
She walked over to him and he took her hand in his, bringing it to his lips for a soft kiss. He was dressed in his black military suit with his blue bands of achievement weaving down his arms. Tall and intriguing, he was a sight. She was in awe every time she saw his him, not to mention his captivating green eyes…
"Kivar, I don't know if I can do this…anymore…" she trailed off at the end.
"He doesn't love you, you know…" he said softly into her ear as he pulled her close. She melted with every word, losing her grip on reality.
"He can never love you the way you deserve to be loved" he continued speaking words dripping with honey.
"I suppose you are going to tell me you will?" she replied lightly trying to maintain her poise.
"You know I will Meg…have I ever lied to you?" he said pulling away from her slightly so he could look into her eyes.
"Even when we were children…did I ever?"
Megaris looked to the side and could remember many times Manais or Jaiseti had taken off together, leaving her alone with a lie. Kivar was always around to be there in the gap. She really wanted to let go and be with him…his scent was driving her crazy right now…but what about Jaiseti? He was good to her, they didn't share a deep love, but she loved him. Her father adored him. What was she going to do?
"Meg?" Kivar shook her a little, to jiggle her out of her thoughts, and looked at her imploringly. "Have I?"
"No…you never have." She replied looking back into his eyes.
"Trust me Meg…I love you, and I always have. I will make you a queen, and my wife someday!"
She could feel her resolve crumbling. Every second spent with Kivar, was like a breath of fresh air to her soul. She really did think that Kivar could be a better leader than her brother. Her and her brother had never agreed on politics, but she and Kivar seemed to think alike on everything. They had since childhood. Her mind was plagued by only one fear…"Kivar I love my brother…I don't want you to ever hurt him...or Jaiseti" she said the last name softly.
"My princess, I would never do anything to make you unhappy." He said while slipping a hand around her waist and pulling her close again.
"I want you forever…to forever be mine." And he kissed her mouth with the ferocity of a thousand fires, each one burning into her soul.
"Meld with me Megaris…I know you want to…"he whispered into her mouth. "You could still marry Jaiseti for the time being…no one has to ever know…Manais doesn't even love his own betrothed…"
"What if Jaiseti wants to meld with me?" Megaris asked just short of whimpering.
"He won't…I promise you that…." He replied kissing her down the side of her neck.
She knew she was promised to Jaiseti, but she didn't love him like that! If she melded with Kivar she would never have a chance to really love Jaiseti-Melding saved true love for your partner only. She decided she didn't care. She loved Kivar and this is what she wanted…she wanted to feel like this the rest of her life.
"I love you Kivar…I'll do it. I'll meld with you…" she replied in between feverish kisses and encompassed within his strong embrace. She felt more alive at that moment than any other moment before…
As soon as that moment passed though, a mirror image of herself appeared in front of her. She could still see her and Kivar in a heated embrace to the side, but there was another image of her sitting on a rock and crying in front of her. "It was a lie…he told me he'd never lie!" she was crying to herself. "He told me pure blood needed to remain on the throne…lies! Why!" she screamed at the top of her lungs.
"It won't happen again…it won't! I won't let it!" She continued to scream and jumped up from where she was sitting. Isabel saw this mirror image of herself come straight towards her and before she could blink, her world went black. The next thing she knew she was in Max's arms and didn't know where she was, except for being neck high in black oily liquid…
As she approached the park this memory was replaying in her head. Suddenly shecould feel a presence there…As she got closer she felt a fluttery feeling in her stomachand she felt eyes on the back of her head. It was a very familiar feeling.
She stopped walking as she felt someone walk up behind her. She whipped around to face him and knew who she'd find.
"Megaris…It's been a long time? No?" Kevin said as he smiled a seductive smile and stroked a strand of Isabel's hair.
"I knew it was you Kivar. My name is Isabel, by the way" she replied, taking a step back to distance herself from him.
"Ok, I'll call you Isabel if you prefer…for right now at least. You will always be my Megaris though…" he replied while making a half circle around her, and looking her up and down.
"You always were beautiful, I think you might even be more beautiful now…" he continued with a gleam in his eye.
