Hello. Just one announcement, CHAPTER 20:
As you drive down the road all you can think is how big of a mistake this was. Why didn't you stay with Sollux? You have no clue. You have been holding an uneasy silence and plan to keep it that way. You are too afraid to say anything due to pure fear. The car pulls up to the house and your step-dad gets out, slamming the car door with twice the force necissary, and stomps his way to the front door. You slowly get of the car and shuffle your way up to the door. Your step-dad fumbles with his keys and unlocks the door. He opens the door with so much force that it makes you jump.
You walk in after him and close the door softly behind you. You stand there not being able to meet his glare and you can feel yourself shaking.
"Your mother is home. I do not want to see you out of your room." He growls through his gritted teeth.
You don't need telling twice. You rush upstairs and as you turn towards your room, your mom comes out of her room.
"Oh, Karkat!" She exclaims unexpectantly and it makes you jump.
"Uh, hey mom." You say as she throws her arms around you.
"He said you stormed out for no reason and you were yelling and- and- oh, Karkat!" She sobs. She really is being hysterical.
"Mom, I'm fine." You mumble as she breaks from her hug and holds you at arms' length.
"Oh, sweetheart, what happened to your lip?" She asks examining your face.
"Oh, uh," You hesistate as you see your step-dad walk up the stairs which are behind your mom. "I, uh, fell."
"Maybe Karkat should go to the bathroom to clean himself up?" You step-dad says walking up behind your mom.
"Oh, yes, of coarse." Your mom says turning towards your step-dad. "Do you need help, sweetie?" She asks turning back towards you.
"I- I'll be fine." You say as you walk into the bathroom.
You are glad to escape your step-dad and begin to properly clean your face. The warm water relaxes you and you decide to take a quick shower. Once your out you go back to your room and get dressed into jeans and a sweatshirt that you grab out of the many articles of clothing you had stuffed into your back pack earlier. You then have a seat at your desk and rest your head in your arms. You begin to dose...
Your name is Karkat Vantas and you are 5 years old. It is the first day of kindergarten and you couldn't be more nervous. You have a friend that is supposed to be in the same class as you and his name is Gamzee Makara. You walk into the class room and go over to the teacher to greet her.
"Hello." You say in a high-pitched voice you used to have.
"Hi, what's your name?" She asks in a sweet voice as she crouches down so that she could be eye level with you.
"Karkat." You say looking up at her slightly.
"Hi, Karkat. Why don't you go play while I talk with you dad, okay?" She says indicating to some toys and kids who had already arrived.
"Okay." You answer as you begin to walk over to the toys somewhat relunctantly. You didn't much like playing with other kids. They would always ask about your eyes and tease you because you are so small for your age.
"Hi, what's your name? I'm Terezi! What's your favourite colour? Why do your eyes look like that?" Says a hyper-active girl with shoulder length dark hair as she runs up to you.
"I'm Karkat." You mutter.
"Oh cool! I'm Terezi." She repeats. "What's wrong with your eyes?"
"Nothing, they're just yellow." You mumble as she edges closer to you.
"Why are they yellow?" She continues to interrorgate you.
"They just are." You answer looking down.
"Oh okay." She says looking away from you. "Hey Aradia come here!" She calls from across the room.
"Yes?" Another girl with thick, long, curly black hair comes rushing over to you.
"Look at Karkat's eyes!" Terezi exclaims pointing at you.
"That's cool," She says taking a quick glance at you. "But I don't think it's nice to stare at him." She adds in a lower tone.
You feel a little happier that this Aradia girl doesn't stare at you. You only have time to think about this for a second before another kid walks into the classroom. It is not Gamzee, but a boy with brilliant chocolate-brown eyes and short brown hair. He doesn't seem much taller than you. You look at him for a moment then a girl who had been in the classroom when you walked in runs toward him.
"Hi, Taaaaaaaavroooooooos!" She calls waving at him. She too has black hair like Aradia, but hers seems to be a tangled mess.
"Oh, uh, hi, uh V-vriska. Uh, n-nice to, uh see you in my, uh class." He stutters out.
"Tavros, I saw this kid with the wierdest eyes! You gotta come and see him." She says tugging the boy by his arm. You know she means you, so you look away.
"Oh, uh, okay." He says following her.
"Hey kid, what's your name?" She asks looking down at you.
"Karkat." You respond looking up at both of them.
"See? Look they're yellow!" She shrieks looking at the Tavros.
"Oh, uh y-yeah. Nice t-to, uh, meet y-you. I'm, uh, T-tavros." He says looking away from you.
"Oh yeah I'm Vriska." The girl says. "So what's up with your eyes?"
