She awoke with a start, knowing automatically that he wasn't there. She sat up, taking in great gulps of air, trying to slow her rapid heartbeat, which felt like it was coming out of her chest.

"You okay?" asked Scarlett's voice in the dark room.

"Yes. No." Her voice broke as the nightmare came back to her.

Scarlett seemed to know right away what was going on. "You don't have to tell me about it if you don't want to," she began, her voice soft so she wouldn't wake Hawk.

"They didn't do it….although one tried…." she confessed. "I guess it's just that vulnerability, you know? The fact that they can hold that over us."

"I know what you're feeling," Scarlett confessed. "There was one mission where I felt it could've happened…it didn't…but it made me all the more aware….I don't think the guys get it, though. They have no idea…." her voice trailed off, not wanting to continue.

"And they tell us in training to disengage," Lady Jaye snorted. "Seriously? Maybe they should have someone do the training who's actually been through it. I don't know of one person who actually has been able to….disengage….and not think about it afterwards, in any circumstance."

Scarlett nodded in agreement. "Unless you've been there, whether it's happened or not, even if you're just threatened with it….unless you've been there, you just don't know what it's like…"

"Are you going to tell Flint?" she asked after a long pause.

"I don't know. I'm sure he guesses that it could have happened, but he hasn't asked." She was thoughtful for a moment. "I don't think I would say anything unless he asked."

Scarlett nodded again, understanding. "I feel that way, although Snake Eyes has that ninja intuition thing going for him. He knew without me telling him, about the other time. I've never seen him so angry," she said, remembering. She had to physically hold him down, assuring him nothing had actually happened, that she had just been threatened with the act. Of course, like Lady Jaye, she had gotten out in time, so who's to know the threat might have become real.

"I don't know why they fixate on me," Lady Jaye said quietly, her tone sad. "They've approached me at other times, I've told you that. I don't mind Xamot as much, he's actually civilized about the whole thing, if you can call it that. Tomax, though," she shuddered. "He sometimes scares me with what he threatens to do. I think if Xamot didn't have control over him, he'd actually go through with it."

"And you haven't told Flint about the times they've tracked you down, when you're not on missions," Scarlett guessed.

"Of course not!" she whispered, appalled. "I'm afraid of what he would do if he knew, and what would happen to him if he did something…" She sighed. "They never come around when he's near, thank goodness. I'm rarely alone anymore when I go out, and they never approach me if I'm with someone else."

"Well, if you can't tell Flint, at least let Courtney and I know, okay?" said Scarlett, concerned. "It's a little creepy they can find you like that."

Lady Jaye nodded. She took a deep breath and looked at Scarlett apologetically. "I guess the drugs are making me sleepy again. Sorry."

"No, hon, you rest, that's what you're supposed to be doing, not worrying about things that are NOT going to happen, okay?" reassured Scarlett gently.

She nodded again, laying back down, closing her eyes. In a few moments, she was in a dreamless sleep.