Isabel struggled with the feelings inside of her. She knew from her dream that she had been in love with him, but that she was supposed to marry Michael. Her feelings were all mixed up now, since she didn't have to marry Michael in this lifetime, and she was so instantly drawn to Kevin. The fact that at the end of the dream she had seen herself sobbing and saying he had lied to her was also disconcerting…but she could have been talking about someone else…couldn't she? Alex's face also flashed through her mind, but she pushed out all conflicting thoughts and attempted to focus on who was in front of her. Kivar…
"Kivar…" she began, but was cut off.
"Call me Kevin…might as well use the name I have picked up here on Earth"
"Ok. Kevin, what do you want with me?"
He extended his hand to her and said "Come on Isabel, sit with me. We'll talk and I'll tell you everything…"
She could feel the familiar honey dipped tone he was using on her and it made her knees weak. She figured she might as well sit down, since standing might not be the best idea at the moment. She walked over beside him, around his hand and sat down on the bench.
He seemed undeterred and sat down beside her.
"Isabel I have been looking for you a long time…you are my one true love, and I am yours.Do you remember the day we melded?"
"I…I don't remember that…I…I remember other times though." She stammered.
"Isabel, it's ok…it's ok." He said soothingly as he stroked her hair. "I will help you remember.." He stroked her face and she felt her eyelids drooping. She stiffened as she felt herself losing control, and Kevin whispered in her ear.
"Relax Isabel, I'm just taking you to one of your own memories…you will thank me when you wake up my love…" She wanted to resist him, but she just couldn't…her whole body quaked with each word out of his mouth.
She began to relax and he intertwined his fingers with hers, as she slipped into a memory.
"Are you ready my love?" Kivar asked Megaris as they stood with their hands intertwined.
Isabel was standing along the sidelines watching her and Kivar stand beside a pond. She recognized the pond as the Carene Pond. The one she was at the time she was going to break it off with him. Ironic that they chose to meld there.
"I'm ready to be yours Kivar…I want to be yours forever…" she replied.
Megaris was dressed in a lavender dress this time, still with silver ribbons that wove around her arms and under her chest, giving her an empire waist, and Kivar a full view of the curves of her endowments. Her dress swayed lightly in the breeze and her hair did as well, being completely down and falling in soft waves down her back. Lavander flowers, that looked like tiny roses, were woven in a crown around her brow. Kivar was dressed in his black military regalia, his blue stripes woven around his sleeves, but he had cut his hair for this occasion, a custom of Brevanian males on their wedding day. Though he was not marrying Isabel…this was more. It was a melding of souls…
"Then repeat after me:
Megaris,
As long as the sun will rise, as long as the stars will shine,
you will be in my eyes you will always be mine.
As long as my soul's alive As long as you see the sign, I'll see you every time You will always be mine."
Megaris could feel tears prick the corners of her eyes as she heard his words and replied the same.
"Kivar,
As long as the sun will rise, as long as the stars will shine,
you will be in my eyes you will always be mine.
As long as my soul's alive As long as you see the sign, I'll see you every time You will always be mine."
A white light emanated from their joined hands and circled around them both as they kissed the melding kiss and were joined in hand and in soul.
Isabel opened her eyes and found that her head was resting on Kevin's shoulder.
"I remember…" she said as she slowly straightened up and looked in to his eyes. "I remember loving you…" she whispered. She stared down at the small birth mark on her left palm just below her pinky. The one shaped like an oval layingdown.Kevin brought his own hand up where she could see the matching mole on his hand, and then he joined the two marks together. A single tear slid down her face ashe took her face in his hands and kissed her.
As soon her last class was over, Tess practically ran out school. She was anxious about tonight's meeting and she was starving after not eating very much lunch. She ran into Kyle on the way to the parking lot, and practically dragged him into his car. They headed straight for the crashdown and were almost there when a boy stepped in front of Kyle's Mustang. He looked around their age and his green eyes stood out, even from the distance they were away from him. Kyle slammed on his brakes, making the tire squeal, and Tess had awful flashbacks of the last time she heard that sound. When they came to a stop, the boy was gone…he seemed to have disappeared in to thin air. Tess sat back in her chair and took a deep breath trying to calm her breathing. She slapped Kyle's hand away from her, assuring him she was fine and to keep going. Softly she heard a voice enter her mind.
"Sihra…you are not supposed to be alive Sihra…you are not pure blood!"