Chapter 20

Whether Samantha liked it or not, she now knew what was going to kill her. four months kept running in and threw her head at top speed. Not stopping, and not caring to give her a break. And one thing was sure it wasn't the drugs. When you find out that you are going to die. When they tell you in less than ten seconds, you get alittle concerned on how it will effect you in the future. Or well lack of it. That sorta thing gets your blood pumping, and oddly enough trying to pass out. But these dang people keep crying so its kinda hard to get a hold of yourself. Go figure huh?

Jake looked around the room, debating if he should leave now. Give the family some privicey. But he didn't want to leave he wanted to stay with Sam. But he knew better. He went over and hugged Sam and whispered that he would be back later.

Sam didn't want him to leave. She wanted him to protect her. She looked at her Gram who was sitting down in the chair with her head down. Bryanna, who had tears running down her face, and then her Dad. He stood in the corner not having any emotion on his face at all. Just staring into space. Sam thought of her mom. She wanted her to be there. She wanted to be here with her. She loved Bryanna, but it wasnt the same as having her own mother.

The doctor had came in about an hour ago to tell her, her options. One was to go away for the month of Feburary for treatments that are "basicly going to try to kill you before they try to make you better" Try. Thats what the doctors had told her. He also said that it was uncurable. No matter what they did. They could try to control it but even those chances were slim. Usually if there was cancer on the bone they would try to amputate or remove the bone. Like a arm or a leg. But this was her spine.

"I do not want treatments. I want to be home." Sam said, shocking everyone. "If they aren't going to help anyways, then why shouldn't I be home where I can be with you."

"Are you sure Samantha? Its a big choice." Dr. Morton had said.

"I know. And I am ready to make it. If I am going away for a month how and I going to see people?"

"We could come see you." Wyatt said.

"Well, thats not totally true. If she went away then she would have to be in a totally clean place. Even a little cold, that hasn't even been detected could easily kill her. Even a cell phone could give her that much germs. We wouldn't take any risks."

"See? I'm not going threw that! Is there anything I can take at home?" Sam asked.

"Well we would put you on a certain kind of steroid. And alot of pain medication." He told her.

Sam nodded and agreed. If she had four weeks to live either way. She was going to spend it at home. Thats where she belonged. Her family didn't really know what to say. What could they say?

As Sam looked at them now, she wanted to think of so much. But what was the point. She had stopped crying, and now was just in shock. Sure she was scared, but she could get through this. No matter what the result was at the very end. Though apparently she already knew. But this was her choice. She was going to stick with it, and be strong because it as time to cowgirl up. Because this is her life.

About an hour later, they all left. Well they didn't want to but the doctors said that Sam needed her rest. Sam did rest and fell asleep with in minutes. She was just drained. She woke up in the middle of the night to hear someone trip over something.

"Whos there?" She asked.

"Its me." Jake whispered in pain.

"What happened? What are you doing here?" She whispered back.

"I tripped over some magazines."

"I thought you could, like see in the dark." Sam asked.

"I wasn't paying attention to the floor." He wasn't going to tell her that he was staring at her.

"Oh, How did you get passed the nurses?"

"I sneaked." He said as he sat on the edge of her bed.

Sam moved over and Jake laid beside her. He put his arm around her and kissed her head. "You ok?"

"I'm good." She said as she drifted back to sleep in Jakes arms. The only place she felt safe right now.

Sorry this took so long to put up.. :( i just want to say something about this story. This isn't all lovey dovey if you hadn't realized. This is reality. So read if you like. I would like it if you did. and tell me what you think. R&R.