Cam rolled over and hit the snooze button on his alarm clock when a knock was coming from the door.
"Hey Cam, it's me can I come in?" Mick asked in a quite tone.
Cam sat up. "Sure."
The door slowly opened and Mick walked over to the edge of his brother's bed and took a seat. For a moment neither of them said a word.
"Where you really going to do it?" Mick asked not being able to make eye contact.
"Do what?" Cam asked.
"Mom told me after uh...dinner the other night."
Cam stayed silent.
"Where you?"
Cam slowly nodded.
"Why?" Mick asked raising his voice a bit. "Your hockey career Cam! You could've gone so many places and you were willing to throw it all alway?!"
Cam swallowed but nodded at the same time.
"Why would you do that to yourself?!"
"Because I was sad." Cam said in a confident tone.
"And you wanted to die because you were sad?"
Cam nodded.
"Mick! Time for school let's go!" Mrs. Saunders yelled from downstairs.
"Coming!" Mick replied.
Before leaving both brothers looked at one another but again, neither of them said a word.
After his brother left Cam looked at his arm. He counted the lines and wondered when they would go away. If they were to go away. He looked at his T.V. that still had the crack in it from the remote. He looked at the posters that were torn down. He looked out his window and let out a large sigh.
He made his way down the stairs and and grabbed a piece of paper and a pen.
Went for a walk. Be back soon. I have my cell. - Cam
He put the cap back on the pen and placed in on the kitchen counter. He grabbed a sweatshirt, a grey one, and made his way out the door.
He walked out to his front lawn and it began to rain but he didn't care. He walked around his neighborhood for a bit and let his mind go free...
I still can't believe that my mom actually knows and Mick...god...and Degrassi knows and M...Maya... All Degrassi caused was problems. It was like I was screaming and no one could here. But I did feel ashamed though...Maya was so important to me that now...without her... I feel like nothing. I know no one will ever understand how much it hurts. I felt hopeless and like nothing could save me from this depression...But now it's all over. But a part of me almost wishes I could have all that bad stuff back, so I could have the good...being with Maya. But she probably moved on and now I have too. I gotta take my broken wings and learn to fly again. I gotta get back on my feet. Even if it's rough I know I've gotten this far and I can't go back now.