Renesmees P.O.V.
I gathered up all the strength I had to say goodbye to him. Just a few days. Nothing could make the separation any easier, nothing.I walked towards the door with my arms folded across my stomach, I felt like I was falling apart. We faced one another with painful expressions. He reached for me and I willingly drifted towards him.
"Come back to me" I sad against his chest
"I will, it won't be too bad, you'll see" He said. Stopbeing so optimistic. It's getting on my nerves. I held on to him for dear life. He kissed my lips lightly.
"No, Jacob kiss me like you'll never see me again" I said
He crushed his lips to mine and were moving in sync. I stretched up on my toes so that I could kiss him more firmly. Jacob snatched his face away from mine.
"Thanks" he whispered
"For what?"
"For making it ten times harder for me to leave you" I could feel the addiction sucking at me, trying to keep me near him. Every second longer I spent with him was only going to add to the pain I would have to suffer later. I would have to wait patiently for him to return, patience isn't my specialty.
"Just hurry back or I'll come get you myself" I laughed
"Edward would never let you" He said
"There are no rules that can bind you when you find your other half" I said. I kissed him one last time and he was gone. Bring on the nightmares.
I felt cold hands around my shoulders, looking up they didn't belong to who I expected them to.
"How about I beat you at Wii?" Emmett said, rubbing my arms
"You can try" I laughed
I beat Emmett thirty-four times and he still didn't want to give it a rest. I had never seen someone so persistent. I didn't know what it was but Emmett could never beat me at anything.
"Come on Ness, one more time" He begged
"Emm, I'm tired of beating you" I bragged. I was tired of beating him, why does he challenge me all the time when he knows he's going to lose?
"Better luck next time kid" I said tossing him the controller. I went to the kitchen to ransack the refrigerator. I wasn't hungry, just bored.
"Hungry sweetie?" Esme asked
"No, I'm just attempting to occupy my time" I sighed. I shut the refrigerator realizing I was wasting time rather than occupying it. It sucks that I really have no other friends besides Jacob. I'm pathetic.
"I beg to differ" Edward chimed in
"Don't you think your opinion is a little biased?" I asked
"Even if you weren't my daughter my opinions of you would be the same"
"Sure sure" GOD I even talk like Jacob
"That I agree with" he said, grinning
"Get outta there" I said pointing to my head. I walked up to my room thinking about everything that has happened in the past month. Me reaching full maturity, me and Jake, running away from home, the Volturi, me and Jake, and becoming closer with Jake. I have a pretty hectic life, but I wouldn't change a second of it. I jumped on my bed, sighing with relief when my head hit the pillow. I wish I could do like Juliet did and take a sleeping potion, that way time would cease to exist and Jacob would be in my arms again. Juliet seemed to have the right idea, all though she and Romeo both died in the end.
"You know, I don't have much patience for either of them" Edward said, almost giving me a heart attack
"I don't think that's even possible" He smiled
"I used to envy Juliet" I disclosed
"You are far more beautiful than she is" He said
"Not for her beauty but because of how certain she was"
"To be that certain you love someone and at any moment you'd be willing to take your own life for them, it's terribly wonderful" I said, smiling to myself
"Now I know how she feels" I said, clutching my Quileute promise bracelet
"You have no idea how sure of yourself you truly are" He said, prideful
I sat up so that I could lean my head on his stone shoulder.
"Tell me how you met mom"
"You've heard this story a thousand times" he accused
"Nine hundred -ninety-nine times, to be exact"
I listened to Edwards velvety voice as he went over each detail of how he met mom. It's amazing that he fell in love with a human, that he had the strength to possible hurt her and yet he wasn't strong enough to stay away from her. The fact that even after becoming a vampire Edward still couldn't read moms mind amazed me even more. My favorite part of the story -'So the lion fell in love with the lamb'. Then mom goes 'what a dumb lamb' and dad says 'what a sick and masochistic lion'. Edward was like moms superhero and she was his kryptonite; his one weakness. Out of all the love stories throughout history, I favored this one. The only part I didn't like about these stories is Edward leaving mom, Edward trying to off himself, mom almost dying to give birth to me, and Edward believing he didn't have a soul. I know I've heard this story many times but questions still lingered in my head.
"Dad, why don't you believe you have a soul?" I believed he did
"It's complicated Ness" I could tell he didn't want to have this discussion, too bad
"I'm a smart girl, I'm sure I can keep up"
He chuckled "You're just like your mother, she never lets anything go"
"I think that once I became what I am today, I lost my soul. There is no heaven for our kind" He said spitefully
"Do you think there is a heaven for me?" I was beginning to lose hope
"How could there not be?" He asked rhetorically while rubbing my cheek with the back of his hand
"If there is one for me, there's one for you" I pointed out "You've lived your immortal life to the best of your abilities. You have gotta get some credit for all the good you've done"
"I just don't believe, I guess that's enough to damn me"
"Well a man is not measured by what his religious beliefs are but rather by the purity of his heart" I said
"Just because it doesn't beat, doesn't mean you don't have a good heart" I added
"You're a good kid" He said rubbing my head
"You're a pretty great dad" I said, kissing his cheek
"I guess I'll go beat your uncle at video games now, unless you want me to stay" He said, getting up
"No go ahead" I laughed. Emmett wasn't going to be satisfied until he beat someone at something
"I think you bruised his ego" Edward said as he left my room
"Good, it was getting to big"
It had been five hours, thirty- two minutes, and forty-four seconds since Jacob left. That's too long in my book. I rested my eyes momentarily; I wanted to sleep, to miss everything. Jacob was like my dream catcher; He brought on all the good dreams and kept the bad ones away. In his absence there would be an awful lot of bad dreams. I didn't mind them so much if he were in them. With him gone that'll be the only way I see him.
"See you in my nightmares" I said to myself. I was growing more tired with each breathe that I took. I pulled up the comforter and crawled under it. The sooner I went to sleep the sooner I could wake up and escape the nightmare.