ELI POV

I couldn't believe it! Why did Clare walk away? I could never blame her for this! Yet I couldn't make myself go after her, I was still trying to process the information. Why would my mom do such a thing? Why would Clare's dad do something so… horrible. And Clare blames herself. I need to talk to her, after I talk to my family. As I walked home, I saw my mom looking flustered in the kitchen mumbling something to herself, it killed me inside knowing what she is doing to our family.
"Mom, how could you sleep with Clare's dad?" she jumped when she realized I was in the house.
"Oh what are you talking about? What has Clare told you?" I hope she doesn't try to tell me that Clare was lying, Clare doesn't lie.
"No! Don't try to tell me that you weren't doing that, why in the world would Clare make that up? I found her crying her eyes out mom! She was definitely serious, but why would you do this to me, to our family, to Clare's family? Can't you let her catch a break? Let her relax and enjoy life, then she has to have even more problems!"
I was cut off by my cell phone ringing.
"Hello, Clare?"
"No, this is Clare's mom, Clare is in the hospital, something is definitely wrong with her but she won't talk to anyone, do you have any idea what this is about, I am sooooo scared right now for her! Please you have to come try to help!"
"I am on my way" as I hung up my phone I looked over at my mom
"She is in the hospital, do you see what you did?"
"Eli, I am so sorry-"
"Don't try to pull that on me, you are just sorry that you got caught! Just leave me alone, I have to go!"

THE HOSPITAL*
CLARE POV

"Clare, honey, Eli is on his way, okay?"I couldn't comprehend why he was coming, what happened? So I had to speak for the first time in 2 days
"NO, he isn't coming! Don't lie to me?" I yelled at her in disgust why would she try to tell me that? Didn't she know that he was all I could ever want right now? Why would she lie to me like this.
"I have to go to the bathroom" I ran to the bathroom, and grabbed the same pocket knife out of my pocket.
"This is for the lies, which is all my life is now, just lies."
I cut another line next to my first one, just a little deeper. It felt good. I couldn't help myself, I just let it bleed, I let it bleed until the bathroom door busted open and some man was lifting me out of the bathroom and to the hospital bed, applying gauze and other things to my cut I tried to stop him but it was useless.
"Why, why can't you just let it bleed! Just let it!" no one would listen to me, my mom sat in the corner and cried. I was still in shock until I saw Eli run through the hospital doors into my room I couldn't help myself. I just started crying, I couldn't help myself. It all came back to me, the fact that he did let me walk away, the fact that we didn't see each other graduate, all of my memories, I had finally realized were only fantasies. And fantasies don't come true. I had to be imagining Eli's arms around me, it couldn't be real. It couldn't be. I fell into a sleep enjoying my realistic fantasies. When I woke up, I knew that my head was going hay wire.
"Eli," was all I said because I saw him next to me looking so real. His eyes were such a beautiful green, his lips slightly parted ready to talk, his face red, and blotchy. I couldn't help but wrap my arms around this angel, this magnificent fantasy.
"Eli, you feel the same in real life" I told my dream version.
"Clare, what are you talking about?" he looked confused.
"Okay Eli, since this is my dream, we should go home, I don't want to spend this whole dream in the hospital, it's not exactly my ideal place."
Clare, you aren't dreaming." I was so confused then I looked around and saw the doctors and my mom still crying.
"Then w-why are you here? What do you want?" he looked like I just slapped him.
"Why wouldn't I be here Clare, you are hurting yourself. Clare you need to stop, everything will be fine Clare, it wasn't your fault" that's when my mom came in.
"What isn't your fault honey?" I started hyperventilating.
"Clare! You didn't tell her, yet did you?" I shook my head no.
"What didn't anyone tell me?"

ELI POV
Clare was so messed up, she had been hurting herself, and her mom was still in the dark about her dad's affair. Why was Clare's life so complicated, she was forced to grow up way too fast, you could tell she never really had the happiest time growing up, then her family pulls this crap, and she can't handle it anymore. I wonder when she started cutting herself. I wonder when she started feeling so depressed that she couldn't talk to me about it. I wonder…

AT HOME THE NEXT DAY*
CLARE POV

Eli didn't question me, after we told my mom what happened she just left. When I came home all her stuff was gone, she just up and left. I was so great full and shocked that Eli was still here, he didn't leave my side for one minute. Once we got upstairs to my room we just were just laying on the bed, in the silence.
"Why did you do it?" Eli was starting to ask me. I couldn't lie to him, not after he stayed with me.
"I honestly don't know, I just did it." A tear shed down my cheek.
"Was it because of your dad?"
"No"
"then why?" I knew I had to tell him all of the story, all of it.
"I thought that, after I told you what happened you wouldn't want to see me anymore, and I couldn't be happy without you, you are the only thing I have." He looked me in my eyes,
"Clare I could never leave you unless you forced me too, and even then it would be hard to prove to me you really wanted me gone."
"Eli, I would never want you gone, it's just best that you are gone." He looked confused,
"What are you talking about?"
"Eli, you had a perfect family, then when I came along it started to fall apart, I am no good for you, and we just have to admit that to ourselves."
"Clare, this has nothing to do with me or you. Your dad and my mom would have slept together even if we never met, even if I hated you, which btw could never happen." I smiled at him.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, positive, now go get your PJ's on we are having an official sleep over." I sighed I walked up to my dresser and opened my top drawer, before grabbing my shorts I saw an envelope, sitting there, with my name across the front

CLARE

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