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I wonder how it feels if I am dead...
Would I become a spirit wandering around?
Seeing them but me never being seen?
Would it be lonely?
With perhaps the fact that kissing her would become different?
Things wouldn't certainly be the same.
Maybe I would come to a different world and forget about everything else.
No, I wouldn't want that.
What if I would just vanish.
I cannot imagine it.
It just... feel blank if things were to happen that way.
Well, I hope I wouldn't rise from the dead.
I'd rather die than kill.
I'm certain about that.
I guess I want to die with a positive thought.
But I know things are just negative.
Will I really die this way?
Will everything else become an echo?
My promises of a happy life with her...
I think it's a little stupid.
I am a Shinigami.
But I am afraid of dying.
It's the feeling of nothingness.
Would I hear the angels talking?
Would I be a dead man walking?
I know my thoughts will stop running soon.
But yet again...
I'm bedridden, because of an illness.
While the others are fighting.