"N-nothing! They're just like this." You say a bit hurt. Is this what is going to happen all day?
Just as you say that another two kids walk in. They are both boys and one has bright blonde hair and the other nearly black hair. The one with blonde hair is wearing sun-glasses so dark you can't see his eyes. The other boy is wearing regular glasses and you can see his shocking green eyes. They are led in by a man with odd spikey sun-glasses that also make you unable to see what colour his eyes are and a man with simular glasses to those of the dark haired boy.
"Why don't you two go play?" The one with the spikey sun-glasses says to the two boys.
"Okay, bro." The blonde boy says.
The two boys walk over to the the building blocks and begin to play together. Just Vriska opens her mouth to say something, Gamzee finally walks in.
"Hey, Karkat." He shouts as he runs over to you. That's weird, he normally calls you 'Karbro.' "Karkat!" He shouts again. "Karkat! Karkat!"
"Karat, wake up." Someone yells. You jump up as they gently nudge your arm.
"Oh, hey mom. What's wrong?" You ask calming down a bit.
"Dinner's almost ready and you have a friend at the front door." She says with a warm smile.
"Oh, yeah. Okay thanks." You say as you walk out of your room.
You walk down the stairs and see Sollux standing on the porch through the screen door. You rush forward and and open the door so you can talk to him.
"KK, thank god!" He says looking as though he resisting the urge to throw his arms around you.
"Oh, fuck. I forgot to fucking tell you I got my phone fucking taken away from me." You say as if you read his mind.
"Yeah I tekthted you like twenty timeth." He says slightly annoyed. "Hey, uh," He continues dropping his voice some, "Can we like go for a walk or thomething? I really need to talk to you."
"Yeah sure wait one sec." You reply. "Hey, Mom? I'm going out! I'll be back in a little bit!" You call over your shoulder.
"Fine but your dinner will be cold!" She yells in response.
You step out of the house and shut the door behind you. As the two of you begin to walk down the sidewalk, you resist the urge to grab his hand.
After a moment or two of silence, Sollux finally blurts out, "KK, what the hell ith wrong with you?"
You are taken aback by this, but, as if you had run into a wall, everything from the past two days hits you.
"I don't know." You mumble.
"Why did you go with him? He could have killed you." He says stopping, looking down at you.
You are barley able to bring yourself to look up at him. You can see tears rolling down his cheeks.
"I don't I have anywhere else to go." You say looking back down at the ground, tears beginning in you eyes as well.
"KK, that'th not true!" He says bending down so he can be eye level with you.
"Yeah well where else to I have to go?" You say looking up at him.
"Well, with me I guth." He says quietly, staring at his feet.
"What?" You say a bit confused. Well you should have seen that one coming. How cliche of you not to.
"Yeah, it'th a thtupid idea. Forget I thaid anything." He says disappointed standing straight. He stops for a moment shifting uncomfertably on his feet. "I don't know if you want to, but we've gotta talk about Eridan."
"I don't want to have anything to do with that fuckass!" You shout.
"I know you don't, but here me out when I say thith." He says qiuckly. "Eridan may theem like a total perve, and don't get me wrong he ith, but he ith altho really thcrewed up. I know you never want to thee him again, but he ithn't dangerouth unleth you are alone with him."
You scoff at this. "What about when we went to his house and he tried to rape me then, too!" You yell.
"But I wath with you and nothing happened." He says calmly. "He wouldn't really had tried anything if you were with thomeone yethterday."
"Yeah you think I don't know that now? I get it! It was all my fucking fault I was almost fucking raped just like eveything else being my fault! I am just a pointless being!" You rant.
"KK, you're not pointleth. I didn't mean it like that! KK, wait! Where you going?" He calls after you.
"Nowhere!" You shout over your shoulder.
"KK!" He yells catching up to you.
"Leave me alone!" You snap turning around.
"KK, I'm thorry. I didn't mean it." He says. "I just worry about you."
"Yeah right!" You say childishly as you turn back around and head down the sidewalk, back to your house.
"KK, wait!" You hear Sollux call after you.
"Go away!" You yell.
You walk back inside your house and slam the front door.
"Karkat, you alright?" Your mom says coming out of the kitchen.
"Yeah, everything's fine." You say quickly as you begin to climb the stairs.
"Well dinner's ready." She says gesturing to the kitchen.
"Not hungry." You mutter sprinting up the last of the stairs.
You can hear your mom sigh. It's gonna be a long night. You think as you look over to where your laptop is supposed to be. You lie back on your bed and stare up at the ceiling, thinking about how maybe you should have heard Sollux through. It doesn't matter now, but yet, you can't help but think of that lispy fuckass...